Current mood:

worried

Oh God (or who ever that is listening)
This night I met my friend, E. She has moved to Uppsala to study to become something within church. Most likely. She is studying at a Christian school. a part of the big university in Uppsala. Tonight we were talking about arranged marriages. I don't like that. She isn't totally against it. If I got it right. i think it's awful to take some other person's right to chose. Awful. But she thinks that parents chose good, the best for their children. I guess they chose what THEY think is best for their child. But that DO NOT meant that it's the RIGHT thing for the child. She means that if you ask many arranged marriages women they will say that it's the best thing ever. But I believe that is because they don't know what it's like to chose by your self. My parents want my best, and what is best for me. But it doesn't meant that they know what is best for me. I guess they wouldn't have chose that I went to Germany. My mom didn't want that. They doesn't always know what is best for us. 

Ok one thing I have been thinking about is: who was first, Jay Leno (or Tonight show, 'cause he wasn't the first host), David Letterman or Conan O'Brien? I like Jay the most, Conan is just screaming, and over silly sometimes. And David Letterman...he just look so creepy, I don't like him.

Mom and dad was, and still are fighting over the same thing as always. That dad doesn't help around the house. It always starts with a calm discussion, where mom uses her calm, I'm not angry-voice. I hate it, like she is really showing, look I'm not angry, faking so soft. But I don't she is faking it, it just makes me irritated. And I guess it has fulfilled the purpose. And then dad gets a bit more irritated and mom gets and ordinary voice. And then they get more irritated and angry and it ends with accusations that mom is just dwell on the same thing and dad is being unreasonable. Which I think he is often. And mom sometimes. But anyway, this thing they are talking about now usually ends in tears. More then one time. And I hate it, I just wish that they could get along, 'cause I don't think mom can take so much more. I'm scared. 19 soon 20 and scared of you-know-what. I just wish that they could solve this...