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[26 Apr 2007|12:37pm] |
I have this friend who has admitted to me that she used to be anarexic and has eating disorders and stuff. And I listened all the time to her, thinking its great that she has come to terms with it and can accept the fact and try to get help sort of.
So after awhile of her talking about it and always trying to explain stuff to me like I was an idiot and saying- but you would never understand- I was finally able to open up to her a bit and be more truthful with myself that yes I too struggle with EDNOS, so i was telling her I did understand some of her stories.
it was like all of a sudden she was offended.
and ever since that it seems like at times shes competing with me, or testing me.
I don't like it. Cause I know for me, it could push me into another downward cycle without even realzing it. I just get caught up in it.
Its like we'll go out for sushi and I seriously only feel like 6 avacado ginger rolls ad then she orders 12 bigger rolls and trys to get me to eat them- Im like just stop in my head. She eats mainly healthy being vegetarian and former vegan and all-but she is obssesed with food. She also works at a gym. Her boyfreind is hittin the 300 pound mark though...which is scary.
It doesn't help right now that I just got my 4 wisdom teeth out and have lost my appetite. and when I get better I can't wait to go back to the gym and keep my appetite down.
My boyfriend wants me to get into mountain biking- I gotta get fit for that too.
I just find her reactions weird- its like she thought she was the only one with this. no way.
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