Out of the dusk a shadow,
Then, a spark;
Out of the cloud a silence,
Then, a lark;
Out of the heart a rapture,
Then, a pain;
Out of the dead, cold ashes,
Life again.
I found this in my fortune cookie, and it spoke to me in more ways than one.
So, I'm starting something. This entry is a step forward, to move on from the hurt my heart continuously holds on to from the past several years. I emptied out my contact lists and buddy lists from those who don't speak to me and/or obviously decided to block me.
I have trouble trusting people; I'm weary of those who hurt me. And, for that, this is going public because I have no concern over who sees it! Hate me, like me -- it's who I am!
I'm an emotional person; I'm sensitive, I'm intuitive, I'm
me. I give everything for my friends, and friendship means a lot to me.
If when going through a hard time, you just threw in the towel, thank you, because that's not the kind of friend I want in my life.I'll be in England in three weeks, and this is a more than perfect time for this new perspective. Example: I was going to try and get an extra autograph of David Anders for one of these very people I speak of. Still.
All part of the learning experience. You live, you love, you get hurt, and you learn to live again twice as much from it.