Like, aaaahh, pushit, pushit, watch me work it! I'm perfect!

~~Cut so deep

Wed, 13 Aug 2008 08:00:27 GMT

So, I added everyone in the universe, I don't really know why, when this was an sporadically updated cryptic wank journal. But now I actually use it, far too much, and everything is quite humiliating. I still want to use this journal, and I still like the idea of people I care about being able to understand and give feedback, attention (please know that that is NOT why I write here), comfort, insight, etc.

I deleted almost everyone, but I'll add anyone back (the Sydney rule still applies for most people). I just have this way of justifying things in my head that goes: "Oh, it's okay to show mortifying stuff to people who are either genuinely interested, sincerely concerned, or in it for the lulz, but if they've just added me for politeness or something, then it isn't worth being embarassed if they're not entertained or getting closer".. I don't know. I kept people who commented at some point, but on regularjournal, and MySpace as well, I am occasionally amazed when people I thought ignored or minded me completely, make some observant or lovely remark, and I had no idea.

tl;dr vers. = o shi-, :#, w/e, commentz plz

(they will be screened because I'll be too embarassed by the lack of anything, hah)

* http://raspx.blogspot.com/2007/07/reassembled-pork-rinds_31.html </lj user=vomiting>

Wed, 16 Jul 2008 03:24:30 GMT

"Things Fall Apart" (Substance. Xkcd has it.)

Wed, 16 Jul 2008 01:35:54 GMT

"He offered up visions of the ideal I have always dreamed of, a rich life full of variation, full of intellectual stimulation, a circle of friends around us who are working for a good cause, who want to do something for the world, my indefinable searching and longing would be hanged into a clearly defined duty which is out there, just waiting for me: to make me happy! If only I could take the step, why does my heart feel numb when I think of him?"

This post has no content! I just wanted to put it on the main page! Absolutely No Content!

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 10:42:42 GMT

old flocked page (kept for the lulz)

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 05:16:13 GMT