| All that we need to be happy is something to be enthusiastic about |
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I'm still alive, I'm still here. ^_^
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| Welcome, 2008. |
[01 Jan 2008|03:50am] |
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A long december and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last. . .
Let's all be hopeful and optimistic. Happy New Year, everyone! :)
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[02 Oct 2007|10:52pm] |
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Tomorrow's another day to waste. Ang hirap pala maging bum.
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| GO SCYONS 2007 |
[26 Aug 2007|07:42pm] |
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I'm now a registered nurse!!! WE MADE IT!!! Our prayers were heard. I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY. :) Time to party!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[20 Apr 2007|02:09pm] |
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I've been crying myself to sleep for the past three nights. Parental concerns. I'm sad. :(
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| Free Dumb, you say? |
[21 Mar 2007|02:05am] |
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Kanina, naghehesitate pa ako kung maguupdate ako. Honestly, it's not like before anymore wherein I felt so free and at ease to verbalize all my feelings. I've come to discover that the events in my life have more meaning if I just keep them to myself. So should I bother. Hmm. Pero eto na. Eto na eh.
I'm anxious about the boards. Gusto ko mag-aral pero hindi pa ako makapag-aral until matapos yang #&*!*^% na Disengagement Party and yearbook matter, under my staff that is. Ang daming iniisip, at ang tagal pa nang grad, April 22! And everyday, I'm bombarded with test drills from outer space. Tapos yung nanay at tatay ko pa, naghihigpit pa. %$@#%&$*#! And I owe Katz money, dahil dun sa lecheng lumang L300 na nabangga ko. I'm thinking of selling my ipod, really. *#^$&!^@. Can't wait to get out, can't wait for my life to begin.. in June, after I'm done with everything. I'm not the moping type, I'm a believer of positivity pero &%^!@#%. Obviously, I'm at loss for words.
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[18 Dec 2006|12:35am] |
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I think I already have Thromboangiitis Obliterans/Buerger's Disease. Seriously. It usually starts with numbness or coldness in your fingertips, or toes and progress to your arms or legs. I should stop smoking, lately I can't get through a day without finishing a pack. Screw these abnormal sensations, my hands are so cold..
BTW. Our research paper won first prize for the Student's Category (Medicine, Nursing and PT) and our group, I mean Janelle presented it at the Annual Research Forum last Thursday. The prize money's 20k. Hard work does pay.
Misha, my adopted cat, died yesterday. Kung sino man ang nakasagasa sa kanya, bahala na ang Diyos sa 'yo.
I miss you baby, you'll always be one of my favorites. <3
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[03 Dec 2006|02:26am] |
I spent the evening hanging out with Tria, Patrick and Crissy at Cantina, the usual. Makulay pala ang love life ni Cris. ;) Hmm. Namiss ko talaga sila. Parang pag-oonline. Namiss ko rin. For almost two months now, wala akong PC dahil nasira at nakikigamit lang ako kay Kuya Myron. Nakakatamad mag-paayos but I'll try to accomplish that tomorrow.
Anj also dropped by my house after her gimik. Naghahanap ng kausap, at kadamay. Hehe. In the midst of our chat, naalala ko lang ulit na NMAT ko na next week. At di pa ako nag-aaral. Seriously. And hindi ko alam kung saan ko na nalagay yung application form or something. So I panicked. I searched through my room and na ransack na naman ang kwarto ko. Sa paghahanap ko through my countless notebooks, bags and school stuff, madami akong nakitang mga unfinished journals and unsent letters. Nyaha, I got nostalgic and shit pero pinagtawanan na lang namin ang aking pagkadramatic and mushy. At kung gaano kagulo ang aking sulat-kamay. Sabi ni Anj, pagnamatay daw ako, she'd sell and exploit all of my writings. Some friend, right? Hehe. Anyway two hours akong naghanap at wala pa rin until Anj had to leave na. Hinatid ko siya sa labas at bago ako bumalik sa kwarto, nakakita ako ng isang stack of envelopes sa may piano. Fucker, andun lang pala ang NMAT forms na hinahanap ko. Ang galing ko talaga. Mag-aaral pa ba ako for that?
Off-topic. I'm recommending you all to watch How I Met Your Mother. Laugh-trip siya. P50 lang sa Quiapo, as well as the other series of dvds. :)
My sked this sem is too lax, wala pa kasing duty. I'm enjoying what is left of my college life. Ganyan lang naman kasi dapat.
Good night y'all. Pinapaalis nako ni Kuya. Haha.
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| Gatorade yeah |
[07 Oct 2006|11:56pm] |
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Second Semester, here I come! Ay may finals pa. Hahahaha. I'll post the After Orals Celeb when I.. find the time. Haha. This is fun. <3
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| Insomnia did this to me. |
[02 Oct 2006|05:32am] |
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I feel so uninspired.
I miss the feeling of having someone around. Of having that permanent smirk on my face knowing that I have someone who loves me and cares for me the same way that I do for that person. I miss the feeling of being needed and wanted. I miss the feeling of lavishing someone with tiny trinkets and little surprises that have so much meaning to me. I miss waking up in the morning with that certainty in my heart as I look forward to another day of spending time with that someone; I miss sleeping at night, wishing and believing that the pillow I’m cradling in my arms is really that person, and not just an inanimate object devoid of any meaning. I miss the thrill, the anticipation. I miss the feeling of having that tachycardic rush you only get when you’re spending time with that someone. I wish I did not harbor these idealistic notions on love. I’m mushy; I’m too passionate it’s even smothering me. I’ve always wanted to be like everyone else who can take things lightly because that’s how one should be in reality, I want to be like most people who can easily replace the past with a new one. I have moved on, I know that for sure, but I can’t allow myself to settle for anything less than that of a meaningful relationship. I know I can easily take on a fling, there are a lot desperate lonely people like me in need of instant comfort and companionship but once I get close to that initiation stage of starting out with someone new, I withdraw right away. I feel filthy and cheap. Or maybe I’m just being a coward. All my life I have been mediocre; I couldn’t care less for aspiring anything more than what I could manage with my idleness and recklessness. But when it comes to love and commitment, I try to give my best. I try everything that I can to show my love for someone, exhausting all ways and means. It’s silly, I’ve only been in love once, it has proven me nothing so far but love still remains to be a passionate and solemn thing for me. Love isn’t something that I can deal with sparingly. I just can’t play. Those three special words aren’t something I could easily dispense with. I just can’t hold someone’s hand and be in kissing terms with that person without definite knowledge in myself that what I feel is real, sincere and special. It’s actually tiresome, to be like me. And maybe it’s even more tiresome to love me, since I have so many crazed ideas and standards on being in a relationship. I’ve come to understand that part now. I don’t like the way I am, but I can’t afford to take a step backward just to lower my principles. Am I frigid? Maybe I am. Frigid and insane. I’m not really that miserable now, I just miss getting high on lovesick emotions. I’m not looking; I’m not even waiting for someone new. If it comes, then good, but as of now I’m only missing the feeling of everything that makes me feel crazy and wonderful at the same time.
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| If you can follow |
[02 Oct 2006|04:33am] |
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Pathetic, I know.
Pasado ako sa orals. Big friggin' deal! :) I have the entire week to study for my finals, too lazy to start now, maybe tomorrow. :O Meeting up with Cara aka Danica later, we're just going to walk her labrador I think.
Too many things have been going on around me while I remain sluggish and cloudy. Not good. Oh, and I can't sleep, my neurons are working overtime again.
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[30 Sep 2006|03:05am] |
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I'm cold.
But yunno, I just have to say this, omg ang cute niyo. Bagay kayo!
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[21 Sep 2006|11:37pm] |
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Dance n'APO. Medicine 2010 A. Hehe. Hottt.
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| Take me very far away. |
[16 Sep 2006|05:33pm] |
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| Walking away. |
[05 Sep 2006|04:30am] |
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Sabi ng kaibigan ko, "Love hurts when you do it right". Sabi ko, tama siya.
Anyway, namimiss ko na agad yung magulang ko. :/ And, after a month of hiatus, I finally got my phone back. New lcd, I've yet to have it painted.
Bawal ang kotse ko ng Tuesday, at ayoko naman magdala ng shift stick. I get off at 2pm, di ko alam kung mahahabol ko ng 3pm pauwi. Di ko alam, wala akong alam, sige, maliligo na ako. Almost 5am na. Ayoko ma-late sa OR.
Wala lang. Bizarre wake-up call.
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| Sinking in |
[31 Aug 2006|10:26pm] |
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Can't wait for this sem to end. Oral Revalida, Finals and Defense coming up in three weeks. Might as well die. 'Rents will be leaving for the States on Monday. Freedom AND independence for three months, omg. No curfew with the car and all that shit. I basically rule the house. Kuya Myron shouldn't be a bother.
Someone please take me away. I need a break from school. :(
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| Musing.. |
[22 Aug 2006|12:12am] |
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“I miss God. I miss the company of someone utterly loyal. I still don't think of God as my betrayer. The servants of God, yes, but servants by their very nature betray. I miss God who was my friend. I don't even know if God exists, but I do know that if God is your emotional role model, very few human relationships will match up to it. I have an idea that one day it might be possible, I thought once it had become possible, and that glimpse has set me wandering, trying to find the balance between earth and sky. If the servants hadn't rushed in and parted us, I might have been disappointed, might have snatched off the white samite to find a bowl of soup. As it is, I can't settle, I want someone who is fierce and will love me until death and knows that love is as strong as death, and be on my side for ever and ever. I want someone who will destroy me and be destroyed by me.”
-Jeanette Winterson
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| You've gotta cute way of talking |
[09 Jul 2006|10:27am] |
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I was awake for 31 solid hours. I woke up as early as 8 am last Friday to study in the lib for the exam in Nursing Psychiatry, before my 2-10pm shift at the EENT ward. Thankfully, the EENT ward was benign, save for the post-op patient who returned to the ward just thirty minutes before the log-out. After my duty, I went straight to Dunkin Donuts in Gilmore for the study group with Diana, Pritz, Carlo, Carla, Rey, Berna, Ken, Cheska and AJ. We pulled out an all-nighter; the exam was at 6:00 am. We left the place at about 4:30 am with ample time for reconditioning and minor prep before the exam. Most of them are dormers anyway. I went to shower at Carla's.
It's a make-or-break type of exam. Nursing Psychiatry holds the biggest chunk among all other concepts this sem. 60% to be precise. 155 items for one hour. I deal well with time pressure though, and I was the first one to finish in the batch, and it was a long wait before the others finished after me. The exam's a medium, and I think I'm going to pass. *foolish grin* The psychiatric drugs were confusing and I mostly bluffed my way on the Substance-abuse disorders but it's still okay. :) The study group's proven to be effective so it's going to be our thing every Friday night since we have exam every Saturday morning.
Anyway after the exam, there's was a seminar on EKG till 12 noon. By that time, I was already suffering from a migraine, and the rain was making it worse. I was supposed to meet up with my research group after lunch but I just had to excuse myself. I went home at 3 pm and crashed into my bed as soon as I changed clothes. Now I have recharged and I'm feeling good again. After this post, I will take my brunch, err lunch and then take a bath and get dressed because I have another meeting with my research group at 1 pm today and I need to make it up to them. Afterwards, I might meet up with Luanne since she's within the area for an org event.
I'm going to eat now. :)
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| I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin. |
[25 Jun 2006|02:03am] |
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Just got home. Okay lang, masaya naman. Been preoccupied with school, I'm thankful for that. It's a necessity for me. Mabuti nang madaming ginagawa. I'm cramming my requirements for the surgical case. I need to present everything tomorrow, rather later, to my groupmates. Sorry na lang at tinatamad talaga ako.
Nilalamig ako. Medyas lang ang katapat nito.
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I'm finally done with my fifteen DR cases. Yehehey! :)
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