current mood: blank
current song: Tiger Lou - You can't say no to me
In addition to my life so far, I now have the experience of the following:
1. Telling a guy exactly how I feel about him.
2. Being honestly dumped by said guy.
3. Having to deal with the aftermath, aka awkward conversation.
For the first time in my life, the guy in question was truly sorry about hurting me, and managed to say all the right things. I mean ALL the right things. I've never been so moved by someone's concern for me.
Another unexpected thing: this is the most confident guy I know. And now for the first time I've seen him not knowing how to handle a situation. I've never felt a guy truly care for me like that.
If I'm lucky, I may soon know the feeling of rebuilding a friendship with this guy. We've decided to try at least.
Also, I've never been so darn proud of myself. This has been one of the most intense months of my life.