i went and got saigon rendezvous for dinner tonight and bought some cookies and ginger beer and china cola and scones and red quinoa from the co-op.

on the way home 1999 came on the radio.

when the prince album 1999 came out i was 10. i thought it would never be 1999. in 11 minutes it will be 2007 and i am about to go lay to sleep with my cute husband who talks in his sleep and my cute baby who gnaws and tugs my boobs in her sleep. i don't feel much different than i did when i was ten.

i haven't felt the same as 10 all this time.

i experienced a bunch of years of absolutely not feeling 10ness.

but now i am back to feeling kind of smart and kind of calm and pretty happy and safe.

when i was 10 christine hollis moved to bedford hills and told all the other kids to stop picking on me. she was tough as hell and she was nice to me.

she called me shorty.

if you know her tell her thanks for me.

sometimes you need someone to have your back.

in 3 minutes it will be 2007.

sigh.

i need to run upstairs and kiss my babies.

i hope your life is fucking wonderful.

for serious.