other side. [31 Aug 2008|01:09am] dodz Lost in a lullaby Side of the road Melt in a memory Slide in a solitude Not ‘til I can read by the moon Am I going anywhere Not ‘til I can read by the moon I blow you a kiss It should reach you tomorrow As it flies from the other side of the world From my room in my fugitive motel Somewhere in the dust bowl It flies from the other side of the world ‘I’m tired’ I said ‘You always look tired’ she said ‘I’m admired’ I said ‘You always look tired’ she said Not ‘til I can read by the moon Am I going anywhere Not ‘til I can read by the moon Curtains stay closed But everyone knows You hear through the walls in this place Cigarette holes for every lost soul To give up the ghost in this place Give me strength Give me wings post comment

[30 Aug 2008|06:44pm] heroin_addict to baybeats i shall go. anybody else going? call me! :) post comment

[29 Aug 2008|06:28pm] heroin_addict fuck you.

6 weeks. [29 Aug 2008|03:18am] heroin_addict [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | dashboard confessionals ] so its 6 more weeks to my enlistment. and i have crazy plans to make sure every last second of it is made use of. i mean besides sleeping la. i have a holiday to phuket planned for next week. i wanna go for another short holiday with the guys sometime in september. hopefully it materializes. we'll see. other than that. some of them going to ORD already means got more of us bumming around with nothing to do. HAHAH. how fun can that be. k i'm done here. this particular verse from this song always makes me laugh. i don't know why tho. HAHA. as for now we're gonna hear the saddest songs. and sit alone and wonder. how you're making out. and as for me. i wish that i was anywhere. with anyone. making out. oh and this song too that my friend sent to me the other day. would you ever be my... would you be my fucking boyfriend? HAHAHAHAH. funny la. don't you think so? K BYE. no. 1 comment|post comment

PUP-4-SALE [27 Aug 2008|12:49pm] janelle_ <333 someone in my dad's dept is looking for an owner for this pup. Anyway 3 papers down, 6 more to go. Why was Econs so tough? Do I look like I work at MAS? ♥ 5 comments|post comment

I NEED TO BITCH AND RANT LIKE A GIRL! [24 Aug 2008|11:33pm] dodz [ mood | nervous ] just a thought that ran through my mind whilst sitting down on the gravel invaded porch outside our house. will i be happy with what i've done in my past in 20 years time? or will i regret being stupid and making silly mistakes that could easily be prevented. i plan to make the best of what i have and choices, though they do have consequences, also have this tag hanging from it with fine print that says.. "remember that you could think this is a good idea now..." last night however, was an inebriated choice made from the pits of stupidity. i don't regret doing what i did. i regret doing it in front of the numerous amounts of people that i'll have to face at work. that... is SO NOT COOL. a bunch of us went to Liam's farewell at the Casino last night.. it was. well, hazy but the end result was what i've wanted for a number of months. LIAM. (haha, i just realised just then that his name spelt backwards is MAIL like some Mat's name! haha) anyway, being as intoxicated as i was with happiness that he chose ME, i sat on his lap in front of everyone to see and proceeded with silly flirtacious banter which resulted in us leaving the table without saying good bye and going into the casino. (say WHAT?! yeah i know how RUDE RIGHT!? gaaah.) so went into the Casino and guess who i ran into(literally)? GUMSTARS! it was his birthday and they decided to go to the Cas and i ran towards him and jumped on him and gave him the massivest hug i could with my small asian arms. it was funny.. from what i remember anyways. so anyhoo, Liam decided that gamblingisa good idea.for those who know me, know that i think gambling is stupid and a waste of time unless you're amazing and will surely win money and bring me shopping.hahha. but Liam was leaving and so i followed him to the Roulette Machines.Bare in mind by this time i couldn't fathom what was going on and him putting money into the machine just freaked me out cause in my head, everytime he put in a $20 note, i was like woah, there goes lunch for two days... or wow that's half of my textbook. haha. so anyway, he kept asking me what colours.. andi kept saying no. cause i didn't want to feed his gambling habit. haha ok he doesn't have a habit but i thought it would sound better than gambling ____ (insert random word). so we or maybe just I, got bored and we decided to go to the sofa's or whatever and watched the Liverpool vs Middlesbrough game.. (I can faintly hear Chan going... "WHAT? YOU WATCHED A GAME!>!?!?hahah). yes chan, as classy as it is, i was at the Casino watching Soccer. GHEY!. heh. so anyway, we sat there and talked the whole time until the game ended and we decided to go back to his place and.. we did.. and this is the problem that i have... we had awesome conversations.. like i got to know his family, his nephews, his personality, friends and all those things in one night and a couple of horus of conversations and it was great. i have not felt that confortable with anyone in a really long time since Simon. and that's an amazing step ahead that i'm making, instead of the backward steps i've been making the last year and a half. and i wondered why i never got to know this person earlier. why is it that i have this problem of always meeting someone that's nice and they having to leave or they not wanting a relationship. it is GHEY! so yes, as you would've guessed, he had to go... hence the Farewell party!? heh. so anyway, he gave me a lift home in the morning anddrove into oblivion. ok no, to Adelaide. but it's not fair! cause he's gorgeous and funny and nice and caring and i hate that things do NOT GO MY WAY. arughseuhsgiurhgiuehkjenwlg. so yeah, now i'll just be upset for a day or two and then move on like i should.. like a good little girl and maybe someday we'll see what happens... like i always say, if something's meant to be it'll happen. and if it doesn't, well tough luck bitch! to make it easier. i don't have his number or any way to contact him and neither does he, me. so that's good. that way there's no temptation to call/text drunk inspirational words in the middle of the night when i'm missing him like the junkie misses the needle! all i have is a wonderful memory of what happened last night and it's amazing contents. hahaha. but yeah.. well. that's my rant for the next week. i really need to prioritise! gaHH. pictures should be up when i feel like it. BTW! people who have myspace events, update your events on MYSPACE... not lie have an event on bloody Facebook and then update it on MYSPACE. that is just STUPID! that said, facebook is love. kkk. good night and good luck. 1 comment|post comment

STOLEN [21 Aug 2008|12:29am] dodz If words could speak If word could speak on their own, this would be much easier to do, though this is already known, i must convey how i feel about you. roses wilt and love notes fade, but our love will last forever. i'll be there when tears cascade, in your heart i will endeavour. my heart does not beat,it shouts your name. it longs for you every second of the day, as i gaze at you in the picture frame, everytime you leave,it weeps for you to stay. you make me smile so much, i don't know how i restore my neutral face, longing for your sweet,warm touch, always dreaming of receiving your embrace. you know who you are and i want you to know, how much i truly care about you, make me a promise that you'll never go, for you're something i wish to pursue. post comment

Freeeedom... [19 Aug 2008|10:44pm] dodz Firstly, i got my license like finally. haha First time! weeee... i got crossed on speeding. haha. that was funny, or so i thought. i finally pulled up the bravado and faced Queensland's terror drivers... the Gold Coasters. by right, only 20% of them shoudl ever get their license.. but cause they live in country holes, they all got it because their father knows the cops. they can drive, they just can't follow rules. bah. but yeah, i did it and finally after having the learners blue one for 23950824905820 months, i got my yellow ones. now no one can make fun of me. but, my picture looks like i swelled up in the face. i look FAT. horrible. haha. nerve wrecking day it was though. but i think i might get a surprise graduation present (thank you lovely mother and father *hint hint*). haha. in the form of money to get myself a car. or at least half a car so i shall save up for it now! (yes chan, when this miracle happens, i'll drive up to pick you up and we can run around the coast like we own it. ahha.. i hear DD). so please send letters to the address above. to the fat girl in the picture. (= so anyway, Uni has been great... 9 more weeks to go. i'm starting to get the hang of Short hand. or Teeline, whichever you'd like to call it. and today, i cried at work. i had the worst customer EVER. really puts me down. gives me no desire to live amongst the human race. and again, decrease my love for groceries. but when he called to make a complain, the managers stood up for me. so i was very happy about that. Glad that they know i am not such an idiot. (= so anyway, this weekend will be awesome.. or so i hope. i haven't been into surfers properly for a few months. the last time i did, i went into the bedroom, went into the bathroom and got out, and went home cause i felt sick. ack! so yeah. this time i'm going to make it good. and Naomi is coming down from Brissy to entertain me. Maybe Mount Tamb again on sunday.. weeee... well yeah, that's it really. my life is a constant cycle. wake up.. uni.. wake up, work, yoga, work, work, work, go out maybe, work.. gain FATS. that's it. i don't socialise much, i eat and i go to work. it's sad really. ahha. and thursday, i get to meet Jenelle's Best FRIENDS from CANADIA!!! so i'm excited about that too... well good night. i need to finish this book i borrowed from the library and figure out tomorrow. mwahsss. 2 comments|post comment

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