wow.

tired times 10.

i was up all night doing english and euro homework. stupid socratic seminar. actually. it wasn't that bad. just mrs. carlson and her idiotic pointless outlines that take hours to do. good thing i don't have any classes on monday because of NWSC, although that'll suck too. maybe because we're not ready. and because there's so much pressure for us to perform well. i can just imagine us playing like CRAP and then becoming completely embarassed.

i haven't really done anything productive within the past couple of days. still haven't finished unpacking. i've also come to realize that my friends deserted me. i haven't gone out for such a long time. kristin is always with brandon. and they're always with brianna and chris. i barely get a chance to talk to laura. and then that's the end of the list. but now i think, i don't even care. because they don't care. this sounds so dumb from my perspective. but i don't know why i even bother. i wonder if i should even have a party at my house a week or two after snowdays. AND WHAT IS WITH THIS SUDDEN FASCINATION WITH CAFFIENE PILLS? seriously. everyone is doing all these horrible things. like getting drunk. what, is it fun for you to do it? do you feel like you're a regular teen? HONESTLY. am i the only one out there who's managed to stay the same? this sudden change disgusts me, with some people. i am so sick of everything and everyone. and yet i feel alone.

i really don't know anything.

i did ask a certain someone to snowdays. too bad they said no. i'm not bothered by it either, considering the fact that i wouldn't have expected a different answer. things now are so awkward, yet i don't know why. i don't even know why i keep calling him. maybe because a part of me wants to believe that i'm just being extremely paranoid and that all my stupid thoughts are wrong. i'm starting to think that they're actually right. i don't know anymore.

one thing i do know though. the day toast plays at taste of chaos is the day pigs fly. if they do end up playing. i will die from shock.

boom.