mia (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} goldfish_) wrote,@ 2005-09-16 20:50:00 |
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my roads are winding. dark. misleading. i've been waiting for a very long time now, a very very long time longer than ever, but every little adding moment i managed to convince myself that it was worth it as there was no other way. not like other misguided humans, i cross rivers on the back of bending bridges. my letters have strange ways of flowing on paper, because i was never properly taught how to write. it takes more than 9 and a half days. 3 deaths were predicted, none of them happened, and i cannot believe anymore, the way i used to when i stared at the world through cloudy eyes, the times i had the illusion of being able to love. i am perfectly conscious, but more and more afraid, more than ever before, that this will end up in a tradegy. i had huge butterflies flying through the windows last night, having cut their wings they were dripping of blood and spoke to me in never-heard languages. i had to lie, to regain my peace. it takes more than one strong to help the weak. it takes food parcels and medicine.
you are too refined, just like a persian kitten. you've ordered fish in a circular tank to have them during winter, to have them eat from your fingers and have their transparent souls shine through your miserable self. be ashamed of yourself. you are bad. you liar.
i've stared people out just like i've stared at the silver screens.
i bent towards you the way a lamb would towards her mother; and you tried to escape.
i mostly think of you at the break of day and i see you in the clear mirrors of water, streched-out surfaces, you exist in minute apparations of light that wound the water and leave unmistakable traces.
if you roll up your sleeves, you remind me even more of the one i used to love.
