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[17 Aug 2005|03:55am]
hangin out with frankie fitz tomorrow.
matt died on me tonight.
im a big bag.
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blah blah [17 Aug 2005|12:11am]
at jessies house =) oh yay.
not much to update about.
no more dave.
hooked up with matt.
dont know whats going on between us.
ill just have to find out.
i think i like him tho.
i miss him =/
well i might see him wendesday.
who knows.
thats all for now.

eek [01 Oct 2004|07:45am]
i give matt 4 days or less to ask me out. he told me wed nite, that he likes me a lot and im girlfriend material. ahh i heart the shit out of him <33. i didnt even talk to him cuz i fell asleep =( im gonna call him when i get home cuz hell probably be on break. but if not ill shower and call him at3. i miss him..wooo =)<333

school [21 Sep 2004|08:00am]
[ mood | sore ]

yeah i tried updatin this weekend, but it didnt work out so well.
yeah my weekend was interesting. im now officially pimp cuz of the vagina commando shit.
so yeah friday night was fun. matt came and got me and we smoked in the woods with two of his buddies. then me and him went to his house and listened to music and yea.........
lol im a "ferocious sex kitten" ahahhaah
saturday sucked. got drunk and made a complete ass of myself. yeah. lol woop
i didnt do much sunday cuz i had work =/
i really dont know what to say. i cant wait to get my comp back so can make a new journal.
noah has a jumbo weiner...


hope this works [22 Aug 2004|12:46am]
[ mood | chipper ]

it might not since jessies comp can be poop =/
i have been a lot happier lately. i actually feel like i have friends. its wierd. people actually ask me to hang out with them, not the other way around. i love that. i havent felt this good in a long time. =)=)=)
now i kinda have a feeling that this year just might be a good one.
since im on a good note. im sorry to anyone ive done wrong too. i just want to start over with a clean slate with everyone. i know for a while i was nothing but a big bitch. i want to change that. i hope i can
well ill end this while its still workin
this journal has to be backdated for somereason this is really the entry for august 22 at 1246 pm


grr [21 Aug 2004|11:04am]
i had this whole entry typed in and it dissapeared on me! just about last night, how im gonna miss kurtis. yada yada

porbably the last time i can update in a while [02 Aug 2004|02:55pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

i know noone reads this anyway, but im just writing to get some feelings out.
i kinda want to go home, i miss it, i miss my bed, i miss my house, my mommy, my blankie.. everything. it sucks.
and i was loooking at journals and i just read how everyone has like a life and so many friends, what do i have? whats the problem with me? for some reason or other, nobody wants to be my friend. noone ever wants to call me or hang out with me. its like everyone hates me or something and i dont know why. i try my best to be nice to everyone. i just flip out sometimes since i have noone to talk to. i guess thats why kim krezel says im an arrogant bitch. i dont mean to be. i cant be arrogant. i have nothing to be that way about. i might come off that way to her, but i would never mean to act that way. im no better than anyone else, im probably worse. i am a bitch ill give her that. and im sorry to all of those i have hurt, or done something wrong to. i dont know why im apologizing in here, since noone reads it.
the only people who want anything to do with me are dave and matt zamora. matts a really nice guy. i talked to hime for like almost 3 hours last night. hes so easy to talk to about anything. hes always willing to listen, after all that i did to him. hes gonna call me so metime after i come home. im glad he wants to talk to me. i enjoy talking to him.
oh frankie fitz did ask me to hang out with him yesterday, but i wont be home too, and he doenst really want to so i probably never will.
i just want someoone, someone who i can call my friend. who is always there and always wants to hang out and have fun. like the friend i used to have. i used to always have somewhere to go or something to do, coz someone would want to hang out with me. i miss that. i miss hvaing a life. instead now, i just sit at home everyday waiting for dave to get home from work. i like hanging out with dave and all, but i would like a friend to occasionally hang out with.
i guess thats all. im just gonna play with saide now. i love that little cute shit.

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poop [01 Aug 2004|08:04pm]
so im updating for the last time coz we got to joeys apt tomorrow. blah
not really much to say, my day sucked. i have a feeling the rest of the week will too =/. plus the fact i got my fuckin period and i feel like shit. i kinda wanna go home already.
blah i guess thats all for now.
see ya when i get my computer fixed. hhahaha

pottstown [01 Aug 2004|09:55am]
i can actually update since im in pottstown. my little niece is sick and shes all crying. i feel soo bad =/
yeah well theres really nothing to 'update' about. i have no life whatsoever and no friends. life sucks, but get over it, right?
i could talk bout my weekend.
friday was wierd.. we were doin all this shit gettin readt to go to this kids house. when we finally got there i got in a huge fight with dave. "im a psycho" shit happens. but when we got inside, it was odd. monnie was there and he all higged me and shit, since when does he hug me? lol but anyway we played lots of beer pong. well, smirnoff pong in my case. we had a lot of fun. dave was all passed out for the most part of the night. after all the fun was finished me and harry were just sittin there doing absolutely nothing, i was soo bored. then dave finally woke up and took me to 711. then we went hos car and went to his house and slept there.
yesterday, i came home and joey and dee came over. i went to the movies with dave and justin. we saw the village. it sucked soo bad. fuck the village. then we got 10cent wings. which some how came to fuckin $7.70. who knows how. then i went home and babysat. all three of them. noah, sadie, and riley. thta was hard. dave and justin came over and helped me out a little bit. when joey and dee got home, we tried to get the kids to settle down coz we had to wake up early. i got no sleep though. o well
and here i am today. i know wetre goin to the mlal later, but i have no money whatsoever. what can ya do? i NEED a job.
well i guess thats all for now.
peace BITCHES!!
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poop [14 Jun 2004|02:01pm]
[ mood | blah ]

yeah i kinda have a crush on somebody.. most people know who it is, but im not gonna mention any names. i know ive hooked up with him before, but i wanna be like "hooking up" with him so i know it will happen again. blah. =/ he said that he likes me, but im not so sure it was the truth and i actually think he might have a gf now anyway. poop. another thing is, hes really affectionate, and i really like that about him. its cute <33 and most guys arent like that. its wierd tho coz i just started likin him out of nowhere. but i started to really like him. bah. i dont want to say anything to him, coz if he doesnt like me, or has a gf. hed be like wow ya freak . I HATE BOYS.. ALL OF THEM!! grr
since mr. riley left, im stuck sulking in his room just thinkin bout all the poo in life. theres not much that goes on that isnt poo. its just easier to think about the poo. lol
man it feels like forever since i updated this piece (other then the entry i made like 10 minutes ago).
aww on mr rileys desk i just found the valentine i gave him lol. the blues clues one. aww yay he still has it. i feel loved <33.
god i am so bored there is absolutely, positively nothing to do here.

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wow [14 Jun 2004|01:41pm]
[ mood | bored ]

yeah haven upstated this shindig in a while. i cant go online at my house. im at school right now coz my mom is doin the senior portraits thing. im here til 3:30. then i have to go home and call kurt. i wonder if hell want to hang out. he looked really cute today.
so im in mr rileys room just listenin to him play guitar. hes rockin out. lol
so yeah i dyed my hair again.. its so perdy.. its red with blonde highlights. i heart it.
i start my new job wednesday. holla.
blah im bored


oi!!!!!!!!! [28 Apr 2004|11:40am]
man o man! i have to pee soo bad!!it hurts. i came to mr heffners room coz were takin a test in bio and i refuse to take it. plus, i love mr. heffner <33 hes a sweetie.
anyway. lunch was some hectic shit lol.
dave said im pullin shady shit!! ha. hes a fuckin trip.
i havent been on here in like ages, but wut can ya do? eh? (wow that wasnt canadian or anything)my comp is so broken. it sucks so bad, i miss goin online. i never get to talk to anybody anymore. =/

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oh goodness [16 Apr 2004|02:39pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

i know i havent updated in 80 year, but my comp at home is broke and i cant go online.
i got back from my trip and didnt wanna go to english so i came to the library. ha, wut fun??
im goin to the show tonight. yumm. i wanna find out how jess is gettin there. i dont wanna walk.

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[05 Mar 2004|10:45pm]
wow. havent updated in a while. my computer has been acting very gay lately, so therefore i havent had a chance to come on. blah gotta go
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yum [27 Feb 2004|09:56am]
im in mr rileys room and everyone is copying notes. im gonna get them from harold, when everyone is done. brr its always soo cold in here.
were goin to hp tonight and were gonna get effed up.. holla!
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[24 Feb 2004|10:59pm]
work was pretty good tonight. mustafa gave me a dollar =) hes a good guy.
dave is sleeping. what poo! i thought maybe he had woken up and came online, but i guess not so i shall go now.

blah [24 Feb 2004|10:37am]
im in mr rileys room just being bored. i havent updated in like forever so i figured i would. why not right? things arent too shabby right about now.. ell thebet tmight ring soon, so im gonna go.. adios.. i might update some time tonight. if i dont ill try to do it soon.

[17 Feb 2004|01:06pm]
lindsay never came.. POOP ON HER!!!
so this period is over in a few. so later!
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blah [17 Feb 2004|12:23pm]
im in the library again trying not to go to spanish because i didnt do my spanish project. =) hehe. im also waiting for ms. lindsay to come and sit with me. she better get her butt here soon. muah hah hah!!

blah [08 Feb 2004|09:44pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]

ew.. i was kinda-sorta molested today at work. (i dont know if this is exacty molestation but it was horrible!!) alright, i was standin there and this really nasty guy named bob walked over to me (hes a 54 year old delivery man) and he hugged me so i was like uh.. ok?? but then he started trying to kiss my neck. it wasnt even like a peck or anything. i felt his fuckin tounge on my neck!! what the fuck was he thinkin?? i was soo fuckin scared i pushed him away and ran behind mustafa (hes a big tall cook at my work.. hes my buddy). i am soo repulsed. he might get fired coz dash said "he attacked one of his most precious employees" lol. ugh i feel so violated and icky, not just that it happened,but it was a fuckin 54 year old man. ugh i wanna shoot myself.
ahh but mustafa is a great great guy and made me feel a lot better. he just happened to have some alcohol that he decided to share with me.. i got a lil tipsy so i felt much better, but still not soo good right now.
work was pretty slow. so that part wasnt bad.
that was pretty much my day, sucks huh?? hopefully tomorrow will be better. =/

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