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and point it home.

Because I feel like it;


Pretty words.


I think I went on vacation and left a shell behind:


School's like this:


Love life's like this (hahah):


but in sum! This is one of the best advice I've ever heard too:

There are various reasons as to why I write, ocassionally it's an attempt to preserve a fleeting memory, sometimes it is to get rid of angry thoughts in my mind.

"Now that I've written it down & stored it somewhere, I can give myself permission to forget them." Something to that effect, at least that's how I reason things out.

Gratitude. I hope that is the reason why I write from now on; trivial things that add up to so much more.

This blog has been a myriad of memories, mostly bittersweet.
In my own way, I am letting go, university awaits.

So goodbye to the last two years then. <3

"Enough. We don't want any more skinny lattes, we want an old-fashioned cup of tea."

I've been reading all sorts of random lately, what's new right?
Warren Buffet & how to invest, Anne Frank's diary entries & this majorly unconventional book entitled:

The 7 Bad Habits of Highly Ineffective People.

which happens to be darn funny. Antithesis of the modern world I guess.

Tuition has been really fulfilling as of now. Boy sends me lolipops made of cookies (I wished I took pictures but I was so hungry). A giant cookie equivalent of those found in Subway outlets, insert a satay stick & decorate with m&ms. It was darn cute.

Which is why although I think I will go a little crazy trying to juggle 4-5 part time jobs, at least for Semester 1, I really don't want to give anything up. Insane streak of luck really, every single one of the past three interviews I went for offered me a job.

They mean more to me than just income & I've come to appreciate the beauty of their innocence. In a way, they remind me of what I've lost & I've found these qualities in them again. Kids. When they don't annoy you = <3

The dust is finally settling, with regards to university choices & such. I'm glad. Not a very patient person in particular & the uncertainty of the entire ordeal tires me out. Was glad to crash food fair at Expo with Nat and have her drive me around Singapore. Hanging out with Kaili while trying to explore the various nooks and crannies of NUS was fun. Coach's farewell party, class marathon, NP squad dinner and the like. Chilling out in Cel's room tonight with much teasing and odd music mix. The holiday has been fantastic for catching up with important people.
That said though, I can't wait for school to start.

I'm running out of things to say hmm.

Random musings ahead.

At my funeral I would like the following to happen:

1) Apple juice in champagne glasses for everyone.
2) New york cheese cake as food.
3) Screening of a monochrome film (I haven't decided which yet, any suggestions?)
4) Humour me by bringing a stalk of white tulip each as a present please.

Personal experience from attending a funeral lately;
I think I would rather others celebrate my life than mourn the loss of it.

So now you guys know what to do :D

Thank you VJSG; DOUBLE CHAMPIONS, BATCH OF 0809
& these are the things dreams are made of.

Perhaps it was the electrifying atmosphere at the stadium, or how I would literally feel chills down my spine with every superb pass and tackle, or maybe it's simply my heart beating in tandem with the fast paced movements of their feet; Juniors, we are so freaking proud of you guys.

That was beautiful football today, Jogabonito indeed. Defending and attacking as one, getting back up (Grace Ling damn funny) after multiple slides, cramps, having faith in each other. <3

Moments I cherish:

1) Lorena crying for quite a bit after you guys won. She was super touched and happy okay : D That girl is damn cute.

2) Never thought I would hear this but Jiemin said simply: "We missed you all."
Though I had to tiptoe to hug my mentor, did so most happily and conveniently interrupted her conversation with Sneha. Then afterwards in an attempt to hug Bethany, almost fell over. Damn tall ah these chopstick sisters.

She has opened up so much & I'm really so happy and proud for her. (My vocabulary fails me now.)

3) The classic prayer circle. It is a perfect symbol of peace and gratitude to me. To do it together as five generations was awfully special and I hope the wish I made comes true. Seeing Tano's tears linger on the pavement and Ren crying on the other side, I'm so grateful to be part of this entire journey.

4)Hugging mentee and having her say: "For you."
Can't quite say how much these two words mean to me.
One of the best presents I'll ever receive.

5) Waxing LaoDa aka Yi Xiu, in an attempt to get rid of the tape around her ankles. Although it's quite mean, watching her cringe in pain is super hilarious.

6) Watching Ren run on the other side in her red shirt, holding a communication device, like Mr Cheong did for our batch. Your presence really helps, that I can say from experience.

7) Getting teased by the J1 next to me, this closeness that I could rarely find in NPCC is everywhere in VJSG.

8) Watching Xin kneel and pray before she was substituted in, the epitome of faith and humility.

9) I panicked because Coach asked for Jiemin's inhaler. You should have seen my face.

10) Sherlyn complaining cause I looked emo (WHAT TO DO, I WAS SO TOUCHED I CRY ALSO OKAY) at the end of the match & laughing at me.

11) Kissing Aline's medal (they are darn pretty) and grinning away when she declared proudly that she could slide now. I've competition now hahah.

12) Seeing the two (Jolyn/ Jolene)s as photographers, clad in their black jerseys, it's fantastic that they still ended up on the pitch during finals.

13) Though we don't expect anything when we go down and support you guys, because seeing you guys play is reward itself, it still feels amazing when you do thank us personally. So thank you Year Twos and in particular Wanxin, Grace Su, Lisa. <3

14) Mr Seet and his interesting honking device, talking to Miss Chia and grinning madly away at Mr Wong and Mr Teo. The teachers were there in full force.

15) Potz struggling with two coconuts, me carrying two bottles and a slightly leaky cup of starfruit juice and both of us laughing as we brought back drinks. Semi-disastrous trip as we had to fight the crowd on the way back.

16) Sam removing her SAJC tie as a sign of neutrality, love my mentee man. It's already been one year and a half, thank you for standing by our side. June date, I promise.

17) A year ago, Nat cried and bit on her gold medal and asked: "Is it real?" and today she's filming and running about and serving once again as a coach. MUCH LOVE NAT.

18) I bet no one knows this, but soccer is a great studying motivation. I used to lock myself up in the VJ library and study till I went numb from the cold; with every study break I would look at you guys (batch 0809!) training on the pitch and feel rejuvenated, you guys gave me the energy to continue for hours on end. We were working together on reaching our goals.

19) Coach having us sit down together outside Jalan Besar where we caught up as a epic huge family spanning five generations. Soaking up the atmosphere of general joy and relief, you get refreshed just by watching these people enjoy the victory they so rightfully earned.

20) Batch dinner was damn fun. Shall not say too much hahah for fear of being politically incorrect. : D

Randomly, YICHI this is why you should watch BoF:
Major eyecandy, be it the actors, the clothes or the set.

This year, I can do no more than don yellow braces for you guys.
All the best juniors, batch of 0809, no regrets.
GOOD LUCK MUCH LOVE!!!<3

Can't quite believe I wrote this a year ago, feels like just yesterday:

I’m at quite a loss for words honestly.
As the mentee puts it adequately, “too much things happened this week.”
How it honestly feels like winning the Championship:
Reflective.

Joy yes, pure undiluted joy came the moment Wanxin struck the penalty shot.
Think Jolyn’s photograph captured the team in its insane heart stopping moment well.
Can’t stop staring at it actually. The black white counterpart dons my phone’s screensaver.
I look as if I was going to clap, I can’t remember.
Peiqi’s arm is raised up in a “Yes!” Bethany and Azlin are jumping so high up together.
Jiemin and Graceling are both moving forward, almost swept into a whirlwind of their emotion.
Sneha’s back is turned, Nat and Kuan Ren were out of the screen.
The Victorian crowd behind, was insane.
They were insane from the very beginning when we were doing our warm-ups on the pitch, right in the damn middle circle, as in your face was we could get.
Its strange how much one feels like crying when one is so happy.
For every single aching hour one has spent on the pitch, for every quiet moment at night that you’ve spent thinking of the past and pondering about the future. For all the sweat blood and tears.

Thank you girls (:
Thank you not for the gold medals around our necks. Thank you for the countless moments of joy and laughter, where we retardedly played mini golf, where the bathing gang had to chase peiqi out of the toilet on a every other night basis, for clearing up & food factory people hahah :D For the J2s who watched me fall, crash and helped me back up on to my feet. The times where my wretched self had no clue how to play football, who screwed up so badly that I was reduced my mere tears on the sidelines, inadequate and helpless.

I’m not nor will ever be the most talented of players. It takes me many lightyears to learn what others easily master (hahah honestly.) and I guess what kept me going was how much the Coach never ever gave up on you. The more inspiring movies he lets us watch, the more I realise how much he has changed in order to make us change. Last year, as a substitute, even before the Saints scored the goal we were already crying, an inevitable sense of doom on the bench. This year, we somehow knew we were going to get it back. Even with an early goal from the Saints, we were cool on the bench, relaxed during half-time. True enough, we equalised. I think that belief made all the difference, you know?

I have a bad feeling that Chinese characters will turn out funny on LJ.
The singer happens to be eyecandy too :D



HAHA WHY DOES ONLY JON UNDERSTAND MY FASCINATION WITH THIS?

歌曲：乌云然
歌手：胡歌
专辑：出发

英雄剑起了风尘
在一望无垠的荒漠
心若重生

梦不断地延伸
谁遥望着故土中原
用一生不停地追问
情归何方曲为谁唱

轻纱随风难解思念的伤
英雄伤心为谁几度情长
琴声不断与谁今生共赏
音未觉纵马置身疆场

这一生为谁刻下伤痕
千年的武功豪情划破长空
梦不断英雄侠义柔肠
伊人终相伴对酒笑谈江山




这一生为谁刻下伤痕?

Oh it seemed forever stopped today
All the lonely hearts in London
Caught a plane and flew away.

While we were doing a problem sum where the protagonist spent two-fifths of her money on an evening gown, he asks:

"What is an evening gown?"
"Is it what the nurses and doctors wear to work?"

Primary kids are so darn cute.
Mcfly songs make me happy.

& as mentee and I concluded:
'There's a difference in being alone and being lonely.'

I fail to understand how one could want to win so badly that injuring opponents intentionally as a strategy is justified. What if that player can't play sports ever again? How do you make up for something like that? Where is your morality?

I shall quote Kant (although he is rather out of my league.)
Fiat justitia, pereat mundus
("Let justice be done, though the world perish")

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
'Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
It's the better thing to do

On opening a cafe:
Chan: "I can cook, and Yici can bake. Tristan will be your front man, Dan's so cute, she can be the waitress. You can do the... accounts."

On pool:
The white ball skipped over the minefield of his striped ones, landed neatly next to my blue one and pocketed it into the corner hole. After we both blinked incredulously at the pool table and collapsed into laughter:

Me: Beginner's luck : D
Chan: WTF.

On army:
jonathan:
but my bunk nice la

jonathan;
got sea view

jonathan;
can see sunset

jonathan;
can hav sea breeze

jonathan;
night time stars damn nice

A falling star, lest I fall alone.
haha LIKE CONDO :D

A falling star, lest I fall alone.
NATURAL AIR : DD

jonathan;
basket

jonathan;
wednesday night like hurricane

jonathan;
i lost my socks and singlet

jonathan;
blow dno go where

A falling star, lest I fall alone.
SEW YOUR NAME :D