Kimya Dawson ([info]kimya_dawson_) wrote,
@ 2005-09-07 17:55:00
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somersault to september...hope i last til november
i have to cancel the yardsale/bbq this weekend. i thought leaving this house with a party was the way to go, but i am genuinely not emotionally prepared to do that. i don't feel like cleaning up the yard. i don't feel like cooking all day. and i don't feel like being a good hostess. i am too sad.

i am really sorry if you were planning on coming and you were really psyched about it.

almost all of my closest new york friends and some good friends from france are playing a benefit show at the cake shop on saturday from 1-5pm and if i am not with them i will feel bad all day. so i am going to play a few songs at the benefit. and collect music donations. whatever is donated that day i will pay for the shipping of.

yesterday and today i have been packing up my room.

it is ridiculously sad. a part of me feels like i have no right to be sad when so many people just lost so much. but i can't help it.

the only thing worse than grief is grief mixed with guilt about grieving.

next summer i will have a bbq in seattle.

and you can all fly out for it.

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(Anonymous)
2005-09-07 10:09 pm UTC (link)
Disappointment, but no big deal. Another day.

Sad is still sad, whether it's something trivial or something serious.

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[info]benadryllian
2005-09-07 10:10 pm UTC (link)
Ach, that was me! I will see you again one day, Kimya.

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[info]kimya_dawson_
2005-09-07 10:18 pm UTC (link)
you should come to the benefit instead.

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[info]benadryllian
2005-09-07 11:07 pm UTC (link)
i'm sure not crazy about driving to nyc, but hmm. A benefit for Mississippi! Hell, I oughta play myself just to be like, "This is a benefit for my people." Mississippi needs some representing right now.

Everyone around the world seems to be giving to them. I like that.

I'll think about it.

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[info]kimya_dawson_
2005-09-07 11:13 pm UTC (link)
do you really wanna play? i might be able to get you on for 2 songs.

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[info]benadryllian
2005-09-08 12:13 am UTC (link)
um YES. That would be great! Porkskins plays New York City...sounds good to me. And I could put a face to the devastation, make it less distant. I'd like to do that. Lemme know.

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[info]kimya_dawson_
2005-09-08 12:14 am UTC (link)
is that what you play as? porkskins?!

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[info]benadryllian
2005-09-08 12:39 am UTC (link)
In my old house, I gave everyone food names, based on sorta rhyming their last names. Giamalva became Jelly-melba, Ide became Chai, and Perkins (me) became Porkskins. Somehow the name stuck, and because all my friends had acoustic solo stage names, I needed one too and decided that Porkskins was weird and apt for me.

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[info]dai_glo_tree
2005-09-07 10:29 pm UTC (link)
hey, don't feel guilty bout being sad. i always do that, but really just because other people have trouble too, and theirs are maybe greater, that doesn't mean that your problems are meaningless.

and i only just read about it, and i think the music donations are a lovely idea. i'm a bit far away from everything but i saw that someone in germany is collecting stuff too, so i'll see what i can do. i don't think I could survive without music for long...

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cake shop?
(Anonymous)
2005-09-08 12:11 am UTC (link)
where is the cake shop? i live in new york and want to go but i need the address...

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[info]kimya_dawson_
2005-09-08 12:15 am UTC (link)
it is on ludlow, about 2 blocks south of houston.

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(Anonymous)
2005-09-08 12:25 am UTC (link)
oh ok thanks --who is playing? im going no matter what, im just curious.

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[info]kimya_dawson_
2005-09-08 12:41 am UTC (link)
there will be over 20 people doing 2 songs each. hmmm...
danny kelly
major matt mason
dan fishback
david herman dune
phoebe kreutz
coming soon (leo from bear creek's brother ben and friend guillaume)
lach
prewar yardsale
amanda lynn
and a bunch more

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[info]crunchcandy
2005-09-08 01:02 am UTC (link)
ooh and give MMM a kiss from me.
Oh and David Herman Dune
and probably a bunch more
oh and pick out a husband.

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[info]elliotdill
2005-09-08 01:05 am UTC (link)
did david move to new york?

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[info]kimya_dawson_
2005-09-08 01:09 am UTC (link)
he is visiting for a couple months. he just got here last week. leave it to him to come here while i will be in france.

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[info]elliotdill
2005-09-08 01:23 am UTC (link)
what a goofball. tell him to come to columbia and leave more chin-hairs around town.

but i guess tell him to re-grow his beard first.

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[info]justagrlinplaid
2005-09-08 07:55 pm UTC (link)
send that cutie pie to denton. woooo weee.
he can play on my fun machine!

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[info]kimya_dawson_
2005-09-08 10:31 pm UTC (link)
he shaved off all the facial hair! you wouldn't even recognize him!!!

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[info]benadryllian
2005-09-08 12:36 am UTC (link)
152 ludlow street

http://www.cake-shop.com

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[info]kimya_dawson_
2005-09-08 12:42 am UTC (link)
tell me what to sign you up as and you will be on the bill

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[info]benadryllian
2005-09-08 12:55 am UTC (link)
Porkskins (from Mississippi)

yay! thanks. i'm happy to do what i love and help my peeps.

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[info]benadryllian
2005-09-08 01:05 am UTC (link)
Also, I'm seriously inexperienced with driving in huge-ass cities and get pretty stressed. Any suggestions? Park my car in some nearby city and take a bus in? Or just tough it out? Hmm.

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[info]kimya_dawson_
2005-09-08 01:08 am UTC (link)
where will you be coming from?

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[info]benadryllian
2005-09-08 01:31 am UTC (link)
ithaca

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[info]elliotdill
2005-09-08 12:45 am UTC (link)
hey kimya,
not that i know anything you don't, but i think it's okay to feel guilty about feeling sad. i know just about every time i get sad, i think that i shouldn't be because nothing in my life is as awful as the problems lots of other people face. so when i feel guilty, even though it makes me feel even worse, i think it also helps to keep us grounded so that we remember what's important in our lives and the lives of everybody else on this planet. and besides, you make so many people happy that you've gotta know your life is a good one and that any sadness you experience shouldn't be sticking around long. i hope your move goes as well as possible and have a safe voyage across the atlantic.
love,
elliot dumb.

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[info]crunchcandy
2005-09-08 01:01 am UTC (link)
xx
see you really soon- I don't think I can afford to make it up to London/Wales after all (and i'm not sure there's space in the van anyway) but it'll be so nice to see you in Bristol- let me know if you want to hook up earlier (or come to the beach for the day before the show)i'll email you my number
xxx
take care of yourself as well as the whole rest of the world.
seriously lady I can't wait to give you a hug!

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[info]kimya_dawson_
2005-09-08 01:10 am UTC (link)
the little boys from leicester might come to london. good golly.
you have a happy birthday lady.

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I dont know you
(Anonymous)
2005-09-08 01:06 am UTC (link)
okay i just have to say that the moldy peaches is the best band ever! It is my absolute favorite!!!!!!!!!!!1 i love it so much thanks playing music that really rocks!!!!!

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[info]squirtlle
2005-09-08 01:41 am UTC (link)
you do so much. helping others in so many ways. you deserve time to grieve.

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[info]lippemfg
2005-09-08 02:50 pm UTC (link)
Glad you can make it. This is a really cool opportunity, in that each dollar donated is going to be matched.

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[info]p4nc4k35
2005-09-08 10:48 pm UTC (link)
i wrote a song about people i like and you were on my mind through most of it.

i wont see you saturday but maybe i will who knows

you are a good good great great person, don't forget that.

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nightmara
2005-09-08 11:43 pm UTC (link)
This is entirely unrelated to what you just wrote, but my e-mail isnt working at the moment and I saw your livejournal link on your website- so:

Kimya, my friends have been talking about you for years and I just never knew why until the past month or so when I finally decided to listen to your music.

It made melaugh and cry in ways I thought my heart had almost forgotten music can make it laugh and cry....

Thankyou.

And you are the most beautiful person I have come across in a long, long time. Dont ever stop writing music.

Are you moving to Seattle? Because I just (last february) moved not very far from there at all and I miss Brooklyn SO much and it would be soo cool if you started groovin to this state.

In conclusion, you dont know me, but I love you. You must have a lot of fans like that, huh?

I hope your feel better about moving, dont be sad- change is good (sometimes).

Love.

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[info]sezzabell
2005-09-09 04:26 pm UTC (link)
Its okay to be sad. I feel guilty too sometimes. Like, I have everything I need, and some people have nothing, so why the hell am I moaning?
But really, You have the right to be sad. You do so much for other people, so its okay to be sad and think about yourself. It doesn't make you a bad person.
I personally think you are a very special lady and very caring.
I would love to meet you.
Sometimes change can make you sad, but I'm sure you'll feel better soon. You have alot of people around you who love you, and if you ever needed them, they'd be there.
I'd be there for you, even though I don't know you.
Just rememeber that you are special, and you need to look after yourself and be sad sometimes. Its not like theres no reason at all.

Take care, okay?
I'm thinking of you x

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