fuck yeah, and fight on

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 04:19:35 GMT

Someone should just give me tickets to thursday's game & the sox should win it for meeeeeeee!!

i met the cutest cutest dreamboat at work tonight, and i will never see him again. how sad.

& new copeland is so good<3

fall adventure to salem in the morning!

Sat, 11 Oct 2008 05:36:13 GMT

I want to move to NYC. Or Southern Calif. Who is coming with me? (in all serious-ness.)

=)

Tue, 07 Oct 2008 03:39:36 GMT

<3 october baseball!

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 05:15:04 GMT

I have not felt this alone in years. Coincidentally, I'm not sure I've ever needed somebody to be there more than recently. I guess thats how things just work. For me, anyway.

So hang on
It's gonna be a hard day
So hang on
Don't panic
Don't panic there simply is no need
It's gonna be a hard day
It's gonna be a hard day
Don't panic
Don't panic we are hanging here
We are hanging here.

and even if your voice comes back again, maybe they'll be no one listening.

Tue, 09 Sep 2008 02:35:48 GMT

I can't handle how I have been there countless times for you to say the things you needed to hear and make you feel less alone, and now that I need you most, you've left me high and dry. I probably should have seen this coming seeing as it happens every two or so months, but this time just hurts worse than before.

I fought a war to walk a gang plank
Into a life I left behind
Windows leading to the past
Think it's time I broke some glass
Get this history off my mind

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 02:09:58 GMT

oh so hey, jacks 4 times in november..whatsup! i have been hoping that they would headline around here on my birthday so they could sing 21& invincible to me but i can settle for exactly a month later. =) who wants to go to any of the below with me!!??

sunday nov 16th toad's place- new haven, ct (worst plaace ever but its jacks so whatev)
monday nov 17th praradise rock club- allston/brighton, MA! (18+ maybe?? no?? =) )

friday nov 21st and 22nd NYC!

this is never going to get old to me. =)

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 05:44:30 GMT

All alone on a road going nowhere.

staying here, its just not what we need..

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 06:34:17 GMT

Knowing what you want to do is knowing what you want to do, regardless. I am so sick of being laughed at when I answer the questions "what do you want to go to school for" or "what do you want to do after college" Wanting to be a news anchor is no different than wanting to be a teacher, or any other profession.. maybe a little less common, but not unattainable.
and i am going to quote my olympic swimmer crush michael phelps and say "You can't put a limit on anything. The more you dream, the farther you get. " I am feeling good and like I am on the right track for once. Also, I am obessed with the new peek of the glass passenger i got, 'at full speed'. September 30th can't come any sooner.

Mon, 11 Aug 2008 02:11:46 GMT

So I recall writing in an entry 4 years ago saying "The US swimmer Michael Phelps.. YAR I WOULD."

Thu, 31 Jul 2008 02:44:17 GMT

So pumped on everything this week!

Shark week, good times last night =), pre-ordered new jacks today!, seeing dark knight this week.. just loving life, and probs jinxing it right about now too.

Last week taylor dyed my hair red and i love it! That night we ventured off to CT to stay at a hotel in Hartford/ see All Time Low and Hit the Lightss hahaha. We ended up getting into the show for free and it was so much fun. Outside we met some new friends from texas and the next day we met back up with them in MA and went swimming at the beach and had a bbq. =) Wednesday was warped, which ended up being a shitshow.

Sun, 22 Jun 2008 07:14:32 GMT

I just saw Alkaline Trio in Conneticut. They were so awesome and I'm that much more excited to see them in a few weeks at Lupo's. That show will only be better because it won't be in dumb Conneticut at arguably one of the worst venues I've seen a show at. They are easily one of my all time favorite bands, obviously. I hope they have a better set at Lupo's too though.

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 04:29:15 GMT

"Its your own life, live it for yourself."

I want this summer to be good. I want to become more independent than I've been becoming in the past year. I want to be able to always stick up for myself and what I believe to be right. I don't want to bite my lip when asked for opinions, or if something doesn't sit well with me. I seriously can't believe some of the things people say and do and somehow think are completely fine and acceptable. I want to meet new people that make me smile, and who make me think.

I have been taking a summer class that meets mon-thurs at eight am in brockton. the first week and a half went great, i was doing so awesome and now i am starting to fall behind. the class is too accelerated for me and i am not doing as well as i'd like to be doing. Math was neverr my thing.

I'm starting to get sort of fed up with working in the mall. I mean, when i write 'jill off' on the calander, and then the only hours i get that week is a whopping 1-5 on the day i requested off its bull shiiiit. I called and told them that I wasn't going to be able to work because I'll be out of state which is toootttally true. I'm going to CT to see alk3 with amy and jessica. SO EXCITED. we haven't seen them in like 3 years, well we saw heavens 2 years ago but that does not count

i've got to get to bed. 645 comes fast.

Tue, 27 May 2008 04:30:42 GMT

I'm looking for attention/affection in all the wrong places. Always have.

news flash:

Fri, 23 May 2008 00:40:28 GMT

I'm single, not a leper.

Fri, 09 May 2008 04:40:19 GMT

so boozle 08 was a shitshow to say the least!!

I had a panic attack while i was driving over the george washington bridge cause of all the trucks/ my fear of driving on large bridges / the unfamiliarity of the roads and my surroundings in general. So that was awful. We got to the hotel around 1030 & ordered the best pineapple pizza ever. We made friends from yelling out our 7th floor window with a band from Orlando who has done a lot of work with to write love on her arms. They were pretty cool guys and we hung out in the room and talked about music, who we wanted to see, and other things of the sorts. They gave us one of their CDs and I'm diggin it. http://www.myspace.com/betweenthetrees

Saturday we didn't go over to the stadium til early afternoon because no one was really playing any earlier times. We tailgated a little in the parking lot and the creepiest/ drunkest DIRTIEST boy would nooot go away. It was awful. Mary Liz and Taylor went in and Rach and I had to tell him we were going back to the hotel and park someplace else. When doing so we made a group of friends from seacawkus.(lol at jersey accents) & we hung out with them before going in. We watched Saves The Day, Then Jacks started right afterward so i went over there and watched(tried to fully enjoy) my favorite band. Which sucked because there were waay too many bratty little girls being cunts. one like kicked me and made my shoe come off so i may or may not have hit her back and called her a cunt? whoooopsie! Not gona lie, i was hammered and proooobbbably wouldn't of reacted so harsly if i were sober. probably. anyway, after jacks i was walking back where i got engulfed by fans waiting for paramore and pummeled to the ground for a good 5 minutes. I thought i was going to die. It shook me up pretty bad and I was done with being there afterward. I didn't get to see snoop, or jimmy eat world. =(

Saturday night we went to some SHAAADYY hotel party that was across the street. The place was so dirty and had windows for walls into the hallway. It was probably one of the most hilarious things though. There wwas a jagger bomb room, a jello shots room, and pretty sure the first room we went in threw captians or something of that sort at us. The jello shots girl was a wreck but it was hilarious. We spent most the time in the yagger room because thats were the people we somewhat knew were. This one girl would NOT stop talking to me about ho shes from socal, and soo used to the incrowd, and how being here with locals was so weird to her. annd that her best friends were like soo big. a headlining band. blah blah blah. so i was just like ya cool whatev. and did NOT ask any furter questions but she kept going and being like OMG SAY ANYTHING ARE MY BESTS. no no you dont get it, SAY ANYTHING is my best friends. like BEST friends. she was such a tool. We got back to the hotel late and totally got into the elevator with the academy is and dont forget tony and johnny oh ohhh. I loled when they walked in. A little while later mary and i met 2 boys on the elevator from allston and they wondered back into our room and were absoloutely fucking hilarious.

Sunday it was so nice out and we watched four year strong, the starting line, say anything, BRET MICHAELS, & more that i can't remember. After we wondered around the hotel loby/bar area where taylor invites a whole mess of people up to our room and we had a hotel party with like, dudes from new zeland hahahaha. it was out of control. One hoe left her gray american apparel hoodie in our room & I now own it.=)

so yeah, thats the quick version of how awesome my weekend was. One more class til summmerrr. well, then summer classes =(

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 03:54:26 GMT

happy half birthday to me today!

Wed, 16 Apr 2008 04:03:47 GMT

whhy is making a schedule so hard? nothing can ever match together decently.

i'm looking at either
M/W/F
8am- lit 1
9am- spanish 2
10am- a&P (lab monday at 1)
11am- topics of math 1 ( only since i am taking my last tard-level course this summer.)

then tues & thurs have a graphic desgin class in canton at 10.

ooor
tues/thurs
8am- lit 1
930am- topics1
11am- spanish2
1230pm bio lab on tuesday til 350
& painting with gayley-poo tues 6-10.

whiiiich i think would be worse because one that is basically 8am to 10pm. ew. and two, i fucking hate learning biology.

i dont know what to dooooooo and am so stressed i have to be there a semester longer than i should be.

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 03:05:28 GMT

to quote myself a few entries back..."I feel really positive and like everything finally might start to go right. I wonder what kind of accident I will have tomoorrow, because last time i felt this good (like a month ago)i fell flat on my face and broke my nose."

UM so got a 40 dollar parking ticket in Allston on Thursday, and crashed my car into a pole Sunday morning.

AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 07 Apr 2008 05:37:09 GMT

I am long past overdue for a change of pace.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 05:26:50 GMT

I gotta go to bed but I wanted to update first. There is just over a month left of school! I'm working a lot again and its so good. Except for the fact that my man Petey said that Tuesday was going to be like in the sixties and I am working 10-2 at pac sun then 3-830 at tanning and i won't get to enjoy it. =( I am listening to old Midtown aaand I miss it lots! I am getting someones ID this week as well, testing that shit on Sunday for Rach's 21st. I hope it works cause if it doesn't I will feel completely foolish. I am totally loving the attitude/motto i've been trying to stick to. Go with what you're feeling, with what you believe in & roll with the punches! So far so good. I am silly and totally look forward to Thursdays now, but for the exact opposite reason everyone else does. I feel really positive and like everything finally might start to go right. I wonder what kind of accident I will have tomoorrow, because last time i felt this good (like a month ago) i fell flat on my face and broke my nose. okay, bedtime.. yo tengo que clase a las ocho.
ps that last sentence was the extent of me studying for my exam. bahaha

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 19:33:51 GMT

i didn't have coffee til like 230 today and i had/have the worst head ache ever.

Mon, 17 Mar 2008 19:23:08 GMT

i am absolutely done with holding people closer to me than i am to them.

Fri, 14 Mar 2008 03:49:37 GMT

even though i am so dunzo with guys, cuuttiee in my class has got real nice style & i am listening to usher & jeezy. so yeah i am allowed to be pathetic ;)

my mom went to some tarrot card reading party tonight and the woman knew that i was in my second year of college leaning toward studying art.. and she said that i should switch to accounting instead because i'd be happier in the long run since i love spending a lot of money and shopping so much. she also told my mom she saw florida in the future for some reason which is freaky because keryn is going there next month. that shit is so fahked up!

Oh & in my last entry i wrote how pacsun has been giving me more hours which is good. todaay they cut hours back on part time employees. i am working like st pattys day, and then not again til march 29th. WTF. Thinking about maybe working full time at the hospital like 3-1130 everynight? thats probably not a good idea with me though..

3 more classes, 3 more hours of work & then spring break! =)

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 06:27:58 GMT

rolll with the punchesssssss.

that has been my motto lately and i've got to stick with it! things at pacsun have been going well, we got a new manager and i like him a lot more than the old one. i'm also working way more lately which is so good because i am so broke right now. spring break is next week and i am pumped to not have to worry about school work for a week. last saturday was timeless and al4w in allston and i missed timeless which is pretty much why i went and the rest of the night was just a shitshow. it was nice seeing some people but i wish i didn't go into the city that night. i wish i wasn't still awake right now. i have to wake up at like eight so i have time to shower before work. i am having the best convo with al right noow. seriously, why don't guys get it?? EVER?

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 17:21:44 GMT

in graphic design our project was to make a calander month page for our assinged month, it had to have a quote with the name of the month that pertains to the picture. here is a scaled down version of mine. =)