| im in korea and im still alive |
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Posted on April 23, 2009 @ 9:03 pm
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in korea again... for 3months already.
i came back here a.s.a fuckin p., cause my darling was waiting for me... we spend a beautiful month living together, and then i had to move out cause the school's started and his semester's ended (he's told the parents he *had* to stay in the dorm studying for english exam... hahaha). for the next month still we continued dating like crazy, causing me to spend shitloads of money (this time still im the rich one hehe... i had a job and he didnt, and jobs here pay well, at least the english teaching ones). nevertheless it was a great time... lotsa fun, looots. dates were nice too, but i must say more than that i just enjoyed normal living together, long walks, listening to music and watching movies..sleeping together is great too, i love to cuddle to my darling :3
all the pictures are on facebook... speaking of which, if anyone has facebook and i still don't have you there, please add me there or let me know how to find you - i use the bakatenko at gmail adress there. you can see my darling there, and sunrise above himalayas. one of the most amazing views i've seen, but unfortunately airplanes always have dirty windows and i even didnt have any camera, had to use cellphones.. though mine have 4 and 5 megapixels so's okay :P
( and now my baby's went to military... :(((( )
btw: military in here lasts 2 years, a bit longer than in other countries, but still even knowing that usually it's 1 year or 1 year and half doesnt help me at all. i'm just an egositic spoiled only child in my family, and someone took my only fun in life away. first two weeks i really felt dead, now i just wanna see him badly. but that also depends on the hormones so after 1 weeks from now it should go back to normal again -.- plus, after 8th may, after i'll come back from hongkong, i'll be able to write letters to him and he'll be able to respond... sometimes when i think about it i'm like "yay! ^-^ great!" but now even thinking about that makes me wanna cry. C'MON LETTERS ONLY!?! >O ;((((( fuck...
all that was utterly weird though - at once in one day (all happened on monday 30th march) i kinda lost my boyfriend, cried a guinness record amount of tears, lost my jobs, both of them at the same time (one stolen by the girl who was substituting for me, one lost), and both my ex lover and my ex-lover-wannabe (niedoszly przyszly) contacted me. do they have some 6th sense for seeing when i'm lost and lonely and vulnerable???? they didnt talk a word to me in 2 years and *PRECISELY* on march 30th they had to contact me. good thing is, there's a huge possibility they'll disappear for another 2 years just as suddenly as they reappeared. then there was this thing with the letter (write, dont write, write cause it doesnt matter if you write or not). no wonder i was stressed like hell during the first 2 weeks actually.
other stuff - i just finished midterm exams and i'm going to hongkong may 2nd till 8th. YAY :D hooray for hongkong :) and the end of the midterms.
aaah. and on sunday there's a free big bang concert and we're planning to get ourselves bling-blinged and go and have fun like we're thirteen :D its gonna be fuuun.... let's get retarded wooo~
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| i'm not a student anymore lol |
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Posted on November 08, 2008 @ 12:03 pm
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damned warsaw university. i didn't pass 4 exams last session, mostly because i couldn't make it to catch up after my surgery (may, just before the exam period), but out of these 4 one was moved because it was on the day when i was leaving, one i didn't pass cause they changed the hour couple of days before (for like the 5th time) and there was no information about it, moreover, when my friend wanted to call me and tell me, my "colleagues" told her i already passed this exam, and other one i did not pass juse because the teacher ignored me - i sent her everything she wanted on the day she wanted but since june i haven't got any reply and i think she went somewhere where internet doesn't shine. only 1 exam is entirely my fault... and all that i was supposed to pass in january, after i come back, and officially regain the status of a student. now yesterday in the night i was suddenly informed that the new vice dean ignored my plea and kicked me out, she says 3 exams (only korean studies) is much, and mostly she's mad cause it includes the seminar (hell what can i do if the teacher is mia???), so she doesn't want me to pass the exams and come back to my studies, she wants me to repeat the year. heh, actually it does not make much difference because i still have 4 years to do on sociology, but hell i swear i hate oriental studies dept more and more and more. teachers always break the rules for making exams (like make 3 during one day juse cause they're too lazy to move their ass more than once, and all the exams are done before the exam session, cause they wanna go on holidays faster - that teacher that was constantly moving the time and date and place of the exam left june on the 1st day of the exam session.) and do everything they can to show us how ignorant of and superior to students they are.
anyway, now i can't do everything, maybe except the usual thing that happens cause we're human and it's just psychological thingy - i can wish my parents wouldn't forget about my papers and had it done on time, not be late by a month, when the new dean came in. i'll doo the mingling after i come back - now all the teachers mentioned above are absent also, so i can't even call them xDDD they are in germany and korea instead of working, but that's just so usual.
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| hey dears~ |
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Posted on October 14, 2008 @ 12:08 pm
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hello to everyone ^^
summer school that i think i mentioned in the last post has long ended. now it's teh serious business ;) the regular semester. study study parties parties, now more of study - midterms upcoming, next week. so basically... all the fun fun friends from the summer school went back to their homes, and were replaced with new friends soon after, so i only could get bored for a while. maybe now it's a bit less hedonistic than during the summer, but huh, that'd depend - less crazy, less drinking (well for me - most of the exchange students are really having fun here), but then again, big news for those who don't read/get my emails and don't have facebook (which i use obsessively multiple times per day), i have a boyfriend in here :3 my sweetie.. (*feels her teeth go bad from overdose*) time passes weirdly - day by day, slowly, since the beginning almost we had the feeling like we know eachother longer - like someone asks us, how long we're together.. if we counted, it was what, 2 weeks, 1 month... felt like a double each time.. feels so perfect too. so probably because of that i already forgot about the problems i had with registration for the courses, and now too i have all the courses i need, so what for bitching over something that has got fixed.
we do trips, we do parties, we do studying.. my current issues here are seminar on china and social psychology, and of course, korean language - her ei was unlucky, one class is lower level than what it should be for me, so i am bored sitting wishing "just please tell me something i don't know" trashing my teacher with detailed questions about some niuances of grammar and mostly talking with her like it's only for me, and the second one is too high level, so i have to sit and translate the textbook, it's so hard hard hard.... i shouldn't be there but i need reading classes too, and there is nothing else i could take as reading classes. plus in plain theory this class is my level... just that practice does not meet theory. and such a life i have here.
you want pictures maybe? if you're on facebook look me up via my email, bakatenko on gmail, if not scream out i'll post some nice ones :)
sorry for the long absence. i don't have the time to write and send out the postcards either... ^^;;;
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| annyeong~~~ <3 |
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Posted on July 07, 2008 @ 2:38 pm
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yeah, me's in korea. problems here too but it'll pass very fast and i'm having shitloads of fun along so i don't mind that much. especially cause it'll pass really soon :)
i have classes too, actually i have far more less time than i thought i'd have. maybe it's only know until i have "formal/official things" to do. weather in seoul is perfect, to me - clouds, so no sun to burn my skin (like on jeju...), hot, very hot, or nice warm hot, i like both, and veeeery humid. oh, actually i'm in suwon, it's teoretically a separate city but yeah, it's like tokyo and chiba or yokohama.
we've been to jeju... xD it's a volcanic island in th emiddle of east china sea, do i need to say that it's a tropical island? :D no? cool. one day i forgot to put sunblock on my back and it's still red, i even got sunburned in a way i got rash on my feet >.> jeju was fun, totally. drinking at the beach and watching fireworks... even when we were soaking on the halfway-to-the-top of hallasan, a pack of the highest mountains in korea, almost killing ourselves first from overheating, then trying not to break our legs on the slippery stones it was fun. crazy, in such a situation i and my korean friend were dancing and singing and joking all we could - yeah, true, mostly under my influence, but it wouldn't be fun if i did that alone, right? :D
and swimmmmmming :D i swam in the east china sea. it's salty and only a bit warmer than baltic. and everywhere here there are lagoons. the sand is beautiful - it's tiny stones, mostly coral and pearl mass. and it was really beautiful there - i'll post the pictures from the trip on http://pinktrash.org/blog (my travelogue, that's mostly for pictures or extremely funny or interesting things, nothing normal like friends and family stuff, that's here :D) really soon - i have to collect them, i haven't bought myself a digital camera yet.
so yeah. the long awaited "i'm alive i'm okay and everything's fine" post is here ;) but weren;t i right? it could not get worse and it was only getting better and better. i'll write more again when i'll settle the official things down.
ah. and i'm buying foolsmates, shoxx, and etc. here. i will be selling them to europe by a rather cheap price. who wants? :D when everything will be set i'll tell you more, but i'll want YOU everyone help me with advertising ;) like put a word on forums and such.
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| so now i know that at least it cannot possibly become worse. |
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Posted on June 19, 2008 @ 12:31 pm
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how could it be? all the things that are going on now around me can be simply classified as "living hell". on my -main- course of studies i managed to fail 2 od 3 exams (one failure -is- my fault, the other was just 13489269053th change of the exam's time, so sorry i couldn't follow and the teacher left the info nowhere). i already got sick, terribly painful eating disorder (yet again, my nervous stomach). there is a very likely possibility i won't go to the mofo exchange cause of these 2 exams. simple rule - no rewards for losers who can't pass their exams on time. so if i go i lose hellllla lotsa time, and some money too, if i stay, i lose lots of pissing off time (getting all the things done for the trip and searching for everything, biting talks with clerks..) and more money. but the conclusion is the same, if i stay or go, i lose time and money eitherway, and if not the september retakes campaign, then it's january retaikes campaign, all the same huh.
like from march for exactly 1 week i was sure i was *not* going and then for about 4-5 days sure i was going. except for that this exchange was a total sore all the time. now it's a week for the scheduled departure, and i am still not sure whether i am going or not. cool university huh?
so, my ideas on how it could be worse:
- i could get sick (uh-uuh, i already got sick yesterday.)
- my bf could mess up with me or dump me (nope again, already did that in feb, from that time on i didn't commit a mistake of having a bf)
- my friends could be very busy and i could be left alone (yes! that's exactly what is happening!)
- i could have a never decreasing number of exams, tests, yearly essays on my to do list (yup, all checked here. each time i pass something another thing pops up. for example. i passed the test for "introduction to sociology" and got 2 new tests from "social history" etc)
what else could possibly go wrong putting aside the death related issues??
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Posted on June 10, 2008 @ 1:26 am
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uhhh there's been a lot happening. some 2 weeks ago i undergo a real hysteria attack thanks to my exam session and professors - cause you can never be SURE whether what they are saying is final (like the dates of the exams, or the material for the exam - sometimes it's all like "okay, if you can't do it now, you'll do it later. 2 days? 3 days? fine" but sometimes it's totally final and you get an f easily cause they got a bitchy attitude on that day) so since my forecasted session looked like hell (plus, me ambitious, took a toefl but had to postpone it due to my latest great absence) and it lost it's meaning - i DID go to sociology to learn that. and i really wanted to pass toefl the best i could, but since it was all shaping up otherwisely... :(
but yeah, since in the last post we've already established it as a fact that my university stinks, let's leave it here and go to my doings ^^ i assure you though that what i wrote before, well now i have 2x as much of such facts and behaviours, you have my word for that. but what for writing about it nah? (only if you'll ever feel bad and miserable ask me, and then i'll tell you how it *can* be worse. haha. yes, yes. you could attent a polish university.)
so like for example i'm proud i wrote a yearly essay/thesis/whatever on classical theories of sociology by placing my self in front of the pc after 5 pm and getting up from it after 4 am. (that's also the reason why i failed the chinese characters test that day lol. not to mention i was sleep walking lol xD)
then i am proud that i'm advancing in crossinf off the things i have to do from my lists - the things that need to be passed/written before the exams and the things that must be done before i go to korea. i'm dead busy with that - sorry for neglecting your lj's a bit :x
cause yeah i am going, finally these bastards *ahem* told me this last wednesday and i got the papers last fri. which basically left me with 3 weeks to do EVERYTHINNNG. booking the tickets was a real bitch cause now all the flights from warsaw to london either cost 400 bucks one way (on the "cheap" airlines too!) and took me 3x as much time to find any good connection. (well good in my logic means cheapest avalaible :P somehow i can always find some ridiculously cheap solutions) so that propblem is away. this week i'm taking on the insurance, health record (koreans demanded a paper stating i don't have tuberculosis. ridiculous. ah. and in english. more ridiculous. so should i like what ask them if they have aids? like my roommate?), visa (yyyyeeeaaaa.... my fave...) and student id cards. some little things tag along.
and then there is this randomness of this post :O
like recently my friend made me remember rammstein. and then i was ok for some time and now i have like a phase, and i mean a real phase like it always used to be with jrock bands, towards.... well doh, kill me, marilyn manson ._.
i feel so dirty and guilty and damn how it's possible he corrupts my mind? (like i didn;t know it's STILL POSSIBLE XDD; after... all that ^^;;;;;;;; lol) but he does oh he does :O damn it, damn him, i don't wanna be goth xD i'm so shocked myself i KNOW he's damned ugly but somehow now it's strangely appaling >.>
and it all is thanks to tainted love video :x shush, devil's spawn!
i feel bad with it and in the same time good. like in depraved perverse sense. uhhh strange times.
ah. and one _TOTALLY_ and |ly| ;P positive thing about the a.. that hysteria outburst i had. whatever happens now - i don't care. really. like today i go to my exam and find out it's ended 3 hours ago. :shrugs: so? when i can take it? i can't? so to which authority should i write that i can't be here for september retakes?? like that. water on me.
and my colleagues are bitches. i wish half of them to go bald in extreme pains.
and my best friend is doing so good in tokyo she kind of made me jealous and proud. jealous in the meaning that i'd kill someone to be there with her now. she's partying her ass off, her roommate took her to the "barbecue on the outskirts of the city" (i love this expression. each time japanese or koreans use it it means a place at least 4-7hours away from the city, and a whole weekend high profile party with everything. high class partying. and you can never know what's their plan :D) i feel i just have to stay in asia after my spring semester in korea ends, so i can go to japan with her :D the connections she made, i'm so impressed. like a guy offering her a job (she's a barted) in okinawa. hey. o-ki-na-wa. it's like the synonym of paradise on earth.... i had my highlights too, but i think she's more lucky than me. but i always thought we are equally stupid xD; maybe she has more in the "forgetful" factor XDDDD whatever
i'll end with this optimistic thought ^^
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| kurcze, jednak za bardzo się przejmuję |
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Posted on May 20, 2008 @ 8:59 pm
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{proszę zwrócić uwagę na stosowanie polskich znaków w poniższym tekście :P}
ej do wszystkich polskich lasek co mam je na lj'u - widziałyście [na gronie czy nie na gronie] panny werbujące panny na hostessy?? ale mnie wkurzają :(((
poza tym wszystkim co napisałam na ich temat na gronie japonia, wkurza mnie to bo jak tak dalej pójdzie niedługo polki będą miały w japonii taką samą opinię jak rosjanki!! że przyjeżdżają tylko na hostessy [tarento - nazwa stosowana na wszystkie panny które mają na tyle mało oleju w głowie żeby dać się zwerbować, pochodzi stąd, że kiedyś jak jeszcze istniały "entertainer visa" na nie hostessy się importowało do klubów. po jakimś czasie zaczęto stosować wymóg, żeby dziewczyna poproszona na granicy o okazanie się jakąś umiejętnością artystyczną (talentem) [li to śpiew taniec czy inne co] uargumentowała w ten sposób swój wjazd, jeśli istniało podejrzenie że jedzie do pracy w klubie z hostessami] do japonii. właściwie, dobrze by było jeśli chodziłoby tylko o to - o ile hostessa znaczy wiele rzeczy a w -tym- znaczeniu ma wydźwięk pejoratywny z racji powiązań z mizu shoubai który od dawien dawna do chlubnych biznesów nie należy oraz głównie z racji na _potencjalny_ motyw romantyczny [zazwyczaj kończy się na fuzoku, czyli powiedzmy gierką emocjonalną a la flirt z klientem] czy wręcz seksualny w przypadku rosjanek [w roppongi jest opinia że każda rosjanka bzyka się za szampana, mówiąc pieniędzmi kiedyś było to 600 złotych minimum], to tarento ma jeszcze taki minus, że wszyscy wiedzą że oznacza to coś w rodzaju niewolnictwa z powodu kontraktu z którego nie można się wycofać i generalnie potencjalnie złego traktowania i bezapelacyjnie najniższego miejsca w łańcuchu pokarmowym w dzielnicy.
z tego powodu że nie chcę być kojarzona z takimi lowlifes jak obecnie wywołuje u większości japończyków pochodzenie z rosji u kobiet, pomagam każdej lasce która chce do japonii jechać o własnych siłach, żeby nie szły za bardzo na łatwiznę [wszystko załatwione z góry] kosztem godności osobistej [ubezwłasnowolnienie i dobrowolne oddanie wszelkich praw na 3 miesiące na nie wiadomo jakich warunkach], i z moją pomocą jeśli trzeba załatwiły sobie wszystko same, na własną rękę, gdzie są odpowiedzialne same za siebie i mają wolną wolę w wyborze pracy czy mieszkania, oba czynniki przy wyjeździe są ważne bo 1/3 dnia spędza się w pracy 1/3 w mieszkaniu i jak dobrze pójdzie bo praca może zajmować więcej niż 8h - 1/3 czasu wolnego. dobrze jest chyba mieć możliwośc wybrać z kim sie mieszka przez 3 miesiace?? nie mówiąc już o tym gdzie się pracuje i JAK.
a te panny werbujące na hostessy mało że mają to wszystko w zadku, to jeszcze uważają że wyświadczają wszystkim jadącym wielką przysługę sprzedając ich do barów, czasem podrzędnych i o podłych zasadach, jak jedna laska z japonistyki werbująca hostessy do roppongi. hostessa w roppongi ma jedno i to bardzo proste znaczenie, najstarszy zawód świata... ale tego się już oczywiście nie mówi. albo tego że z top-class barów z hostessami wyrzucają po 3 tygodniach jak nie ma się 2 douhanów [kompanów] na tydzień. a skąd ich mieć?? banalne pytanie jak się dobrze zastanowić - z jakiej możliwej przyczyny jakiś koleś wybuli parę razy tyle kasy co normalnie tylko żeby akurat z *tą* a nie inną panną pogadać w klubie, hmm... no ale tego też się nie mówi.
mało tego - werbujące osoby dostają [w zależności od klubu dla którego pracują oraz tego jak się umówiły] od 30tys jenów za osobę do dwukrotnej wartości pensji hostessy którą zwerbowały. intratny biznes nie? warto "trochę" nakłamać dla takich pieniędzy, prawda? ponaciągać prawdę, trochę przemilczeć i gotowe, kontrakt na 3 miesiące podpisany, zwerbowana panna zadowolona bo jedzie do japoniiiii!!!!!! a werbująca bo kasę liczy. i już nie musi jeździć do japonii, zarabia dużo więcej bez tego.
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Posted on May 17, 2008 @ 11:49 pm
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as title says, "you only know who's a true friend, when you're down/miserable". today this list has changed dramatically. if anyone here has access to my facebook, you can very easily see on my friends' wheel, that my friends do not know eachother, and if they do, in groups of up to seven people approximately. i have couple of main groups of friends [like everyone probably] and some random people who i love no less, but who are separate from anyone else and whom i usually met in some mysterious ways.
so this year i had two major moody moments, first in the beginning of the year when i [yet again] discovered how much of a badass my ex is, when i really needed backup in any form, and when i even called my best friends abroad for assistance, and the second is about now, hence the rant in the previous post. this all was a good "test" for some of my friends, and apparently:
-some of the people who consider themselves my friends, are not, and surprisingly for me it came to them as shocking news.
-one group of friends who are really close to me back from high school [which gradually grew to a routine alike boring interactions] are in fact, every single one of them, my true friends, despite what i and they think sometimes [so many times i wanted to put a cross on them or some of them!], i am always there for them and it works both ways, and we never let anyone of us down, and as a group we did ate the proverbial barrel of salt together.
-my best friend, the one i considered for my best friend, same as a sister, apparently is not my best friend. shocking news for me.
and here's me coming to conclusions:
- the real good friendship does not need years of time to be discovered, time doesn't matter here
- but when it remains month by month and year by year, it grows more reliable. [the more you are -sure- that the person won't fail or you will know when and where she/he could fail you]
- my intuition is just perfect
- warsaw is so bad for human relations. i'd say "beats me why", but i know precisely, and it's so sad.
- time won't kill a friendship. noooo. i have friends i hear/see/whatever soosososo rarely, but i 'm sure that if we'd meet we'd be just the same as we were. [not like i'm proud of not keeping in touch with some people for a year or so]
dunno what else to write, i'm still quite oppressed by the changes i was urged to make in my friends' group..
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Posted on May 15, 2008 @ 9:28 pm
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i am on the verge, definately feels like my borderline is coming back at me with the old initensity. so what's gotten to me?
- i realised i don't go to korea. yes true i was running with the fucking confetti [documents] for 2 months, but now i'm waiting for the dean's decision, and i was waiting half a year [literally, 6 months] for a decision of much lower instance, so this will take at least the same amount of frigging time, and for 100% it's gonna be too late for me to go.
- even if he decides to let me go and even if it somehow would be possible, i still can't go because i study korean studies. makes sense? no. wanting to go to korea when studying the mofo korean makes perfect sense. well, not on the warsaw university - in the sociology institute they told me "sure, go, why not, we'll transfer all your credits from there so you won't lose a year, go, such exchanges are for students after all. if not now, then when?" and in korean studies section they told me that if i go [for an exchange. official university thing] "they can't consider it as an equivalent of a year of studies in the korean section, because in korea there are no conwersatories [konwersatorium] but only seminars [seminarium]" and then gave me definitions of each which were only different cause of the order of the words in the sentences..... they hate me or what... the head nigga in charge of the students aka the prodziekan [dun ask me how's that in english. 2nd most important person in the department] just laughed that one off and said there IS NO DIFFERENCE and it's hilarious.
- then again, even if i go and they decide to go anal with me and don't transfer me the credits for the seminar, i drop off without the diploma - i'm on the 3rd year, there are also 5th and 1st years. 5th year goes by the old program of studies, 3rd [me] goes by the new one, but apparently 1st one goes by the even newer one. [so if i don't stay on my own year of studies without any gaps, i drop out] i can wait for the lower year, but i would have to make it up to their program and pass shitloads of exams probably, if it's possible at all. two people from 5th year dropped out cause of that already. and if i do drop out, i'm a be without the diploma, because i should be writing bachleor's essay/thesis/whatever this year, but my professors said that they are too few and can't do that despite it's ordered from the up, in other words they ignored the global european setting, assuming we all will go straight to master's studies and end up with writing master's thesis and that'd be okay. well cool - we all agreed to that - but they never mentioned that it disables us ALL to go for any motherfucking stipends.
- i had a nose surgery.. 3 surgeries in 1 take, me lucky, but 2 weeks off my life nonetheless, and that was no fun either. didn't mention it before, cause it's nothing fun, and i don't wanna bug you with such things [prose of life].
- from the beginning of this year i was constantly ill [cause of the nose] so i was really counting that it'll end with my recovery after the surgery. and guess what? despite i'm on very strong antibiotes for a week and some now, my throat managed somehow to develope a frigging inflammation inclusive with some oil containing creatures which hurt like HELLL. in the exact time when i was starting to get better and regain my strength, and when my head stopped hammering me with pain so i thought i will start learning finally. great timing. wonderfuckingful.
- my BEST friend was trashing at me 2 hours today. when i was on the public transportation, crying to the cellphone telling me i disrespect her and treat her like a gopher and so on, but SOMEHOW she managed to give me NOOONE examples of how and when i did, "just in general".... and of course it's all my fault despite it was me who wanted to meet all the time in this year [she didn't ask me once] and she was always saying she has something other to do 5 minutes before midnight or even not at all, then disappearing for the next 36 hours making me and other people worry like hell. basically only one thing she said makes sense, the rest is just hormones or whatever, but this was not nice at all and i'm starting to have serious doubts whether should i invest my time and energy in this ungrateful person anymore or not.
- it's 3 weeks to my finals, which include chinese and some other collubrines [HUGE exams when it comes to data i ought to absorb], total 10 exams of whic 3 are light, and i know SHIT, moreaover i have 3 collocquims i HAVE to pass in 5 days from now, and there's no other choice [i'll do that over the weekend, but i'm freaking out what'll happen with my finals exam session]. and now that i wanted to study finally i'm sick again.
- for some 3-4 weeks now i've been trying to hook up with any of my closer people, to talk out all this mess and stress that was gathering up, but i failed terribly, some are indeed very busy now, but some are not... or not THAT busy or not all the time, so it's like very nice of you, thanks for support when i need it, MY FRIENDS.
and i don't need a brake, i just had two... the surgery was a huge break after they de-hospitalised me, and just before i got there i was with my friends @ a lakehouse.
i feel miserable and i can't do anything right. doh....
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Posted on May 09, 2008 @ 8:56 pm
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look what i've found~~ 这个有意思。 中国人做过的视频。
for example this： http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/6lzqevVq0HI
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Posted on May 01, 2008 @ 3:56 pm
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i went to the cementary with my pa's today. [since it was nice weather and first free weekend in the year they decided to go] usually it looks like some friggin service :/ i know for them it means something, but with the usual routine of looking at every stall with fake flowers under the pretext of choosing something [while all the flowers are equally ugly and only differ in size, colour and price] going to the grave, sitting there for like 5 minutes and going home, it resembled a sunday walk rather than what it should be, well at least that's my opinion and how i think of it.
so this time i decided to skip the commercial part and other parts as well - i went to the graveyard leaving my pa's behind browsing the cheap shit flowers in pursuit of some ultimate beauty [ :snort: ], and decided to walk by the graves, which i never do with my family [when they are around we only visit our family graves].
several observations hit me and made me ponder - most of the graves i saw, and i wanted to see the old ones so i browsed those at the front, were of people who died up to 1930, lessay. almos all the people who died between 1898 and 1920-something were stunningly young, mostly in their 20's or even a bit less, there were some children too.. and that was a huge number... weird and interesting but also sad. then there were the people who "died of german bullet", priests, soldiers, scholars... some graves symbolic, of people who died in auschwitz or anywhere else and are.. not present in their own grave. some graves had photos, some had epitaphs... some people had funny sounding old names, and some had famous surnames, or beautiful ones which signified aristocracy.
when i left that part of the graveyard and started to head towards my grand grandma's grave, i noticed a grave of roman dmowski, those of you who are polish might know the name, he was a prominent person of the period between the wars [it's called like that, the 20's inbetween]. aside of the fact that his grave was huge, but what pinned my attention was the quote of one of his books. he was a true patriot..
( who can read polish, read this )
"I am polish not only because I speak the language, because other people who use it are spiritually closer to me and I can understand them better, because my personal issues draw me closer with them than with foreigners, but also because aside of the personal and individual spheres of life I know the life of the nation of which I am a part of, because aside my own interests and business' of personal nature I know the national issues, Poland's interests as a whole, the highest interest for which one should sacrifice/devote what one shouldn't sacrifice/devote for one's personal interests.
I am Polish - it means I belong to the Polish nation on it's whole area and in the entire time of its span of existence today as well as in the past centuries and in the future, which means I feel my firm relation with whole Poland. Everything Polish is mine: I cannot deny anything. I am free to be proud of what is great in Poland, but I also have to embrace the shame which falls upon the country for it's blemishes.
I am Polish - so with all my soul I live with the life of Poland, its feelings and thoughts, its needs, its yearnings and aspirations. The more I am [Polish], the less of its life is strange to me and the more I'm eager for what I consider the highest form of living to become the property of the whole nation.
I am Polish - so my obligations are Polish: they are the greater the stronger my will to fulfill them, the higher type of a person I become."
he was a great politician who did a lot of reforms... it was all back good, and then hitler went berserk and literally ruined it, but ranting about it is not my intention now ;P
thinking about the graves and history and patriots concluded in my head weirdly, and again, i come after the poor americans in my mind. most of the graves i saw today were of people who lived in 2nd half of 19th century and died in the eve of 20th or in its first 2 decades. some graves were of people who actually lived and died in the 1st half of the 19th cent, like born in 1801 or 1819... died in 1850something or later. and then i think of america, which can count it's history barely from 18th century, and compare that with the very graveyard - on even the most ordinary plain communal graveyard, after several wars even, we have graves dating back to 1801, 1804 and so on, while 1792, not so long before in time, was almost the beginning of america as a country.
but hell with that, even more striking thought was, are americans still or ever were a nation? presently sociologists mourn a bit about the crashdown of the social relations in america. that before the society was more social and now they are not, it atomises and what not - main factor behind the falldown that's being pointed out constantly is, the multinationality of america. [~putnam, bowling in america] how queer? so before it was not a problem ans suddenly in the past 20 years it's become to be a problem, while america has always been multicultural?
in the end i was asking myself questions like if americans can be considered a nation, do they have the national identity as a whole, and is there a thing like american culture in existence. because it seems that even now, being an american means something different for white and black people... as for the culture, i'd say yes, it would only need for some data to be gathered for the right argumenting my point of view, but as for the national identity, i'd polemise and waver. what do you think?
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| meme meme meme :D |
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Posted on April 30, 2008 @ 1:36 pm
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i missed you, memes :D so now, everyone on my list, do a meme with me :D [if you're not dead busy that is]
ah. you're not obliged to do number 33 [the romance one], cause it's stupid and it can have 3 ways of interpreting, apparently whoever did that meme is still in primary school.
what's a peeve by the way?
taken from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) mayoini
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Posted on April 19, 2008 @ 1:12 am
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so guess what guys, we too have sakura in poland. and it's even better than the japanese one, cause it smells terrificly. and it too fades away so quickly.. :,( well actually it's not the sakura sakura, like the same tree- it is a kind of plum, but where i live we mostly have the kind that gives little yellow fruits. and plums - the violet bigger fruited ones - are not so pretty here in eu, imo. but har har.. that's not all. they only have plums in japan that look pretty when it's blooming, and we have apples too... personally i think apple tree flowers are even more beautiful than plum ones - but yeah, japanese are japanese, and they like things cute not beautiful ;P sakura is cute, plums are pretty and cute, and apples are beautiful ^^
( [yes, i have pictures :P i wouldn't be such a sadist to make such an entry without photos. shamely, there is no way yet invented in order to catch rip and upload a scent :)] )
and second news of the day, finally after yeeeeaaaars of hesitating i decided finally to *do* something for the Incredible and Amazing Band Named lynch. <3 it's not gonna miss you if you go and see it... oh, btws, me's looking for help here too, cause: 1- engaged in many projects already, 2- i need someone with mac, but i think my friends residing in warsaw will do, 3- and someone for help at least with making the written version of these audio interviews xD my comprehension of the slur/mumbling/slang is too low
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Posted on April 05, 2008 @ 1:34 am
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recently totally random. check this out- teaser:
also, i've had a pretty interesting day today. yes, first the usual- wake up, wanna go back to sleep, get up and go to school, write a test, learn some, dream to come back home early and go to sleep again, then it changes in the daytime. so well i got back home like around midnight xD i had one thing to do, then i hooked up with my friend, ahven't seen her for a while and i was passing by, aaand... then she and her bf decided to drive me back home. we live on the city's antipodees, so after a little resistance from my side i agreed, cause it was hella convenient. then my friends call, that they're presently close to my home, on a meadow [swamp alikish wet terrain, moss or moor i guess it's called. flammable somehow. hard to build anything there, no cellar possible- dig up 0,5 a meter and water comes up] where there's a wild motocross vamped up fun place [it's someone's land, and apparently, this someone likes motocross. it's not guarded and not fenced even- a motocross prepared route in the middle of nowhere with 2 paths [it's not a road. paved or anything. it's just heavy car tracks on a swamp, and weed everywhere. that someone left a sign with his/hers celly number "in case you'd want more" :D] and that means 3 things: jeep, bouncing jeep, bouncing jeep splashing lotsa mud everywhere, shortly put, fun fun fun :D so, i ask my friends to drom me by there [i knew my girlfriends bf has a fancy for this mud related sport :P] and they'll know where the track place is. when we arrived, the jeep was stuck in some puddle up to the wheels' axis, and with that tiny car my friend had, we almost entirely [up to the paved road that is] dragged the jeep out. it was hard cause the gear changing box [sprzeglo] was broken, so it couldn't drive on itself [probably teddybear just burned it out, knowing his way of driving... ^^;] and all the way it was heavy tracks with puddles, terrible road, it took us like 3 hours to get out xD; thanks god that tiny car was enhanced :P the jeep weighs like 1,6 tone ^^; i missed most of the fun, but still somehow it was fun to some point. me dressed like what you see on the pics pushing that godforsaken car xDD and look, i didn;t get dirty much! with tracks deep to half of our calves, mud everywhere, i'm so clean!
anyway, here's the pics of the jeep :D look how terrible it looks and imagine how it looked when everything from down under was splashing around xD i didn;t help all that much but i did help some, so it's totally crade i didn;t get that on myself, ain;t it? :)
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| another disappearance by me ^^; |
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Posted on March 31, 2008 @ 3:59 pm
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this time, it was because of the exam session, another heartbreak [with the same guy!! i wrote about it like 2 years ago here, this time i decided not to bug any of you here] and now i'm sick. but my mood's better than anytime in these 3 months, lol :D
i wanted to make an entry on my trip to gdansk, where i hooked up with an old friend of mine [and yours maybe?], neme_andou, who's been offline for like forever... i don't know if you even remember her anymore ^^;;; she's studying some chemistry and biology related thing, has little time. when i was there she had exams too.. bah.
eitherways it was fun, we've watched some lives, sitting of the floor and headbangin, drank half the bottle of vodka i took with me, went to sopot molo thingy at night... makkuro datta, makkuro! :D
i also wanted to hook up with azazel_kizoku cause she lives there too, but we couldn't catch eachother online nor on our cells. shame. but i'll drop by later too :) get ready girls!
and here are some photos... i'm teribly sorry but there's so many of them i had to put them separately, not to break your lj's apart ^^; first it's neme's univeristy and club nearby, then the beautiful city of gdansk, us dressed like eskimos because it was so cold, an exhibition on how it was in prl times [when poland was under exile behind the iron curtain], many pictures from the exhibiotion... then the city of sopot [very interesting is the weird house, "crooked" or "bent" house, i dunno how to translate properly... the antonym of "straight" xD when you'll see the house you'll know] and the sopot's molo, pictures taken by night so not really that good, and then sopot by day.
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Posted on January 14, 2008 @ 1:34 am
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for the family pack [all pictures] go xmas.rar
and here are some of the pics for everyone to see ^^
( christmas )
the wonderful sight of teh whiteness all around when i was coming back home:
( whiteness )
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Posted on August 29, 2007 @ 12:57 pm
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ladies and gents, since may i've entangled myself into depths of my university's secretary's offices, only to force them to make it possible for me to do two things- go to sociology, go to korea for a scholarship. second succeded already, i just came back to tokyo from seoul. as for the first one, i'll know soon.
eitherways, what i want to say is- june was nonexistent for me, to the degree i actually forgot i'm going to japan week before the departure. and since july, i was writing and posting pictures here. so i ain't dead or on hiatus... just, forgot about lj. sorry.. june was *really* nonexistent. too many things to do and too many exams to pass. july, in tokyo, i was working 12h/7, more than seven eleven was supposed to be open at the beginning [11hrs 7 days per week.]. i so i hope you'll excuse me..
pink gloomy, i have what you like :) men's egg. i think i might even have two. [i bought loads of magazines for my future reasearches on japanese society, tehe :) and sent them all off to poland, cheaply, from seoul by ship] after i come back i'll try to scan it for you :)
so the important stuff : COME HERRRE!
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