Posted on 2006.05.09 at 16:11
The reason why people fail instead of succeed is that they trade in what they want most for what they want at the moment
i hate having emotions. Especially not being able to control them. One minute i'm happy and joyful. And the next i'm sad and bitter. I can be thankful for what God has given me, yet frustrated as to why I want more. It can be so easy to just let what your feeling at the moment get in the way of what you truly desire. It can be so hard to know how you truly feel and what you should do, and seperate that from your gut instincts. Why trade in complete satisfaction for small satisfaction? How blinded can we get until we see the truth? Why do people have to be so complicated and make things harder, when it was so simple to begin with? Temptation is blinding. And its so easy to give in. Trusting in yourself only brings about more sin. Trusting in Christ is the only way to see what temptation disguised.
Posted on 2006.04.16 at 17:19
so this wknd has been awesome.
Not one second was i bored.
Thursday went to paneras con danielle =)had passion play practice then went to beccas
which consisted of laughing and having way too much fun! BENKEITH haha
Friday went to paneras with becca and Jil. then danyelles partayy and saw benchwarmers with a TON of ppl
had some of the girls over and
Sat. went to the beach alll dayy
it was soo relaxing...just a tad bit burnt but not too bad.
then hit up some seafood resturaunt with ty which was mucho funn
went to jasons for a bit.Then today was Easter...serivce was amazing.hung out with the fam after.
and now i am here..dreading to start my hw and clean my room haha
ohh well school is almost out.
And summer is almost here.
I can taste it. =)
lets just hope i can make it to the end.
Posted on 2006.04.10 at 17:49
i love when God gives me joy and calmness
even through stress beyond imagination
only one more full day of school this week
3 day weekend..heck yesss!
Posted on 2006.04.09 at 16:23
i know second entry today
but i need to vent about school
i still have to finish the WL
and START my history IA
plus bio notecards
and study for history+bio+eng vocab
BLAH after this week though
i'm hopeing/praying that things will calm down
drastically, but i know they won't
due to IB exams and the eng AP exam
Life is just grand isn't it
i wish i could just press stop
but my life is in fast forward motion
and i can't keep up
i can't lose focus
i feel like ive dissappointed myself in school lately
i need to put my all into it
and just do the crap i need to do
i need to keep my focus on Christ
I know that He will give me the strength
i need to finish this year well
Posted on 2006.04.09 at 15:01
Current Music: rascal flatts!
so i pretty much loveeee the new rascal flatts cd
From the moment that we met
My world was turned around
To some degree I still regret
My memory for keeping you around
Girl I thought that you were mine
But my broken hearts been shattered
One too many times
And I don't want to see you anymore
I'm just not that strong
I love it when you're here,
But I'm better when you're gone
I'm certain that I've given and oh how you can take
There's no use in you looking
There's nothing left for you to break
Baby please release me
Let my heart rest in pieces
Someone let you down again
So you turn to me
Your convenient friend
Oh but I know what you're doing
And what you hope to find
I've seen it a thousand times
Oh the fire we had before
Are now just bitter ashes
Left scattered on the floor
Posted on 2006.04.06 at 15:32
Current Music: for you i will
pasion play practices on stage are so fun
i love my position on stage
i'm next to becca, jil, julie, robyn, nikki
but no danyelle or rachel =(
only a couple more weeks of practicing
and then its SHOW TIME!
its gonna be stressful the next couple weeks tho
with IA and WL due soon
and then bio exam is really soon as well
i'm def gonna have to start managing my time better
its gonna be tough..prayer is much needed
ohh and I am soo excited about the new wed night series on the church!
well off to write my WL rough draft..joyy
just some funny momentos of 1st blocking practice
(during the beattitudes scene)
right rebecca right!
Julie: What?..i mean yeahhh
If you call me Ms. Julie, you have to call Eli, Mr. Eli
gbl=great black lights
hahah love it
Posted on 2006.04.03 at 17:03
man this week is going to be crazy
didnt have a great day
just one of those off kinda days
tonight=major studying for history test
i am determined to pass atleast one this 9 weeks
tomrrow= babysitting til 6, and movie night with brett
wed= eye doctor appt which last hours, church,
homework and passion play til 10:30
thursday= cancelling babysitting to work on the
WL rough draft, and passion play til 10:30
friday= who knows.def catchin up on sleep
sat= hanging out with tiff and whoever else
sunday= church =)
ohhh and sometime between now and next tuesday i have to write
my 1500 word history paper..joyy
all this minus the school and crap would be alot better
Posted on 2006.03.27 at 21:49
11 Then I saw a great white throne and him who was seated on it. From his presence earth and sky fled away, and no place was found for them. 12 And I saw the dead, great and small, standing before the throne, and books were opened. Then another book was opened, which is the book of life. And the dead were judged by what was written in the books, according to what they had done. 13 And the sea gave up the dead who were in it, Death and Hades gave up the dead who were in them, and they were judged, each one of them, according to what they had done. 14 Then Death and Hades were thrown into the lake of fire. This is the second death, the lake of fire. 15 And if anyone's name was not found written in the book of life, he was thrown into the lake of fire.
8 As I have seen, those who plow iniquity
and sow trouble reap the same.
9 By the breath of God they perish,
and by the blast of his anger they are consumed.
oh what a scary thing it is not to be on the Lord's side.
You may enjoy your sinful pleasures here on earth.
But what about after you die.
Death is inevitable.
And theres only one question you need answered.
Where are you spending eternity?
Posted on 2006.03.25 at 13:01
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: move along
Birthplace: Daytona beach
Current Location: port orange
Eye Color: Blueish green
Hair Color: Blonde
Weight: 130 or so
Overused Phraze: haha
Candy: depends on the mood
Drink: Water/sweet tea
Alcohol Drink: dont drink
Bagel: einsteins everything bagels or cinnamon
Body Part on Opposite sex: arms ;)
This or That
Pepsi or Coke: doesnt matter
McDonalds or BurgerKing: uhm prob mcdonalds
Strawberry or Watermelon: Watermelon
Hot tea or Ice tea: ice tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: i like both
Hot Chocolate or Coffee: Hot Chocolate & Starbucks
Kiss or Hug: hug
Dog or Cat: dog
Rap or Punk: rap
Summer or Winter: both
Scary Movies or Funny Movies: Funny i like scary too tho
Love or Money: LOVE most def
Bedtime: when i get tired
Most Missed Memory: my grandpa; haley
Best phyiscal feature: uhm my eyes? i guess..idk you tell me
First Thought Waking Up: not now..
Goal for this year: uhm pass my IB tests;figure out what i wanna do for college
Best Friends: uhm i have a couple best friends
Weakness: patience, sweet nothings, speeding, and guys who can play guitars
Fears: spiders, cochroaches, and elevators
Heritage: irish, italian..uhm?
Longest relationship: haha almost 3 weeks; ive only been in one relationship
Ever Drank: nope..well champagne at a wedding
Ever Smoked: nope
Ever been Drunk: nope
Ever been beaten up: my brother?
Ever beaten someone up: my brother hah and devon is always fun to beat up on
Ever Shoplifted: when i was 7 haha
Ever Skinny Dipped: hmm haha
Ever Kissed Opposite sex: nope
Been Dumped Lately: nope
IN A GUY/GIRL
Favorite Eye Color: doesn't matter
Favorite Hair Color: brown/darker hair
Short or Long: not too long not too short
Height: taller than me
Style: as long as its not emo or goth i'm fine with it haha..guys with tight pants=major turnoff
Looks or Personality: personality
Hot or Cute: depends
Drugs and Alcohol: neither
Muscular or Really Skinny: in between
Number of Regrets in the Past: no regrets..i learn from my mistakes
What country do you want to Visit: CHINA olympics 2008 babay.. or south africa or Italy somewhere pretty
How do you want to Die: old age
Been to the Mall Lately: yup wed night
Do you like Thunderstorms: love them
Get along with your Parents: for the most part..me and my mom disagree some tho..danyelle knows what i mean haha
Health Freak: not really haha
Do you think your Attractive: uhm not really..i dont think i'm ugly tho..just not whoohoo
Believe in Yourself: through Christ in me
Want to go to College: yup
Do you Smoke: nope
Do you Drink: nope
Shower Daily: yup
Been in Love: with Jesus, no guys tho hah
Do you Sing: yup..not very well haha
Want to get Married: more than you know
Do you want Children: love kids =)
Have your future kids names planned out: Jayden Elizabeth, Landon Mitchell, Hannah Grace
Age you wanna lose your Virginity: Wedding night
Hate anyone: dislike yes
Posted on 2006.03.13 at 15:58
Current Mood: bored