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[Jun. 6th, 2005|10:36 am] |
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i never really update anymore, but right now i have an important piece of news to deliver.
MY DAD IS GOING TO DRAIN OUR POOL FOR AUTUMN AND WINTER NEXT YEAR. SO THAT THE Z GIRLS CAN SKATE IT!!!
first you all have to sign a legal thingy or at least get parental permission so that we don't get sued or in trouble or whatever. but as soon as summer's over ( and consequently, swimming season) I GET THE POOL!!!
so, ask your parents, grab your helmets, and get ready for a fackin good time!!!
-emma
EDIT: dad says we will build a halfpipe as well!!! A HALFPIPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| ashley's french butt cleaner (biday, or BEEDAY!!!) |
[May. 5th, 2005|08:52 pm] |
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| | the features- blow it out | ] |
the most amazing emma collage ever. Open with caution, because your cashmere fred segal-ass socks are about to be ( KNOCKED OFF. ) |
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| gurgles |
[Apr. 28th, 2005|10:28 pm] |
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| | perglabbedfabetty! | ] |
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| | jack johnson- banana pancakes | ] |
look! a new story where ( Skye and Stop go to North Dakota )
w00t. i love the last part, don't youuuu? |
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[Apr. 26th, 2005|08:14 pm] |
Two things, no stories
one: benjamin brackett is absolute and pure genius.
www.purevolume.com/benjaminbrackett
"you've got the market cornered-studio version" is like bliss/existence in one.
two: Queer Prom 2005!!!
http://www.sandiegogaynews.com/flashed.htm
i am sooooo excited to go!!! my straight date is talia. i sort of wish i were gay just so i could find a date there. lol. but it will be fun to be the only STRAIGHT people for once. So many ppl are going. i am super excitedddddd!!!!
sincerely,
emma who loves queer people (in all senses) and Benjamin Brackett's music
"drunk 23 year old emo guys making out? nothing is better than that"-me |
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[Mar. 18th, 2005|12:54 pm] |
Ansley hits the ground with his worn out green rubber ball. It bounces into his face. Today is rainy, the unpleasant kind of rainy. Benni is stationed in front of me. i am doing her makeup. Behind me, rickford is sleeping, silently, patiently, as a whole self. I try to imagine what he is dreaming of. It could easily be a concert. I don’t dream. The one dream I had went like this:
I am sitting on a small green patch of rubber in a green and purple field. The sky, a bright, piercing orange, is shining in my eyes. I can’t help but feel I am being watched. Suddenly a huge figure pops up behind me, it is a blow up of a baseball bat and it is three D. and I step into it and end up in mist which doesn’t exist. I hold on to time and suddenly egg cups hold philosophies and the shadows moving behind me are a children’s basketball game where the hair shoes seven and a hangnail.
I can’t grasp the weird way the dream unfolded. Ideas become tangible and I can touch concepts and things are alive and I am chased by myself, in a sombrero. The greenhouse on the roof leads me onto another roof there is a poodle it is pink and a model is holding it I spiral into a chip bowl in a house where my bed is not mine anymore and the pool is an ocean, the stairways lead to anywhere and the light bulb needing fixing makes me pregnant.
I doubt this is what rickford is dreaming. But then again, I always doubt rickford.
I am done with Benni, and she looks magnificent. Ansley has left, and in his place Gerard is hitting his head on a table. I ask him why. He says that he needs to be punished. Bad Gerard. Bad Gerard! He screams now. I look at rickford behind my shoulder. He is still asleep. Now Gerard is crying like a baby in my arms, loud and wet and full of snot. He wipes his face on his hands, and then hugs me tighter with the salty mess of his fingers. I ask him what is wrong and he tells me its all his fault he didn’t mean to don’t get mad. Then he says yes do get mad kill me please I should die stop being friends with me I am terrible. I tell him he is being ridiculous, what did he do?
“Oliver” he says, letting the words pop a bubble of saliva on his trembling lips. I ask “what about Oliver?” and he tells me everything. It takes him at least fifteen minutes until he is satisfied with the way it comes out because he keeps going back and correcting himself. He can’t stand to leave anything out.
Basically, when Gerard was in the park he saw Oliver with my mom and said hi and can I borrow him and then he and Oliver played in the park for a while, having fun.
“all I wanted was to make him happy.” Says Gerard, spouting another stream of big fat teardrops.
“that’s all”
He had left Oliver in the park when he was going to get an ice cream for him. When he came back, Oliver was NOT in the park. He was too scared to stay so he left and locked himself in the bathroom. This was two hours ago.
Benni has my jacket in her arms, and now she runs to wake rickford. She has taken to him quite well and even though I am no longer dating her brother we still like to hang out. She shakes him violently, and he sits up. Benni whispers into his ear, and then he is next to me. we go to the car, leaving Gerard because he is such a pitiful mess, and he feels disgusting and looks disgusting and is disgusting.
The car ride is painful. Every time we are at a stop light I feel like Oliver is going farther away from me. I hold rickford and he kisses my eyelids gently, they are puffy and red. I ask Benni what she wants for her birthday. She says finding Oliver would be pretty good, let’s think about that.
Our first stop is the ice cream stand, Oliver is not there. We split up.
I check the trees. Oliver is not there.
rickford looks in the playground. Oliver is not there.
Finally, I see Benni, tugging at something in the fountain. She is crying now, too. In her fragile arms is Oliver, limp, waterlogged, half-dead. Rickford jumps at him to try and save his life, Ansley calls 911, and I sit by him and watch.
In fifteen panicked minutes an ambulance has arrived. I am crying still but Benni’s face is dry and she doesn’t have snot down half of her face and shirt so she explains what happened, gives information, and then comes to tell me (I am huddled on a bench) that I can get in the ambulance and they think he will be okay. I crawl in. Rickford isn’t family so he can’t come but we tell them that he is my cousin and benni is my little sister and they don’t ask for any I.D. or anything so we all ride together.
I peer over my sweater at Oliver’s face, still motionless. He looks sort of like an angel. A wet, sad, angel, but still an angel. And I can swear I see a halo of white light over his head. Benni is sitting in my lap, brushing my hair out of my face, being careful not to startle me or say anything. Rickford is sitting up like an elementary school teacher with his back straight. He has not taken his eye off of oliver.
When we get to Birmingham Hospital Oliver is qucikly taken to the ER. I sit outside in the hall, holding Benni’s hand on one side and Rickford’s on the other. We call gerard and tell him we found Oliver.
TO BE CONTINUED
btw i am going to have a new story. ask leah. |
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[Mar. 5th, 2005|12:28 pm] |
President Bush has just made a public announcment about homosexuality on CBS as of 02/23/05. George Bush is going to put a ban on homosexuals in the media because its "raising the future americans the wrong way" as he states in the interview. If we can get 200 people to sign this petition, we can get this bill not passed. Your help is really needed bad and we would appreciate it if you could sign the petiton to show how much you care. Once you get to 200 signatures, send it to killbillscene@yahoo.com
please make a difference in america! show us that you care!!!
- Right Way Committee of America
1. Jake Thomas (Vacaville, Califonia) ERASE THE HATE!
2. Craig Smith (San Fran, Cali)
3. Emily Townsend (Las Vegad, Nevada)
4. Andre Johnson +Detroit, Michigan+
5. Kimmi Moss |mesa, arizona|
6. Tara Crown (atlanta, geogia)
7. *Marlon Melson* -Mcdonough, Ga- (this shit aint fucking right man)
8.Dylan Bartos-richmond, Va
9.Brent Neifield- Cheltenham, Pa
10. Andrew Munson- Oceanside, CA
11. Ashley Medbery, Columbia, South Carolina
12.nathan XXX brown,arizona,peoria
13. Raven Serin-Phoenix, az
14 Derek Sinock-San Diego,Ca Im not gay but ill support em.
15. GERM - san diego,ca why all the hate?
16. Robert Michael Schultze, San Diego, Ca 92154. Come and get me Nazi fuckbag.
17. Lee Krysinski, San Diego, CA
18. sterling barck - costa mesa, ca
19. Cami Barton- San Diego, CA
20. Leah Rosenbaum- San Diego, Ca
21. Tony Stremski- san diego ca
22. Brooke Ives-Los Angeles, CA
23. Megan Bunch- Locust Grove, VA
24. Vito Angelico, Berwyn, IL
25. Jordy - Huntington Beach, CA
26. Paula - Canby, OR
27. Stephanie- Stoneham, MA
28. Leah - Malden, MA
29. Anthony - Melrose, MA
30. John - Waltham, MA
31. Cassandra- Waltham, MA.
32. Matt Spurr - Beverly, MA
33. Sarah Lorigan- NH
34. Kim Gatti-NH
35. Adam Byron - NH
36. Ryan Donovan - Nashua, NH
37. julia berry - nashua, NH
38. Kaitlyn Curran - Revere, MA
39. Leah Camley - Revere, MA
40. Christine MARIE Brienza the first- billerica, MA
41. Tracey Brienza- Billerica Ma
42. Da Net Bartlett- billerica, ma
43. Lizzz Bender- Townsend Ma
44. Emma Charlotte- Los Angeles, CA (spongebob being gay makes me like him more!)
what you do is put it in your lj, add your name at the bottom, once someone hits 200, you send it in, kapeesh? |
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[Mar. 2nd, 2005|07:57 pm] |
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| |  VAGINA!!! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | drink drank punk- anti-flag, two points for honesty- guster | ] |
Things in my life to date:
1) I have re-discovered anti-flag and it is making me quite happy.
2) Park city here I come!!!
3) I think I need a new therapist, because mine only makes me MORE depressed (at least lately)
4) I am thinking of shaving (okay not really SHAVING, cutting) the sides of my head shorter than they already are and growing the back bit out so that my Mohawk is more even. Thoughts? Or is the rat-tail look too awkward. Even though I have to say I would love it.
5) Who thinks (on the topic of Mohawks) that amy should get a Chelsea hawk??? Wait I don’t know if anyone I know knows what that means. Look It up on LJ interests
6) ()()()() I am using a lot of parenthes(e)s today. (maybe)
7) (wait I always do)
8) If you hate the fact that spoon has become obsolete…(not the right word to use there but I really wanted to use it) say so.
9) Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr…
10) Who hates Los Angeles? I hate Los Angeles.
( I finally did it and they won’t let me wear it out. )
( love via oliver. Part six? )
Note to all readers: Rickford is not gay. I just have a thing for guys in skirts and eyeliner… |
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| for reals homie! |
[Feb. 16th, 2005|09:39 pm] |
what would you do if:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2005|07:50 pm] |
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| | clicketty | ] |
i got bored/lonely, so i wrote ( a story for the ages ) . hope you like it y'all. |
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| this is by far my favorite poem after neruda. |
[Feb. 1st, 2005|05:15 pm] |
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| | everything by- modest mouse | ] |
They fuck you up, your mum and dad.
They may not mean to, but they do.
They fill you with the faults they had
And add some extra, just for you.
But they were fucked up in their turn
By fools in old-style hats and coats,
Who half the time were soppy-stern
And half at one another's throats.
Man hands on misery to man.
It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can,
And don't have any kids yourself.
by Philip Larkin |
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| in school |
[Feb. 1st, 2005|01:49 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | some teacher- quantum physics | ] |
i'm in school.
i finished my math.
if you hate the new, crowded staricase experiment/rule, say AYE.
goddamn. i need my staricase space.
if you want me to think of a band name for you, say BAND.
i'm bored.
as usual.
check out the rugby school website.
i think i belong to every mohawk community on LJ. and i don't even have one. htf.
ITS GUNNA BE MY BIRTHDAY AND i'll cry if i
want
to.
and who wants to join me in a chronosynclastic idifibulum?
micah and i have tickets.
yeah. |
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| bored as shit |
[Jan. 31st, 2005|07:53 pm] |
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yeah i'm getting a mohawk. |
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