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What is this awareness? [21 Aug 2008|02:29am]

ocha_no_hanashi
Penrose, however, built a further and highly controversial argument on this theorem. He argued that the theorem showed that the brain had the ability to go beyond what can be demonstrated by mathematical axioms, and therefore there is something within the functioning of the brain that is not based on an algorithm (a system of calculations). A computer is just a system of algorithms, and Penrose claimed that Godel's theorem demonstrated that brains could perform functions that no computer could perform.

That last sentence is particularly interesting.

When you really stop and think about it, whatever the hell this -awareness- might be (I'm starting to see how we can't really reify anything), it is bloody amazing isn't it? Here you are: a big blob of matter and energy (conventionally it is called "you") in a universe so large you can't even imagine it. You are aware and nominally interacting within space and time; able to manipulate things and communicate ideas to other blobs of matter and energy which have nominal designations as well.

We get so used to living and being sentient that, I think, the novelty of consciousness/awareness itself wears off.

Quantum entanglement is a quantum mechanical phenomenon in which the quantum states of two or more objects are linked together so that one object can no longer be adequately described without full mention of its counterpart — even though the individual objects may be spatially separated. This interconnection leads to correlations between observable physical properties of remote systems.

Now this is interesting. I'm not physicist, so take what I say with a grain of salt. I'm just tossing an idea around. But if particles that are remotely separated can interact instantaneously, and if it is true that the observer, aka a mind, can and does affect the position of particles in reality, then this might lend some evidence to the Buddhist claims of omniscience achieved by great masters.

Basically, the mind is not the same nor different from reality. It can and does affect reality. Hell even right now you're affecting reality by operating a mouse and gazing at your monitor. But at even more subtle levels the mind can and does affect reality. Now, if particles separated both in time and space can instantly affect each other, it says something about the intrinsic connections within the universe that we don't normally understand.

It leads me wonder how a mind -- a mind of an enlightened one -- might be aware of these connections. Taking it a step further, everything is empty and dependently originated. If time and matter is infinite then at some point every fundamental "building block" (the bits that make up the universe) has interacted with, and could be entangled with, every other "building block" in the universe. Time, too, is empty and a mere perception of an unenlightened mind. Hence said connections are not really substantial -- they are, in a sense, the entire universe in itself. Everything is entangled to everything else -- in other words, "things" don't really exist because for a "thing" to exist it has to independently exist, which is disproven using Nagarjuna's emptiness. "Things" as independent objects, or phenomena as somehow isolated from the rest of the universe is really just a mirage -- an ignorant perception that only sees a portion of the greater picture which is ultimately connected to the point that such connections don't really exist.

Everything just is and even such a reification itself is merely a result of mind.
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it is true [21 Aug 2008|01:26am]

my_dear_despot
[ music | Final - Astor Piazzolla ]

i am alone.

p.s. i am happy.

pp.s. i am one of those old dudes who is single, who may or may not have kids, and who may or may not be miserable.

my reality is: i am 27. I am single. i do not have any children, and like most human beings I am miserable.

I AM NOT ASHAMED TO SAY: I AM LOOKING FOR LOVE TODAY, TOMORROW, AND THE NEXT DAY.

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Non-paper courses [20 Aug 2008|08:17pm]

uwaterloo

[shutupkitty]

I have just a few electives left, and then I'm done!

I'm looking to find courses that DO NOT involve:
- Papers to be written at home
- Extensive projects

But COULD involve:
- multiple choice/essay exams (basically anything done-in class)
- small home work assignments

I've developed quite alot of anxiety associated with writing papers.
Normally I'd try to conquer my fear, but since this is my last semester, I just want to make sure I graduate.

I've taken pretty much all the music classes.
If you could mention which professor you had, that would be great.

Thanks in advance!

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The monkey is getting away!!! [20 Aug 2008|11:35am]

ocha_no_hanashi
There was a monkey in Shibuya station.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/asia-pacific/7572113.stm

A dozen cops, several nets and the thing still got away.

This has got to be the most funny video I've ever seen on the BBC.
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Argentine Slang [20 Aug 2008|10:56am]

language_nerds

[pottergirl26]
Just thought it'd fun to share this link:
http://www.ohbuenosaires.com/english/argentineslang.htm

There's some terms I use so offhandedly that I hadn't realised they're not used (as commonly) throughout the rest of Latin America.
Cheers!
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Yeah, baby, yeah!! [20 Aug 2008|03:14am]

ocha_no_hanashi
[ music | Men at Work - The Land Down Under ]

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Man I should get the f$%k to bed already.

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Weird dream... [20 Aug 2008|01:27am]

ocha_no_hanashi
I was napping this evening and had this weird dream.

I was back in Winnipeg and for some reason participating in this butchered form of ice hockey that included shopping carts and garbage bins on the ice rink, which is really ghetto but oh so appropriate to Winnipeg's characteristic trashiness.

I was then having a reunion of some sorts with all my friends from elementary and junior high.

What does this say? Am I longing for old friends and the place where I was raised?

There is something comforting about one's familiar surroundings, long-time friends and established connections. Still, such things can be a hindrance as much as a support -- without ever setting out to the brave new world, or without having a reason to, you'll never experience and come to understand certain things.

I insist that while living outside one's comfort sphere can be a pain at times it is good for the spirit, so to speak.
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I miss you today [19 Aug 2008|06:11pm]

whatwemiss

[larouxbelle]
[ mood | morose ]

I miss you so much it hurts sometimes and today it hurts.

I miss our talks and the way you wouldn't apologize for loving me most because you "couldn't help it" I miss how you loved my boys and respected Reco. I miss trying to get your picture when you wouldn't let me. I miss your gray sweatsuit. I miss the things you used to sew for me. I miss your maroon continental and your off-the-wall nic-nacks. I miss the smell of your hairspray and the color of your lipstick. I miss the quirky smile when you din't like something I did. I miss the ride to pocahontas and passing the maxie movie theatre. I miss the old, white, marble hairbrush. I miss your christmas ambrosia. I miss the blue tile in your old bathroom on Willowood. I miss scratching my nail polish off to please you. I miss the way you used to say "Christine Michelle" when that wasn't even my name. I miss our camping trips in the 'pop-up' trailer. I miss your honesty and your weepiness. I miss the relationship we had and the feeling of being completely safe and loved for me...exactly as I am.

I miss you so much it hurts sometimes and today it hurts.

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Dear Diary, [18 Aug 2008|11:50pm]

chapterfourteen
[ music | france gall. ]

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Munich, Germany 2006

These are days of tinkering on the piano, thunderstorms, Thai food and Turkish tea. Of eating breakfast on the balcony, afternoon movies at the Cumberland, long rides on the subway to take me to see old friends. Of too many strawberry lemonade smoothies, of crossword puzzles, of sundresses and cardigans, of my vintage umbrella slung over my back.

These summer days, these last days in Canada...

What the Batman movies tells us... [18 Aug 2008|07:20pm]

ocha_no_hanashi
So I saw the new Batman movie today. It was good. But I realized something.

Movies in the last ten years or so have really highlighted two things:

-The popularity of an "internal struggle" between "who you are as a result of circumstances" and "who you really are".

-A reflection of the changing times in that people struggle with identity as the idea of "the individual self" becomes all the more stronger (this has been ongoing since the Renaissance as you need only look at the usage of "self").

The Last Samurai had a yankee struggling with his past in an exotic land of virtuous warriors who need to Meiji Emperor to grow some balls and be a man ... in other words, "find who he really is" and along the way Tom Cruise does do with the assistance of some nice Japanese villagers and a darling Asian woman.

The recent Spider Man: half the movie was Peter Parking whining and crying about whether he wanted to be Spider Man or not. Who he really is.

James Bond Casino Royale: again, we find the hero struggling with identity and being torn between love and duty.

Now, the new Batman movie has the same feature. Batman struggles between who is is as a result of circumstances (ironically he initiated them in the first place) and who he really is.

Movies tell us a lot about how society perceives the world. For example, in the last ten years or so the appearances of Chinese things in movies has increased dramatically alongside the rise to power of China. Hell Batman went to Hong Kong briefly -- what does that tell you?

A lot of people nowadays also feel the need to have an "internal struggle" and to "find themselves". One popular outlet for native English speakers is teaching English in Asia where you can "learn a lot about yourself" and/or "discover a personal journey within yourself" or some such nonsense like that. Some youth pierce their lips, listen to angry music and rebel against their parents, justifying it all by saying they are "discovering" their "true self" or "expressing" themselves. Again, the reification of the "self" is both popular and a source of much grief. People tear themselves apart over some contrived idea of an internal struggle that only exists as much as one would really allow for it.

Discover "who you are" is a popular advertising line. You can sell that idea to people because everyone is so concerned about "who they are". In immigrant countries now more than ever it seems people are having identity crises. Who are you? Are you Chinese? Canadian? Homosexual? A Feminist? A conservative? On and on and on... and people really cling to these ideas thinking they're absolutely real. They cling to an extreme and when it doesn't work out they way they think it should they get upset and some even go insane.

Such foolishness.
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ESCAPE FROM DONKEYLAND [18 Aug 2008|08:21am]

tharp42
"Dust. Choking clouds of it envelope Hotan. Everywhere and everything is covered in a fine desert silt. The air is a brown haze, obscuring the new Chinese buildings and the mud-built Uighur structures that lead into their rabbit warren-like compounds, with their carpet looms, teapots, and dried dung. Even the famous statue of Mao shaking the old man's hand can't be seen through the dull screen of airborne dirt.I have dust in my hair, dirt granules in my mouth that grind on my molars, dust clumps up my nose and dirty dry desert earwax in my ears. I breathe it in and cough or sneeze. It scratches my eyes. It saturates my clothing and shreds the skin of my ass. I am covered in dust."

I wrote this a couple of days ago, in Hotan, hunkered down at a Turkish-style coffee house (a rarity among the tea-centric Uighurs), attempting refuge from the onslaught outside. I am now longer in Hotan, but in Urumqi, having braved a 24-hour bus ride across the dunes of the Taklamakan to make it back to civilization.

And Urumqi is indeed civilization, with a shiny downtown core and spanky shops selling designer clothes. All of that Chinese oil and mining money is based here, making the city much more cosmopolitan than you might think, despite the fact that it's rated as the most inland city in the world. Not a sea in sight. Let's just say I won't be going for sushi tonight.

(Civilized is indeed a relative word. Here I am at a huge PC room filled with modern equiptment, only having to endure the Chinese dude sitting across from me repeatedly hocking loogies onto the bare floor. Fucking savage. Death to serial spitters.)

Is Hotan civilization? Well, that's hard to say. It's located on the rim of one of the nastiest deserts in the world, inundating the place with dust for much of the year. Most of the population are hardscrabble Uighurs barely getting by, farming melons or raising sheep and goats. As the center of the country's jade trade, there is some real money there, but it's all in the pockets of the Han Chinese (go ahead boys), who buy and sell the semi-precious gems.

We found Hotan to have the heaviest vibe of any place we've been on this trip. The beggers there were sadder and more desperate than other parts of the country. The poverty was more apparant. The hatred in the eyes of some of the local Muslims was unmistakable. If ever a real Islamic insurrection occurs in China, it will likely start in Hotan.

A DISTURBING SIGHT

We were walking down the street the other day (attemtping to find a place to sell us plane tickets - that in of itself a chore), when we came upon a beggar. He held his young son in his arms and crawled down the street, moaning for help, or money, or both. He was the most distraught beggar I had ever come across; there was none of the shame and humility that a lot of Asian beggars exhibit. This guy was screaming into the universe. He was crazed and inconsolable.

An hour or two later, Sam was in a different area of the town, at the main market, and he came across a small crowd that was gathered around the same beggar. The beggar still held the boy in his arms, but now the boy was NOTICABLY PALE AND STIFF-LIMBED.

The man was crawling through the streets of town, holding his dead son.

That's a first for me.

(Maybe a hoax? A drugged boy? A good actor?)

DEATH TO THE INFIDEL

Sam, Simon, and I were eating a a literal hole-in-the-wall Uighur restaurant, a place serving soup, noodles, bread, and mutton skewers. Next to us sat a very conservative looking Uighur man (white skullcap, moustache) and his wife, who was well-covered up. Throughout our meal, he glared at us, rarely taking his eyes off our table. His was a look of death, one of complete hate. You could tell that our presence really bothered him, that it consumed him, and that he would like nothing more than to ram meat skewers through our eye sockets and should "Allah'u Akbar!"

Most of the Uighurs we met or dealt with have been great - very kind people. But I got the sense that some folks in Hotan would have welcomed an Al Qaeda operation at our hotel.

THE "HAPPY HOTEL"

The Lonely Planet, that holy and wholly inaccurate guidebook, recommends a Uighur-run hotel near the place we stayed our first night in Hotan. Wishing to save a little money and acting on the book's enthusiastic write-up, we moved in.

The book says that the Uighur family that runs the place is "extremely happy to receive foreign guests." We were received with casual indifference, to say the least. They couldn't even located the key to our room, but had to break the lock and put in a new one. And it didn't take too much to snap the cheap metal contraption.

The "hotel" was located in a courtyard off of the main street and was anything but "happy." Dirty, pantsless kids played in the filthy outdoor enclosure. One of them had just left a bright yellow turd in the grate on the concrete. This seemed to be a habit, as the act was repeated the next morning, which is no surprise, since people pretty much piss and shit at will in those parts, Muslim decency be damned. Flies buzzed in profusion, and the smell of grease and human waste hung in the air like damp laundry.

We were led into our room, which was adjacent to the kitchen. It was three-bed affair with no AC. One small window gave the place a modicum of ventilation, which was very necessary, since unholy sewage fumes wafted forth from the hellmouth of a squatter toilet in the "bathroom" connected to the room. This bathroom was little more than a tiny sink, a broken mirror, a barely-functional water faucet, and a stained ceramic hole to poop in. Anytime anyone had to enter this foul room, a wall of pure jenkum-gas blasted forth, causing anyone unfortunate to be in the main room to gag.

Outside of the room's window was an old bed, on which was piled copious amounts of filthy laundry. On the sill sat a cracked egg that had sat their for an indeterminate length, its yellowish contents running down the outside wall like a waxy drip of hardening snot.

I know these were poor people, and the room was cheap, but... could they at least have cleaned up the egg?

SERMON ON THE BERTH

Yesterday Sam and I boarded the bus to Urumqi, more than happy to be leaving the menacing environs of Hotan. Unless you're buying jade, there's really no reason to stick around.

Our bus was a "sleeper bus," with three rows of cramped beds, stacked double-decker. These beds are built for people of Chinese-height. There's no pretence in making Westerners comfortable. I'm 6'0" (182 cm) and didn't stand a chance. Sam, being 6'3", was screwed.

The bus was almost out of town, when it stopped for ten minutes. A taxi rolled up, out of which four Uighur men emerged and boarded the bus, taking the upper berths above us. Each of these men sported the requisite moustache and white skullcap of the truly pious.

The bus jolted into gear, starting its interminable journey. At the same time, one of the youngest of the four started his interminable monologue.

In loud and theatrical Uighur, this young man proceeded to hold court among the three of his peers. He talked and talked and talked. He went on and on and on and on. Every few minutes one of his rapt audience would humbly interject or finish a thought, but otherwise it was this one man and his one voice.

This went on for hours. Not one or two hours, but more like SIX. As I looked up at the man, his eyes were animated and afire; his chest heaved, and he gave off the unmistakable vibe of a religious zealot. Several times, as if to prove his piety to the rest of the Muslims on the bus, he dismounted the upper birth and prostated himself in prayer on the ground, only to return to his perch and SING.

At one point Sam and I decided to fight back, and attempted to carry on a loud and sustained conversation about American literature, but our spirit was one to match that of the upper deck mullah, and we were soon silenced, once again sentenced to the guttural cadence of his admonishments and inspirations...

THE END OF THE LINE

This return to Urumqi marks the end of real travels. Yesterday and today's cross-desert jaunt was the last new ground covered. Sam and I fly back to Shanghai in the morning for another meeting with Caf, and then we're off to Busan on Thursday.

It's been a crazy trip, one that I'll follow up with photos and perhaps a couple of more cohesive reflective posts once I'm back in Korea, where the internet is plenty and unrestricted.

Choosing to visit China during the Olympics was both a boon and a bust. Because of visa restrictions and extra-security, fellow travelers were few. Most places were uncrowded. In many spots it was obvious that we were among the only visitors in town. We never once walked up to a hotel and were denied a room because of lack of vacancies - and this was during peak seasons. Aside from a couple of big tourist sites mobbed by package tourists, we never in the slightest felt like partof a crowd.

Of course the Olympics ended up being a splinter in our ass as well. The security was mighty, often onerous. Our busses and cars stopped at innumerable checkpoints, where we dealt with uniformed and armed Chinese soldiers, police, and local Uighur security - who were usually unarmed and unshaven, in dusty and untucked uniforms. We were once denied reentry to a PC Room, because they had monitored us the day before and saw that we visited banned websites via proxy servers. Our bags were repeatedly searched. We never knew if we'd even be able to get to certain parts of the country, as authorities had the power to "close" certain places to tourists at will. We found this out face to face with a cop in Golmud, who refused to issue us permits to travel the southern road into Xinjian, severly altering the original course of the trip.

I've estimated that Sam and I have spent 136 hours on trains, busses, and in cars over the last 25 days. That's almost six days straight, or a good 25 percent of the time we've been gone. Jesus. Factor in time in the air, and you have about another 10 hours. This is the most ground I've ever covered in one month.

So China? A real mixed bag. Some of the best and worst stuff I've come across. The Koreans complain about about the Chinese whenever you bring them up:

"Oh... Chinahhh... So g-uh-reasy, so -d-uh-rty."

And they're right. The food is incredibly greasy, often served in massive pools of oil. And the place can be filthy. The worst bathrooms I've ever come across have all been in China (and I've traveled throughout the poorest parts of SE Asia). And often, at least out West, the people just go outside, wherever they can.

But this is a massive country, fully of extremes. It's run by a load of fascist bastards, but sometimes you wonder if they're only doing what they have to to keep the whole gig from falling apart.

Who knows.

Whatever the case, I'll probably be back. But next time I'll make sure that they Olympics are nowhere near its shores.

2012 seems like a good time.
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Something to consider. [18 Aug 2008|12:57am]

ocha_no_hanashi
Without phenomena, people cannot exist.
Without people, phenomena cannot exist.
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Spain 2009 [17 Aug 2008|10:51pm]

student_travel

[ishimaru_amane]
[ mood | contemplative ]

So now that I'm set to graduate (undergrad) this coming spring, I've been thinking about going on an excursion to Spain since I've always wanted to take a vacation there. (The closest I've ever gotten were the Canary Islands, which were nice but still no Spain). It's quite possible that I'll be taking this trip by myself, and while I've always been a smart traveler, my budget has varied at times. Since I'm saving to pay for this trip myself I'm really hoping not to exceed $2000-$2500 (including airfare). I've looked at STA and EF Tours to get estimates of what a week long trip would cost and started to wonder which is better: planning the trip all on my own or buying a packaged trip from a student type travel group?

It's been a while (high school actually) since I've been on a EF sponsored tour so if anyone's traveled on the EF tours for college aged students, can you give me any insight on your experience with them even if you didn't go to Spain. If you've used another travel agency outside of EF, what was your experience with them?

If you planned out your trip on your own, then please feel free to describe your experience as well as I'm trying to gather an idea of what will work best for me financially above all else. Thanks! :)

x-posted to [info]ljtravel

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[17 Aug 2008|07:04pm]

janedoremi
Urgh, so Mike just left for Calgary. For two weeks. For work. I'm very happy for him to have such an opportunity, but I have never spent a night alone in this apartment, and I'm not particularly keen on finding out what it's like.
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2 x Peking bei Nacht [18 Aug 2008|02:52am]

yanhua
[ mood | lazy ]
[ music | Jason Mraz ]



Verbotene Stadt



National Centre for the Performing Arts
(Nationaltheater)

800x600 + 2 weitere Bilder  )

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[17 Aug 2008|02:12am]

ocha_no_hanashi
I dunno why, but the second I have some time off I start staying up to three in the morning.

Seriously, this is natural. I am a natural night owl. If I don't have to wake up early the next morning, I stay up laaaate and then it becomes a habit sleeping in until 11:00AM.

I am most productive at night.
I also strangely have a lot of energy starting around eight o'clock. All damn day I yawn and want to nap. Suddenly evening rolls on in and I'm energized and ready to go. It is like that even when I have a regular sleeping schedule and go to bed at 10:00pm every night. I don't know what it is. I am tired during daylight hours and then at dusk my energy levels rise and I'm rearing to go.

I kinda miss doing night security. Nobody was around. It was quiet. I spent most of the time studying Japanese.

I'll go to bed at around 3am and, strangely, at around that time my teacher, a Tibetan monk, will be waking up to do prostrations and meditate.

Such a vast difference of lifestyles. Buddha gets my attention in the evening generally speaking.

I am a pirate.
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Working hours [16 Aug 2008|04:54pm]

ocha_no_hanashi
Time Type of worker Annual hours
13th century Adult male peasant, UK 1620 hours
14th century Casual laborer, UK 1440 hours
Middle Ages English worker 2309 hours
1400-1600 Farmer-miner, adult male, UK 1980 hours
1840 Average worker, UK 3105-3588 hours
1850 Average worker, U.S. 3150-3650 hours
1987 Average worker, U.S. 1949 hours
1988 Manufacturing workers, UK 1855 hours
2000 Average worker, Germany 1362 hours

Huh.

I wonder if the fewer hours of labour in earlier centuries was a result of being able to really only work during daylight hours? Or were people just more laid back?
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cheers! [17 Aug 2008|12:08am]

yanhua
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | Jason Mraz - Plane ]



Sportkommentatoren in lila Jacken FOR TEH WIN! :D


& Juhuu an das Badminton Team aus Indonesien (was brillianterweise 2:1 gegen China gewonnen hat :D) S'lamat!





Morgen: Marathon der Frauen. Vielleicht gehe ich mir das anschauen, vielleicht schlafe ich aber auch einfach weiter. Halb 8 morgens, brr...

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things that are wonderful and dangerous about asia [16 Aug 2008|11:28pm]

fetus_karate
- the abundance of milk tea and a smorgasborg of cavity-inducing sweets, all artificially flavored to my greatest delight
- cartoons, everywhere, illustrating everything from candy to policemen to perverts on the subway
- clothes here have no real size to them, but it's okay because i'm asian so everything fits!
- i am physically ambiguous enough to blend in practically everywhere i have been so far in asia. well, so i don't look japanese, but i'm still chinky eyed enough to avoid stares in korea!
- spicy, delicious, wonderful cheap street food that's probably marinated in MSG and is potentially lethal to the arteries
- sexy gadgety electronics that are ultimately useless but look oh, so cute
- basically, anything that is ultimately useless but oh, so cute. it will be to my ultimate downfall that i adore all things kitsch

i am in taipei right now, drinking my weight in milk tea, eating noodles so spicy that i actually had to stop (and i have an impressively high spice tolerance), and spending my hard earned cash on cute things that i purchase with the excuse of using them in my classroom (doraemon erasers? duh).

unfortunately finances being as they are (i am basically a cheapass) this is my last vacation for a while- until october anyway. oh, being outside of korea makes me a little reluctant to go back each time. especially when i've got a 6:45 class the next morning. ah well.

taiwan is pretty sweet!
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[16 Aug 2008|10:42am]

janedoremi
While cuddling in bed

me: What do you most want to be doing right now?
him: This.
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