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[Aug. 15th, 2009|03:35 am] |
As some of you know, things at home have been hard. Aleister and I have been pretty miserable...
Well, tonight we broke up.
WE ARE OK.
We are going to continue to live under the same roof.
We are going to continue to raise our son.
We are going to continue to be best friends.
We love eachother.
But we both checked out of this relationship in one way or another a while ago. We both buried the ugly truth deep. We both lied to ourselves and to eachother because we were fearful of the truth. We paid for our lies with gallons of tears and hours of fighting. We both feel broken...
Beyond the mutual feelings of hurt and loss and heartbreak is another mutual feeling stronger than all of those things combined -
the staggering amount of love we both have for Salem. The kind of love that makes us strong, that makes us able to make this really hard choice knowing that we are still his parents and that we will do right by him.
Aleister and I are going to be ok. For me, in a big way, this awful difficult choice has brought with it a sense of relief.
In other ways, if feel like a failure a bad mom and a horrible partner. These things will pass.
For now, I need some support. I need some patience. I need to get out of this house and breathe a little.
I know things will be ok. I know we are making the right choice for us. Still, I can't keep the tears away. I need a shoulder to cry on.
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| WTF Crayola |
[Feb. 26th, 2009|06:59 pm] |
Today I got a giant box of crayons to go with my new dinosaur coloring book. I opened said giant box of crayons and pulled them out to look at all the color names (like you do), and WTF Crayola? Outer Space? Manatee? Timberwolf? Inchworm? Fuzzy Wuzzy? Bittersweet? Tumbleweed? BEAVER? They have named a color beaver.
And the crayon sharpener that came with the box looks like a dildo.
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| Goodbye again |
[Feb. 24th, 2009|01:51 am] |
I give up one bad habit and inherit another....fucking story of my life.
I have been smoke free for 5 days and I hate it. I quit(3rd try) because I have to. Because I refuse to revolve my life around that again. Because I have a son to revolve my life around instead and he is much cooler.
Not smoking is really hard for me (and all other smokers)
It's my 10 min of quiet. It's my occasional lift. It makes wine taste better. And coffee taste better. I like it.
I will probably like it until it gives me cancer and kills me. But I don't like it more than I like my son.
So, instead of spending my quiet time on the balcony with a glass of wine my ipod and a clove, I've been spending my quite time collecting art off of www.ffffound.com with my new laptop.
I gave up cigarettes for a portable computer. I wonder which is more addicting.
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| Time travel |
[Jan. 1st, 2009|02:14 am] |
I hope everyone a year of peace and fulfillment.
I hope everyone a chance to make new mistakes and discover new joys.
I hope everyone a happy new year! |
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[Dec. 8th, 2008|10:55 am] |
| Which Tarot Card are you? Your Result: The High Priestess Like electricity, magickal energy is pure potential. It does nothing on its own but, when channeled through an intention, it can make miracles happen. You are unlimited possibility. Between the pillars of light and darkness, you abide in dynamic equilibrium, waiting to be set into motion. | | The Star | | | The Moon | | | The Empress | | | The Magician | | | Strength | | | The Fool | | | The Sun | | | The Lovers | | | The Tower | | Which Tarot Card are you?
Quiz Created on GoToQuiz |
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| Remember remember the 5th of November |
[Nov. 5th, 2008|09:24 am] |
No.
We will not accept this. We will change it back. We know what equal rights means. We know that being equal does not mean that one person has more rights than another. We know this is wrong. We will change it back. |
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| Iain (Aleister) is doing a signing with Steve Niles author of 30 Days of Night |
[Oct. 24th, 2008|11:56 am] |
Come see us!!!!
10th Anniver-Scary party at Metropolis Comics in Bellflower,Ca.
Metropolis Comics Bellflower
16509 Bellflower Blvd.
Bellflower,Ca. 90706
(near the corner of Bellflower and Oak)
Saturday Oct 25th 4pm - 7pm
Steve Niles - 30 Days of Night, Criminal Macabre
Aleister Gilgrim - Cemeterians
Tommy Kovac - Wonderland, Autumn |
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| For Iain's B-Day |
[Aug. 28th, 2008|08:50 pm] |
All he wants is a wacom. He won't stop bugging me about it.
Please, if you were going to get him anything, give a few bucks towards this.
There is a donate button on the top right -hand side of this page
http://www.normalityrestored.com/ |
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| Iain needs a new job! (copied from his lj) |
[Aug. 5th, 2008|09:14 pm] |
Nothing has happened to spurn this exactly, just general problems that have persisted for too long and I think a change of gear and change of pace is in order - So, for anyone who has any leads, I am now officially in the market for a new gig. Yes, I am currently with the same vid-game-company, and No, I haven't been let-go or laid off or anything. But let's just say that it's no longer worth it to continue trying to polish the turd that is the current occupation.
For anyone who knows any good gigs that might be available I can do, and am happy to do, and am currently employed, doing the following:
- Art
- Design
- Business Management
- Marketing/Advertising Brand Management and Directing
I'm currently working at the exec Lv if this helps (maybe not) so entry Lv, unless there's a really good incentive probably won't work - I gots a kid to feed ^__^).
I know that those are a bit broad, so is what I end up doing in my current position. So if anyone know of any openings, particularly in the SoCA (Orange County, LA) area whether or not it's in the vid-game industry please pass it on.
thanks everyone! ^__^ |
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| me. now. |
[Aug. 4th, 2008|01:35 am] |
tired
salty
red
blissful
you?
not like that you perv |
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| waaa my penis is small |
[Jul. 1st, 2008|02:26 pm] |
Wow. I thought I was left out of the loop while I was pregnant.
I knew that my life would branch off... it HAS too, I just didn't think it was happen so soon. Or like this. |
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| Out of the house! |
[May. 14th, 2008|12:54 am] |
I'm going to Perv this week! Iain will be staying home so I can go do some dancing!
Please if you have the time, go. I'd really love to see you. |
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| Alice! Damnit!!!! |
[May. 1st, 2008|07:22 pm] |
What I missed today!!!!!!!! Anyone one know anyone that went?
Curiousing and Curiouser:
Alice in Wonderland from the Hindu Perspective
By Swami Atmavidyananda (William Scott)
Thursday, May 1st at 6:30pm
Public Policy Room 1246
For more information:
urc@ucla.edu
(310) 208-5055
F: (310) 208-7686
Swami Atmavidyananda (also known as William Scott) is a Swami of the Ramakrishna Order of India. He joined the order in 1978 and took final vows 12 years later.
He attended Occidental College where he graduated Magna Cum Laude with a BA in Mathematics. He later attended Stanford University where he earned his MA degree in Education.
Currently he is the treasurer of the Vedanta Society of Southern California. He also serves as the organist-choir director- composer. In addition to being the treasurer, the general office manager, and a lecturer for the Vedanta Society of Southern California, he gives talks and conducts classes on The Complete Works of Swami Vivekananda, and has both lectured and organized seminars about the relationship of various subjects to Vedanta Philosophy.
He has spoken for many classes, conferences and interfaith panels at Yale University, Occidental College, USC, UCLA, California State University, Long Beach, the Church of St. Thomas Lancaster, Gay and Lesbian center. He was also a speaker in Amidhiya Movement in Islam Founders Day at Chino, The Regional Religion Communicators Conference at Los Angeles, AHIMSA's conference on Spiritual Music and Sound at Berkeley and the Occidental College World Sacred Music Festival. Finally, he was the Baccalaureate speaker at Occidental College in 2006.
He is co-director of the Hindu Students Organization at USC and serves as president of the University Religious Conference at UCLA.
Sponsored by
The University Religious Conference at UCLA |
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