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[13 May 2004|01:13pm] |
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Huzzah! Everything is coming together so nicely ^_^ They're closing on the trailer either today or tomorrow, I'm barrowing my grandma's steam cleaner for the weekend so we can clean the trailer, move the stuff in, then clean the appartment ^_^ My Uncle Bob is taking my resume into Blue Cross Blue Shield downtown cuz they're hiring and he's very influencial there ($14 is their starting pay!) ^_^ I've been sending my resume out like crazy to people on monster.com, and I've only got 2 weeks to go on my clinicals! Woo!
Life is good ^_~
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[06 May 2004|01:19pm] |
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Wow. I really need to remember to update more, lol. Yet again, much has happened since my last entry. I'm at the end of the second week of my clinicals. 2 down, 3 to go! I need to secure a job somewhere. I highly doubt I'll be hired in where I'm serving my clinicals. Even if I am, there's no benifits, and with as much medication (allergy meds, asthma meds, various 'sick' meds) as I need. Yah, benifits are a must.
Nathan is so close to moving ^_^ Charlie and I will be moving in with him. Yup that's right. I'm moving out of this house. My Mum has been seriously pushing me the past few months, throwing all sorts of stuff in my face. It's irritating. So yah, as soon as he's got the trailer and I've got a job locked down, I'm moving. The buick is being put in my name, and I'm gonna have to pull out my own insurance policy. Joy.
Any who, I don't have much time for lunch, so if I remember, I'll write more later. But I doubt I'll remember.
Ciao
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I'm head-over-heels in love with Nathan. There just isn't a bad thing about him. He's perfect in every way. I just cant even begin to describe it. Love doesnt even fit the feeling, it's so much more then love. I feel like I've known and loved him forever. It's amazing. He's amazing.
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[29 Mar 2004|02:20pm] |
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Lots has happened since I last updated.
Adam broke up with me on the 17th. I'm not really hurt any more. There just wasn't anything left between us. I had found a connection with someone else, I just didn't want to acknowledge it. I wanted so badily to save everyone. I wanted to save my relationship, save Nathan from getting too depressed... I just wanted to be super woman. But the closer I got to Nathan, the more I fell for him. Actually, it felt a bit more like remembering feelings for him. Like I've known him before. Heh. That must sound so stupid. But it's true. I still ignored it. Until Adam dumped me. I thought about the relationship, it there actually was anything there worth saving... and if I actually wanted to go back, after being dumped a 2nd time. No thank you. Twice is enough. So... I pretty much just ran to Nathan. Because he was there, I didn't fall apart. That means so much to me.
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[11 Mar 2004|03:39pm] |
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Uploaded 2 icons. Huzzah for InuYasha and Reki.
I haven't been very uppidy or happy latley. I've very much been the downer of the group, and I feel pretty guilty for it. Actually, I feel guilty for a lot of things. I don't feel I deserve to be surrounded by such wonderful people. I'm the dark spot on their perfect luster. I don't know why they like me so much. Trust me, I'm not complaining... it's just I don't feel like I deserve all this love and support. I wanna just close my eyes and dissapear. But I can't. I can't be that selfish. People actually care. They'd notice if I were gone. I dare say the might even miss me. And that's no way to repay them for all they're doing for me. Adam most of all. Theres just no way I can pay him back for everything he does for me. He's so good to me. I love him so much. I just always wonder why he loves me back...
any way... I guess I'll bring this angst ridden post to a close. Ciao.
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[09 Mar 2004|07:00pm] |
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I've been feeling pretty out of things latley. I've made a few friends through a mutual friend. I feel like I can trust them, but I'm a little afraid to...
I've worried way too much. all this thinking is wearing me out.
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[03 Mar 2004|05:24pm] |
ouch.... my toe hurts. according to my doctor, it isnt broken. but bruised all to hell, and maybe cracked.
pain >_
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[01 Mar 2004|08:40pm] |
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I have a new t-shirt. It's very bright pastel pink, how unusual for me. But it has a sparkly bunny on it ^_^ so yah, that explains it :o) It says "little bunny foo foo" on it. I'm such a sucker for cute things >_< Especially if its a bunny.
I now have a Kirara stuffie!!!! It's so cute :o) I told Jessica she could use it when/if our little circle of people gets a InuYasha cosplay going (she of course would br Sango). Actually, a plan for an Inuyasha cosplay is being planned. Including the newest of my friends, Nathan. He would make the perfecr Sesshomaru :o) and his daughter Rowan, would be too cute as Rin ^_^ god I'm an over-obsessive fangirl :o)
any way... still in class, so i suppose i should cut this short.
ciao.
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[17 Feb 2004|07:28pm] |
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I'm getting very irritated. 75% of the people in this class are doing badily in comparison to how we did last semester. Something about the way this lady teaches isnt clicking with us. And I'm pissed that I'm doing so badily.
Actually... come to think of it, a lot of things are bothering me latley.
The other day, my friend Nathan (who I don't know that well) told me his wife (soon to be ex) had called me a bitch. My friend Jessica found out why, and told me last night. It was over something that happened this past summer. There was a picknic for a group I was a member of (pagan center). Jessica had got me into it. Dawn was there with her daughter Rowan, and apparently didnt like the way I handled her. Now... given how close she was to Jessica, I would think that she'd mention something, if only just in passing, that she didn't like me much, or something... however she didnt. I find it a bit fishy that she'd throwing it up now, in the midst of a divorce that I really have nothing to do with. I hung out with Jess Chris and Nathan most of the weekend, and I'm getting to know Nathan a little better. I'm also getting close to Jess again, so it'd be nice if I could fit neatly into a circle of friend that I actually felt close to. But still, I have nothing to do with this divorce at all, so why bring me up?
I dunno. It just bothers me a bit.
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[11 Feb 2004|05:47pm] |
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I've been ignoring all my other journals. It's not like anyone actually reads this one... at least not that I know of. I guess I post more in my default because not only is it friends only, but it's also locked. But I want a public journal... its a rare thing for me to have something to say that I dont fear someone picking apart though. I'm working through [or trying to] some heavy shit right now.... even my default journal has some heavy locks on it [very selective filters]. I guess I'm just paranoid o_O
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[02 Sep 2003|09:42am] |
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Well the small war I started in  vegetarian got deleted. I knew it would. Too many people have strong oppinions about the whole partial vegetarian thing. I still stand by the fact that you cannot argue with a dictionary, and a vegetarian diet is defined as 'consisting wholly of vegetables, fruits and sometimes dairy products'. I'm sorry, but fish are not vegetables -_-
I need to buy my books for my classes. Damn they're so expensive! I'm so poor :o(
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[01 Sep 2003|11:53am] |
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I keep trying to log into one of my older journals that i haven't used in a while, and Lj keeps saying *incorrect password. It did that a few times while i was trying to log in here too.
*kicks tower*
stupid lj.
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[31 Aug 2003|12:42pm] |
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well i did this on my other journal, so I may as well do it here. The objective is to think of a song that starts with the letters of your user name. fun. I'm gonna try and think of different songs then the ones i used for  tormenteddreams.
Kill the rock - MSI
Androgyny - Garbage
Gone away - Cold
One more sad song - All american Rejects
My december - Linkin Park
Epiphany - Staind
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i love emotionally moving music. and even though i cannot stand Kikyou's character. I adore her theme.
I just got done watching a shit load of horror flics at adams house. Excuse me for not being overjoyed -_-
I'm very tired. though I'd like to make a longer post, I just dont see that as a possiblity. I'm far too tired.
Goodnight.
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[30 Aug 2003|12:44pm] |
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Hullo new journal. I have no idea what I'm going to use you for.
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