managed to get to canada alright. no troubles or anything at all really thrilling this time. which is perfectly fine to me. :)
i ended up sleeping so much on my flights that in the end, 0 jet lag. I adjusted 100% to pst. not bad not bad.
it's been majorly fun so far ! unfortunately i get terrible service out here so i am going to need to speed up the whole getting a cellphone thing out here soon. all the roaming...
i never knew that the bank that took over all the commerce banks back home was a canadian bank, which is actually good news. now i can open an account over here much easier.
i got my student visa, it looks so official. the immigration officer told me i wasn't allowed to work at tim hortons though. QQ. stapled it into my passport though, it's pretty awesome. i only need to leave canada once within the next 3 years. then i have to get my visa extended. i'll be a student forever and never go back. :P
the festival started today and we went to this thing called crash to pass. oh was it ever neat. basically, a lot of cars going boom boom. i ended up calling both victors i was so proud. :D must post pictures of that later. we got a video of the last bit so maybe even that too. XD

my macbook bugged out. already. lol. it was used extensively for like 3 days. again, the screen just goes black (different from my other laptop problem :X).
SO NOW I AM ON A MACBOOK PRO AND ZOMFG THEY ARE SO COOL.
I think i'll run away to canada with it and we'll get married.

I also have untold amounts of strength (or maybe built up force) in me. XD in my adventures of cleaning out everything i managed to slam a rather decent hole into the wall. i am strong like bull! /flex bb.

i only have 20 TWENTY days left before i leave. wahoo!

pour mel: zomfg mellie beans i went to mac the other day (to return something i know for shame), they have so many lovely colors for eye shadows. XD I HAVE A WHOLE SET NOW. !!! :D

and i officially have 4 level 80s on WoW. ._.

• 80 human priest
• 80 human warlock
• 80 night elf hunter
• 80 night elf druid

(i have no idea where my catch phrase "variety is the spice of life" went to.)

Seperated into parts because it's easier to skip the boring stuff that way.

Computer Troubles... Again. Why me?
Once again, my computer has decided that life is not worth living.
And what better time to decide this than a month before I leave for Canada? Oh, no no no. I certainly won't need a laptop! Not when I'm going to a university! Especially not an international one! Haha!
But, in all seriousness, both the graphics card and the backlight on the LCD monitor decided to die. So, I am using my sister's Mac now. Life is awesome. What the hell am I going to do. I don't have the money to throw away for these fixes nor for a new laptop. (Which the latter would be the BEST solution because the one I have now is bound to break again anyway. It's a piece of trash is what it is.)
Macs... I'm not sure whether I like it or they're just meh right now. It's a simple MacBook, very small, very light. That makes it rather appealing. But I require something with power. This thing.. this couldn't play WoW. All it's good for is sitting here on LiveJournal (or maybe even MySpace or something equally stupid) and listening to music. What a waste. :P What does a person do on the internet anyway? I have no idea what the internet is good for outside of gaming. I can't play WoW. I can't play TF2. I sit here and listen to Pandora.

The Woes of Leaving for Canada
So last night was the last night in maybe a year+ that I will have a movie night with Wren and Claire. Despite me leaving in July, they're going to be gone in less than a week. Seems they're going to Poland and they won't get back till after I leave. :( It was very sad. Wren's two roomates were there with us, and since neither had seen The Goonies, we watched that. Then it was good byes.
Very emotional. It didn't really hit me till afterwards. While I really want to go out to Canada and I want to be out there it requires leaving, well, everyone. Some of you I will probably never see again. My desire to have adventures is not shared by everyone, I guess. :D While it'll be great out there, mountains, camping, moose, wilderness, all sorts of things... It won't be the same as here. :)

In Prep for Canada and Money Problems
Basically, all I have left to is just clean my room out, my car, and pack. I have all my papers together, save my flight info, in a nice little file. Tons and tons of papers I need to bring. Study permit, passport, letter of acceptance, and a copy of the syllabus from every class I ever took in college. I have about ... 80% of them. e-e I'm only missing a few, I don't think that's going to make TOO much of a difference. I need to check if I'm allowed to suitcases or just one. If it's just one... I'm going to have a fun time. Two months out of one suitcase. Not even counting all the cold weather clothes I am going to need. I might as well just buy clothing there. But money is something I never seem to have enough of. At all. Ever. There's only ever so much I can save up. I work 5 days a week and still can ever make barely enough. All I do IS work and theres never money to be had. Effing ridiculous.

so i am just counting down the days (ryan too! he likes to remind me) till i am GONE.
I'll be busy as a bee there.
We'll be going camping Here!
And I was sososososoosososososo close to going to the Olympics. :( We had a place and everything! We were going to see the Luge!

I feel like all I do is work anymore D:!

( omfg i lol so hard at this everytime )

• Mother's Day gift.
• Phone bill.
• Clean everything.
• Look for a CD holder.
• Suitcase?
• Buy plane ticket.
• Where the hell am I living?
• Music.
• Print all information (study permit, acceptance letter, ...) and keep with passport.
• change holder.
• clean car. (lol)
• recipes.

In no particular order. As of right now, I have until July 12th to get this all done. I leave on a Monday. Awesomely, I'll be able to attend the festivities with Ryan when I get there.
I bought my plane ticket. This time I am not flying across Canada, but rather, this time across America. Despite having an additional stop, I hope that this will be easier than last time.
I will be flying from Philadelphia to Chicago (Never been there!) to Seattle (omg~! never been there either :D) to Vancouver to Prince George.


( For those of you who still don't know where I am going )


That's where the university is. I am hoping we'll be able to take some time to go north to the Yukon and also east to various places in Alberta.
I only have so much more time to save money, get things done, etc etc. And then that's it. I'm gone. As in, so long east coast, I'll see you when I see you.
Can't wait!!!



Also, p.s.: Firefly is a great series. :D

wtf
That ending was spectacular.
I fucking loved that series. AMAZING.
A M A Z I N G.

I really want to thank all those people out there who are true, honest, hard at work, selfish pricks.
Really! Life would be so much happier and smoother if it weren't for people like this, so I really have to thank them for SPICING IT UP A LITTLE.
So, good job all you fuckers out there who, even at the end of the day, still have blinders on and feel the earth spins around them. Your commitment to fucking over people is definitely a+.

Also, I don't think that Susan Boyle woman should not have gotten a make over. Really. What was the point.

So, I got started on a new medication. The only side effect is, again, vomiting and weak stomach. But that's much better than anything else. At least I'm losing weight!!! Lol 9_9

Anyways, it's been six months already with Ryan, officially, (as in not counting all of our time before hand, which is wow, a lot). Time flies when realizing I'll be moving in with him in a few months out there in good ol' Canada.
We are debating how I am going to go about bringing my Maya out there (how could I leave her alone over here? And plus, Ryan is absolutely in love with her). Along with my car. This is an odd decision, on the one hand, I need a car out there. Prince George is a large city in the mindset that it's very spread out (very different from any city we're used to here). Bus transportation is, well, not as stellar as here. I think because I'm so used to everything being so... compact here.
We would really like to have him fly over here, and then we can drive it cross countries. This is not a feat I want to do on my own and I would really like for Ryan to be there with me. We had a plan to drive up to NYC (he's never been there before, how exciting!) swing to Ottawa to visit our good friend Arnold and then visit Montreal. Then head out west. Sounds like a plant to me. But, oh, the complications of such. I don't even know where to start. And if we wanted to do this, the tickets would have to be bought... well, now. The urgency of all this. Bah!

Speaking of which, wow, how exciting! Canada again! I loved it out there. How exciting, I'm going to be out there at the same time as the Winter Olympics. HERE I COME SLEDDING COMPETITION.

I'm having some trouble with class pickings, but, that is just a secondary thing. The important thing is that I have enough credits to be full time. Good enough, for now. I just need to be full time and all is good. :) Staying full time nets me the ability to get a job - this is very good. So long as I can have money rolling through.

Currently reinstalling The Orange Box onto my external HD (I had to uninstall it) to give me something to do in my off time. Wootwoot, here I come TF2 and HL2 :D

this song never gets old.
ever.

A few weeks ago my doctor put me on this new pill, called Doxycycline.
At first, I was really quite excited to try it because I'd have liked to have my face cleared up.
well, christ, was I ever wrong.
just even the first week I started it... everything went haywire.
now i've been on it for weeks. and even that is way too long.
this is like depression to the extreme. mood swings like nothing you've ever seen. one moment, everything will be fine, i'll be happy- cheerful- sweet- my usual self, and then the next moment, out of nowhere it's fits of sobbing and hatred.
it's just a constant looming of self-hatred and depression all the time. well, i'm not much of a crier but the desire to do so is ever there. it's not just an emotional thing, it's a psychological and even physiological thing. i can barely breathe, i get so irritable. it's like i want to pick fights over anything. everything! just to fight. just to piss people off. just to cry more. just to hate everything more. i become really very rude and angry. paranoia is constantly on my mind, everyone just hates me and everything they say - even if it's kind - is just a lie anyway. it's like i look for things in people that show that they hate me and then try and point out even the smallest things to prove it. honestly??? honestly.
all my anxieties have been magnified to the nth degree. and then i start to panic.
my head just starts getting dizzy and fuzzy and confused. i can't listen to anything. i can't focus. it all just starts spinning.
when i eat, there's a 50% chance it'll come back up anyway. i'm nauseous the majority of the time.
and it's not ME. at all!
it is driving me absolutely insane. i hate it! i can't live like this at all! i'm at the mercy of some pill that completely altered my brain chemistry.
and worse, it's driving poor ryan insane. but at least he understands that it's not me.

this is the dumbest thing ever.

i think that sometimes we must stop and realize that in every way all people are imperfect and wonderful all at the same time.
that the small quirks and annoyances that we all do is just who we are and that no one has any right to criticize it because it's what makes us both unique and alike.
that we all do these things and how can one person find them self higher than anyone else when we are all fundamentally the same sans experiences.
this i do not know.
i find i cannot hold anything against anyone because that is who they are and they will not change and neither will i so we should all suck up our pride and be kind to those we love and hate.
i kind of like how the world is going to hell, as it were, all of us at the same time because it will then show us that we've become too centered in our own selfishness.
greed has become the norm for all of us, wanting more and more and more, and with all crashing down maybe people will go back to reminding themselves that the world is more beautiful without all the materialism.
imho. but i think this will fall on dead ears.

p.s. there is a morbid cynicism that underlies all of my apathy, compassion, and 'free-spiritedness'. although it can all be considered a contradiction anyway, it's nice to be nice.

Snow! And quite nearly a foot of it! Hurrah! How exciting. :D I'm always up for snow. So I throw on my hoodie and my coat and run out! Naturally, since it snowed quite a bit here, Claire and myself decided this was the perfect opportunity... to go to the beach!
It was cold as anything. Very chilly! We took some pictures and chatted with people skiing down it and then went underneath because it was warmer.
( picture )
Earlier, I had to run to the doctor's. He has started me on this new birth control pill among a plethora of other things! Mayhaps I will be all balanced out and maybe even more wishing, I might finally not look grimy! Now if only I could remember more often to eat, I could set myself straight on my eating habits. I could finally lose some weight, I guess. I am not fat by any means but sometimes I highly dislike how I look. Just, sometimes I get so wrapped up with other things that I forget that I am hungry and then find myself eating at odd hours, if at all. It's a terrible habit I need to shake off, I think. I try to at least drink water a lot, though. At least I won't dehydrate! Lol...
Claire and I also saw Coraline. Fantastic movie. Really great! We didn't get to see it in 3D, though. No no. That privelage was given to the Jonas Brothers. No one, not even the staff, was happy about that.

Well, Rebecca and myself came back from NYC yesterday.
Thankfully, due to the awesomely terrible wording of the official website, my dearest immigration consulate was not there! At all. As in, I could not do anything. Tough luck, come back Monday. And seeing as, no, there isn't anything I can actually do about this in Philadelphia, I must go back to the embassy in NYC. (Fyi: The Philadelphia consulate does not do anything with visas and immigration. What good are they? :P) So, I must either go back on Monday or Tuesday. I must say, I'm really very fortunate that I live so close to NYC that I can just go there on a whim. Apparently, there are only about 6 places in America that I can do this. Spectacularly, 2 of them are very close to here. Viva la tri state area and south Jersey. The other being DC. I have the world at my fingertips here and, really, it's fantastic. Anyone who downs this area is ignorant.
I suppose I can just go by myself to the embassy this time. Thanks for coming, though, Rebecca! It was a lot of fun to spend the day with you! :D
It was a good average busy day there. We only sat down once the entire time there and that was to eat. I searched about 10 or so Starucks for a city mug before I became aware that they changed the design on it. Oops!
Now to just finish out my forms, papers, and financial aid information, I think I'll be pretty set. The last step would be to just purchase my tickets to go there and I am all set and ready to go! Nice.

I am so infinitely happy and, behold!, am proud of myself. It is unbelievable how much so.
I mean I was accepted. Me! I'm not even the most amazing person to live, I'm nothing all too special. I'm just a humble young woman who is merely following her own little dreams in time, in time. And they accepted me. :D

Maybe, you know, it's nothing really that unique but... well, I don't know any other American students accepted into a Canadian university. :P Au revoir, mon America!

Yes, yes, I was accepted into UNBC, out there in the lovely British Colombia. Oh, what a beautiful place that is. Ryan and myself are already getting our hopes sky high, what with making plans and everything. I just hope everything goes well in the end! I'm looking at you, Fafsa. Don't screw around with me again, I mean it. The last time I tried to file one of those, it got all messed up and, alas, I am out of school for another semester. Not that I really mind. You should see my hours at work! Hooo!

But, seriously, this time, I want it filed, and in a nice manner. I also need to find a Canadian embassy, but those should be easy. One should be in either NYC or DC, right? They're both really close, and honestly, I'd rather go to NYC than DC... I haven't been there in a few years, so, it'd be nice to go back up there again. :D? Even if it is to get a study permit.

Oh, I'm so excited~!
These past two weeks have been a tremendous emotional roller coaster ride.

1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me!"
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will post the answers to the questions (and the questions themselves) on your blog or journal.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.


1) If I were a hot dog, and you were hungry, would you eat me?
That is highly offensive and I will not talk to you again until you apologize to me.

2) I love my guitar--and she loves me. Does your guitar love you?
Well, she better. I put an expensive ring on that bitch's finger. I mean, I know I have some mean riffs, but if that's all shes there for, well...

3) Have you ever had a Tullio moment after graduating from high school, and if so, what was it?

Oh my god, many, Mel. Where I sit there chatting or something and then the conversation ends and I will come back to it and be "oh!!! I GET IT." Maybe I did too much acid in the 60s, Mel. One good example would be when I was in Canada and they handed me a slice of pumpkin pie. Oh, did I disagree about this pie. Took me forever to realize that, yes, it was in fact pumpkin.
 

4) I say he needs more head. What do you think?
Don't they all? Or rather, didn't they all? It wasn't often that they needed less head, that's for sure. Maybe Tullio had some underlying consistent overactive libido.

5) Do you ever wonder what happened to that Sherril girl we used to have lunch with way back in the day?
LOL  I wonder that often. Mel! I think we traumatized that poor girl. We were wild, scandalous, pervy art students and were merciless about it.
I bet she ran from MRHS and never looked back after that fateful senior year.

Happy Ox Day!

:D

I have decided that I am happy with my life right now. Of course there are things that could be changed, made for the better, but I believe that all in all I am rather happy. I think it has something to do with the fact that I've found a person I could spend every day, all day (no exaggeration here folks, literally 15 hrs straight) with and never get bored. Even in the midst of the New Years blues where I'm only working 4 hour shifts, I still have tons of hope for what I need to do in the future. Sure, things won't be going this smoothly or fabulously later on, but, regardless, at the moment, I am happy. The world has gotten so much better now that I'm not in high school.
I'll just have to wait for things to crash before, maybe. But until then, look at me look at me just called to say that it's good to be alive in such a small world. :P
Hm, I'm thinking I should exercise more. Not because I need to be thin, but just, you know, why not? I get a decent amount of exercise at my job but it doesn't hurt to up it a little more. I have really toned arms and legs as is.

http://www.underconsideration.com/brandnew/archives/the_sweet_funny_smell_of_coffe.php
Puccinos. That sounds like an awesome coffee shop. Fyi. If not just for the Casablanca reference.

I had something meaningful to post here, or so I thought, but alas! I don't! So, I am going to gush on the awesomeness that is the Refer a Friend program on WoW! The results are in:

Antinomy 80 Human Priest
Maleficia 60 Night Elf Rogue
Avalea 60 Draenei Shaman
Symbiosis 60 Night Elf Hunter
Sheepie 60 Gnome Mage

Wahahahhahaa.
symbiosis is clearly the best name ever for a hunter.
same goes for sheepie for a mage.