Why I left the house show in Boston without playing.
It was a tricky situation. I was promised a clean safe room in the house to stay in with my baby, while the loud music was happening downstairs. There was no safe place to be with her. The upstairs room they told us we could go to was disgusting and people were smoking weed in there. Every other room was packed and loud and lots of people were really drunk. I had to get my baby somewhere that I felt comfortable having her. I am sorry that some people are disappointed in me, but my baby is the most important thing in my life and her well being has very top priority over any show and anyone's opinion of me. I was totally mislead as far as what I was told. Trust me I feel horrible. I didn't leave just to be a bitch or a diva. I left feeling like total shit. I was sad to leave and I am still sad. I really wanted to play a show tonight, besides the show at the store. I wouldn't just leave unless I felt I really had to. It was not an okay environment for kids, bottom line.
Sincerely,
Kimya

p.s. I have gotten some mean messages tonight saying it is my fault because I posted the address of the house online. I was never told not to. If someone had said that to me I would have found somewhere else to play. I would absolutely not have set up an exclusive private show in Boston for just a small group of friends. I would have found someplace else to play. And regardless, that doesn't change the fact there was not a room ready for baby.

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	xxxooolisa 2008-01-18 07:06 am UTC (link)
	love love love love love love kimya. i only hope you are safe and well now. i'm sure you know, but your concerns are what matter most. <3 (Reply to this)(Thread)

(no subject) - silkov, 2008-01-19 04:08 pm UTC

	ravendark122ils 2008-01-18 07:08 am UTC (link)
	It's cool. (Reply to this)

	oh_anna_awesome 2008-01-18 07:12 am UTC (link)
	I have a baby friendly room waiting for you on the west coast ;) (Reply to this)

	tlrx 2008-01-18 07:13 am UTC (link)
	hey, safety is the most important thing. shame on anyone who is sending you mean messages. (Reply to this)

Perfectly understandable.... revmannix138 2008-01-18 07:14 am UTC (link)

My son is the reason I couldn't make it out to any of your brooklyn shows, I really hope you come back around here soon, or if you're driving through Jersey and wanna stop by and sing a little, I'll cook you dinner! Haha, thanks, and sorry to hear the bad news, anyone who could be mad at you really needs to stop being selfish and ignorant, I mean, it says more than enough about you that you're willing to come out so far with her to make some other people happy, that much alone is appreciated. You need a hug. (Reply to this)

	sleepwalk_er 2008-01-18 07:14 am UTC (link)
	I respect your decision to leave. In fact, that doesn't sound like a good environment for Panda, so any good mom would do the same thing. You guys sending rude messages- come on. (Reply to this)

	overgrowth 2008-01-18 07:16 am UTC (link)
	you did the right thing. i'm sorry to hear that you had to be put in a situation like that... i hope you found a safe place for you and panda to sleep. you don't deserve to be antagonized for the choices to made here. you're an amazing mother. (Reply to this)(Thread)

(no subject) - overgrowth, 2008-01-18 07:23 am UTC

saracowgirl 2008-01-18 07:16 am UTC (link)

Seconding what everyone else said. You need to take care of your own well being and Panda's well before anyone elses desire to hear music. I'm sorry you were misled and felt unsafe. No matter how upset people were, I can't imagine that it compares to how upset you felt bringing your kid into an unsafe enviornment after being told that you would have a safe space. Chin up lady. You know in your heart what you need and that is what makes you amazing! (Reply to this)

	staybrutal 2008-01-18 07:25 am UTC (link)
	I'm sorry about that! That's such a shitty position they put you in. I'm sure people will understand because you're an amazing person for having taken your child out of that environment. (Reply to this)

	rideon 2008-01-18 07:26 am UTC (link)
	Anybody worth their salt should understand that your child's safety is more important than ANYTHING else. Period. Don't give the mean messages another second of your energy. (Reply to this)

	andychan428 2008-01-18 07:26 am UTC (link)
	wow...that sounds horrible. you definitely did the right thing by getting out of there...that doesn't sound safe for either of you. feel better soon. (Reply to this)

	makememistakes 2008-01-18 07:28 am UTC (link)
	Well, for what it's worth seeing you once tonight left we with a surplus of warm fuzzy feelings. Anyone who would expect you to put anything before the welfare of your child needs their head checked. (Reply to this)

	bookishvirgo 2008-01-18 07:28 am UTC (link)
	You did the right thing. You were being a responsible parent and I'm sorry to hear how the place was misleading. (Reply to this)

	skaman2 2008-01-18 07:30 am UTC (link)
	You did the right thing. I hope you're not put in that position ever again. =( Much love. (Reply to this)

analkant 2008-01-18 07:40 am UTC (link)

sad that that happened. next time, ask me. my friends who live in a church wished you had played there because it would have been perfect (it would have). it was nice to see you. great set and thanks for playing every song ever. and congratulations on your increased popularity. you deserve it and you earned it the best possible way. and you didn't even have to sell songs to ads to get it. you are an inspiration. (Reply to this)(Thread)

(no subject) - mesahomie, 2008-01-20 12:12 am UTC

	mandapop 2008-01-18 07:45 am UTC (link)
	aww don't kick yourself about it... the owners of the house should have taken you more seriously about the baby room... and they should have set rules on how many people could come in. there will be other shows! :o (Reply to this)

	hushitsasecret 2008-01-18 07:46 am UTC (link)
	oh gosh, that's sad! makes me wish I was still living in Boston, I would have totally provided a baby safe, happy environment! (Reply to this)

	sinfulservent 2008-01-18 07:48 am UTC (link)
	I support your choice. No one should berate you for what you did...that sounds like a terrible position to be put in! <33 (Reply to this)

noddemix 2008-01-18 07:52 am UTC (link)

well, now a comment from someone who was actually there. i understand your need to keep your baby safe, and i don't think anyone will argue with you there. here's a few things to keep in mind though: it is really awful to pin this on the kids who set up this show. i do not know them personally, but a friend of mine does, and that is how we found out about the show. they wanted the thing to be quiet, they definitely didn't want it to be publicized and they made that very clear. the entire thing was intended to be a POTLUCK ... not a crazy house party. the people who were there and smoking cigarettes and whatever, those are the people that found out about your show through last.fm and other internet avenues, which all came from your journal. so maybe you didn't know that a basement show in boston was supposed to be hush, especially with you being a lot more famous now, but yeah. that's how it was supposed to go, it was not supposed to happen as it did. i spoke with one of the dudes who lives there and they were overwhelmed, as it was there house filled with tons of strangers, and they didn't know what to do, but didn't have the heart to turn anyone away. the reason people are saying mean things to you and about you doesn't have so much to do with the fact that you didn't play the show. i think that, even in the heat of the moment, people could understand your intentions. it is the fact that you left without a word to the ton of people who had paid to see you. not paid - donated. almost every single person who walked through those doors paid a suggested donation to you. and what did you do? you left without a reason, without saying goodbye, without even making an appearance. what's also funny is that everyone saw panda and the dude who was with her in the kitchen for a while, but you definitely weren't there. you just left without saying ANYTHING, a thank you, an apology. you didn't even talk to the kids in the house! the dude i talked to who lives there was so so so super bummed out. he was just like, 'man, she didn't even thank us.' it was upsetting. you could have handled the situation in a better way, and everyone would have understood and respected you for it. people are angry because you went about it in that way. i also think that reading this post makes the whole thing that much more awful, because you are pinning it on the wrong parties. these kids just tried to do something awesome and it got messed up. it was not handled in the correct way, as they definitely should have turned people away when they saw the house filling up. i guess all parties involved could have handled this in a much better way. i do respect your motherly obligations, of course i do, and i am not trying to be disrespectful. just attempting to clear things up, i guess. (Reply to this)(Thread)

(no subject) - kimya_dawson_, 2008-01-18 08:14 am UTC

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(no subject) - noddemix, 2008-01-18 08:47 am UTC

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(no subject) - bergenboi, 2008-01-24 07:36 am UTC

(no subject) - kimya_dawson_, 2008-01-18 02:42 pm UTC

yes - zackwolk, 2008-01-18 10:48 pm UTC

(no subject) - supercrush, 2008-01-18 02:55 pm UTC

	grandpas_weiner 2008-01-18 08:18 am UTC (link)
	well. i am sorry it was stupid. but i am glad that i finally got to meet you. you are so cute and sweet. i just want to eat you. next time i will make you something that isn't a sweet! : ) EEEE> (Reply to this)(Thread)

(no subject) - kimya_dawson_, 2008-01-18 08:22 am UTC

	geeveecatullus 2008-01-18 09:17 am UTC (link)
	Sounds like a horrid day for you. Feel better! (Reply to this)

Your brooklyn concert at Europa! (Anonymous) 2008-01-18 09:17 am UTC (link)

I last year became a really huge fan of yours and I went to your concert on Wednesday night and I just wanted to let you know you are amazing! So so so unbelievably amazing! After the show my friend and I got to see your daughter up close and I just would like to let you know that she is so beautiful and amazing. She was playing with the buttons and helping your husband place the cds and such on the table. Panda is most important! I agree with you 100% that it was no environment for that precious child! You are amazing and I hope that you come to NY more often because I will attend every single show I can! You're great! JZ :) (Reply to this)

yakmilk 2008-01-18 10:13 am UTC (link)

I wasn't let in to your show at Newberry Comix, which is ok I guess. Mostly because I can't stand newberry comix. but I was very disappointed. ok, me and like 150 other people in line in the cold for half hour before they finally poted the notice on the window that they weren't going to let any more of us in. Now that I read all this not so great crap, I guess I'm less bummed out about missing you at the house party either. I was hoping to spoon you though. Or at least give a big hug. ;) (Reply to this)(Thread)

(no subject) - kimya_dawson_, 2008-01-18 02:35 pm UTC

	soundship 2008-01-18 10:21 am UTC (link)
	I wouldn't worry about it...you did the right thing. (Reply to this)

	jackshoegazer 2008-01-18 12:21 pm UTC (link)
	As a parent myself, I fully support your decision. (Reply to this)

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