melissa_hughes_: TM Challenge: What People Are Thinking

Melissa Hughes (

melissa_hughes_) wrote,
@ 2006-03-30 11:54:00

Current mood:	Tardy
Current music:	"Massachusetts" Bee Gees
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TM Challenge: What People Are Thinking
CURRENT TOPIC: At times, lots of people never tell us what they are really thinking. Who is the one person that you would really like to know what they are thinking (as far as how they feel about you), and why?

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I used to always wish I could read minds. Can you imagine how fun that would be? You'd like, know, but the other person wouldn't know that you know. And they'd be so freaked out because you'd be able to, well whatever. Back to the topic. I'm sure everyone reading this knows who I'm going to talk about, so I'm not even going to say his name.

For a long time I wanted to know everything he was thinking, wondered how he felt about me, wondered if he knew how I felt about him. At first I assumed that if he did think about me, it was just some sicko pervy thought that I'd rather not know. But then . . . There are still a lot of things I wish I knew, but I don't think he always knows or understands what he's thinking. It's like, even if I could read his mind I'd probably still be completely confused. (You know, he probably thinks in that word salad language, which would explain why he started talking that way. Hmm. Hopefully Denny is taking good care of him)

But anyway, the other day after my trial I stopped wondering. It was like I suddenly just knew. When I looked at him and asked him to celebrate with me, I knew he wouldn't, that he couldn't. And the weird thing is I completely completely understood why he wouldn't or couldn't, and I'm not hurt by it at all - for some reason I actually feel complimented - but it does make me sad for him, in ways I can't explain. I guess the reason a lot of people don't say what they are thinking is because sometimes it is impossible to verbalize. I couldn't explain what exactly happened after the trial to an outsider, but I just know that when he asked me to stop, but then didn't stop me everything suddenly made sense. There are certain things and certain feelings which aren't meant to be put into words. They can't be. I guess that's why I kissed him. I knew he would totally get it, and then neither of us would have to explain anything or discuss it further. Plus, I knew a kiss was all I was going to get.

My grandfather would've liked him.

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	alan_shore 2006-03-30 10:43 pm UTC (link)
	I suppose to say anything else would only undermine everything you've written, but as regards the word salad, I'm confident I've made a full recovery. It was...one of those things. ooc: This was wonderful. And I don't say that because it was all about Alan ;) (Reply to this)(Thread)

melissa_hughes_
2006-03-31 01:17 pm UTC (link)

Hi Alan. Oh, thank god. It was . . . weird, you talking that way. (assuming I heard it at some point during the day :-). I'm glad you're better. Oh, and Alan? Feel free to undermine. I value your opinion and your take on things. Anyway, I was going to tell you, I promise to stop getting arrested from now on. Seriously, you won't have to bail me out again, I think I've gotten it out of my system.

ooc: Thank you so much!

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	alan_shore 2006-04-03 06:37 pm UTC (link)
	smiles I'm relieved to hear it. Admirable as your motives were, I have plenty of other friends who've been waiting patiently for their chance to narrowly evade incarceration. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	melissa_hughes_ 2006-04-04 08:02 pm UTC (link)
	pauses to enjoy the way he said 'admirable' Other friends? Anyone I should be jealous of? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	alan_shore 2006-04-04 08:48 pm UTC (link)
	I don't think any of them occupy particularly enviable positions. Other than Lizzie, of course. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	melissa_hughes_ 2006-04-04 11:52 pm UTC (link)
	Okayyy Alan. I really don't need the image of Lizzie, in any position. ~~But don't worry. I recognize that your comment was just a defense mechanism.~~ (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	alan_shore 2006-04-05 01:42 am UTC (link)
	Very well. In accordance with your wishes, I'll retain it for my own use. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	melissa_hughes_ 2006-04-05 07:28 pm UTC (link)
	Whatever works for you. fluffs ponytail Hey, I know. Maybe let's go back to discussing my admirable motives? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	alan_shore 2006-04-05 10:16 pm UTC (link)
	watches, amused There are people who would be mortally offended to hear me apply that word to them. It's rare, in a law firm, to meet someone with principles and rarer still to encounter someone willing to risk jail for the sake of those principles. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	melissa_hughes_ 2006-04-06 05:36 pm UTC (link)
	can't hide her big smile Thank you so much! Well, it's not that rare. I mean, there's you. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	alan_shore 2006-04-06 09:50 pm UTC (link)
	laughs I demand you take that back. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	melissa_hughes_ 2006-04-07 02:10 am UTC (link)
	thoughtfully, but slightly perplexed So . . . you're one of those people who would be mortally offended . . . you know, a simple 'thank you' is all you need to say. I mean, we both know it's true. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	alan_shore 2006-04-07 02:27 am UTC (link)
	considers a long moment and concludes there's no point in denying it Thank you. (Reply to this)(Parent)

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