||[May. 5th, 2005|03:25 pm]
|||||Kill - Jimmy Eat World||]|
4 syllables, 3 situations.
Whether it be a lifelong curse,
A repeating shitstorm,
Or just one dumb move you regret making.
Its something that haunts you.
Something that teases you, mocks you at every thought.
Makes you question yourself, your very beliefs of what is wrong and right.
Makes you wonder if what it is that you learned growing up really stuck.
Even the smallest mistake of stupidity will show through your very being.
Whether you were a hero, a nice guy, or just someone who did something worth knowing,
Theres always a flaw.
Theres always that stupid face laughing at you.
You can't get rid of it,
You can't hide it.
You can't take it back,
You can't undo it.
You can't apoligize enough for it.
You can't sell your soul to fix it, no matter how much you want to.
It makes you sick to your stomach
It makes your head scream
It makes the blade feel that much better
It makes suicide an option
It's in your head
It's in your mirror
It's in your friends
It's in your bed
It's on your tv
It's in your computer
It's there when you sleep
It's there when you eat
It's there when you smile
It's there when you cry
It's there when you close your eyes
and the most saddening, depressing thing is
it will probably happen again.
And there is nothing you can do to stop it.
Cause stupidity is around every corner
In every step
Within every movement
And when it happens, you just have to ask yourself
How bad am I going make this?
How incredibly stupid do I want this moment to be?
How determined am I to make myself look more and more like an asshole?
How fast do I want to obliterate my self image,
What everyone thinks of me as,
What I worked so hard to become,
Just so I can do something stupid and not realize it until it's too late?
Until I've lost everything?
Until I have nothing?
Until my act of stupidity defines me as a being?
Until I cant even leave my room for fear of what people perceive of me?
Until theres no one to to talk to but myself?
Or do I want to face the fact
That stupidty has arisen again
Has beaten me into submission
And I let it.