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[03 Aug 2005|02:55pm] byebye live journal byebye lovemachine ! you have served me well (: (:   moved !! ♣

righteous brothers' unchained melody [24 Jul 2005|11:36am] " i hope you treat David as if he is a normal person . " " i trust i never bring him down to that level . " i hope i find it in myself to be there for you through your darkest times . some things just dont change . corridor light . rain . ipod . good book . maybe its time to stop this for good . ♣

[22 Jul 2005|08:06pm] okay im sorry im such a kid ): i havent said sorry in too long . i think im selfish . i need to grow up fast . preferably in 2 days or less . i want to be mature and not want to play . ♣

[21 Jul 2005|10:49pm] does it make sense to get upset over an episode of friends ?? ERGH my tv schedules are VERY MESSY . shitshitshit . i have missd so many episodes of everything . GAHHHHHHH . saturday sunday must watch marathon to catch up . i shall forgive all the stupid kiddos who spoilt harry potter for me . you little prats . HAHA . ahh !! all started w bessie leong . hahaha . aiya schools a drag . i am nv buying the stupid lollipop again . walao i think i swallowed alot of bubble gum . hahaha okay its ery obvious im updating for the sake of updating . college day : !@#$(!&@#*%(!#$( BAHH nvm sat hopefully got clique bbq or smth la . tmr can watch vcds tonight can finish my harry potter . SOME PPL ARE BLOODY IRRITATING . WALAO . I DON LIKE TO GO CANNOT IS IT . NOT LIKE I PON ALOT . YOU GOT PROBLEM IS IT . ARGHHHH DON TALK BEHIND MY BACK THEN ! STUPID SHIT EVERYTIME GIVE ME SMILEY FACE . SO FAKE FOR WHAT . BOND THE AHEM MY BACKSIDE LA . I DON SEE YOU AROUND ALSO . ALL THE BULLSHIT . GO HOME LA GO HOME . CANT STAND YOU ANYMORE . haha okay so badly censored . forget it ! dono why im getting angry over such a small irrelevant comment also . hai . ): problem problem . its over . so pointless . whywhy . i think my life is getting very mundane and sliding backwards . getting qutie pointless . DISILLUSIONED . frustrated is still my number one most hated word ever . EVER . say it to me one more time i tell you . erghh . 1 ♣

[09 Jul 2005|08:42pm] oh no i think i mfed too much last night my head very pain i got flu and i'm EXTREMELY TIRED . ahhhh . and i have slept so much i cant sleep anymore already or i wont be able to wake up for school on monday . hahaha wah i so geeky . okay . very angry my gameboy battery doesnt work anymore . ARGHH . deardear . this week has been good and bad . cant really weigh it out but its been pretty okay . spent alot of time with suvien too (: and ate alot . i really ate alotalot alot and i am so broke now la . im in deficit . ARGH i dont like owing ppl money now cause i have actually cleared all my debts . had actually i mean . okay i don understand how i spent close to a 100 bucks this week on food and entertainment . CRAZY . arghhh . i hope the band bbq money comes back to me soon la or i'm very screwed . i have to start finding a job. . hahaha . i can really feel the strain on these 2 very important friendships of mine . but aiya i dont really care already . there's always an option . ALWAYS AN OPTION . so i think i want to opt out of this . like now . very disillusioned ah . not a good thing , not a good thing . i am not harping on this and i am not angry i am more of disappointed . aiya i dont want to talk about this . forget it . parents gona be back tmr ! finally . i can look forward to eating at home everyday and having dinners which are normal . yay yay yay ! sleepy headed . okay i think i did badly for cts . i dono havent gotten them back . hai . nvm la its my own fault anyway . i dont want to blame other ppl and go like ' oh you idiot you distracted me ' or ' oh why you talk to me so much ' because pls la its my own fault . dont be so gross . okay this is quite out of point i think nobody understands it actually . hahaha im so INCOHERENT . ehhh i dono what you're trying to do but whatever it is , dont even think about it . okay i want to go play already . byebye . ♣

[07 Jul 2005|12:41am] headache !! tiredtired . im waiting for my hair to dry . bathing so late at night can kill you ah . grahh . hahaha . i need to stop staying out late this week . sat sun mon wed , tmr , saturday . ohgosh not good for me . sleepy like crazy ahh . today gloria crashed rj ! so cool . hahah if only she was willing to teach me and bessie how to fence w the blades . HAHA . fence w the fences . okay whatevers . anyway suv came back ! so fun so fun (: hahhaa had scv outing . then gerrard and his friend shin han joined us (: mm dinner at spageddies . good food good company . good times good times . hai . i hate partings . mm . ate quite a bit today . considering i don move around much at all . hahahaha . we even cabbed to town oh the laziness of it all . dinner convo was so fun and funny (: suv is so blur ! haha and gerrard is so little boy . sosososo little boy . grah . hahaha . we all need to go out more . anyway no matter where suv is she's still impt to me . did i mention i hate partings . ahh . anyway lots of photo taking after dinner and all (: hahah the entries in the book were so funny . esp gerrard's ' to be continued ' . sigh some things never change (: (: haha . so thankful for orientation . i love scv + g hahahaha . oh i've written in the book already ! so fast . mm . had a conversation w mavis just now , hope everythings going to turn out fine . sometimes life is so complicating huh .. ' even the best fall down sometimes , even the wrong words seem to rhyme ' oh anyhows , today is one year since we left rgssb . haii . feeling nostalgic today will just kill me so i wont (: i'll just be happy for the memories . i love rgssb ! always . feel like pasting one of ching's bad english quotes but shall not . hahaha . then icant find brid's not so bad english quote . oh well ! nvm night (: everyone keep smilinggggggg esp to certain ppl in my clique ! ♣

[05 Jul 2005|11:29pm] " i dont love you because you're organised , i love you in spite of that " hahaha so cute (: i like chandler & monica . ross & rachel gordo & lizzie xiaosheng & yingzhi julien & sophie (: tired tired . 1 ♣

[05 Jul 2005|12:01am] just got home and bathed (: tiredddd . realised i've been online every night . gahh . this is going to stop now that school starts like TMR !!! ): oh dear . i dont really want to go back to school . ehhhhh tdoay wanted to catch initial d but we missd the timings and sold out ! so too bad . i'll watch it some other time (: ate alot at cartel and went gloria's house also went for a bit of class dinner . wonder if the rest of it was fun (: sleepyheaded ! waiting for my hair to dry (: my sis is already sleeping w/o bathing . ahh poor thing looks so tired :/ must thank her for fetching me home !! even though she looked like she was gona fall aslp at the wheel . hahah oh dear . okay i hope school will be eventful tmr . okay eventful sounds wrong . err i hope school willl be fun (: i hope my mum is having fun w my dad !! (: and i hope they are safe . ♣

mr. a-z [03 Jul 2005|08:37pm] boring day !! went to church bright and early oh wait INTERRUPTION WHAT IS FIONA XIE DOING ON TV ?!?!?! okay nvm hahahahaha let me tell you . she is SINGING THE TECHNO VERSH OF THE DA MI SONG CHEN CHUNG LIKES . oh dear . hahahahaha . OH DEAR JOANNE PEH JUST JOINED HER . so scary . OH DEAR MY SIS JUST GOT UP TO DANCE ALONG . nvm la fiona xie is very hot !! and so cute . haha . okay interruption over . hahaa . mmmmmm aiya ok i came home at lunch , took a ride to the airport to see my mum off , slept all the way till dinner , ate bathed , watchd mitm and now then watchd like 129833410832 mraz videos (: hahaha . i realise i have like at least 6 versions of the remedy acoustic . oouh ahh . (: (: (: i love mraz ! and my current obsession is not so usual from 1:47 . hahaa okay sounds odd . clique outing tmr ! i shall go taka and spend my vouchers first anyway i want to do smth really impulsive . like w/o thinking of the conseuqences at all . i mean not that im not usually like taht . OKAY makes no sense but anyway . YES . so theres a list of things i can do !! 1 . get a tattoo 2 . pierce my navel 3 . dye my hair a diff colour 4 . cut a butch hairstyle 5 . go for sex change 6 . fly to mraz to rape him 7 . slide down the stair case railings face first wah they got more and more out of point . okay NVM i want to go already (: (: life is good today ! i love mraz ! ♣

[02 Jul 2005|11:30pm] oh dear JUDE LAW IS ON SNL omg (: (:(: (: HE IS THE HOTTEST MAN ALIVE AHHHHHHHH . ahhaha yesterday was one of the BEST DAYS OF THE YEAR . i swear (: i love gabbag sosososososo much !! so fun . i love full reunions with EVERYBODY including gloria who is back !!! we were like sooooo noisy at marche and having so much fun listening to everyone shout random stuff . hahaha i think the raising hand thing was REALLY FUNNY . offended like 1029384702 ppl on the way there . hahaha actin like we are taking over the world in daniel terms . aiya cannot help it !! like good old rg days at the fuck off bitch table !! (: (: so fun listening to nina talk about flirting and ugly ppl and sweet odd guys !! brid ling ching bullshitting and being random , zit talking bout girls , bessie talking about what else but sex . hahaha i swear everything she and nina says comes out in a sexual manner . wendy and her BIG BRAINS being so funnyy ! gloria being so bloody blur again and cute !! ah i missd her so ! max being violent vulgar and funny hahahahaaa yingsze talking in her damn funny way about ahem ! i have so missed the clique (: gabbag is best ever . looking forward to monday . even taking in second hand smoke at ten is fun w them . hahaha . oh actually this is really random but i dont really mind ppl smoking . as in i dont have a problem w them . its not cool its not not cool . its just . i dono i really dont care . everyone has bad habits right ? okay random random ! oh and talking bout smoking i find guys w tattoos very hot !! as in not the ahbeng guys la . the normal guys . ah NVM so bloody random hahahaha . mm mbatch outing was very funny !! esp w sam and yeng laughing at EVERY SINGLE THING . ahahaha lets see their conversation sam : what time did you wake up ? yeng: 11 am sam : oh thats one hour before 12 . -_____________- hahahah they are so BLOODY CUTEEEEEE ! so good to see huien back too !! entertaining us though she's sick and generally the batchies (: (: monday plans : 1 . clique outing 2 . batch outing 3 . class outing i have this habit of making plans oover plans over plans over plans so i have alot of plans on one day . then i imagine myself to be zooming from here to there . but really it nv ever happens and i end up just staying at home . hahaha . okay but mondayh im goign . to one . guess which . i wonder . okay act i do want to go for the class one . but i cannot give up gabbag for it (: (: too precious . time is too precious !!! oh and i reallyreallyreally eat alot . i am not bullshitting . even bridget thinks so . omg ahhhh GOING TO BE FAT . nvm la i dont mind . hhahaha shit i look like ashlee simpson size !!! shorter version only . SO FAT SO FAT . aiya fat means prosperous right (: good i am fat and rich . hahahaha I WISHHHHHH . i put on 5 kg from hols till now . i ate SO MUCH AT MARCHE i have eaten 3 cadbury family pakcs , finished ALOT of ice cream , ate like SO MUCH TODAY . eating non stop . oh dear . nvm nvm err when school starts iw ill err climb stairs to lose weight . hahaha RIGHT . ahhhhh i could have been in the states today . WHY WHY DINT I THINK OF THE PLAN EARLIER . demmit too late to make visa and passport . aiya okay go sleep go sleep ! ♣

[26 Jun 2005|02:33am] oh dear its so late and i dont want to sleep . hahaa hahahahaaa dont talk about studying . whole of bio by tmr (: good job . haha . i found this on my comp i think my sis was doing it since im bored , 1. Full Name: tang yu ting , charlotte 2. Were you named after anyone? maybe 3. Do you wish on stars? rarely . 4. Which finger is your favourite? haha . thumb ? 5. When did you cry last? just now when i was watching sangdu shave the little girls head . omg thats the fourth time i've watchd that . oh dear . i still dont understand WHY THEY REALLY SHAVE HER HEAD !!!! okay nvm enough tv stuff 6. Do you like your handwriting? hahaa . we have a love hate r/s . 7. What is your favourite lunch meat? luncheon meat . hahah . oky not funny . dono la . i love all meat 8. Any bad habits? plenty . i am lazy i sleep too much i whine too much i stone too much i talk too much . aiya too many . 9. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf? errrrrrr . oh . hahahaha i have all the max cds . you knwo the okay nvm better not to know . omg . i have all the max cds oh dear . oh and boyzone . OKAY too much secrets ahahaha . i don consider andy lau cds embarrasing . 10. Are you a daredevil? ??? depends . haha . 11. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to? hahaha . probably . 12. Do looks matter? (: i like ppl w small eyes . hahaha . okay bridget sorry . 13. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid? hahahaha i think so . must have . who hasnt done that before . 14. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? no . HUH ? whats that supposed to mean actually . isnt a rainbow supposed to be a good thing in the first place why do you need the pot of gold too . okay nvm . 15. Do fish have feelings? yes . 17. How do you release anger? bitch around . haha . attitude everyone . 19. Where is your second home? school ): ): ): ): . used to be band room ? haha . 20. Do you trust others easily? hmm maybe ? 21. What was your favourite toy as a child? charlie brown . oh dear . speaking of which i have no idea where he is now . 22. What lesson in school do you think is totally useless? erhm . pw ? bio ? i dono la . 23. Do you like soppy love songs? yesssss ? 24. Have you ever been on radio or television? no ): not like wendy . haha 25. Do you have a journal? ya . 26. Do you use sarcasm a lot? haha no . not at all . please . 27. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? nope . 28. What do you look for in a guy/girl? no idea . haha okay in a girl she must be hot , really smart really pretty (: and butch !! in guys . err . i dono . small eyes . hahahaha . aiya just find the feeling . 29: What are your nicknames? shorty . 30. Would you bungee jump? yepp 31. Do you un-tie your shoes when you take them off? .. what an odd question . yes if my shoes are too tight no if my shoes are not too tight ? 32. What are you worried about right now? cts . what else . 33. Do you have any irrational phobias? plennnnntttttttyyyyy . 34. Do you think that you are strong? OF COURSE . hahaha okay who am i kidding . 35. What's your favourite ice cream flavour? i dont know . hahah everytime i see ' favourite ice cream flavour ' i think of mango . i mean how many ppl have favourite ice cream flavours ! okay maybe everyone . aiya whats it matter 36. What's your favourite colour? black 37. What is your least fav. thing in the world? starwars , r2d2, jarjarbinks , matrix , lord of the rings 2 , goldmember , hitler , may phua , dirty underwear , smelly things , oops thats not one . erhm okay then i hate restrictions . for now . 38. How many wisdom teeth do you have? zero ): 39. Are you in love with anyone? family , friends . 40. How many people have a crush on YOU right now? zero . hahahaa OMG EVERYTIME I SEE THE WORD 'CRUSH' I THINK JONKYMAMA AND HOW HE WANTS TO CRUSH B*** ok cannot say . ahahaha 41. What do you miss most right now? beginning of hols ! 1 ♣

hmm [20 Jun 2005|11:47pm] theme song for vigilante in the mask is quite nice (: i like the theme song for triumph in the skies too . and zheng ban qiao . i cant stand hard fate . such an irritating show . grr tuo qiang shi jie should quickly show the 5 th season . i can rmb what happens in this season like i can rmb that 1 plus 1 equals 2 demmit . wah looking at some of the taiwanese artistes . i feel like i should go be a ming xing . i mean like vickie and michelle ?! ?!?!?!?!1 wtf . aiyo sad case . not that im much better la . but i'll try to be funny at least . i still think a reality tv show should be made about my clique . SO EXCITING . actually last year more exciting . but nvm la . we're still funny . 4 ♣

[17 Jun 2005|02:34am] cant ppl who dont know me just go away . please . arghh whats there to do . this sucks . saying it isnt going to help anything i know . i cant stop thinking about this . tonight was awful and tiring and painful . i knew it . i shouldnt have left my house ): i want to stay in my shell forever . i hate walking home alone at night . i hate the dark i hate the night i hate the quietness . i hate thinking things over and walking slowly . i just hate the dark . i hate the stars now . i cant stop thinking about this );

[16 Jun 2005|12:35am] smth wrong w me as of late . becoming awfully depressed at the oddest times , over the weirdest things . i'll just be lying in bed at 0418 am and i just feel my heart sinking deeper and deeper , like i just spat it out and swallowed it back in . this is getting me really down i cant take it i feel horrible . & i dont know whats the matter . i can just be sitting watching a perfectly funny show and i'll feel like crying . and when im eating b&js and listening to random songs on my ipod and when certain songs pop out i'd just feel awfully sad again . i fuckign hate this feeling , esp when i cant justify it . i've not been doing much thinking lately , everythign i think about feels like its straightened out for that one second then it just spiral backs together to become this awful lump of mess i cant unentangle and its just all together and it so stupid . havent been talking much to anyone and i've been trying my best to avoid any form of contact . tmr is in fact the first time in very long im going to go out of my own will not because i have to . i have this feelign the day will end w me being awfully , awfully tired regretting i even stepped out in the first place . i feel like theres so much in my head but i feel like its really nothing and nothing and nothing and nothing . and fuck this . there's so much out there why am i feelign so sad why is it so empty . ahh . and when i really need to talk to you all you want to do is talk to him . and im not goign to try and talk to other ppl anymore because there's always someone they need to talk to who is more impt than me . and more interesting . and more whole . and more beautiful . and it really doesnt matter , cause i should expect nothing . ahh . this is damn weird . im not angry upset disgusted . i'm just feeling really . yes . really . okay i can nv complete my sentences as always . the right ppl will understand the right things but i guess i dont need anyone to understand me now because i cant understand myself and this is just stupid . and i have this weird feelign that talking on my blog forever and ever is goign to get rid of this feelign i have inside me , stop everything im thinking but somehow this isnt making it better i think its making it worse . jason mraz make me happy now please . but it nv makes me happy nothing ever works . i think i shall go back to sleep and shut myself from the rest of the world forever and ever . because i dont think anyone will ever accept me for who i am completely and this is just stupid i shall stop talking to msyelf . pls dont judge me on everything i jsut said because its just mindlessly incoherent and its not me . its not the me you're supposed to know . because i should be always happy always reliable . \ this sucked im sorry bridget pls feel better soon okay i love you but just take yr time bessie happy belated birthday /edit this is so fucking not about jinghong . drop it already .

[12 Jun 2005|09:31pm] they're showing stuck on you on star movies now . sigh . nostalgia . ♣

[11 Jun 2005|08:53pm] yay ! i finished watching fullhouse (: (: (: (: (: happy ending ahh so sweet . i love rain . hohoho . and all the main characters are so good looking ! okay enough teenybopperishness hahaha went grocery shopping today (: 1. honey stars & koko krunch 2. 2 cartons of juice 3. 2 cartons of milk 4. 2 cartons of soy milk 5. dory fishhhh 6. peanut butter crackers 7. lemon barley 8. 3 cadbury family packs oh digression i cant be bothered to finish the list . my dad bought 10 tubs of ben & jerry's . i'm going to die eating . arghhh but its all vanilla and cherry garcia . i like chunky monkey ALOT ): not fair . grrrrrr . oh did you know i always eat ice cream with milk . as in i pour milk into my ice cream . OKAY OUT OF POINT . hoho (: i'm feelign very full from dinner now . very . oh i just rmbd i started my love for lemon barley because in sec 2 after band prac we saw ahem ahem buying lemon barley from the machine . hhahahaha . the things we do . I MISS RG . band alot alotalot . i miss stoning in the corridors or sleeping in the band room . i miss it so much i might consider buying the ugly nike sneakers made w the same material as the band room carpet . hahaha . or maybe not . 1 ♣

[08 Jun 2005|11:08pm] ahhh !!! i ate too much too much too much today i wanted to study a bit but i woke at one and then jason came and we had to go to his place cause the parking was too ex over here then i watch full house at his house w my sis and him somewhere else and his air con almost made me die then we went to no sign board seafood w my aunt and i ate so much i think im going to die now there was like crab prawns vege fried rice meat and gahhh after that we went for coffeee . i think i put on 198370418 kg tonight (: and jason bought us ba kua . grr paofisdnpfaoiej ! and my dad bought like 24 cornettos . !!!!! im going to die of overeating . im goign to explode soon ahh headacheheadache . how !!! i cannot eat so much everyday and sleep so much !!! 1 ♣

silence comes easy ; [02 Jun 2005|06:43pm] i wish i lived alone . i'd make the tv next to the bed , next to the fridge next to the toilet . i'd buy two televisions to place side by side so i can tell when the commercial for one stops . super good sound surround system which i can leave blasting when i go out just to piss my neighbours off . nice comfy apartment in east coast area . i'd walk aruond in my undies all day and nv invite anyone into my place . have fancy conversations with a cat who bites off the head of anyone who comes near . ehhhh . eat potato salads and tuna and spaghetti for dinner . order in chinese food from god knows where . invite angsty teenage wanabe bands to have gigs at my house . organise massive and i mean MASSIVE parties for my neighbours kids . buy one of those table thingies so i can eat in bed . stock up on tons and tons and tons of chips . get my dad to make avocado salsa dip for me & deliver food every weekeend . buy 128347102 soft toys and wrap them up in plastic wrap so i dont die of my fur allergy . have a hello kitty doorbell . buy two fridges . one for proper food and one for ice cream . have ten phone lines just for the sake of it . oh buy a fancy fancy light as a centrepiece . oh ya i will have to plastic wrap my cat up too . wake up at 113 pm everyday and 900 am on sundays to go for breakfast . go to super fancy places for dinner alone . lie in the sun from morn to noon then crawl back to bed to sleep . buy so many dvds they surround my bed . & i'll want to drink lots of water . for once . lots lots lots . okay that was so bullshit . it wont happen . heh 1 ♣

irrelevant blogs are the bane of my life . haha [31 May 2005|11:42pm] black angus for lunch ! so worthwhile rushing out of bed for . yes , i know i have been sleeping waywayway too much (: everytime ppl call me , i'm sleeping . hahaa . i'll get out of this thingy soon okay !! promise (: ouhhh i need to catch some movies soon . and i need to buy 8days . haha . can you believe it i cant wait for tmr cus i want to watch howard on eye for a guy 2 !! ackk . weirded out !! well . family wise : things been pretty good , my mum is now fine and recovering (: God bless . my lil sis is heading to aust tmr . hope she has fun . more fun then i'll have at home . (: and my older sis is still the same ass i love . what with her ' dealing w acne ' pamphlets for me . haha . FINE . i'm having a breakout okaokokokok . i'm just a kid give me a break . haha . mm mm mmmm been thinking about alotalotalot of questions lately . like : are pumpkins sweet , why dont i have small eyes , whats it like to give birth to twenty kids at a go , how do maple leaves breathe , are clouds enemies w the sun , etc etc while im lying in bed . i think im spending wayyyy too much time in bed . time to move my ass around . i need to buy songs for silverman . i think . hmmm loners are amazing . i love loners . i like art in its most basic form . i dont like / need / want all the fanciful forms of art fully displayed , art in its purest form . okay i dont know how to place this in words . but . i like art when its everywhere . when its not flamboyant and cocky , when its silent and slow . okay . that sounded so weird . forget it . 1 ♣

[23 May 2005|06:47pm] so many things have happened , but none of them are relevant enough to be mentioned . sometimes , w real friends you don't have to say everything out , but it just becomes understood . same as to how we'll always be there for each other no matter what , no questions asked . i dont need to understand the situation to know that i'll be there on your side . just because . i'm really happy today because i've realised i'm just a kid . and all this is part of childhood , & i just nv ever want to grow up . because then i wouldnt be able to justify all my mistakes . all that matters to me now : four of us , scv, gabbag , family (: 3 ♣

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