So long and Goodnight

We are now married and when I finally have time to sit down and type, even send you all pictures I will. Till then we are doing wonderful and i'll keep you posted.

I get married tomorrow.
How fucked up is that?!








Oh everything is great i'm just nervous as fuck.

I probably should pay my credit card company.. I want some shirts from threadless again.





Fuck being broke sucks. Oh well, i'm coming into money this week and then I get a nice loaded paycheck after that. I do have to ask my dad to pay the credit card company and then i'll pay him back. I'm good for it when I get the cash in 2 weeks.


Oh and my next tattoo, will be a pretty one. On the bottom portion of my back going up or on my wrist trailing up my arm.


I want to do something with my journal. I don't know. I hate how it looks right now.

Just a word of warning, if I don't know you and you don't know me, DON'T IM ME. I don't care to hold a conversation with you now or at any point in my life. This doesn't include those who are added. Just random people messaging me asking me if I know other people. They saw my livejournal and decided to bug me.




So anyways, things are going good tomorrow is my last day of this work shit for almost 2 weeks. Fuck, that will be extreamly nice. Friday is my wedding and I am growing more and more nervous as the days grow closer.

My feet are killing me this 6 days straight is not for me. I've cut 2 shifts in half and then got rid of one. Otherwise i'd be dead by now. I'm close to it. Wednesday my future sister in-law is coming from Grand Rapids with my three future neices. This is so weird to say.

I'm tired so i'm going to bed. I suck at updating now I know. There is no need to remind me. Fuck going to bed right now, I shall watch Six Feet Under on on demand.

They're ending Six Feet Under! What the fuck am I going to do without my favorite show? I shall start buying it on Season disks. I am sad and esp. how they're doing it.








Don't mind me its the pregnancy hormones kicking in but I love that show!

I am lazy and really want to do nothing. Unfortunatly I can't just not do anything. I think tomorrow instead we're going to go to Kensington to look at the site and plan things. I have to be at work at 4 and don't want to move my ass until then.

I'm anxious to feel Gage kick but I havn't yet. The 24th we have to go back to Ann Arbor and have another ultrasound done so they can get a few more pictures.

Eh this was pointless.

I'm tired and i'm strung out. Things are good but then again they arn't. We're currently stuck in the front room so that means no privacy at all. Lovely huh? We're making due but we want to be downstairs now. I have to go to work tomorrow and I already know that I won't accumulate much sleep. You see, Jasons nieces, correction; our nieces are here and they're hyper and happy. Don't get me wrong there is nothing bad about that at all but when you have to get up early and they're still up when you're trying to sleep, is hard. I am working a full day tomorrow. Whoppie fucking doo. I am no longer happy at my job nor am I amused anymore. After Gage is born i'm quitting my job. I'll put my 2 weeks in so if I have to suck it up and go back, I will. But I can't take it there. It's the same thing, nothing new or interesting.

The next two weeks i'll hardly have a life and in 2 weeks I Get married. Up unitl that point? I'm working non stop with only 2 days off. So if any of you do happen to talk to me excuse my rudeness. I will be lacking any sort of sleep. Fuck, this blows.

Well I am going to head off and get some much deserved and much needed sleep. But I did want to leave you all with one thing. A picture of my baby boy. Sorry for the blurryness it's a new scanner/printer and i'm still trying to figure it out. We all are.


Gage Jacob

I am alive everyone. Don't worry. We're back in brighton and are almost out of the apartment. Things with the wedding are hectic but getting done and the baby is perfectly fine. We heard the heartbeat and saw it for the first time the other day. Thursday we go out to Ann Arbor for a better ultrasound and hopefully we'll know what it is by then. Other than that, nothing is really new except for those three things. If you want to talk or hang out you know my number. Call me.


And this entry was for Karey because she's the only one who wanted to know, HA.

♥

I suppose I should update and catch you all up on what's going on.

I finally got my insurance so that is all settled and that stress has been lifted. Unfortunatly my first doctors appointment isnt until July 20th. By that time we should be able to tell the sex of the baby. I am finally past the nausea stage and slowly able to eat a little more at a time but its still hard. I get full fast. Today I had to go to U of M Health Care to fill out some paperwork for my doctor and then I had to get lab tests. They took 6 viles of blood. The lady was so fucking quick you'd swear she was a freakin' vampire.

I have a sunburn right now. I actually won't complain about this because I need to tan. I havn't burned in years but then again I have been pale for a few years now. Oh well. Hopefully I can get some more color before the 8th. Wow my big brother is getting married next week. I know Jessica has been saying that it seems like it flew by so fast, I do have to agree with her. I remember when my brother told us he was proposing. And now it's next week. Nervous Jessica? Haha, I can only bet you are. Jasons outfit is together, mine is somewhat together. I'll be ready to go by then.

I work tomorrow (3-10) gag and then I have friday off. Wow I have a payday off and guess what, i'll be broke again. Fucking rent. I can't wait to leave. Other bills need to be cancelled. Bleh I can't wait to leave here. Anyways, I have Friday off and then Saturday I work 930-515. Then that Sunday (the 3rd) till the following Sunday (the 10th) I took off just for a vacation. Then I have Monday the 11th off and I guess that Tuesday also. Then that Wednesday I don't cashier I start training at starbucks. Finally! Haha i'm nervous. Although i'm only learning the register so I don't have to move around and be on my feet a lot when I get bigger with the baby. So things shall be good. I'll get a nifty little stool. Horrah for being pregnant. Haha.

Well, I am off to bed. Thats all the little updates I have for now. I'll post more when I get the chance. Goodnight everyone.

I need a life, sadly I really do.

I have to close tonight at work. I am dreading even entering Brighton today because once I do, I can't turn back. I should just call in sick now. Fuck it, i'll be out by 10 tonight due to Jasons wonderful mother is also closing so therefore I get out on time because nobody wants to piss her off. THANK FUCKING GOD! I hate my job with a passion and I don't think I can emphisize passion anymore. Bryan leaves monday for the Farmington store so there goes the only lead I like. The rest as I have said before are complete douches. I don't really like anyone I work with either, given a few people who hardly work the hours I work. Kristyns fun to work with but when isn't she? Haha.

I can't wait until January because i'll get 6 weeks off and then I'm practically quitting my job. I'm not really quitting but i'm going part time no more than 15-20 hours a week and only like 3 days a week. By January I'll have more important things to worry about than my job. My family.

I'm tired and i'm going to do nothing until I absolutly have to leave, well i'll shower but thats about it. Bye

We still have the damn internet what the fuck. Ill deal with this later.

Yesterday was one of my days off and we got a lot of shit accomplished. Then we hung out at his parents. Nothing real big. After that we went looking at bathing suits because his parents opened the pool and I need a new one. I honestly don't know where my last one went. We also bought 3 of our favorite movies: Joe VS. The Volcano, American Psycho Special 2 disk addition, Uncut and then we got The Big Lebowski. It's wednesdays nothing is good on tv on wednesday.

Well back out to brighton we go. I believe we're taking both dogs but that I am not sure on. Bye

Hey everyone sometime tomorrow we will be cutting our internet off so I won't be able to update for awhile. It could possibly be 2 or more months. Sorry if you wish to remove me then I guess do so. This isn't by choice but we are cutting out bills that arnt really necessary right now. And this is one. If any of you want to talk to me feel free to call my cellphone 517 404 0690. I'll try and update when I get the chance. Talk to you later.

Marisa

So things are pretty good. Stress seems to be going down little at a time but I know it will never fully go away until we are out of this hell hole. We talked to the people in the main office today it's going to cost us almost 1600 to move out and thats including paying for a place we might not be living in at the time. So over 2000. Ah fuck I hate this place.

Tomorrow and Friday are easy shifts. 4 hours each, thank god. I hate my job, with an absolute passion. My bosses are idiots with the exception of Brian. The rest I don't like. Oh and i'm never staying later than schedualed. Not after last night, there is no fucking way.

I'm sick and hopefully it will be gone soon. I hate being sick. And no it's not because of the pregnancy, I can tell the differences between the two sicknesses. I'll be fine, i've been taking it easy and just lounging in my bed, my lovely uncomfy bed.

Saturday we're going to my cousin Emily's graduation party. I'm not sure how long we're staying or even how to get there haha. But we're going to go for a few.

I'm also thinking about getting a new tattoo. I have checked into it, I can do this. I want another one so i'm going to sit down and think of what. Plus i'm supposed to have a free one coming to me! Talk to your mom Jenni! Haha, I lost the septum ring and I get a free tattoo. But I am going to pay for the next one I get.

So now I am going to go to sleep. Goodnight.

Things are pretty decent. My credit card is up my ass, again. Looks like I'll be giving daddy a call. I feel bad but what can I do? Oh well.

I'm finishing watching Super Troopers and then going to bed, Adios fuckers.

Kaitlyn the little jew girl hunglikenoutlaw tagged me. Thanks Durrty.

Pick 6 songs and 4 people that you want to do this and post it !
my six songs of the moment

• My Hero - Foo Fighters
  
• One man army - Our lady peace
  
• No Quater - Led Zeppelin
  
• Catholic school girls - Frank Zappa
  
• Kashmir - Led Zeppelin
  
• Some will seek forgiveness, others will escape - Underoath
  

And I tag these 4 people

hockeygirl772 kyle
adhesiveheart melanie
itscalled4ever jenni
sanguineheart ronnie


Oh, and no tag backs. Ha.

I know that I should be happy. But I'm not. I miss a lot from when I was younger. From when I had people to talk too. Now I feel like there is nothing left. I feel alone, I am sad.


I feel like I have no one to talk too, confide in. I know I have Jason (and don't get me wrong, I love him to death!) but sometimse I just feel this need to talk to someone else. I have no real friends aside from Jenni and I rarely even talk to her. I honestly can't stand this anymore. I'm tired of this. Why must it be like this? I know growing up is a big part of life and I know friends come and go, but what happened to those who you made pacts with saying "you'll be friends forever"? Was it just a childish dream?

I believe that it may be and that I was destined for this. I just want someone to hang out with every once and awhile. I want someone to call me and be like "hey, lets go here or there". It would just be nice to have someone call and acknolwedge my existance aside from family. It just makes me feel like, no one.

I am happy in one aspect but completely lonely in another. It makes no sense what-so-ever. It's frustrating. I don't want pity. I just want something to do.



It's lonely sometimes and not having anyone to really confide in, hurts.