unopened letter to the world

the magic is back

2006-07-21T14:06:43Z

so i havent updated in a long time apparently...i bet you've all been wondering what's kelvin been doing? (oh i know you havent been wondering but just humor me a little...)

well u noticed that my last entry was my rant against Cornell who rejected me...the day after i decided to end my "miserable" life by jumping off two lover's point...by myself...so i could piss off tradition...anyways, i stood at the edge of the cliff...and my feet left the edge as i fell to my watery grave! i could feel the wind against my face and the urine stain in my pants as i pissed myself scared...and then...

*FLASH!*

there was this bright green light and i started drifting up to this giant flying saucer...or giant flying dogbowl...or giant flying toilet u-bend...it doesnt really matter cuz i was being sucked toward it and well that totally ruined the whole suicide plot and i just pissed in my pants for no reason!! so i was pretty bitter at these aliens, or russians, or whatever they were that was flying the ship...

they strapped me to this table in a room that was full of crazy contraptions...and an xbox360...sweet...so they started interrogating me...asking me things like "who is the leader of your planet"..."what is the greatest weakness for human beings"...and "who would win if Frodo Baggins had a fought against Yoda"

finally, after the interrogation they proclaimed that it was time for the Physical Examination...horrible thoughts crossed my mind...needles, tubes, x-rays, ANAL PROBES!! to make it all worse one of them turned on the stereo and blasted crappy techno music...NOOO! NOT THE TECHNO! finally, they flipped up the table so that i could watch as they started the examination...they began opening this mysterious door that revealed...*suspense suspense*

a velvet curtain!

and behind the curtain was....

A DANCE DANCE REVOLUTION MACHINE!

...oh yes, kick ass...

...oh yes, THEY KICKED MY ASS! but then again i think they cheated...it's not fair that they have tentacles and bodies made of silly-puddy! they made me dance for HOURS! an incredibly horrible experience...oh the shame oh the shame! but you know what? *sniff*...i didnt..cry...

the HOURS of dancing became DAYS...and the DAYS became WEEKS...and the WEEKS...well u guessed it...MONTHS...oh the nonstop dancing was driving me insane!! we only took breaks to comment on ppls myspaces!! (i swear myspace is taking over the universe!)

well after that whole ordeal, they beamed me back to guam and gave me a nice sticker for sticking by so long (get it? sticker...sticking by? lol)...but like i had a choice...

anyways, that's where i've been for the last couple of months...just in case you were curious...

impurethoughts_ @ 2006-03-31T18:45:00

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impurethoughts_ @ 2006-02-06T21:25:00

2006-02-06T11:27:22Z

today i...

...watched the not-so-super SuperBowl
...robbed a bank (well i was going to but decided to deposit my check instead)
...robbed blockbuster (actually i just went to swap dvds cuz my bro picked up Bad News Ballers instead of Bad News Bears)
...robbed bestseller (but i had to pay for that book i was gonna steal)
...robbed namthip's resturant (this one i really robbed i guess...ate lumpia...forgot to pay o_O)

...created a new dance move
...threw coconuts at the dirty ocean water
...took pictures with my eyes "open"
...drew calculus in the sand
...was finally attacked by the dirty ocean water

...all this while thinking about her...

impurethoughts_ @ 2006-01-27T19:42:00

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impurethoughts_ @ 2006-01-14T11:27:00

2006-01-14T01:28:54Z

im now working at Rainbow Tea in GPO

so get your awesome drinks there

or else i'll gut you and steal your girlfriend/boyfriend

muahahaha

impurethoughts_ @ 2005-10-30T20:40:00

2005-10-30T10:44:40Z

adobe photoshop is so fricken awesome...

...BEHOLD.....

things are getting better...no longer is the glass half-empty...cuz i dumped out all the old crappy water...to make room for the clean stuff! :D im glad i have friends like vanessa and bo hwa...who stick by and are there whenever u need to relieve some thoughts...so thanks you two. i seriously dont know what id do w/o u guys. :)

finally figured out what to do with my girl...apparantly we're SOMETHING..here's how we sorta worked it out:

Friends-->;Good Friends-->;Best Friends-->;SOMETHING-->;Dating-->;Engaged-->;Marriage...etc

right so we're in the SOMETHING since we're technically not allowed to date ...i dont get why girls have to categorize things...i'm just glad things are less dramatic now

...still confused about this whole God thing...

...i havent finished college apps yet...UCSD deadline in 31 days...ohcrapohcrapohcrap!

drama play is next week..we're performing Once Upon a Time & Ugly Duckling...a double-feature that's pretty funny if you follow, but pretty lame if you've rehearsed it a billion times...i play a handsome guy at least :D:D:D

...apparantly Tom Cruise is gay and paid Katie Holmes to marry him...and that's this week's SIZZLER...

impurethoughts_ @ 2005-10-13T03:00:00

2005-10-12T18:02:08Z

this is a song vani and i sang in English class a while ago, we had to make a presentation on verbs for the class...so here's the lyrics just for laughs:

more than verbs (yeah it's a 'parody' of More than Words)

Saying "I hate verbs!"
Are not the words I want to hear from you.
It's not that it's not true
but let me say that if you only knew
how easy it would be to show how verbs reveal
they're more than words and really easy to learn
now you wouldnt have to say that you love verbs
cuz i'd already know

what would you do if i said there's more than two
types of verbs like Intransitives
and also verbs called Trasitives
what would you say if there's only just one way
to link those Predicate words
Just by using Linking verbs!

(la-di-da la-dida-dida la-di-da) ...more than verbs... (la-di-da la-di-da)

now that ive tried to sing to you like a Tyrannosaurus Rex
all you have to do is open your eyes
and look for Direct Objects cuz if there's none
then you'd know it's an Intrasitive verb
More than none would mean that it's a Transitive word
Now you wouldn't have to say that you love verbs
cuz i'd already know..

[repeat chorus]

(la-di-da la-dida-dida la-di-da) ...more than verbs... (la-di-da la-di-da)

_________________

American Idol here i come!

All Hail the Heartbreaker

2005-09-03T06:05:34Z

"All Hail The Heartbreaker"

I had the notion that you'd make me change my ways
My bad habits would be gone in a matter of days
I had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes
To a whole new world that had since been in disguise

But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far

I had the notion that you'd make me forget the world
But your undecisive mind shows me that
You are "just another girl"
I had the feeling that those looks you gave me were real
What if I ripped your heart apart at the seams
Maybe then you'd know how I feel

But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far

I can honestly say
That I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body
That cause my comatose to begin

I can honestly say
That I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body
That cause my comatose to begin

I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway
What's the point when my dreams are infected
With words you used to say
I will breathe in a moment
As long as I keep my distance
I wouldn't want to go messing anything up

So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about you constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door

So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about this constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door

I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
I guess that's how this one's gonna go I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
You've got me down on my knees and I proclaim
All hail the heartbreaker
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impurethoughts_ @ 2005-08-15T20:28:00

2005-08-15T11:06:36Z

omg! first day of school. FIRST DAY OF SENIORHOOD! lol well today went pretty smoothly. of course it kinda started rocky cuz parents parked in the SENIOR parking spot...so i decided to park down near the soccer field instead (well at least i was 'honored' for it later on so i cant complain tho i dont really like being 'honored' like that...modesty is the best policy)

first period..choir..why first period??? idk, but yeah i havent been in choir since elementary! so i felt awkward there. kevin asked me what range i sing..im like "umm..uhh..hey D' what do i sing?" and D'angelo goes "idk..just say bass or something"...haha yeah so im "officially" bass? lol either way i dont think i can sing well. we were doing vocal excercises and i could definitely tell i was off on my "lu-lu"s LOL! yeah my highschool singing experience is limited to the few times i sing on the phone for a special anonymous. >_<

second period was a blast!!! *ahem* that is if ur definition of "blast" would be sitting in a desk pretending you're interested in what's going on. *sigh* yearbook's really different w/o ms. sharon. we're not even in the yearbook room anymore!! what's up with that?! our special room for seniors! miss carey isnt bad at all..she's just...different from ms. sharon. so i guess we just have to get used to her. she's organized and that's a good thing i guess..but it doesnt really matter because our yearbook class is split up! shiz and kelty are with the juniors. and bo hwa's in physics!! i wish bo hwa was in yearbook we could really use her help and talent..but i understand choosing between two things like that. hehehe i was gonna join physics too, but i flipped a coin and it told me to go to yearbook instead. (but i still wanna take physics..for learning's sake/my dad really wants me to...gawd i sound like such a nerd)

third period...talk about overdose. we start class and one of the first things that mr. skeens says is "okay now im gonna try and talk you out of talking calculus..." we're all like o_O he then shows us one homework problem that took up two sides of the same paper..that was just ONE PROBLEM!!! *sigh* not too mention our calc books...they're so big i had to look in the dictionary for the best word that came close...SUPEREXTRAORDINARISIMO!!! that's spanish for something...yeah. it's THAT BIG!

fourth period...fell asleep didnt know what happened in government.

let's see...short lunch...short homeroom for fifth period...man, they're really cutting out the free time...it's all about maximum class time.

i barely stayed awake during Life Skills..i think the only thing that kept me from falling asleep was vanessa's bright pink converse shoes! seriously!!! lol

GRAPHIC DESIGN! perhaps the most anticipated class because it combines my interest in art with my love of computers. and probably the best news ever that happened to harvest is that they're gonna install Adobe photoshop CS on all the computers or at least most of them!!! i can barely fathom it. if u didnt know (or didnt care), the school used to run on photoshop 5.0 which is the equivelent to CRAP! i personally have photoshop 7.0 and am perfectly satisfied with it, but being able to play with CS will be so awesome! oh think of the all the new features that it'll have! hehehe AAHHH nerd-dom taking over! somebody shoot me!...quietly...

and to nicely end the school day is Hon. English..where we did nothing but pass out books and fill out forms..WOOHOO! lol we got a bunch of novels that i really dont care about...yet. hmm let's see we got Frankenstein (who is the doctor who created the green monster), the Count of Monte Cristo (perhaps the most interesting one), Jane Eyre (which i believe is pronounced "air" instead of "ear"), and some other book i cant remember right now. hehehe oh and we had a survey that asked "what is your least favorite book?" MUAHAHA! hey vanessa, guess which book i put down. lol I HATE YOU DAN BROWN!

impurethoughts_ @ 2005-08-14T20:00:00

2005-08-14T09:56:01Z

had one the best bdays ever. went to PIC to eat a good buffet and went swimming. just had a really good time. thanks everyone for making my golden 17th bday pretty awesome. there were a bunch of ppl i wish i could have brought/gone...bo hwa and kelty, josh, axel, and others..luckily friendship isnt based on parties.

well this is it..tomorrow we're officially seniors. the summer literally ends tonite! i hope this year will be better than most if not the best. im anticipating the caps and gowns..i dont want any regrets while i stand on stage and receive my diploma..

...but until then i'll have to go to sleep tonite and wake up for "the last First Day of School (vani)"

impurethoughts_ @ 2005-08-12T08:20:00

2005-08-11T22:27:52Z

omg! i just realized how much im using LJ now! everyday i wake up, check my email, check my LJ, go eat, beat up my brother, and then check my LJ again...AAHHH!! okay yeah i kno i said that i'd NEVER update ever again on my FIRST entry. lol but lookie what im doing?!?! it's okay, im a guy and everyone knows that guys cant commmit...OMG! now im making feminists' jokes!! WHAT THE HEAVENS IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!

okay, scared to say it, but someone needs to get laid...like now...jk

impurethoughts_ @ 2005-08-06T09:13:00

2005-08-06T00:53:03Z

okay i got this off of bohwa's xanga..and she got it off of mylynn..who might have gotten it from someone else...yeah wutever so here's how it goes:

Open your Winamp, iTunes, whatever.
Step 1: Put it on random.
Step 2: Pick your favorite line(s) from the first 15 songs that play (Skip the ones without lyrics)
Step 3: Post and let everyone guess the songs.
Step 4: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly

1. BO HWA - all the best DJs are saving the slowest song for last, when the dance is through it's me and you come'on would it really be so bad
2. guess i can call you and ask you how are you but i really dont have much to say; i really miss u i wish i could kiss u but why are u so far away..
3. BO HWA - thought i ran into you down on the street, then it turned out to only be a dream..
4. VANESSA - brainstorm..take me away from the norm..iii got to tell u something... (oh easy cheesy)
5. is it me or is it you, something isnt right...someday i will find the courage to erase you...
6. the electric sheep are dreaming of ur fate and judge u from the card castle comfort of America
7. VANESSA - you know you do you kill me well you like it too and i can tell u never stop until my final breath is gone
8. because u put me out, the butt of a sick joke, into this ashtray life, as you come and go (cant believe im putting this band in..grr)
9. VANESSA - where is you boi tonight? ...you were the last good thing about this part of town...
10. BO HWA - i wish that every kiss was never-ending..oh wouldn't it be nice...
11. BO HWA - so you swear that you are true but i still pick my friends over you
12. VANESSA - well i know you know everything..i know you didnt mean it i know you didnt mean it.
13. BO HWA - all i wanna do is lie in bed with you..december's gone it came and went.
14. BO HWA - i've given up on social niceties. i threw 'em out when i threw out your keys
15. in the middle of a gun fight, in the center of a resturant, they say 'come with your arms raised high' well they're never gonna get me!

yeah okay somewhat random songs..shouldnt be too hard to figure out. >_< but im betting only a few will try it :p

impurethoughts_ @ 2005-08-05T08:53:00

2005-08-04T22:54:07Z

*okay everyone's gotta love the Ataris at least once in their life.*

THE BOYS OF SUMMER

Nobody on the road
Nobody on the beach
I feel it in the air
The summer's out of reach
Empty lake, empty streets
The sun goes down alone
I'm drivin' by your house
Though I know you're not at home

But I can see you
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got your hair combed back and your sunglasses on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

I never will forget those nights
I wonder if it was a dream
Remember how you made me crazy?
Remember how I made you scream
Now I don't understand what happened to our love
But babe, I'm gonna get you back
I'm gonna show you what I'm made of

I can see you
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
I see you walkin' real slow and you're smilin' at everyone
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

Out on the road today, I saw a BLACK FLAG sticker on a Cadillac
A little voice Inside my head said, "Don't look back. You can never look back."
I thought I knew what love was
What did I know?
Those days are gone forever
I should just let them go but-

I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that top pulled down and that radio on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that hair slicked back and those Wayfarers on, baby
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

*yeah everyone knows that this is a Don Henley cover, but u gotta admit when ur driving at night and u have an idiot (cough *vanessa*) in the passenger seat and the Ataris rock up the radio...it just feels oh so good*

The Saddest Song

only two more days untill your birthday
Yeah yesterday was mine you'll be turning five
I know what it's like growing up
without your father in your life

so I pretend I'm doing all I can
and I hope someday you'll find it in your heart
to understand why I'm not arround
and forgive me for not being in your life

I remember waiting for you to come
remember waiting for you to call
remember waiting and not find a thing at all

I hope I get that chance to make it up to you
We got a lot of catching up to do

so I pretend I'm doing all I can
and I hope someday you'll find it in your heart
to understand why I'm not arround
and forgive me for not being in your life

I remember waiting for you to come
remember waiting for you to call
remember waiting and not find a thing at all

forgive me
I'm so sorry
I will make it up to you...

*by far one of my favs cuz Kris Roe is singing about his pops and his daughter...yeah cant go wrong buddy..cant go wrong...*

Unopened Letter to the World

If i died tomorrow
would this song live on forever?
and here is my
unopened letter to a world
that never shall reply

if i died tomorrow
would this song live on forever?
and here is my
unopened letter to a world
that never shall reply

never shall reply
from this second story window
i can hear the church balls calling out my name
this table is set for one
even angels would be homesick
in this forsaken town

on random notes of parchment
i'm scrawling my existence
dressed in white
this candle radiates throughout the night
and it's never burning out

never burning out
from this second story window
i can hear the children down on main street
they're singing their songs tonight

in the shadows i will listen to their every movement
Mr. Higginson am i not good enough for the world?
am i destined only to die
the same way that i lived,
its seclusion?

but high up on this mountain
i can almost see your lonely window sill
they'll carry you off tonight
there's a ghost in your old bedroom
and a candle burning bright

if i die tomorrow
will this song live on forever?

*gotta give props to vanessa and whoever else figured out that this song is about Emily Dickinson. yes apparently, 
Kris Roe visited her house and decided to write a song in her memory. you can tell that the Ataris are a good band 
cuz they can write a song about a FREAK and still make it sound cool*

In this Diary

Here in this diary I write you visions of my summer.
It was the best I ever had.
There were choruses and sing alongs
and that unspoken feeling of knowing that
right now is all that matters.

All the nights we stayed up talking
listening to 80's songs,
and quoting lines from all the movies that we love.
It still brings a smile to my face.

I guess when it comes down to it
being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up.
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters is just following your heart
and eventually you'll get it right.

Breaking into hotel swimming pools
and wreaking havoc on our world.
Hanging out at truck stops just to pass the time.
The blacktop singing me to sleep.

Lighting fireworks in parking lots
illuminate the blackest nights.
Cherry cokes under the moonlit summer sky.
2015 Riverside, it's time to say goodbye.
Get on the bus, it's time to go.

being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up.
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters is just following your heart
and eventually you'll get it right.

*enough said...kudos to the Ataris (pronounced uh-tar-ees) for rockn the house time and again*

impurethoughts_ @ 2005-08-03T14:16:00

2005-08-03T04:19:55Z

yo whatsup homey my falomeys?!

i'm kuhkuhkelvinnnnnnnnnnnnn! and i'm here to represent the... M-I-N-O-R-I-T-Y...

HA.....eh... anyways, Vanessa's oh so coolio like whoa. in fact, i think i'm gonna give her my car. yeah... that's what i'll do. so this is my online contract and testimony that vanessa cortez ruth villanueva gets my car... before school starts.

bye bye.

oh by the way, this is vanessa, and i like to eat bananas...LOTS of bananas! i just looove stuffing bananas in my mouth! in fact i should just ditch kyle for King Kong cuz im sure he has plenty of bananas too...im just one CRAZY MONKEY!!! o_O

impurethoughts_ @ 2005-07-30T19:17:00

2005-07-30T09:27:43Z

okay so i got a livejournal..i dont see what the big fuss is. customization is bland and i dont care enough to update. so why did i get one in the first place? well cuz i dont like using "anonymous" more than i have to when i post comments so...TA-DA!

dont expect me to update often...scratch that...dont expect me to update AT ALL

if ur seriously dying for some piece of my mind embedded into cyberspace, go to www.xanga.com/impure_thoughts17 that's where im venting my mind these days but dont expect much there either :p

and remember children...

CLEVELAND DOESNT ROCK!