You told me to look at the sky

well i'm off on a little adventure tonight. i'll be in seattle till sometime next week so everyone better miss me!
lets hope dont get made too much fun of for my silly accent!

SET YOUR GOALS IS TOMORROW!!!!!!!!
I CANT EVEN HANDLE THIS

whats left to lose, ive done enough and if i fail well then i fail but i gave it a shot, and these last three years, i know theyve been hard but now its time to get out of the desert and into the sun even if its alone. i was on your porch last nite, the smoke it sank into my
skin.

i dont know what else to fucking do. i've tried so hard to be your friend, to make things the way they were but you dont care. its so annoying putting in all this effort with you and getting nothing in return, id love for us to have a friendship but there's only so much rejection a girl can take before she throws in the towel..and the towel is comin off right now.

hey you...you know who you are.

i dont think i can apologize enough for hurting you and not looking back like i did. i knew if i would have done it any other way i wouldnt have been able to and it would have been alot worse. i miss talking to you, i miss your friendship you're a good person..probably way too good for me anyway. seeing you last night and not talking was so hard, especially because it seemed like you didnt even care to talk to me. i deserve that though. anyway im not good at long winded livejournal entries so i'm going to stop here.. i'm so sorry.

nice moustache!
hahahaha

i cant wait till tonight

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK FUCKFUCKUFCKUFKCFUCK I HATE YOU SO MUCH SOMETIMES.

exit my life quietly.

i really like kicking chicks in the head.

fuck new years man.

im so sick of the friends are family i have your back hardcore bullshit.

okay edmonton, what is your deal.

i cant even leave my house without being worried that im going to get stabbed or shot, but i never thought that anything retarded like that would happen to my friends. bear mase isnt tough, and just because you're a dumb bitch who has beef with someone, doesn't give you the right to get your other dumb bitch friends to bear mase mine.

my room smells like rice crispy squares, so now i am going to make some.

yes.

i decided i should go back to school a couple days ago, so i creeped on centre highs website and as it turned out there was registrattion today. so i went and registered, and i start school on monday. brandon might be in one of my classes which would totally fucking rule. i'm actually kinda looking forward to doing something productive with my time for a change. it looks like the next couple months are going to be nothing but school boxing and brandon, but that sounds pretty good to me.

i start boxing tonight!!

so many people have ditched out on my birthday.

fuck aaaaaaalll ya'll.

Longest relationship:
1 year and 2 days

-Shortest relationship?
a couple weeks

-How many people have you broken up with?
all but 2

-How many times have you truly been in love?
i thought i was in love only once

-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you?
1

-Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with?
ya hahahaha

-Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?
sort of

-Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
yeah, im pretty mean sometimes

-Have you ever cried over a boyfriend or girlfriend?
not so much now

-Are you happy being single or in relationships?
i'm happy when i'm single but i get lonely

-Have you ever cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend?
yep

-Have you ever been cheated on?
loooooots

-What is the most important PART of being in a relationship?
showing affection

-What is the worst part of being in a relationship?
jealousy

-Worst relationship(s)?
ALADSIT

-Have you ever had your heart broken?
so bad

-Have you ever broken someones heart?
yep

-Do you talk to any of your exes?
i used to be friends with all of them, but not so much anymore

-What is your ideal boyfriend or girlfriend?
loving but not clingy, not a cheater

-Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
i'm pretty decent

-Have you dated people who were not good to you?
yep

-Have you been in an abusive relationship?
i get punched alot, but its playful haha

-Have you dated someone older then you?
pretty much all the time

-Younger?
ya once, bad idea

-What is one thing that all of your exes had in common?
i dunno

-Have you ever cried yourself to sleep over a boyfriend or girlfriend?
Yes

-When is the last time that you were in a relationship?
right now

-Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
most of the time

-Believe in love at first sight?
No.

-Ever been given an Engagement ring?
No.

-Do you want to get married?
ya someday

-Do you have something to say to any of your exes?
you suck

-Ever stolen someones boyfriend or girlfriend?
i dont think so

-Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?
nope

-Do you believe in true love?
i dunno

-Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
YES
Now repost this as "uncomfortable questions"

I MISS BRANDON WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

boats and excessive drinking are not a good mix.
i puked all over it.
hahahhaha.

i've come to the conclusion that i'm unloveable.