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[30 Nov 2009|11:15pm] |
wait, we swear we'll love you more
but you didn't wait
you left
without a second thought
and now i'm here
alone
left to deal with it
and you scamper across the south
talking to strangers
spreading your bullshit
and i'm here
alone
left to deal with it
and you think you're doing well
you think that you're alright
but you have no idea
this is not what we wanted
this is not what was meant to be
and now i'm here
alone
left to deal with it
you left me.
you left me.
without a second thought.
we could have had something
and now i'm left here
all alone
second guessing everything i know to be true
second guessing my love
second guessing who the fuck i am
and i can't do this without you
what the fuck was i thinking
i don't know how to do this.
and i'm left here
alone.
to deal with this shit.
wait, we swear we'll love you more.
but you couldn't be bothered
you knew what you wanted
it didn't matter what was best
it was always you.
always you first.
and you didn't ask how i felt
this was your decision.
it doesn't matter if it hurts
it was always you.
always you first.
and you didn't think about me
you didn't care how it hurt me
can't be conflicted with feelings
it was always you.
always you first.
so keep on trucking
forget me back here
i don't wonder how you are anymore.
because it was always you.
always you first.
i can second.
second best
second worst
it was always you
always you first
and it's not important how i am
i always find a way to pull through
you are the one to tell me that everytime
because it was always you
always you first
first
first
first
it was always you
always you first
don't worry about me
don't waste your time
just keep on trucking
because it was always you
always you first.
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[26 Oct 2009|12:03am] |
For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. energy cannot be created nor destroyed, only transformed. this is the meaning of the number 8
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[20 Jan 2009|11:20am] |
This is a wonderful day in America. I hope that everyone is as hopeful and as excited about the change that has come to our country. We have just made history, and each and every one of us has been a part of it.
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[08 Jan 2009|01:11pm] |
I don't want to go to work.
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[29 Nov 2008|08:11pm] |
I've dug myself into a hole which I cannot escape.
Someone hand me a shovel.
I can't believe I did this.
I'm never doing this again.
I failed us both.
I'm sorry. I really am.
I want nothing more than for you to be happy.
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[18 Nov 2008|07:52pm] |
My grandfather is dying from heart failure.
I went to see him and say my last goodbye today.
When I walked into the room, and he saw me, he began to cry. My parents said that he hasn't cried at any point during this whole ordeal. I feel like I need to make him proud. I want to make him proud. I want to make him happy. I want him to watch over me and realize that he doesn't have to worry about me.... I'll be just fine.
I told him I loved him.
I've never said that to my grandfather before. But I do. I love him so much, and I'm going to miss him, a lot.
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[18 Nov 2008|02:36am] |
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Words roll of your lips and sink into my heart. Where they will forever stay.
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[16 Nov 2008|07:26pm] |
Everything is going to hell.
Why am I starting to think about you again? We broke up eight months ago. I hated you, I absolutely hated you. Now I think about you more and more each day.... why did you have to start talking to me again?
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[11 Nov 2008|06:53pm] |
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Do you want to go to the seaside? I'm not trying to say that everybody wants to go. I feel in love with the seaside. I handled my charm with time and slight of hand. Do you want to go to the seaside? I'm not trying to say that everybody wants to go. I fell in love with the seaside. I handled my charm with time and slight of hand. But I'm just trying to love you, in any kind of way. But I find it hard to love you boy, when you're far away. Do you want to go to the seaside? I'm not trying to say that everybody wants to go. But I fell in love on the seaside, in the seaside, on the seaside.
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[21 Oct 2008|10:41pm] |
I started painting again. This is my most recent painting. Abstract. Love it.
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[18 Sep 2008|12:28am] |
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The beauty of life lies in the complex and mysterious events that take place throughout a lifetime. The only way to completely understand the hidden meanings that lie behind these events is to recall them as memories.
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[31 Aug 2008|09:50pm] |
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Well, I'm all moved in to my new dorm room. It's pretty nice. I like my roommate for the most part. I think we'll get along really well. I haven't really met anyone new yet, but hopefully I will tomorrow, because we're starting the WOW programs. I have to pee, but I do not want to go to the public bathroom!!! I need to wash my face and brush my teeth too, but I'm just not used to this whole school thing yet. Well, I'm off to get ready for bed. I hope this place starts to feel more like home soon.
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[10 Aug 2008|09:07pm] |
" May I become at all times, both now and forever
A protector for those without protection
A guide to those who have lost their way
A ship for those with oceans to cross
A bridge for those with rivers to cross
A sanctuary for those in danger
A lamp for those without light
A place of refuge for those who lack shelter
And a servant to all in need"
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[07 Jun 2008|12:33pm] |
Finally my new tattoo has healed.
Now it's time for a fresh start. Gutting my room and gutting my wardrobe.
New clothes and freshly painted walls soon.
Hawai'i, here I come.
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[22 Jan 2008|09:28am] |
Proud of my life and the things that I have done.
Proud of myself and the loner I’ve become.
You’re free to whine, it will not get you far.
I do just fine, my car and my guitar.
When I'm dead I'll rest, lay still
When I'm dead I'll rest, I'll rest
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[24 Mar 2007|12:02pm] |
“We can spend our lives letting the world tell us who we are. Sane or insane. Saints or sex addicts. Heros or victims. Letting history tell us how good or bad we are. Letting our past decide our future. Or we can decide for ourselves. And maybe it’s our job to invent something better.”
Choke - Chuck Palahniuk
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[20 Jul 2006|11:22am] |
BRAND NEW
WAS FUCKING
AMAZING.
Sugarcult/Spill Canvas/So They Say/Halifax - ]
09.18.06
The Quest Club / Ascot Room
Minneapolis
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