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June 23rd, 2008
12:01 am

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fun...
How would your mother describe you in one word?
incoherent
What is your favorite flower?
daisy's
What is the most insane question you’ve ever been asked?
“Hey, can I ask you a question?” ((jen always asks me that, then proceeds with a question))
What word in the English language do you wish you had invented?
woof
Where would you like to live? 
myrtle beach or allegany... somewhere, where i am happy.
What is the first quote that comes to your mind?
live, laugh, love...
What do you miss about your childhood?
hoping..
If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
Izzy
What is the main fault in your character?
my lack of ability to talk about myself.
Who is your favorite historical figure?
Princess Di...
Describe how you kiss in one word.
soft
If you met the right guy today, would you get married tomorrow?
no. sorry
What in the world do you least desire?
people who are unconsiderate
Finish this sentence: “Happiness is a thing called. . .”
life.

Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted

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January 7th, 2008
11:58 pm

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....
 just keep breathing...

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April 3rd, 2007
10:36 pm

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She's not like that now. She knows better . She knows now that people lie , and promises can be broken as quick as they are made . She understands that she might never be loved , and too quickly good things fly in front of your eyes before you can reach out and grab them . She knows that you can't change or help time, so every now and then it will just run out. There isn't a place for everyone in the world, so if you're standing alone for awhile, that's why. Not everything in life comes easy , but when you work the hardest, that's when it's the best . You can't always expect people to care, and even when your best friends stab you in the front, don't think for one minute that they didn't already aim for your back. They missed for a reason. She has found out to soon, that in the end, you are your own best friend . Everyone will be broken at some point in their life and more often than not , its gonna hurt like hell . But you can't stop it. You can't change your fate. Some things are meant to be and all the pain you go through will end up resulting in something huge . You don't know what it is and when it happens, it will hit you like a ton of bricks. At some point, when you have experienced everything you can, the words 'Life' and 'Risk' won't mean anything to you anymore. But don't try and change that. Stuff like that is meant to happen. Overtime, certain things no longer have an affect on you . And that happens because that's the way it supposed to be . But you'll learn all that later in life when little things like a sunrise or a spring rain start to matter. But it might catch you off guard and happen sooner .

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January 30th, 2007
11:25 pm

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I fall farther and farther and farther down... i dont want to get back up...

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September 20th, 2006
06:43 pm

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She doesn't look, she doesn't see
Opens up for nobody
Figures out, she figures out
Narrow line, she can't decide
Everything short of suicide
Never hurts, nearly works

Something is scratching its way out
Something you want to forget about

A part of you that'll never show
You're the only one that'll ever know
Take it back when it all began
Take your time, would you understand
What it's all about

Something is scratching its way out
Something you want to forget about
No one expects you to get up
All on your own with no one around

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September 19th, 2006
04:35 pm

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my best friend...
He noted that first came the date of her birth
and spoke of the date with tears
but he said what mattered most of all
was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time
that she spent alive on earth, and
now only those who loved her know
what that little line is worth.

For it matters not how much we own;
the cars, the house, the cash.
What matters is how we lived and loved
and how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard,
Are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left
You could be at "dash mid-range"

If we could just slow down enough
to consider what's true and real,
and always try to understand
the way other people feel, and
be less quick to anger,
show appreciation more
and love the people in our life like
we've never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect,
more often wear a smile
remembering that this special dash
might only last a little while.

So when your eulogy is being read
with your life's actions to rehash...
would you be pleased with the things they say
about how you spent your dash?



they say the ones you love are taken from your life too soon.. well 17 is soon enough... I love you Johanna... I miss you and love you... we said best friends forever and that will never change.... just keep an eye on me...


Febuary 9, 1989- September 8, 2006




I Love You!

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July 4th, 2006
01:09 pm

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yehh
There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t kill yourself
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeh...

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June 24th, 2006
02:48 am

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low
I'm not saying I have nothing. I'm not saying I'm gone completely. It's just sometimes it's all a bit too much to handle, sometimes I feel like it's too much. I'm not going to do anything stupid because I know it will get better, it has to right? Otherwise there wouldn't be anyone who would live past their teenage years. But for now, just for now, it hurts.

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June 23rd, 2006
11:35 am

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<3carbon leaf
But tomorrow you'll wake up afraid of the day
'Cause underneath the scars of your broken dreams
An undone war still wages and stings
You fear the year will blow
Like a breeze through a rainbow
You swear it's there, but you can't grab a hold
So you sit and cry and wonder why, why...


When all of your tears dry, let your troubles roll by

Current Music: carbon leaf

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June 20th, 2006
10:55 am

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...
and i have these sort of moments
where i force myself to breathe
and i have to ask which part of me
should stay and which should leave...

Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: dmb

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June 14th, 2006
09:35 am

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RIP
you know when you cut yourself really badly, it doesn't hurt at all for awhile you don't feel anything - death, our reaction to death is sort of like that you don't feel anything at all and then later on you begin to hurt...

RIP 6*12*06
i hate losing people.
its never ever easy...
i love and miss you Uncle Gerry...
not a day goes by that i dont think about you and wish you were here...
this hurts so bad...
=(

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May 1st, 2006
09:55 pm

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There is no dawn
Without a night
There is no victory
Without a fight
There is no rainbow
Without rain
There is no happiness
Without pain

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April 30th, 2006
10:14 pm

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Bring it on bitch...
Life is not a spectator sport; win, lose or draw, the game is in progress whether we want it to be or not. So go ahead, argue with the refs, change the rules, cheat a little, take a break and tend to your wounds. But play hard, play fast, play loose and free; play as if theres no tomorrow. Ok so, It's not whether you win or lose, it's how you play the game, right?

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March 28th, 2006
09:42 pm

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i don’t know what i want in life. i don’t know what i want right now. all i know is that im hurting so much inside that it’s eating me, and one day, there wont be any of me left. everything that ever caused a tear to trickle down my cheeks, i run away and hide from it. but now, everything is unwinding and finding its way back towards me. and i don’t know what to do. i just know that the pain i felt so long ago, its hurting ten times more.

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March 15th, 2006
10:30 pm

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you are like a butterfly
dreams are sweeping, try to fly
bust out of this old cocoon
dry your wings off
butterfly
don't you cry

its always such a lonely move
or its southern like a broken bone
you know luck wont always come your way
but dry your tears away
butterfly
don't you cry

dry your tears away
butterfly
go ahead and fly


.david.matthews.




deep breaths... things will get better.. they have to, right?

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March 14th, 2006
10:18 pm

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It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

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March 8th, 2006
09:00 pm

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well...
I can't stop crying. I don't understand, and it't not the loud, screaming crying. Its just the tears continuously roll down my face, and I can't do anything to stop them...

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February 6th, 2006
12:00 am

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hey hey
say what you want, say what you mean
question yourself, are you really what you seem?
say what you want, say what you mean
question yourself, are you really what you dream?

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January 31st, 2006
10:53 pm

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about high school...

Somewhere between the procrastination
...And the homework
...And the incessant forwards
...And the friendships
...And the nasty cafeteria food
...And the calls to each other complaining about crushes
Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends
...And the "I miss you's"
...And the "I love you's"
...And the "What are we doing tonight's"
...And somewhere between all of the changing & growing..
Somewhere between the classes
...And the skipping classes
...And the studying for tests
...And the pretending to study for tests
...And the downright not studying for tests...
I forgot.
...I forgot what high school is all about.
...I forgot what it meant to cry
...I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy.
...And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart.
...I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future.
...I forgot that you can't control falling in love
...And that you can't make yourself fall in love.
I learned that I can love.
...I learned that it's okay to mess up
...And it's okay to ask for help
...And it's okay to feel like crap.
...I learned its okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day.
...I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have.
...I learned that the greatest thing about high school isnt the parties or the drinking.
...It's the friendships which means taking chances.
...I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about.
...I learned that letters from friends are the most important thing
...And that sending cards to your friends makes YOU feel better.
But, basically, I just learned that my friends
...Both old and new
...Are the most important people to me in the world
...And without them, I wouldn't be who I am today

Current Mood: okayokay
Current Music: Gavin DeGraw, Rascal Flatts- DMB- JJ- a lil bit of everythin

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January 7th, 2006
10:52 pm

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okay...
I had this thing 2 years now... wow.. and i thought i wouldnt be able to keep it more then 2 days...

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January 1st, 2006
10:02 pm

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New Year- New Start--- not really but...

In the year 2006 I resolve to:

Reunite the Spice Girls.



Get your resolution here




Recapp of 2005- oh what i remember...

January- meet my best friend- who is still and always will be my best friend-- partied...

Febuary- went to ra-cha-cha for basketball games- partied.. went to Flordia- worst vacation ever (sorry to say) but perks were with my dearest cousin Loren...

March-Lacrosse games- Went on the best freaking trip of my life to Europe- unforgettable people and memories on that trip... basically completed my life- learned a lot...

April- My 16th birthday- suprise party- lacrosse game which we rocked in and all will rock in!!

May- month of quotes- lacrosse games 14-1-1 for the season- amazing team

June- end of 10th grade- last month my brother ever saw high school- SUMMER VACA- only one entry...

July- 1 year since my gramma passed 7*9*04... ALLEGANYYYY- thats all i have to say

August- positive month(to say the least)- job at the fair- job at Bkwick- DMB night- Aunt Lorraine Passes away from cancer-RIP 8*16*05

September-11th grade begins...work- Margaret Metz and Donna Philipps pass away...

October- homecoming!! Rascel Flats concert with Cara- work

November- i8ndependance starts to kick in completly- CS<-(ask)- work

December- KissMas bash with Cass, Lori, and missy DAVE MATTHEWS BAND concert with lep, mj and twin- sucky christmas- New Years in Allegany with Jen Sam and Jaimie...funn time- partyyy - work- time is a flyinnnn


all in all- it was a year to remember and then there were things i didnt write about becuase i would like to forget about them... but this year was okay.. one to remember.... i suppose... maybe i will write later.. who knows... peacee

Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were.You
wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let
go of what had been and look ahead to what would be. Other days, now
days, days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for
getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves for growing up.

Current Mood: okayfine
Current Music: dave matthews band...

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December 1st, 2005
09:30 pm

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truth hurts
Let's face it... we've changed. We all changed. Somewhere between summer ending and school starting, we've all gone in our own directions. Hearts were broken, friends diminished, new love started and new people came into our lives. We no longer spend all of our time in our circle of friends, we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. We've changed -- some for the better, some for the worse. Some of us are finding love and others are trying to let go. Even though we've changed, we all know that even though we're all finding our own place in the world, that when we find out love, when we let go of a love, when the tears fall , or the happy smile spreads across our face... we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us and no matter what happens, nothing will ever change so much to the point that we're not all friends forever.

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November 30th, 2005
10:32 pm

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ahhhh- good song
Life aint always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down, it can break your heart

Life aint always beautiful
You think you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day

But the struggles make you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has its own way of takin it's sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life aint always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride

Life aint always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin all these lonely miles

And I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream, but life don’t work that way

But the struggles make me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has its own way of takin it's sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful
But i know i'll be fine
Hey, life aint always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride

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November 20th, 2005
02:59 pm

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I'm scared to get close to people, whether they're friends or whatever, it seems that every time I get close to someone, they always have to go away, maybe it's to teach me how life goes on, and how I shouldn't depend on people so much, or maybe I just trust the wrong people....


so, I came up with I don't need best friends- I don't need anyone- not my parents- my friends- my anything... I am not going to live in this place when I am older so why make the promises and say things that you know dont mean anything to anyone. People in this world are just out to get you and make you feel like nothing, make you feel like your the one always messing up and your the one always doing the wrong thing. So you say you have best friends, amazing parents and unforgettable friends that's until one day they don't want that anymore.. Then you have nobody....

Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: dave matthews band...

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November 16th, 2005
09:59 pm

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Try your best..
A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.

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November 13th, 2005
01:28 am

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being you...
dont waste your life regretting all your wrongs.. know that in the end youll get what your heart has always longed... try not to risk it all... dont stumble and dont fall... take the time to read the writings on the wall... hold your head up high and dont be afraid to say goodbye... stay true and be you..do everything there is to do... live life to its fullest and never ever look back...there is a reason for thefuture and a reason for the past.... love till it hurts and laugh till u cry and when your life flashes before you.. make it worth while... be happy for what you have done... and be appy for what you have over come.. and most of all, always, be proud of what you have become

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November 9th, 2005
11:33 pm

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Who we are... what we will be..

"So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose were we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things, and we can try to feel okay about them."

Current Mood: indifferentindifferent
Current Music: dmb...

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November 2nd, 2005
10:21 pm

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Attitude

The longer I live,the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past,than education, than money, than circumstances, than failure,than successes, than what other people think or say or do.
It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company, a church, a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past, we cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on one string we have, and that is our attitude...
I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our attitudes...
.c.s.

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October 10th, 2005
05:34 pm

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the dreaming tree has died...

okay.. I am bored and jjust got home from last night events.. thats what I will call them... We went to comfort zone and then to the movies... It was fun... a night out with some of the girls... no complaints at all... then went back to Los and hung out talked for hours slept then woke up and her brother busted in a played some dave... wow... that was great! and I cannot wait for that concert... its going to be outta control...There is really nothing more to say.. I will maybe update later.. I think i could pull a long entry outta my head... until next time check out my 3 things thingy.. ((took it from Chris- thanks))

 

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Current Music: oar and dmb

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September 29th, 2005
10:08 pm

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this might be one of the last
mostly becuase no one reads it but... who knows.. I have to say I am exicited about the next comming months... In october I have a Wedding and the Rascell Flats Concert (10-13). In November I have the O.A.R. Concert with whom ever (ASH!!).. and in december I have the one and only Dave with MJ- Medina and Lo... I am sooo exicited... but as for now this week was spirit week... FUN, not really but.. in a way. and tommorow is Dick's Birthday.. (sweet 16- your jealous) and other then that just getting ready for home coming and all that great jazz... I must be off.. this may be one of the last ones...

peace

Current Mood: okayokay
Current Music: dmb and oar

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September 24th, 2005
01:06 am

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I feel Home....
There are few things pure in this world anymore, and home is one of the few
We'd have a drink outside maybe run and hide, if we saw a couple men in blue
But to me it's so damn easy to see that your people are the people at home
Well I been away but now I'm back today and there ain't a place I'd rather go

I feel home when I see the faces that remember my own
I feel home when I'm chillin outside with the people I know
I feel home, and that's just what I feel
Cause home, to me, is reality and all I need is something real

We're feeling alright headin out tonight maybe off to a dark driveway
I say now, some feel bored, and some are looking for more, but we all just decide to stay
We got nothing to do, but when I look at you I see something that I know and love
And with the crack of a smile we all stay awhile, we know from home their ain't nothin above

Well in the end, we can all call a friend, well that's something that I know as true
In a thousand years, and a thousand tears, I'll come finding my original crew
Cause to me throughout eternity there is somewhere we are welcome to go
I said it's something free that means a lot to me, when I'm with my friends I feel home

I feel home when I see the faces that remember my own
I feel home when I'm chillin outside with the people I know
I feel home, and that's just what I feel
Cause home, to me, is reality and all I need is something real
Home to me is reality and all I need is something real, I feel home

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September 19th, 2005
10:59 pm

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things will happen in your life that you can't stop. But that's no reason to shut out the world.

Sometimes you can cry until there is nothing left wet in you. You can scream and curse to where your throat rebels and ruptures. You can pray all you want to whatever god you think will listen. And still, it makes no difference. It goes on, with no sign as to when it might release you. And you know that if it ever did relent...it would not be because it cared.

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September 18th, 2005
09:09 pm

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I wonder if anyone is really happy. I hope they are. I really hope they are...

“I walk around the school hallways and look at the people. I look at the teachers and wonder why they're here. If they like their jobs. Or us. And I wonder how smart they were when they were fifteen. Not in a mean way. In a curious way. It's like looking at all the students and wondering who's had their heart broken that day, and how they are able to cope with having three quizzes and a book report due on top of that. Or wondering who did the heart breaking. And wondering why.”

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September 16th, 2005
11:22 pm

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My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real...

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September 12th, 2005
08:42 pm

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If there is anything i relized....
its that people are taken out of our lives too soon... Over the summer i lost my Aunt Lorraine, over the past weekend my best friend lost his aunt and my dad's friend lost his wife... Why do people die or why does god take him from our lives so soon. When this news came in this weekend i was shocked.. but many people say if you know one person that dies, most likely 2 more people you know will also die and when I think about it, its true... but thats all sad and i don't want to think about all that...

Other stricking news is we are starting day 5 at the good oh HHS tommorow.Shall be interesting- just like every other day.. tons of home work- gossip- drama- and all that GREAT stuff... love school for the matter of my friends... some Great news is on Wednesday I am hanging out with the One and Only after school... aka Medina- Peace Club and food... haha shall be fun.. if we don't decide one of us is TC.. ha.. i have yet to get to my US history homework but someone forgot the book... thats great!

I would NEVER be able to get by with out my friends....
Somewhere between the procrastination, the homework, the friendships, and the nasty cafeteria food, the calls to old friends,the I miss yous,and the I Love yous,and the 'What are we doing tonights?' Somewhere between all of the changing and growing,and the skipping classes, the studying for tests,the pretending to be studying for tests,and the downright not studying for tests;I forgot.
I forgot what it meant to cry.I forgot that pretending to be happy doesnt make you happy,I forgot that pretending to be smart doesnt make you smart,and that pretending to be ok doesnt make you ok.I forgot that you can't forget the past if you are afraid of the future.I forgot that you can't control falling in love,and that you cant make yourself fall out of love. I learned.I learned that I can love.I learned that its ok to mess up, and its ok to ask for help,and its ok to feel like crap.I learned its ok to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day. That somehow they'll make it all better .I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just cant have, and I learned that the greatest thing about high school isn't going to be who is the most popular or going to be the parties or the drinking not even the hook-ups . . . Its the friendships, which means taking chances.I learned that sometimes the things we forgive and forget are the things which we most need to talk out. But, basically, I just learned that my friends, Both old and new, Are the most important people to me in the world...



-rip-
Margaret Metz
and
Donna Philipps

Current Mood: okayyou know....
Current Music: dmb- grey street...

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September 10th, 2005
07:29 pm

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same shit- different day

okay.. I figured out i could right in here hope people would read it or get rid of it... as you see you know which one i picked...i don't know whats been ging on latley but something has.. school is a joke but thats how it always is... home is home- work is work and friends are well... "friends" as i would put it. i can say i am sick of people/ friend but when i say that on here everyone wants to know.. so lets pretend i never said that. anywho.. i have nothing else to say but i decided to do some servay things- gayy as fuck but i am bored... i will write again... peAce

 

 

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September 8th, 2005
11:20 pm

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mariah says it welll....
It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold

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September 5th, 2005
12:42 am

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well

I guess I just have to realize, no matter how hard it is, that it isnt going to work out. I'm only hurting myself...

 

 

 

 

I really gotta get up outta here and go somewhere I gotta shake it off....

 

 

 

 

sometimes you have to walk away to see who will come after you....

 

 

 

 

why do I bother? why do I care about things that are never in my control? why life? WHY?!

Current Mood: okayyou know....
Current Music: shake it off & grey street

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August 23rd, 2005
01:22 am

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okay... here it goes- again..

Dear Everyone- 

            I know you all don't approve of some of my habbits. You all can't stand when I procrastinate on almost everything or when I lie, but please stop trying to change me if I don't want to change myself. I wish people would just accept me the way I am. Maybe everyone once thought I would be class valedicorian or be a great role model, so I might not be turing out exactly how yous hoped but I can't change that. Please be happy with the girl I am. Sometimes I feel like I can't show you the whole me because the whole me includes all the lies I've told and the crazy things I've done. But you all need to know all the valuses you've taught me will be there when that guy I met 10 mins. ago and invites me to his place... or even if I get offered acid or pot. Thats why no one should be be treating me like a defenceless baby who's going to shatter the second things go wrong. I need to learn through my own mistakes. No one has to worry that something bad is going to happen. Accepting the things I do that you might not love, would make everything easier on all of us. I could understand your concern if I was getting into something really really bad, but if I'm on the right road and I just swerve from time to time, let me drive by myself. Please just be there for me. If I need some one to talk to- you phone will never be busy or If I need help with my home work or if a guy breaks my heart. Be there for me when I really need you. Don't smother me. I need yous to hand me a road map once in a while, but please don't force me to go the direction you want. I want you all to know I love you all no matter what. You all are me role models, my inspiration and my life. But you all have to remember if I like the way I am and the way I act , I'm probly not going to change that. I want nothing more for you all to be my friends and my conifidants.

much love,

Emilee Joanna

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August 20th, 2005
11:24 am

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One Song- Glory...
One song
Glory
One song
Before I go
Glory
One song to leave behind
Find one song
One last refrain
Glory
From the pretty boy front man
Who wasted opportunity
One song
He had the world at his feet
Glory
In the eyes of a young girl
A young girl
Find glory
Beyond the cheap colored lights
One song
Before the sun sets
Glory -- on another empty life
Time flies -- time dies
Glory -- One blaze of glory
One blaze of glory -- glory
Find
Glory
In a song that rings true
Truth like a blazing fire
An eternal flame
Find
One song
A song about love
Glory
From the soul of a young man
A young man
Find
The one song
Before the virus takes hold
Glory
Like a sunset
One song
To redeem this empty life
Time flies
And then - no need to endure anymore
Time dies


.... the door...

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August 16th, 2005
11:22 am

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rip- lz
God saw you getting tired
And a cure was not to be
So He put His arms around you
And whispered 'Come with Me.'

With tearful eyes
We watched you suffer
And saw you fade away
Although we loved you dearly
We could not make you stay.

A golden heart stopped beating
Hard working hands at rest
God broke our hearts to prove
He only takes the best.


Lorraine C. (Wagner) Zienski-
August 16, 2005, beloved wife of Jack R. Zienski; loving mother of Craig (Rosanne), Christopher and Nicole Zienski; dear grandmother of Jack and Zoey Zienski; sister of John Wagner, MaryAnn (Don) Flaig, Robert (Barb) Wagner and Gerri (John) Kremer; sister-in-law of Carol (late Ron) Murphy; also survived by many nieces and nephews. The family will be present Thursday 2-4 and 7-9 PM at the (Elma Chapel) Urban-AMIGONE FUNERAL HOME, 7540 Clinton St. (corner Girdle Rd.) where funeral services will be held Friday at 9:30 AM and from Annunciation of the Blessed Virgin Mary Church at 10 AM. Flowers graciously declined. if so desired, memorials may be made to Multiple Myeloma Research, c/o Asher Chanan-Khan, M.D., Roswell Park Cancer Institute, Elm and Carlton Sts., Buffalo, NY 14263.


RIP- Aunt Lorraine- you are greatly missed.. not only were you an amazing, storng and caring person, You are my hero... much love...

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August 14th, 2005
12:21 am

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well...

well I figured I could use an update soo... here it is..

first things first-
DAVE NIGHT- was smimply AMAZING!!! Becuase of Winn dixie- magic brownie, a some what starry night(to sleepunder) a lot of dave music, and my best friend ((Lo- your the best- thanks for everything- see you and me have a better time then most can dream of...))

I have a job at the fair- its so fun and awesome- I actully like to work there ((Nitro Ice cream- its in a Blue building... come and I will give you a free sample)) and after working the fair I hopefully get the job at Wegmans or B-kwick or the Day care...

The Bills are doing well.. thats always a plus...
The Sabres are back.. So is the NHL...
I love Dave Matthews Band, Edwin McCain, and Alanis Morresitte- more and more everyday...
I love my friends...
I want to redo my room.. with my dream job in mind of course-
www.stellarwision.com
I am pretty much content, and just enjoying my summer days.. they are winding down a lil to fast then before I know it JuNiOr year is gonna be here... OhHhH baby...

thats all I can think of... I will try to post more frequently.. who knows... I don't even know if anyone reads them anymore... well anyways- I'm dead tired..

 

peace

 

Current Mood: peacefulpeaceful
Current Music: DmB- One Sweet World

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August 7th, 2005
12:53 am

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ohh baby

Dave Matthews Band Night

August 11th, 2005-- 7pm till?? you can't limit Dave!!

A WHOLE night dedicated to DMB.

Because of Winn Dixie

One Sweet Whirl, Magic Browies

A WHOLE lotta Music (DMB of course)

and my best friend!!!!

Can't Wait!!!

Your all jealous!

Current Mood: crazycrazy
Current Music: Everyday and I did it... DmB

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August 2nd, 2005
05:55 pm

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To everything there is a season,
a time for every purpose under the sun.
A time to be born and a time to die;
a time to plant and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
a time to kill and a time to heal ...
a time to weep and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn and a time to dance ...
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing;
a time to lose and a time to seek;
a time to rend and a time to sew;
a time to keep silent and a time to speak;
a time to love and a time to hate;
a time for war and a time for peace.

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July 21st, 2005
01:05 am

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She feels like kicking out all the windows
And setting fire to this life

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July 12th, 2005
03:46 pm

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haven't updated in forever... soo

I leave in 4 days.. for 2 weeks of happyness..I can't even begin to tell you how exicited I am... Allegany is my favorite place in the world with my most favorite people... and just to think I am outta this town... this summer is going by quite quickly. Not a lot has been happening.. just hanging out with my friends and keeping everything of mine on the DL.... its a good life, I guess... I must be off now.. I have to go get some things ready... I also had quite the experiance with Softball this year.. I just LOVE summer....

peace...

Current Music: DMB

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July 9th, 2005
03:52 pm

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I miss you...

God looked around his garden and he found an empty space.
he then looked down apon his earth and saw your tired face.
he put his arms around you and lifted you to rest
Gods garden must be beautiful he only takes the best
he knew you were in pain
he also knew in heaven you would never hurt again
he saw the road was getting rough and the hill harder to climb
so he closed your weary eyelids and whispered "please be mine"
it broke our hearts to lose you but you didnt go alone
for part of us went with you the day he called you home.
If tears could build a stair case and memories a lane. we would walk all the way to heaven to bring you home again

 

I miss you and love you, Gramma.. I know its only been a year but I remember you more and everything you taught me..... It won't be long till we meet again.. I love you..

                                         R.I.P- July 9, 2004 

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June 3rd, 2005
09:11 pm

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I'm having one of those evenings. One of those evenings when I need something intangible. A friend, perhaps. A feeling I haven't yet felt. I'm missing something.

I need the warmth and goodness of my friend’s love. Need the bright, cheerful presence of my dearest friend. Need anything but this room and the loud silence.

I should study. Or something else useful. But I can't move, trapped in my own melancholy spell. Maybe I'll write. I'll write, try to spin a spell to enchant you.

I stare at a blank screen, fingers poised on the keys. Nothing comes.

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May 23rd, 2005
10:28 pm

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I see things. I keep quiet about them. And I understand...

"I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won’t tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn't change the fact that they were upset.  And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't really change the fact that you have what you have. Good or Bad.”

 

Lose one friend, lose all friends, lose yourself…

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May 22nd, 2005
10:39 pm

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Bo-Sox or Yanks?

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