literate and stylish, kissable and quiet

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 19:08:05 GMT

i've bee staring at this for a long time, wishing i was there again:
http://www.um.lublin.eu/um/index.php?t=200&id=40684

Mon, 17 Mar 2008 03:54:37 GMT

I’m planning my death: with all my savings I’m off to Australia. Dying in the sun, on the beach, like a self-beached dolphin in the sand. Instead of hospitals and cold – the motherly warmth of earth, colours. When the pain becomes unbearable, enter the safety of the rolling ocean, slip under the waves. Not to be afraid of darkness when dying. See the genuine tropical sky, warmed by the Sun and stars.
-Manuela Gretkowska

Fri, 29 Feb 2008 04:15:46 GMT

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 03:02:41 GMT

i need a job so bad.

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 21:47:28 GMT

i hate when i have plans for the weekend, and they get shot.

what's fun for friday night?

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 00:51:02 GMT

my mom's not excited.

we're still both wishing for Wellesley.
she doesn't want me so far away.

i wish that this was an indicator of getting into wellesley, but i know that it isn't.
i'm still relieved though. :)

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 23:32:29 GMT

i got accepted to wesleyan college in georgia!

nice nice nice nice.

Fri, 04 Jan 2008 05:30:25 GMT

carino lost the essay i had to submit to Sarah Lawrence.
i know everyone loves him, so i don't want to shit talk him on livejournal. i still for some reason have respect for him, even though my transcripts, recommendations, and a different, worse essay are all arriving three days late to SL. although he's well intentioned, he really fucked me over.

i cried all wednesday. i cried all today.
i guess i needed it. i haven't cried in so long.
i can't even remember the last time i cried in school.
i felt like an asshole.

other than that, i guess things are going great.
i'm going to atlanta in february. i really cant be more excited. i get to see my girl brittney and hang out with all her friends, party it up where the playas play.

Tue, 18 Dec 2007 02:06:17 GMT

i would like to go to africa and lay in the sun all day

and not apply to college

take a year off
or two
...or three

and be myself and not worry.

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 17:20:48 GMT

a lot has been going on.

i have good news that i would like to share at lunch tomorrow.
i probably won't forget, but amber- remind me. <3

on another note:
i like life.
our house is being put back together from the water heater explosion 2 years ago.
we have a living room!!

and j.michael's room is... clean. if you've ever been here, i'm sure you can't believe it. but it's true.
i'm throwing out everything that's unnecessary in my room right now.
things are starting to come together around here. i'm happy.

i had my interview with wellesley yesterday.
it was amazing. i did really well. my interviewer really liked me. i'm excited. even though it doesn't mean everything, it means something. i'm hopeful, but i'm prepared for the worst anyways.
i'm in a good place with it. if there are just too many applicants just as good as i am, i'll reapply for transfer. it's where i want to be. i'll get there eventually.

Sat, 06 Oct 2007 03:22:36 GMT

i wore my green jacket today. i found it.
thank you for recognizing, amber. <3

my life is good.

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 20:44:56 GMT

soooo drunk.
pubhopped all night.

tomorrrow is my little going away pub fiesta. i cant wait.

life is awesome, today was one of the ost serene days of my life.

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 14:34:41 GMT

does anyone know why postsecret didn't update this past sunday?

it's been breaking my heart. :(

i should get over it.

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 13:47:25 GMT

you really dont have to read this. i just had to write it down and this was fastest.

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 16:07:43 GMT

i just had this dream about like, being in front of ex boyfriend joe's house, and talking to him through myspace messages. and we planned to meet, but i had to ride my bike.
trying to ride my bicycle to fucking middlebury, for some reason, i guess in the dream it eperated me from naugatuck, even though i was also simultaneously in poland, and all the polish people were like "show us the way, you're the only one that knows the directions!"
so we're going up this hill, and like, this black girl is talking to me, but she's not good at english, so we're speaking polish, but then she wants to speak apanish, and she was sort of odd, but pretty, and we were all riding bikes, and i don't even know how it happened, but then i was talking to a british guy who was like, yeah, we're trying to get to paderewski (my polish school) and apparently, thats where we were going on bikes. but in the dream, to get there, we had to go through middlebury. so i guess that middlebury was inclusive in poland. and joe was somehow invlved.

dreams in other languages are so awkward.

Thu, 07 Jun 2007 23:11:07 GMT

Is it normal being lonesome when youre surrounded by friends?
Or feeling more and more comfortable when the crowds are less and less?
And by the way after smoking for three days I lost all my breath
And realized first of all Im upset cuz of the seven bucks I spent,
And if everyone bought guitars instead of buying cigarettes
Theyd write some words and sing some songs and I bet we would understand
Everyone else a whole lot more and maybe finally put an end
To putting people before people and put each alongside the next!

Tue, 05 Jun 2007 22:08:04 GMT

ThirdEsquire : I also got a new job @ peter paul chocolate! ! ! !
blind xx fashion : hahaha nice.
ThirdEsquire : yea me and nich straighten the little almonds on top of the chocolate from 12-8am

i miss my brother so much.
and i envy his new job. haha.

Sat, 19 May 2007 19:36:04 GMT

my host mom is leaving tomorrow morning at like 4 am and not coming back until monday night, probably after my dad and j get here.

so today she made this huuuge ass bowl of pierogi haha. oh my gossssh, that's all i'm going to eat for like the next 6 meals.

in other news, i discovered some polish, i dont know, hip hop i guess, that i actually like. i want to put it in my polska video, but then if i were to bring it to the Polish Heritage club or something to show them what i did, they would find it wicked inappropriate. it's too bad that all of the good songs with sick beats have to be about cocaine and hands up skirts and corrupt policemen.

ahhhh i can't wait to get home. to america. to my own bed. to my room with my stuff in it.
my mom might not let me do all the things i wanted to do this summer. basically, i have no time for anything. i have to figure out how i'm going to get AP summer work done, visit grandpa in new jersey, visit cassandra in maine, visit people in salem, and do band camp, swimming pre-season, spend time with my family, spend time with my friends, geta job, or do anyyything.

haha, don't expect to see me this summer, guys.
at least until bannnnd cammmmp. which i'm completely stoked for.

Sat, 12 May 2007 14:54:24 GMT

i'm so bored lately.

i can't tell you how excited i am to get the AP english work in fucking 10 days. <3!
but more exciting, on the same day i get the english stuff, i get to see my dad and my brother.

life is so good.

kraków i auschwitz

Thu, 10 May 2007 19:11:14 GMT

Thu, 03 May 2007 07:20:51 GMT

1) AP English Language
2) PreCalc/Trig
3) AP English Literature
4) AP Psychology
5) Spanish IV
6) MWF-Study
TR-AP Biology Lab
7) AP Biology

that's my schedule for next year.
no marching band. who the FUCK ever heard of band period six? no one. fuck. it would have been so easy to just drop math. because no one needs math. no one. but i can't just drop it because it won't really do much.

so four APs, that's exciting. i kind of wish i could do APUSH, but like, if i go into my aim logs and search "APUSH" you'll find like, chris, brian, and whoever else has taken it, just bitching and bitching and bitching about how much it blows. so no thank you.

and i still don't know about the class at Yale for Polish. i hope that goes down, because i have to have an excuse for not knowing spanish anymore. like, i tried to remember the alphabet... can't do it. can't do numbers either. i'm way too good at polish numbers.

so anyways, does anyone have the same classes? like, i know they'll change around a little, but how's it look for right now?

amazing. 52 seconds of hot paris makeout.

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 16:19:14 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EitmQ26jZgs

salvador dali: genius or madman?

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 13:44:08 GMT

if you're interested:

http://www.tv-links.co.uk/link.do/4/1602/2267/16413/26747

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 07:11:15 GMT

ps- the last day of the semester was yesterday.

i'm sorry if you're jealous.

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 16:23:44 GMT

i made the coolest fucking friends ever.