the fires of love

inkspills__ @ 2007-10-20T07:15:00

2007-10-20T14:15:54Z

new lj. fortheseason

inkspills__ @ 2007-10-08T05:23:00

2007-10-08T12:24:05Z

it's my birthday! ♥

inkspills__ @ 2007-09-24T06:09:00

2007-09-24T13:10:30Z

i want silver swirly earrings like paige's/the ones from the grasshopper shop for my birthday.
ans scarves.
and a gift card to oldnavy.
yea, that' be great.

inkspills__ @ 2007-09-12T08:46:00

2007-09-12T15:51:07Z

I'm starting to wonder if I'm cut out for college.
In the past 2 days, yesterday & today, I've missed 2 classes.
Yesterday I over-napped and woke up at 4:39, 40 minutes into my Sociology class.
Today I was on Spring Garden with Gabbie, and we frantically ran to catch the 18 to get me back here since my Philosophy class started at 11:30.
I walked into my room at 11:25, and honestly, I just didn't even bother.
I'm so screwed. Fuck. I need to get my act together if this is what I really want. This is what I really want isn't it? I always thought so. Now, I have no idea.

inkspills__ @ 2007-05-01T23:00:00

2007-05-02T03:00:58Z

one check. one love.

2007-04-05T17:38:16Z

how many times can we watch him crumble,
before history repeats its self again?

So much to say, and yet..so few words. I still have a headache. But thanks to my hate of modern medicine, I refuse to go to the doctor's. I'll just figure out the trigger myself. And save 300 bucks.
Talked to J last night. Wasn't that akward. But he essentially invited himself, and infringed on my spring break plans. I shot him down. I only told him what I was doing because I knew he was going to be out of town. ytdhytdkuyht. Fuck.
I cleaned some more today, because Seth comes a week form tomorrow. I'm not nervous. Yet. Hah.
I think I've lost my green sweater forever. Which is really sad, because I only wore it once. To Farmington. It was my favorite too.

waiting on a heartbeat
that you stole from me.

inkspills__ @ 2007-03-04T21:53:00

2007-03-05T02:54:27Z

MAKE ME CARE.

inkspills__ @ 2007-03-03T18:05:00

2007-03-03T23:10:46Z

yeah.
snow day yesterday.
uneventful.
not a fan of snow days.

i don't want to talk to anyone lately.
ugh. i hate this.

i think i like this kid.
but i don't want to say anything,
cause 980 other girls like him & hit on him alllll the time.
also, i should prolly stpo flirting with guys who have girlfriends.
even though the iniate it.

i need my fucking lisence.

htdhdtrur7ydhff.
everything sucks.
whats worse is that i can't tell a soul.

the tent goes up, the tent comes down, and all they see is the show.

2007-02-22T18:55:14Z

and some of the clowns are happy
and some of the clowns are sad
but underneath
there's another expression
that the makeup isn't making

inkspills__ @ 2007-02-14T19:40:00

2007-02-15T00:41:24Z

you know,
i'm really good at keeping secrets.

because i have so many of my own.

inkspills__ @ 2007-02-13T16:09:00

2007-02-13T21:13:19Z

i wish everyone would stop calling me their 'best friend' or hell, even their 'friend'.

I can't really say i am anymore.

no one knows me anymore.
and i miss everyone so fucking much that it hurts. it seriously hurts
i don't even know myself anymore. it'd be nice.

it'd also be nice to have these said 'friends' care.

none of its going to happen.

i'm just going to let it go.

inkspills__ @ 2007-01-28T13:02:00

2007-01-28T18:02:19Z

'ello loves.
its been a while.
and with all thats been going on, who can blame me?
this college stuff sucks.
i thought i had made my mind up, and now im not so sure.
but at the same time, i keep wondering if i'm reconsidering for all the wrong reasons. i have noo idea.
i really want to go to SMU.
but i'd essentially have to start over from scratch.
i love it there though.
i'm also afraid i'm being biased because i don't have as much information on the other schools as i do from St. Marys.
and i'm sorry this entire entry is about college, but i can only handle one thing at a time, yanno.
k.

inkspills__ @ 2007-01-03T22:29:00

2007-01-04T03:30:05Z

sometimes i want to be with you because you remind me of him.
only 200 miles closer.

inkspills__ @ 2007-01-01T20:24:00

2007-01-02T01:25:00Z

its 2007!
never fear. real update later.
ughhhhhh. =\

inkspills__ @ 2006-12-28T15:04:00

2006-12-28T20:09:57Z

Say hello to my puffy face.

ugh. this sucks. and oh yeah! it's supposed to last 3-4 more days. Greaat. So much for looking good on New Year's, eh?

inkspills__ @ 2006-12-16T17:41:00

2006-12-16T22:43:13Z

I've come accross some conclusions, tonight.
For once, all is well.

inkspills__ @ 2006-11-02T22:04:00

2006-11-02T22:04:25Z

If you don't have a song
To sing you're okay
You know how to get along
Humming
Hmmm

If you don't have a date
Celebrate
Go out and sit on the lawn
And do nothing
'Cause it's just what you must do
Nobody does it anymore

No I don't believe in the wasting of time,
But I don't believe that I'm wasting mine

If you don't have a point to make
Don't sweat it
You'll make a sharp one being so kind
And I'd sure appreciate it
Everyone else's goal's to get big headed
Why should I follow that beat being that I'm
Better than fine

inkspills__ @ 2006-10-24T01:45:00

2006-10-24T01:45:46Z

hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate.

inkspills__ @ 2006-10-22T12:41:00

2006-10-22T16:42:46Z

i need to get over this.
i'm afraid of what will happen if i don't.

inkspills__ @ 2006-10-21T23:46:00

2006-10-21T23:50:42Z

i hungout with sarah b. today.
she's grand.
i'm seeing jas tomorrow. =]
this weekend has been good so far.
my 6-week reports came today.
honors, baby.
i'm pumped.
i got my hair done last night. sara [at jf] pretty much fucked it up. but she said it should fade in a few washes. if it doesn't i'll have to bleach it out and re dye it. ughh.

we closed on the house yesterday too.
this weekend has just been grand =].

inkspills__ @ 2006-10-15T08:48:00

2006-10-15T13:05:43Z

hey,
so this is for people i added a bit ago/anyone who hasn't talked to me in a while, ect.

First off, my name is Katie, but I hope you all know that by noww. =]
I was born in ElPaso, Texas, and adopted.[I never refer to my irthparents as mom or dad by the wayy.] My mom and I moved alot when I was younger. I live in Maine now.
I'm not super fond of Maine, but its a good place to grow up, most of the time.
My mom died in 2001.
My parents were still together, but my dad was running a huge buisness. He would leave at 3 am and not come home until the middle of dinner, so I never really saw him that much.
My sister is adopted also, from China. She has the relationship with my father I always wanted to have.

I'm seventeen, and a senior in highshool. I'm not a horrible student, but I wish i had applied myself freshman-junior year as I am now. I'm one of the youngest in my class, which can be akward at times. I applied to all my schools early action, and was accepted to my top chioce school on Friday,SMU =] {Saint Mary's University of Halifax. Yes, as in Nova Scotia.} I'm not very excited to be that far away from my frieds, but its a great school. I'm still waiting to hear from UMF though.

Genrally, boy drama swirls around me and it pretty much sucks. I'm doing better this year by just not giving a fuck. My friendships are at times the only things that keep me sane. I have mulitple best friends in multiple areas, and I love them all.

I want to join the Peace Corps after college. ideally, I'd like to go to Mozambique or Cameroon, Africa. Just for a year or two. I'm also a vegetarian, and I think war is un needed.

I'm pretty sure that's it.
♥

inkspills__ @ 2006-10-14T15:28:00

2006-10-14T19:29:55Z

[you've become someone I don't want to be around.]

let us say goodbye and part ways peacefully.

inkspills__ @ 2006-10-13T20:19:00

2006-10-14T00:20:29Z

Hi.
Friday the 13th is a great day for meeeeeee.
=D

inkspills__ @ 2006-10-10T19:52:00

2006-10-11T00:06:04Z

YOU
1. A Cuddler? yessssssss!
2. A morning person? not usually.
3. Are you a perfectionist? not usually.
5. Religious? no, but i'm learning about religions
6. In your pajamas? not yet, soon.
7. Left handed?: nope

LAST
1. Friend you saw: Tay&Mog
2. Talked to on the phone: Leah? no, Justin =]
3. Message over myspace: savannahh
4. Wore: um the jeand, fleecie, and tee i'm in now?
5. Was today better than yesterday? nope
6. Got any plans today? not now, but i went to school and the store earlier?

FAVORITE
1. Number: 27<3
2. Color: green
3. Season: fallllllllllll. and spring, sometimes.
CURRENTLY
1. Missing: sophie, a boy, and another boy.
2. Needing: answers
3. Wanting: answers. and to go for a walk =]
Q's AND A's

Q: What was the 1st thing you did this morning?
A: put on the camden sweatshirt.

Q: Last thing you ate:
A: broccoli w/ garlic soy sauce mmm.
Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: yes
Q: What's the last movie you saw?:
A: school for scoundrels w/ soph!

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: downstairs..my kitchen.

Q: Do you smile often?:
A: depending on who i'm around. but usually.

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: sometimes. depends on who i'm with&where
Q: Are you a friendly person?:
A: usually
Q: Where did you sleep last night?:
A: in my bed

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?:
A: greennnnn
Q: Do you have more guy or girl friends?
A: Girls

Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: my birthday =\

Q: What was your last thought before you went to sleep last night?
A: i dont rememberr.
Q: What are you about to do?
A: take a shower
Q: Rate life as of right now 1-10?
A: 6.798
Q: If you could drink anything right this second, what would it be?
A: white teaaaa =] yummmmm

Q: Anything hurt on your body right now?
A: actually no =]
Q:What's your favorite month?
A: octoberrrrrr.

Q: What was your elementary schools mascot?
A: the knights. ghey.
Q: What’s your favorite bottled water?
A: naked.
Q: What were/are you doing at 9 pm tonight?
A: taking a shower/reading.

Q: Whats your favorite T.V. Show?
A: hmm dunno.

Q: Did you attend your High School prom?
A: jr. prom. i'm not going to senior though.
Q: Do you prefer coffee or tea?
A: coffee, usually.

Q: Something red within 5 feet of you?
A: my weekend bag.
Q: Do you smoke?
A: not anymore.

Q: Least favorite color?
A: beige. ie?

Q: Favorite kind of pizza?
A: mushroom. i don't like pizza that much
Q: Ever had Dippin Dots?
A: yes.

Q: Ever make fun of a homeless person?
A: no, well maybe, if they were one of the drunk ones infront of Porteous.

Q: At what age do you want to get married?
A: i have no ideaaaa.

Q: How many kids do you have/want?
A: i dunno.

Q: Ketchup or Mustard?
A: honey&peanut butter.

inkspills__ @ 2006-10-08T11:31:00

2006-10-08T15:32:52Z

its my birthday.
and i'm sad that sophie just left.
but she got me the sweetest present ever.
yayyy.
♥