urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_MikaMikagobsmacker112@yahoo.comMika2008-08-21T17:32:07Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:159157All that we need to be happy is something to be enthusiastic about2008-05-26T17:36:53Z2008-05-26T17:36:53ZI'm still alive, I'm still here. ^_^urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:158947Welcome, 2008.2007-12-31T19:57:13Z2007-12-31T20:02:08ZA long december and there's reason to believe<br />Maybe this year will be better than the last. . . <br /><br />Let's all be hopeful and optimistic. Happy New Year, everyone! :) <br /><br /> <p class="MsoNormal"> </p><a name="cutid1"></a><div class="ljcut" text="random survey"><p class="MsoNormal">Survey:<br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">What were you doing at midnight<br /> last night?<br /> -I took a shower<br /> <br /> What do people call you?<br /> -Mika or Mix.<br /> <br /> <span style=""> </span>Who is the last missed call on your call log?<br /> -Rika <br /> <br /> If you could change your eye colour, what would you change it to?<br /> - gray with a tint of light brown?<span style=""> </span><br /> <br /> What do you have handy at your bedside everynight?<br /> - 3 remote controls, phone and nasal spray<br /> <br /> <span style=""> </span>Who do you make fun of the most?:<br /> - from the top of my head, I’d say henny<span style=""> </span>:P<br /> <br /> What's the longest you've ever talked on the phone?<br /> - more than 8 hours, maybe? But I’m done with that phase already.<br /> <br /> Have you seen your best friend cry?<br /> - yup..<span style=""> </span><br style="" /> <br style="" /> </p> <p class="MsoNormal">Do you and your best friend act alike?<br /> - I think so… <br /> <br /> What is a noise that you cannot<br /> stand?<br /> - cries of an abandoned kitten<br /> <br /> <span style=""> </span>What's your favourite colour?<br /> - green and now I’m starting to like red too<br /> <br /> Has something happened that you honestly thought you were gonna die?:<br /> - yup<br /> <br /> <span style=""> </span>Do you have a hard time admitting your wrong?<br /> - not really. I don't bullshit<br /> <br /> What makes you lose your appetite?<br /> - when I’m with someone I like-like. Seriously. <br /> <br /> What colour is your laundry basket?<br /> - maroon with dark green lining<span style=""> </span><br /> <b><br /> ON 2007</b></p> <p class="MsoNormal"> <o:p></o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal">What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?<br /> -Post-mortem care to four patients in just a month</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><br /> Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?<br /> -No and no.<br /> <br /> Did anyone close to you give birth?<br /> -yes<br /> <br /> Did anyone close to you die?<br /> -Brian, my cousin <br /> <br /> What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?<br /> -love life, please<br /> <br /> What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?<br /> -August 26, 2007, when they released the result of the board exam, yeah!<br /> <br /> What was your biggest achievement of the year?<br /> <br /> -surviving a month of duty in 4North with Sir Butcon</p> <p class="MsoNormal">-living in Cogeo, Antipolo for a month with my groupmates, our own apartment and all.. first taste of independence!!!</p> <p class="MsoNormal">-graduating college</p> <p class="MsoNormal">-earning my RN license<br style="" /> <br style="" /> </p> <p class="MsoNormal">What was your biggest failure?<br /> -backsliding <br /> <br /> Did you suffer illness or injury?<br /> -got sick a lot of times as usual<br /> <br /> What was the best thing you bought?<br /> -For myself? Uh, R4 card for DS hehe.<span style=""> </span><br /> <br /> Whose behavior merited celebration?<br /> -my dog Gia hahaha <br /> <br /> Whose behaviour appalled you and made you depressed?</p> <p class="MsoNormal">-pffttttt <br /> <br /> Where did most of your money go?<br /> -food!<br /> <br /> <span style=""> </span>What song will always remind you of 2007?</p> <p class="MsoNormal">-Umbrella, used to hear it everywhere! And irreplaceable rar, paulit-ulit!!<br /> <br /> Compared to this time last year, are you:<br /> -I’m happier, fatter but POORER. <br /> <br /> What do you wish you'd done more of?<br /> -SLEEP<br /> <br /> What do you wish you'd done less of?<br /> - smoke<br /> <br /> <span style=""> </span>Did you fall in love in 2007?<br /> -it was just some kinda happy crush! <span style="font-family: Wingdings;"><span style=""></span></span> </p> <p class="MsoNormal"><br /> What was your favourite TV program?<br /> -heroes season1, s2’s a drag, weeds, entourage, how I met your mother, QUEER AS FOLK.. watched all five seasons in just eight days.. this was the time when I was waiting for the NLE results <3 gay love haha <br /> <br /> <span style=""> </span>Favorite film of this year?<br /> -Bourne Ultimatum? Die Hard 4.0? Transformers? Ooh those are movies that I’ve watched with my dad! Andddd Stardust and One More Chance. </p> <p class="MsoNormal"> <o:p></o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal">What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?<br /> -22, and I had duty that time. <br style="" /> <br style="" /> </p> <p class="MsoNormal">What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?<br /> -blah.<br /> <br /> How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?<br /> -comfy and lousy<br /> <br /> What kept you sane?<br /> -pets<span style=""> </span><br /> <br /> Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?<br /> - no one, they all disappointed me<br /> <br /> Who did you miss?<br /> -kuya mark <br /> <br /> Who was the best new person you met?</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=""> </span>-this girl in Red Cross<br /> <br /> Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007.<br /> -Umiwas sa mga motorsiklo. Sumusulpot na lang sila nang biglaan.</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><br /> Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.<br /> <br /> <i>This is the way you left me,<br /> I'm not pretending.<br /> No hope, no love, no glory,<br /> No Happy Ending.<br /> This is the way that we love,<br /> Like it's forever.<br /> Then live the rest of our life,<br /> But not together.<br /> <br /> Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life<br /> Can't get no love without sacrifice<br /> If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well<br /> A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell<br /> <br /> This is the hardest story that I've ever told<br /> No hope, or love, or glory<br /> Happy endings gone forever more<br /> I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted<br /> And I'm wastin' everyday<br /> <br /> <span style=""> </span>2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind<br /> Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around<br /> If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep<br /> I can think that we just carried on<br style="" /> <br style="" /> <o:p></o:p></i></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><i>Mika; Happy Ending</i></p> <p class="MsoNormal"> <o:p></o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal">Do you like cheese?<br /> -yup.. brie specially!<br style="" /> <br style="" /> </p> <p class="MsoNormal">Have you ever smoked heroin?<br /> -Nope.<br /> <br /> Your favorite song/s?<br /> <span style=""> </span>-Undecided, the magic numbers</p> <p class="MsoNormal"> <o:p></o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal">Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?<br /> -haha, nope.<br /> <br /> Favorite Christmas song?<br /> -All the songs in the Jackson 5’s Christmas album!! </p> <p class="MsoNormal"> <o:p></o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal">What do you like to drink in the morning?<br /> -Water <br /> <br /> Can you do push ups?</p> <p class="MsoNormal">-Yes but I’d rather not, please <br /> <br /> <span style=""> </span>What's your favorite piece of jewel<br /> -I used to wear this necklace when I was little... <br /> <br /> Favorite hobby?<br /> -daydreaming<br /> <br /> Secret weapon to get the opposite sex?<br /> -Wala</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><br /> What one trait do you hate about yourself?<br /> -my obsessive-ness <br /> <br /> <span style=""> </span>Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment<br /> -I will smoke after this, I want to eat, I need to sleep,<span style=""> </span><br style="" /> <br style="" /> </p> <p class="MsoNormal">Name 3 things you bought yesterday?<br /> <span style=""> </span>-wala eh<br /> <br /> Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?<br /> -Water 3x <br /> <br /> Current worry right now?<br /> -I might end up in East Ave if I don’t make it to the training list of NKTI this month<br /> <br /> Current hate?<br /> -hmm wala<br /> <br /> Favorite place?<br /> -my room <br /> <br /> <span style=""> </span>Do you own flip flops?<br /> -too many, maybe<br /> <br /> What shirt are you wearing?</p> <p class="MsoNormal">-a polka-dotted night shirt <br /> <br /> Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?<br /> -I wouldn’t know<br /> <br /> Can you whistle?</p> <p class="MsoNormal">-nope<br style="" /> <br style="" /> </p> <p class="MsoNormal">Last thing that made you laugh?<br /> -hahaha something my friend said in ym</p> <p class="MsoNormal"> <o:p></o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal">Best bed sheets as a child?<br /> -kero keroppi sheets!<br /> <br /> Worst injury you've ever had?<br /> -more of an emotional injury.. the hardest to recover from <br /> <br /> Do you love where you live?<br /> -I’m learning to! Astig magmaneho sa commonwealth, andaming tarantadong driver!<br /> <br /> How many computers do you have in your house?<br /> -Two laptops, two desktops but one is obsolete <span style=""> </span><br style="" /> <br style="" /> <br />Who is your loudest friend?<br /> <span style=""> </span>-Noel!<br /> <br /> How many dogs do you have?<br /> -two garage dogs and an indoor one<br /> <br /> Does someone have a crush on you?<br /> -I’m sure there’s none.</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=""> </span><br /> What is your favorite book?</p> <p class="MsoNormal">-From the top of my head, The Sun Also Rises</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><br /> What is your favorite candy/chocolate?<br /> -any Japanese chocolate, smores, Hawaiian Host, chocolate mint, dark chocolate, orange-chocolate, ferrero, watermelon gum, I always need to have curiously strong mints from marks and spencers, <br /> <br /> What song do you want played at your funeral?<br /> -I Will Remember You-Sarah Mclachlan.<span style=""> </span>This should seriously be followed. <br /> <br /> What is the first thing you thought of when you woke up?<br /> -I want waffles and Christmas ham for breakfast! :)</p> <p class="MsoNormal"> </p></div><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal"> <o:p></o:p></p>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:158518gobsmacker_ @ 2007-10-02T22:52:002007-10-02T15:38:47Z2007-10-02T15:38:47ZTomorrow's another day to waste. Ang hirap pala maging bum. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:158339GO SCYONS 20072007-08-26T10:42:06Z2007-08-26T10:47:53ZI'm now a registered nurse!!! WE MADE IT!!! Our prayers were heard. I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY. :) Time to party!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:158068gobsmacker_ @ 2007-04-20T14:09:002007-04-20T06:11:01Z2007-04-20T06:11:01Z<p>I've been crying myself to sleep for the past three nights. Parental concerns. I'm sad. :( </p>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:157791Free Dumb, you say?2007-03-20T17:43:24Z2007-03-20T17:43:24Z<p align="left"> Kanina, naghehesitate pa ako kung maguupdate ako. Honestly, it's not like before anymore wherein I felt so free and at ease to verbalize all my feelings. I've come to discover that the events in my life have more meaning if I just keep them to myself. So should I bother. Hmm. Pero eto na. Eto na eh. <br /><br /> I'm anxious about the boards. Gusto ko mag-aral pero hindi pa ako makapag-aral until matapos yang #&*!*^% na Disengagement Party and yearbook matter, under my staff that is. Ang daming iniisip, at ang tagal pa nang grad, April 22! And everyday, I'm bombarded with test drills from outer space. Tapos yung nanay at tatay ko pa, naghihigpit pa. <a href="mailto:%$@#%&$">%$@#%&$</a>*#! And I owe Katz money, dahil dun sa lecheng lumang L300 na nabangga ko. I'm thinking of selling my ipod, really. *#^$&!^@. Can't wait to get out, can't wait for my life to begin.. in June, after I'm done with everything. I'm not the moping type, I'm a believer of positivity pero <a href="mailto:&%^!@#%">&%^!@#%</a>. Obviously, I'm at loss for words. <br /><br /><br /><br /></p>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:157640gobsmacker_ @ 2006-12-18T00:35:002006-12-17T16:35:10Z2006-12-17T16:43:40Z<p>I think I already have Thromboangiitis Obliterans/Buerger's Disease. Seriously. It usually starts with numbness or coldness in your fingertips, or toes and progress to your arms or legs. I should stop smoking, lately I can't get through a day without finishing a pack. Screw these abnormal sensations, my hands are so cold.. <br /><br />BTW. Our research paper won first prize for the Student's Category (Medicine, Nursing and PT) and our group, I mean Janelle presented it at the Annual Research Forum last Thursday. The prize money's 20k. Hard work does pay. <br /><br /><br />Misha, my adopted cat, died yesterday. Kung sino man ang nakasagasa sa kanya, bahala na ang Diyos sa 'yo. <br />I miss you baby, you'll always be one of my favorites. <3</p>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:157366gobsmacker_ @ 2006-12-03T02:26:002006-12-02T18:26:37Z2006-12-02T18:26:37ZI spent the evening hanging out with Tria, Patrick and Crissy at Cantina, the usual. Makulay pala ang love life ni Cris. ;) Hmm. Namiss ko talaga sila. Parang pag-oonline. Namiss ko rin. For almost two months now, wala akong PC dahil nasira at nakikigamit lang ako kay Kuya Myron. Nakakatamad mag-paayos but I'll try to accomplish that tomorrow. <br /><br />Anj also dropped by my house after her gimik. Naghahanap ng kausap, at kadamay. Hehe. In the midst of our chat, naalala ko lang ulit na NMAT ko na next week. At di pa ako nag-aaral. Seriously. And hindi ko alam kung saan ko na nalagay yung application form or something. So I panicked. I searched through my room and na ransack na naman ang kwarto ko. Sa paghahanap ko through my countless notebooks, bags and school stuff, madami akong nakitang mga unfinished journals and unsent letters. Nyaha, I got nostalgic and shit pero pinagtawanan na lang namin ang aking pagkadramatic and mushy. At kung gaano kagulo ang aking sulat-kamay. Sabi ni Anj, pagnamatay daw ako, she'd sell and exploit all of my writings. Some friend, right? Hehe. Anyway two hours akong naghanap at wala pa rin until Anj had to leave na. Hinatid ko siya sa labas at bago ako bumalik sa kwarto, nakakita ako ng isang stack of envelopes sa may piano. Fucker, andun lang pala ang NMAT forms na hinahanap ko. Ang galing ko talaga. Mag-aaral pa ba ako for that?<br /><br />Off-topic. I'm recommending you all to watch How I Met Your Mother. Laugh-trip siya. P50 lang sa Quiapo, as well as the other series of dvds. :)<br /><br />My sked this sem is too lax, wala pa kasing duty. I'm enjoying what is left of my college life. Ganyan lang naman kasi dapat. <br /><br />Good night y'all. Pinapaalis nako ni Kuya. Haha.urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:157094Gatorade yeah2006-10-07T16:03:46Z2006-10-07T16:04:49Z<p>Second Semester, here I come! Ay may finals pa. Hahahaha. I'll post the After Orals Celeb when I.. find the time. Haha. This is fun. <3 </p>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:156917Insomnia did this to me.2006-10-01T22:07:23Z2008-08-21T17:32:07Z<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-indent: 0.5in;"><font size="4"><span style="font-size: 8pt; font-family: 'Century Gothic';">I feel so uninspired.<br /><br /> I miss the feeling of having someone around. Of having that permanent smirk on my face knowing that I have someone who loves me and cares for me the same way that I do for that person. I miss the feeling of being needed and wanted. I miss the feeling of lavishing someone with tiny trinkets and little surprises that have so much meaning to me. I miss waking up in the morning with that certainty in my heart as I look forward to another day of spending time with that someone; I miss sleeping at night, wishing and believing that the pillow I’m cradling in my arms is really that person, and not just an inanimate object devoid of any meaning.<span style=""> </span>I miss the thrill, the anticipation. I miss the feeling of having that tachycardic rush you only get when you’re spending time with that someone. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><font size="4"><span style="font-size: 8pt; font-family: 'Century Gothic';"> <o:p></o:p></span></font></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-indent: 0.5in;"><font size="4"><span style="font-size: 8pt; font-family: 'Century Gothic';">I wish I did not harbor these idealistic notions on love. I’m mushy; I’m too passionate it’s even smothering <i>me. </i>I’ve always wanted to be like everyone else who can take things lightly because that’s how one should be in reality, I want to be like most people who can easily replace the past with a new one. I have moved on, I know that for sure, but I can’t allow myself to settle for anything less than that of a meaningful relationship. I know I can easily take on a fling, there are a lot desperate lonely people like me in need of instant comfort and companionship but once I get close to that initiation stage of starting out with someone new, I withdraw right away. I feel filthy and cheap. Or maybe I’m just being a coward. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><font size="4"><span style="font-size: 8pt; font-family: 'Century Gothic';"> <o:p></o:p></span></font></p><p class="MsoBodyTextIndent" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><font size="4"><span style="font-size: 8pt; font-family: 'Century Gothic';"> All my life I have been mediocre; I couldn’t care less for aspiring anything more than what I could manage with my idleness and recklessness. But when it comes to love and commitment, I try to give my best. I try everything that I can to show my love for someone, exhausting all ways and means. It’s silly, I’ve only been in love once, it has proven me nothing so far but love still remains to be a passionate and solemn thing for me. Love isn’t something that I can deal with sparingly. I just can’t play. Those three special words aren’t something I could easily dispense with.<span style=""> </span>I just can’t hold someone’s hand and be in kissing terms with that person without definite knowledge in myself that what I feel is real, sincere and special.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><font size="4"><span style="font-size: 8pt; font-family: 'Century Gothic';"> <o:p></o:p></span></font></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-indent: 0.5in;"><font size="4"><span style="font-size: 8pt; font-family: 'Century Gothic';">It’s actually tiresome, to be like me. And maybe it’s even more tiresome to love me, since I have so many crazed ideas and standards on being in a relationship. I’ve come to understand that part now. I don’t like the way I am, but I can’t afford to take a step backward just to lower my principles. Am I frigid? Maybe I am. Frigid and insane.</span></font></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><font size="4"><span style="font-size: 8pt; font-family: 'Century Gothic';"> <o:p></o:p></span></font></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-indent: 0.5in;"><font size="4"><span style="font-size: 8pt; font-family: 'Century Gothic';">I’m not really that miserable now, I just miss getting high on lovesick emotions. I’m not looking; I’m not even waiting for someone new. If it comes, then good, but as of now I’m only missing the feeling of everything that makes me feel crazy and wonderful at the same time. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><font size="4"><span style="font-size: 8pt; font-family: 'Century Gothic';"> </span></font></p>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:156664If you can follow2006-10-01T21:17:28Z2006-10-01T21:31:33Z<a name="cutid1"></a><div class="ljcut" text="Natalie Portman is incredible. <3 ">She's on Inside the Actor's Studio now. <br /><br />A portion of her interview..<br /><br />Her...<br /><br />Fave word: Linger<br />Least favorite word: Genius, it's too pretentious<br />Turn on: Confidence<br />Turnoff: Arrogance<br />Sound she loves the most: My dog yawning.<br />Sound she hates the most: Sirens in europe. I'm Jewish, it freaks me out it reminds me of the Holocaust.<br />Curse word: (something in arabic or jewish?) Means your mother's vagina. <br /></div>
<br />Pathetic, I know. <br /><br />Pasado ako sa orals. Big friggin' deal! :) I have the entire week to study for my finals, too lazy to start now, maybe tomorrow. :O Meeting up with Cara aka Danica later, we're just going to walk her labrador I think. <br /><br />Too many things have been going on <em>around</em> me while I remain sluggish <em>and </em>cloudy. Not good. Oh, and I can't sleep, my neurons are working overtime again. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:156278gobsmacker_ @ 2006-09-30T03:05:002006-09-29T19:15:35Z2006-09-29T19:32:02ZI'm cold. <br /><br />But yunno, I just have to say this, omg ang cute niyo. Bagay kayo!urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:156019gobsmacker_ @ 2006-09-21T23:37:002006-09-21T15:38:42Z2006-09-21T15:38:42ZDance n'APO. Medicine 2010 A. Hehe. Hottt.urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:155768Take me very far away.2006-09-16T10:37:58Z2006-09-16T10:56:59Z<font size="1">
<a name="cutid1"></a><div class="ljcut" text="crap">My research group has been given the special privilige of accomplishing our study for the past entire week by Dean Divinagracia. We were temporarily excused from duty, our make-up duty would be after the finals. Ang hirap ng research namin. "The Effects of Interpersonal Competency of Health Care Providers to the Compliance of DOTS Patients". DOTS or Directly Observed Treatment Short-Course is the treatment regimen for TB patients. In this strategy, the health care provider administers a series of combined drugs to the patient on a daily basis under direct observation to ensure strict adherance to the drug therapy and to avoid drug resistance. In the Philippine community setting, DOTS comes for free, and there are designated barangay health workers for each TB patient. It should be as simple as that, however, the issue of non-compliance of patients still exists, especially in our country. Everyday, about 75 Filipinos die of TB. Our research is targeted on whether there is a relationship between the IPRC of BHWs' to the compliance of patients undergoing the DOTS program.<br /><br />I'm completely worn out. Pabalik-balik pa kami, from school to Cogeo, Antipolo for our implementation. Tapos may Oral Revalida next week. Hindi pa ako nag-aaral, ni isang disease. How can I possibly cram 59 diseases in a week? Last night, Carla, Carlo, Diana and I were supposed to study for the Orals. Tinamad rin, we ended up in a joyride to Baywalk, Malate, Intramuros and back to QC. <br /><br />I'm losing drive. Little by little I'm beginning to realize that med school is not for me. Ngayon pa lang, give up nako. Basta, matapos lang tong sem, magpapaparty talaga ako. I never expected for things to become this complicated. <br /><br />Chill-chill lang tonight. Have a date with Ricka! It's been weeks since we've bonded. Sama ka 'Tel? :) Really sorry about 3N1.. <br /><br /><strike> Experienced the biggest fright of my life last night. Seriously. And there's only three of us who know about it.</strike></div>
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</font>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:155401Walking away.2006-09-04T20:45:20Z2006-09-04T20:45:20Z<p>Sabi ng kaibigan ko, "Love hurts when you do it right". Sabi ko, tama siya.</p>
<p>Anyway, namimiss ko na agad yung magulang ko. :/ And, after a month of hiatus, I finally got my phone back. New lcd, I've yet to have it painted. <br />Bawal ang kotse ko ng Tuesday, at ayoko naman magdala ng shift stick. I get off at 2pm, di ko alam kung mahahabol ko ng 3pm pauwi. Di ko alam, wala akong alam, sige, maliligo na ako. Almost 5am na. Ayoko ma-late sa OR. <br /><br />Wala lang. Bizarre wake-up call. </p>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:155241Sinking in2006-08-31T14:34:46Z2006-08-31T14:34:46ZCan't wait for this sem to end. Oral Revalida, Finals and Defense coming up in three weeks. Might as well die. 'Rents will be leaving for the States on Monday. Freedom AND independence for three months, omg. No curfew with the car and all that shit. I basically rule the house. Kuya Myron shouldn't be a bother. <br /><br />Someone please take me away. I need a break from school. :(urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:154995Musing..2006-08-21T16:18:17Z2006-08-21T16:25:33Z<p align="right">“I miss God. I miss the company of someone utterly loyal. I still don't think of God as my betrayer. The servants of God, yes, but servants by their very nature betray. I miss God who was my friend. I don't even know if God exists, but I do know that if God is your emotional role model, very few human relationships will match up to it. I have an idea that one day it might be possible, I thought once it had become possible, and that glimpse has set me wandering, trying to find the balance between earth and sky. If the servants hadn't rushed in and parted us, I might have been disappointed, might have snatched off the white samite to find a bowl of soup. As it is, I can't settle, I want someone who is fierce and will love me until death and knows that love is as strong as death, and be on my side for ever and ever. I want someone who will destroy me and be destroyed by me.”<br /><br /> -Jeanette Winterson</p>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:154577You've gotta cute way of talking2006-07-09T04:00:47Z2006-07-09T04:21:04Z<p>I was awake for 31 solid hours. I woke up as early as 8 am last Friday to study in the lib for the exam in Nursing Psychiatry, before my 2-10pm shift at the EENT ward. Thankfully, the EENT ward was benign, save for the post-op patient who returned to the ward just thirty minutes before the log-out. After my duty, I went straight to Dunkin Donuts in Gilmore for the study group with Diana, Pritz, Carlo, Carla, Rey, Berna, Ken, Cheska and AJ. We pulled out an all-nighter; the exam was at 6:00 am. We left the place at about 4:30 am with ample time for reconditioning and minor prep before the exam. Most of them are dormers anyway. I went to shower at Carla's. <br /><br />It's a make-or-break type of exam. Nursing Psychiatry holds the biggest chunk among all other concepts this sem. 60% to be precise. 155 items for one hour. I deal well with time pressure though, and I was the first one to finish in the batch, and it was a long wait before the others finished after me. The exam's a medium, and I think I'm going to pass. *foolish grin* The psychiatric drugs were confusing and I mostly bluffed my way on the Substance-abuse disorders but it's still okay. :) The study group's proven to be effective so it's going to be our thing every Friday night since we have exam every Saturday morning. <br /><br />Anyway after the exam, there's was a seminar on EKG till 12 noon. By that time, I was already suffering from a migraine, and the rain was making it worse. I was supposed to meet up with my research group after lunch but I just had to excuse myself. I went home at 3 pm and crashed into my bed as soon as I changed clothes. Now I have recharged and I'm feeling good again. After this post, I will take my brunch, err lunch and then take a bath and get dressed because I have another meeting with my research group at 1 pm today and I need to make it up to them. Afterwards, I might meet up with Luanne since she's within the area for an org event. <br /><br />I'm going to eat now. :) <br /><br /><br /><br /></p>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:154172I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.2006-06-24T18:18:42Z2006-06-24T18:22:30Z<p>Just got home. Okay lang, masaya naman. Been preoccupied with school, I'm thankful for that. It's a necessity for me. Mabuti nang madaming ginagawa. I'm cramming my requirements for the surgical case. I need to present everything tomorrow, rather later, to my groupmates. Sorry na lang at tinatamad talaga ako. <br /><br />Nilalamig ako. Medyas lang ang katapat nito. </p>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:153987Joy2006-06-08T16:08:00Z2006-06-08T16:08:00Z<p>I'm finally done with my fifteen DR cases. Yehehey! :) </p>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:153816Keso amp2006-05-31T16:09:25Z2006-05-31T16:09:25Z<p>"Love me when I least deserve it because that's when I really need it". </p>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:152472'_'2006-05-13T16:11:45Z2006-05-13T16:11:45ZJust got home. Loving the weather, mmyea. :)urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:152143Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah.2006-05-07T15:13:40Z2006-05-07T15:13:40ZYesterday after class, Ricka, Val and I went to Mahabs for lunch. Yeh, isaw again. I'm fifty percent close into developing a plaque in my aorta with my everyday isaw diet. Went home just in time for Luanne to pick me up. She needed help with her ojt proj at maccan-erikson. Not sure with the spelling. She's assigned to take pictures of probable ad spots within the north area. She drove while I took pictures. We went as far as Marikina, Antipolo, Cubao and Ortigas. At about eight in the evening, we met up with Raph, Justin and Harvey at the Promenade to watch MI-III. It was awesome, I didn't expect to be blown away by it. Likey. :) Anyway after mass and dinner today, Luanne came over to get her copy of the pics. It's been years since she's been to my room, but she was not shocked to see the accumulation of books and all sorts of paper mess. Then yosi break at Simplicity. Hehehe. <br /><br />I had a fun weekend but then again it's back to reality tomorrow. Ugh, school. :/urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:152013But that's all it is.2006-05-03T16:35:18Z2006-05-03T17:16:53ZAssigned to the Psychiatric Ward this week. Non-toxic. It's not good for me, I'm not learning. Nakakagago. My groupmates and I were bored to our wits, stuck at the isolation room with nothing to do except for the mental stat exam and TPR once. Wala kaming ginawa kundi kumanta, magpichur, matulog at makipag-usap sa mga pasyenteng may manic depression or chronic schizophrenia. Again, nakakagago. <br /><br />Anong last name ni Cedi? Player. Nyahaha. <br /><br />Kakagising ko lang actually, I slept at 4pm, woke up about 8pm to eat dinner and to watch Am Idol and then fell back to sleep until this time. Btw I bought three books in Booksale yesterday. A book on idioms with each of their equivalent origin and meaning for P75, Sinner by Jackie Collins for P65. Another to add to my JC collection. Yea, I am a fan of trashy novels. And then The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath for P40 yay. I've been meaning to get hold of a copy of it for a long time now but it's always out of stock in leading bookstores. Swerte lang talaga. Tapos ko na yung Sinner kanina while I was on duty. Ang boring, didn't even turn me on the slightest bit. Lol. Before I move on to The Bell Jar, I'm going to start reading Exit to Eden first. It's Fiona's. I cannot wait to explore the world of BDSM. :Durn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:gobsmacker_:151793Hmm2006-05-02T13:11:14Z2006-05-02T13:12:25ZI love this day! :)