[07 Apr 2005|07:31pm] Well, after saying I wasnt going to get with Johnny, yeah yeah... I know. Well, we are together now, isnt that cool? Im have been off Herion for about 4 months now. I so happy with everything. I just wanted to post that lol. [Fuck You]

[18 Mar 2005|10:20pm] [ mood | full ] Jhonny boy, oh Jhonny boy. Im BACK FUCKERS! MORE PUNK ROCK THAN EVER! Well I was in Indiana, to get clean, and to start off fresh. I needed to get my head straight, I needed to find the real Cindy again. The Cindy with the big heart and strong opinions. Yall remember Jhonny? Well, if you dont, there is a whole entry about him. below somewhere. He got a divorce with his wife, after she turned into a coke fene and killed their unborn child. The sad part is she got custody of the child because he had no evidence that she was really pregnant, except for the pregnany test, which of course was thrown away. Im not with him, but Im living with him. He really is a sweet guy. I dont think me and him are going to go on with the relationship, being friends is nice. But I really do love him. Its just not the time, he is going through alot of stuff, and afterwards, it probably wont happen. I told all my old friends to fuck off, I dont need them anymore. I have been hanging out with alot of Christian kids and sXe kids lately. I even went to a sXe party the night I got back here. I cut my hair, I look like a dyke, its all good though. [ 1say ] @#$%&#$ [Fuck You]

Im not depressed? Oi? [07 Nov 2004|02:00pm] [ mood | I think Im dying ] Fucking-a... Is Cindy ever depressed?... No Cindy isnt... So why is Cindy depressed all of a sudden? (I love talking in third person omniscent... So it makes me feel like Im not actually going on and on about myself lol) Well, here we go again... Cindy, in "love"... Bleh... Love? Nah.. feelings for someone... yes... But thats the fucking part I hate >:| everytime I tell myself... "Never again will I put my heart out on the table for a man to feast upon, because all they do is take what they need, leave, giving nothing in return" I start to like someone, who I know for a fact likes me in return... People say im making a big deal about nothing because at least Im not into someone who isnt into me as well... BUT THATS WHAT YOU DONT GET! I am so afraid of getting hurt/used that I am willing to not love... but, ya see...that only how I feel on the outside... on the inside, all I want for love is someone who wont hurt or use me... but Im am so unsure on the human race that I dont know when to take my gaurds down... so this is my fault... cause I either pick the wrong guy, or make them feel unwanted... and drive them away... So I seriously need to shut the fuck up, cause its my fault... So Im going to go and look at the brighter side of the eggshell How about a new subject? I feel like writing about something that angers me... so... How about these bitches who dont even know the different between Oi! and Crust bands, yet they have Oi! writen all over their clothing/jackets/shoes or boots/etc. Okay... yesterday... me and a few friends go out to celebrate my birthday a little early, since we cant party on sunday nights....(my b-day is today... "Woop-de-doo") We decide to go get some beer... so we got drunk, then we took the Metro-rail (Subway) down to the ghetto part of hollywood... (Hollywood blvd. and Gower st.) Im sitting there... drinking... and then some chick comes up to my cousin Chrissi's best friend, who is a crustie... and said "I love crass, they are the best Oi! band alive" I would of known if she was kidding, and she wasn't... She had Oi! written over every-fucking item of clothing she wore... oh and to top it off, she was wearing a DIRT shirt... usually, I never fucking analyze people for the bands they like, or their hair, or jackets... or in general... things that have nothing to do with their personality... she would of been okay.. but the Oi!/Crass/Dirt was a little bit too much for my liking... I stood up and said to her "Get the fuck out of here, you are too 'punX rAWK' for us... we don't bow down to people, so it wont be necessarry for you to stay here." When she left... no-one said nothing for like 5 minutes, not even the obnoxious guys we hang out with... we just watched her walk away... then when she was out of sight Chrissi's best friend(the crustie girl)turns out her name is Cinthia... well anyways she got up and started screaming "Oi! Oi! Oi! Oi!" and it was so funny, cause she's a crustie... I was rolling on the sidewalk laughing... Damn I hate Hollywood "punX" Ill stick with the Downtown LA scene! But yeah Im O-u-t...later! -CiNDY V♥MiT (And remember kids... E=MC2) [ 4say ] @#$%&#$ [Fuck You]

Mixed Emotions [05 Nov 2004|06:43pm] [ mood | What do I feel anyways? ] Today was weird... I saw Jhonny(Long time ago childhood -about 15 years old- love) and we hung out, hes changed so much, and Ive stayed the same, he has a job, and he has a wife, and he was a fucken kid. It makes me so jealous, it makes me wonder why I told him to get out of my life... by the way he is now 21 years old... I miss him so much, and he even told me he still loved me, but he now has other obligations... I dont belive this, I cant think straight, I cant see straight, I have a migrane, and working as a security gaurd at Van Nuys high school gets boring... all I do is tell ditchers to go to class, and tell the hip hop kids to stop smoking out and call the cops on them... I got called "the coolest security gaurd ever" because I dont do my job, I really...let the ditchers ditch and let the smokers smoke... I figure... why not, all I do is sit in Mr. Garnders class because he teaches the juvinille delenquent wanna-be kids... its funny...today I told some hip hop kid to pull up his pants and listen to real music... I also almost beat the crap out of some little fucker today... he was all like "come on you stupid punk, lets go, Ill take your short ass." Okay Im short, and I cant hit him... HE FUCKING CALLED ME SHORT.. Im 5"1' okay, big deal... get over it... bye -CiNDY V♥MiT [ 1say ] @#$%&#$ [Fuck You]

[01 Nov 2004|09:12pm] [ mood | angry ] RIGHT. I am sick of everything being POTATOXSACKXCOREX, appleXcore, carpetXcore, C0RE CORE CORE. Its lame, it was funny many-a-moon ago, the novelties, worn off. so shut up you twats. Also putting a full stop everywhere is pointless. h.i. h.o.w. a.r.e y.o.u Its not scene, its not cool, its harsh on le eyes! If I need glasses I'll send the bill to you. Also THE not tEh. Fucking hell, I think I prefer WrItInG LiKe ThIs To ReAdiNg ThAt ShIte. Any one got explanations for this shitezo? TELL MI NOW! [ 1say ] @#$%&#$ [Fuck You]

I am here. I am happy. [30 Oct 2004|04:06pm] [ mood | numb ] Fuck. I am now in the San Fernando Valley, never been fucking happeir... Fuck Fresno. Whats there for me? Memories of broken hearts, Bad times, hard times, two-faced cunts who say their my friend, fucked up family members... Why do I have to subject myself to remembering all the bad times and hard times I went through... There are about 3 people that I would actualy go there to visit...and the only one that wil remained named is Natty. I dont want to see any of you people ever again, unless I told you myself. Only thing that I havent figured out about that place is why are the punx there so constant on their image, why cant people be true to their fucken heart? Ive dedicated the song "Wicked heart" by the Devotchkas to that fucken place... Except instead of the bottle, it would be YOUR FUCKING IMAGE... Im sick of scenesters...thinking they are in... sorry sweethearts the only way to be true to the scene is to fucken be true to yourself, your heart, and your mind... If you lie to yourself and others, than your not a fucken punk, your the farthest thing from it, your LOW... I dont want to hear you bastards reply to my post, unless its positive, or establishes what Im saying now. So basically, if its against what Im saying, I dont want to fucken hear it, you can kiss my ass, If you wanna tell me Im wrong, you can go fuck yourself. The scene in Fresno, fuck it, Why be apart of fuck-tards who go to shows to show off their shit...okay I dont really care, I have OKAY hair, okay I dont care, people who wear jackets and belts and do their hair for attention can lick my fucken twat... But by all means if you agree leave me a comment... I am willing to listen. and another thing, if you live in that hell hole, and I love you, I will fucken come and pick you up... You dont fucken belong in that place that has nothing to offer you Love....me, your mom... lmao! P.S. Lick my cooter [ 2say ] @#$%&#$ [Fuck You]

New Lj fuckers... [25 Oct 2004|04:45pm] [ mood | content ] Today, I deleated my old journal, because I dont even talk to the people who are on my LJ friends list anymore, nor do they read it... So Im starting clean... And to all you fuckers who forgot about Cindy, I got over it. ♥¬Cindy [ 1say ] @#$%&#$ [Fuck You]

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