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Sunday, August 27th, 2006
10:24 pm
What am i doing with my life

Diabetes = Almost DEAD...



Current Mood: scared
Tuesday, July 25th, 2006
8:51 am
Nobody sees when you are lying in your bed
And I wanna crawl in with you
But I cry instead
I want your warm
But it will only make me colder when it's over
So I can't tonight, baby

No, not "baby" anymore, if I need you
I'll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we'll only have to wave

My hand won't hold you down no more
The path is clear to follow through
I stood too long in the way of the door
And now I'm giving up on you

No, not "baby" anymore, if I need you
I'll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we'll only have to wave

No, not "baby" anymore, if I need you
I'll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we'll only have to wave








so hurt ... and pathetic ...



Current Mood: lonely
Wednesday, July 19th, 2006
12:41 pm
i think that im lost my mind... 
i really sound  pathetic but right now i dont have anyone or thing to vent to .
im gone.. numb if you will
i thought that i would never be this hurt again... but this time its worse and i dont know if i can handle the pain any more ...
 i started work again on monday after not sleeping at all sunday night.. it was an ok day a side from what happen the night before but thats all i could think about and thank god all we did was fill out paper work. i went home from work and grier came over and we hung out like nothing had happen it was like we were est friends and then he had to go and i got upset and i just dont know how it handle this..
tuesday was a   typical day at City Year we had work shops on what they expect of us and how we are the new role models  for the in comming corps... then i went home and amber came over and we listened to sad songs and cried together for a few hours because we are in the same situation kinda. 
i went to bed around 3 last night witch is the earilyest since this whole thing has happen... and today i kept falling asleep at work... hopefully this litter of diet pepsi will wake me up
after lunch we are doing team building witch should be fun and will hopefully for once take my mind of things...

i feel so alone ...what a great way to start off the year... 


i want you back and cant do this with out you...

Current Mood: crushed
Thursday, July 13th, 2006
1:02 am

Love is a Battlefield



Current Mood: crazy
Thursday, July 6th, 2006
4:28 pm
i told myself i wouldn't miss you
but i remembered
what it feels like beside you
...

Current Mood: lonely
Wednesday, July 5th, 2006
11:20 am

Things did not seem to be working out ...

     I was doubting
              u were doubting

 in the end 


I LOVE YOU



Current Mood: loved
Tuesday, June 27th, 2006
6:24 pm
That familiar song come on ... i miss you





Boy oh boy do i miss camp. i feel like im having to deal with too much shit that i just am not old enough for... and i NEVER thought i would feel that way. it seems like the grass is always greener on the other side... why does camp seem so green this year??? i had the worst summer of my life last year and told myself i would never go back... yet here i am in my empty apartment about to be homeless wishing i was there... i would rather be there then anywhere right now...

on another note... ill be homeless as of the 1st of july ... unless i find a place in the next few day witch does not seem likely...

YOU are the LOVE of my life ... so why do i miss her so much???

confusion...


i feel like life is on fast forward... its going way to fast and i cant catch up...




i start work the 17 of july... maybe ill have time to come visit camp.. i hope i can... not like many people would enjoy seeing me... i just need the smell and the feeling of camp right now... to SLOW down my life.





Current Mood: discontent
Wednesday, May 24th, 2006
4:44 pm
And when i look up....
i Trip over things...

Current Mood: crappy
Saturday, April 15th, 2006
5:55 pm
a lot has happen...
a week or two ago i went in to the hospital cuz i was in dka..it sucked...
i went back 3 days later cuz they told me to.. and Grier came with me .. it was cute .. but my heart rate was crazy so i was there for like 5 hours again... that sucked..
but since then things have been going good.
there is a HUGE service project going on at work and me and a co worker of mine are completely in charge of it ... so it stressful but things are doing well and it should be a good day.

i really feel like i had a lot more to say but i seem to be at a loss for words...

i miss everyone like crazy and im sorry if i have not been able to be there for you to talk or any of that fun stuff ... but really i just have not had the time...


P.s im staying in BOSTOn next year ... i got the job and its going to be an amazing year!


leave the love ... i miss you all


Current Mood: content
Thursday, November 24th, 2005
11:18 am
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