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[21 Aug 2008|07:32am]

badfalcon
[ mood | discontent ]

My really good mood continued all day yesterday - I was stupidly hyper, bouncing around the office, dancing in my chair, singing to myself hyper. I have no idea why but I'm certainly not complaining. I'm also finding I'm having a hell of a lot more ups than downs lately. Again with the not knowing why but certainly not complaining.. It's probably because I've a) spent most of the last few years in such a depressive funk that it feels like I'm up when I'm probably just balanced and b) because everything around me seems to be stabilising.

I used the mood and DID finish re-writing the Steve/Jensen fic. And this time around, I actually quite like it too. The ending still isn't exactly right but it's with Bella for being pokled and beta'd so we shall see what comes out of that

I was also very productive in a work related way as well: 140 invoices worth in the region of £205000
I even sat down with Mo for a good hour or so and helped him with his worklist - he's been there like 3 months and hasn't even looked at his queries. Didn't even know what they were or where they were, so we sat down and started going through them. Will probably do some more of them again today.

And, obviously, with yesterday being Wednesday, Asha was in at lunchtime. I was very impressed with her - it took her nearly a whole HOUR before she started pushing the whole 'baby agenda'. She was going on about how tired she was because hers was up at 5, then she starts going on about how much sleep babies have and how he played for a bit before feeding and having a poo and going back to sleep. um, eww? So, yeah, I turned around to her and just went 'dude... to much information'
Her response: it'll be different when its your own
*rolls eyes*

One of these days, I'm gonna go in and tell her I'm pregnant - that there's been an immaculate conception and I'm carrying the second coming of jesus.
or something
LOL

Mind, all that hyper energy was totally zapped last night. I spent the evening curled up on the couch with Jo & Lysa watching Torchwood S1.
Seriously, if I ever needed to prove to myself that I really am just a loner/introvert, then there it is - I always need to... recharge my batteries after spending any amount of time with people. So, tonight, I shall be curling up with some music on and playing catchup on my flist since I think I'm still on like... Sunday night? *facepalm*

Also, I should probably stop rambling and get my ass to work... Starduck's playing silly buggers and won't open the Wibble folder so you're gonna have to wait til tonight for some pretty.
Sorry. f

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[20 Aug 2008|05:22pm]

badfalcon
[ mood | curious ]

well, these are always interesting so....

THEANONYMOUSMEME
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Tommy used to work on the docks [20 Aug 2008|07:08am]

badfalcon
[ mood | okay ]
[ music | Good Charlotte - The Young & the Hopeless ]

Finally half-way through the week. And I think I've finally gotten rid of that bloody head-ache from the attempted knock out of self on Monday. Admittedly, I didn't get that fic finished last night - but then I did give up and crawl into bed at like 21:00... and slept straight through til 06:30 when my alarm went off.

I don't need to leave the house for half-hour yet I'm showered, I'm fed, my pack-up is made...
seriously, what's wrong with this picture? LOL

Keeping to this pattern, I will I will I will finish that Jensen/Steve fic... Currently, the boys are up against a brick wall, Jensen's pants around his knees, his hands bracing himself on the wall, Steve's fist around his cock and Steve's just sliding his cock in
*grins*
And I am determined to get this one finished and sent to beta today *nods*

So, I'm gonna post The Morning Wibble ) and carry on re-reading have you seen him whom my soul loves

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'she never fixes this, but at least she...' [19 Aug 2008|11:57pm]

amethyst__angel
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | time to dance - panic at the disco ]

"You're staring at me."
"Can you blame me?"

I'd forgotten the way pretty words make my stomach turn in delightful ways, the way that all it takes is someone to smile, tell me I'm beautiful, hold my hand, make me feel amazing. I can be happy forever that way.

This is the most illegal thing I've ever done, btw. I think it's actually significantly closer to illegal - three years is something new for me. But he...it's different, and I'm leaving on Saturday, and we're all a hot mess, this cast and crew, so it's only right that I let myself become a hot mess, too.

BTdubs, this show is going to be really awesome, and I'm really sad I can't stay for the whole thing, that I can only be at opening.

I don't know if he actually knows how old I am. I don't think it's ever come up in direct conversation. Oops. But, this is like when I hooked up with that twelve year old girl when I was sixteen...I didn't know. He's sixteen and looks twenty-one; I'm nineteen and look seventeen. It works somehow.

I can't believe this is so highschool. He's so old, to be so young. I'm so old, to be so young. This cast makes me seventeen again, and I rather like it.

I missed the butterflies mixed with the jealousy, the way crushes used to make me feel. I missed the awesomeness/awkwardness of seventeen, and I have it back, even if it's for less than a week.

This shit only happens to me, really.

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Tweets for Today [19 Aug 2008|10:02pm]

badfalcon
  • 12:44 Sitting in garage... Bored now... #
  • 14:35 Ooh job interview next friday B-) #
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It's Still Monday, right? [19 Aug 2008|07:24pm]

badfalcon
[ mood | crappy ]
[ music | Kane - Oklahoma State of Mind | Scrobbled by Last.fm ]

I took some codeine for my headache when I got into work. Can't say it really did much other than dull it because ooh its still all thumpthumpthump... If it's still feeling like this tomorrow, I think a doctor's appointment may be in order. Just to be on the safe side.
Although my hip must have been hurting because I felt a definite difference there as the morning went on. Shows the level of pain threshold I've gained when it comes to my right leg LOL

Also, you know the best thing about being a girl?
no sense of embarrassment at all about pulling into National Tyres and being all pathetic going 'my front drivers tyre keeps going flat' and having the nice man not laugh at me, just take it in and have a look at her for me!

And the best thing about having a small car? a new tyre only costs £41

*looks in purse and cries*
Guess I won't be getting Lotte's bum fixed this week, either.
Or getting any more of her arrears paid off...
And oh bugger my phonebill's due... eh that one can wait til next payday!
LOL

Work today has, for the most part, been sucky.
I've had one of those days where I've spent it wanting to either bang my head against the nearest brick wall or sit and cry in frustration - every invoice I picked up was fudging useless... either there was no PO, it wasn't actually an invoice, or it was already on the system, there was a pricing error, the order was overspent etc etc
I just about managed to get 75 invoices processed which were worth around £270000

On the more positive of work-related events, I have another job interview.
Next Friday, August 29, at 09:00. For the role of Support Technician
I don't have the majority of the desirable experience - although obviously
over the last few weeks i've been gaining experience in IPROC, but it's
obviously not something that bothers them since I've got the invitation to
interview
*does the happyllamadance*

Mind, speaking of job roles, the job I've been auto-applied for by my
manager went up on the job's board this week. and uh... it's definitely not
the same as what I'm doing. It looks incredibly daunting. It's for a
Process Assurance Associate )
MEEP!

Also, I got a fair amount of fic written today.
Or should that be re-written?
I've pretty much finished the Jensen/Steve dancing/first time/public sex piece... just need to finish off the actual 'insert tab S into slot J' scene and send it to Bella for beta.

How's this for an opening paragraph?
The club was dark, smoky and hot. The music was blasting, lights were flashing and bodies were grinding all around him. Jensen was more than a little buzzed on tequila, beer and weed as he moved to the music, letting it take over his body, the baseline thrumming through his veins. He closed his eyes and lost himself in the beat.

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The Morning Wibble [19 Aug 2008|06:59am]

badfalcon
*yawn* mornin. And I did have some rather strange dreams last night. Not quite as strange as the one over the weekend where Chelbean beat the shit out of Steve Carlson, but still quite strange - I dreamed that Steve's parents walked in on Steve & Christian curled up asleep together... they weren't doing anything, they were literally just sleeping but Christian freaked out. poor boy.

Also, last night, I managed to remember to send myself my notes on the Jensen/Steve Dance First Time fic. I initially wrote it months ago and didn't like it - then last week, I think it was, started re-writing the two major scenes and much prefer it.
So, hopefully the notes will get to me at work (if not, I sent them Bella too so she'll be able to fwd them on to me, hopefully LOL) and I'll be able to crack on with that *crosses fingers*

Still got a bloody annoying throbbing head though *pouts* Am almost tempted to call in and take myself to the doctors, just to be on the safe side... I mean seriously, I whacked it that hard that my bottom teeth were still aching when I went to bed and the top left of my head is still thumpthumpthump... it's all logged with health & safety so they can't say anything...
*pouts some more*
Will go in and come home if I need to, I think

For now though, I'm going to post The Morning Wibble ) and take my sorely head to work.
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oh look, it's a meme [18 Aug 2008|09:29pm]

badfalcon
[ mood | good ]

Still playing catchup on my flist - although I am now under skip=500... *trudges onwards*... and seen this meme floating around a bit so figured, yeah, go on then

Go to my userpics and choose:
1. Your favorite.
2. Your least favorite.
3. One that makes you automatically think of me.
4. One that you think I should TOTALLY use more often.
5. One that you don't get/needs more explanation/you have no idea why the hell I have it.

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That was the weekend that was! [18 Aug 2008|08:15pm]

badfalcon
[ mood | content ]
[ music | Valerie Pettiford - Coming Back To Me ]

As you know, Chelbean & I went to Whipsnade Wild Animal Park on Friday - and fell in love with lemurs and chimps and wolves and giraffes and baby!giraffes and bears and penguins and lions and tigers and hippos and rhinos baby!rhinos and sea lions and wallabies and mara and meerkats and
peacocks and elephants and llamas and alpacas and and and etc etc etc.
I really must poke the koala-shaped one for sending over the pics she
took so I can post them....

On Saturday, we took her mum (ok, we wanted to go too) to Fotheringhay which is the site of the execution of Mary Queen Of Scots and also the birthplace of Richard III. It's also a very pretty village in the middle of nowhere (I HATE driving down country lanes!) on the banks of the River Nene about 40 minutes from where Chel lives.
We wandered around 'ooh'ing at the pretty old buildings. The doors and windows were seriously tiny... as pretty as those cottages were, I would hate to live in one - dread to think how dark it would be y'know?
We also wandered around the old church - which is like part church and part museum having display boards up telling you all about the history of the village, the church, the castle, about Mary, Elizabeth, Richard, The York's and their connection to Fotheringhay. And it was very
interesting too.

When we left Fotheringhay, rather than toddling back to Northampton and because it was only like 15 minutes away, we went into Peterborough to wander around shops and grab a bite to eat. I was as a very good llama and didn't actually buy anything (!!).
We went to a Wetherspoons for food - The Drapers Arms - and we won't be going back there either. Chel had a burger and it was overcooked, dry, burned and pretty damn awful. Also, she asked for no salad and there were onions on it. My club wrap was ok though.
When Chel & I were at the bar ordering drinks and desserts, Chel's mum complained about the food, and we ended up getting hot chocolate, coffee, Pepsi and a fudge brownie dessert half price.
I liked the fact they were willing to offer that, but not the fact they had to in the first place.

Sunday was a very lazy day that started with home-made pancakes. Yummy.
And then involved very sweet, very sticky and very yummy home-made chocolate fudge.
I like Sunday's like that.
They'd be better if the film we were watching was half decent - not even the prettiness of Katherine Heigl made up for the dire-ness of 27 Dresses. Was pretty disappointed cos I'd been looking forward to watching that as well *pout*

Today has been a very productive day at work - both for them and for me.
I've processed 124 invoices today worth in the region of £380000.
Even if I did attempt to knock myself out - there's a shelf on the wall above my desk. I bent down to pick my bag up when I went for lunch... stood up and yup, hit my head on the shelf. I have to admit that's something I've been waiting to happen since I started. The whole thing got reported to Health & Safety and the shelf has been removed.
And I have one hell of a headache. LOL

It's been personally productive too with a fic about three sleepy sated boys and what they do on a lazy morning in bed...
and one of these days, before I go to work, I'm going to remember to mail myself whatever it is I'm actually working on (i.e. the jen/steve dancing or the chris/steve/riley for steve's birthday or... one of the other like 3 million fics in that 'unfinished fic' folder on Starduck) and then, rather than starting another new pwp, I might actually get one finished
*face palm*

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The Perception Personality Image Test [18 Aug 2008|08:02pm]

badfalcon
[ mood | confused ]

Your result for The Perception Personality Image Test...

HFPC - The Photographer

Humanity, Foreground, Big Picture, and Color

You perceive the world with particular attention to humanity. You focus on what's in front of you (the foreground) and how that fits into the larger picture. You are also particularly drawn towards the colors around you. Because of the value you place on humanity, you tend to seek out other people and get energized by being around others. You like to deal directly with whatever comes your way without dealing with speculating possibilities or outcomes you can't control. You are in tune with all that is around you and understand your life as part of a larger whole. You are a down-to-earth person who enjoys going with the flow.

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[18 Aug 2008|04:01pm]

amateur_artists

[fefa_koroleva]
и зебры тоже грустят


картон, акрил чёрный и белый, мел
Read more... )
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It Must Be Monday [18 Aug 2008|07:39am]

badfalcon
[ mood | sleepy ]

Overslept. Not made packup. No time for a shower.
And what's the betting that bloody front driver's side tyre's flat again? If it is, I'm taking her into Kwik Fit at lunch
have some pretty ) and I'll try to survive the day at work... you guys know my email right? feel free to mail me at work to keep me as sane as is possible on a monday with no sleep.

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Tweets for Today [17 Aug 2008|10:05pm]

badfalcon
  • 22:27 i a sleepy,sorely, thirsty llama #
  • 23:00 zzz i are not nocturnal *yawns and curls up on her koala* #
  • 10:24 mmm chocolate milk ♥ #
  • 19:05 Remind me again why it is I'm fucking bothering? #
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[17 Aug 2008|04:33pm]

amateur_artists

[v_zelinski]


Name : Playful 2008
Media : Acrylic on canvas
Size : 76 cm x 76 cm
30" x 30”
Priсe : US 70$

SOLD

Roll up shipping included :

Local : up to 7 days
US : up to 10 days
Internetional : up to 2-4 weeks
If you want discuss another payment available or pick up picture yourself write to e-mail : vitali_zelinski()yahoo.ca
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Oh, how typical? [17 Aug 2008|07:02pm]

badfalcon
[ mood | rejected ]

Isn't it funny how the only time anyone seems to remember I live here, seems to class me as part of the household, is the slightest bit interested in me at all.. is the one time I make a mistake and don't go to a cashpoint?
Yeah, sounds about right, don't it.
Remind me again why it is I'm fucking bothering?

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Writer's Block: Six-Word Story [17 Aug 2008|01:42pm]

badfalcon
[ mood | silly ]

Hemingway was once challenged to write a story in only six words. His response? “For sale: baby shoes, never worn.” He is believed to have called it his greatest literary work ever. Can you write a story in six words?

Submitted by [info]femspectre


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Christian kissed and fucked Steve. Hard.
*giggles*
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... and a dollar short [17 Aug 2008|01:16pm]

badfalcon
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | we're 'watching' 27 Dresses ]

[info]thefridayfive
(and yes, I know it's Sunday... go 'way!)

1. What is your favorite song right now? Why? Umm... The Life Of Riley - Short Story Longer. Why? Because it gives me fab tour memories from two tours and puts a major smile on my face
2. What genre of music makes you the happiest? That depends. Someday's its cheesy pop, others it's rock... depends on the day and my mood
3. What would you name your band and what kind of music would you play? n/a - I don't have the slightest bit of musical talent
4. What is your favorite lyric of all time? Why? 'what you feel is what you are and what you are is beautiful' because it saved my life
5. What band/artist could you never live without? Why? Good Charlotte. Because they make me happy

Also... fuck this film is BORING!
zzzz

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[17 Aug 2008|10:25am]

badfalcon
[ mood | uncomfortable ]

*grumbles* apparently, when I'm tired, I'm not 'allowed' to drive home so I can get some sleep. I'm not nocturnal ffs, I need sleep. And a lot of it.
Chel, on the other hand, doesn't. So, last night, I couldn't sleep cos she was awake, had the light and fan on and was watching Bones on her laptop.

I couldn't get to sleep so I got up, started throwing all my stuff in my bag and was gonna head home to sleep.

But Chel wouldn't let me. Said I was too tired to drive.
Dude, seriously... remember all those tours we've done? I'm the only driver. There've been days when I've had no sleep for like 2 days and I still drive us around.
I'm perfectly capable of driving exhausted, y'know?

So, she went downstairs and left me... and left me feeling like utter shite for kicking her out of her fucking room :(
She says I didn't, that she wouldn't have gone downstairs if she didn't want to.
But that's not the fucking point.

*sits and has a little cry whilst feeling like utter shit*

And then people wonder why the pair of us don't want to live together?
LOL

*grumbles some more*

Not really in the mood for it but... *shrugs* have a wibble )

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As seen all over my flist [16 Aug 2008|10:25pm]

badfalcon
[ mood | curious ]

I think its inevitable that as we read each other's journals we create mental pictures of each other. So I'd like to see what actor you mentally picture when you read my journal. This is mostly for people who haven't actually met me in real life, but hey, everyone's welcome to play.

Then, post this on your own journal to find out who your friends see when they read about your life.

There are only Two (and a half) Rules:
1) The person must be in the movies or on TV (but doesn't have to be an actor/actress). The person can be specific to a role, or just the person themselves.
2) You have to post a link to a picture or an actual picture of said person in the comments.
2.5) Pictures of fictional or comic book characters will be accepted.

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Tweets for Today [16 Aug 2008|10:06pm]

badfalcon
  • 11:43 here's a llama, there's a llama, and another little llama. fuzzy llama, funny llama. LLAMA LLAMA DUCK *giggles* #
  • 20:37 i did have a fab day and now and curled up with my koala watching Who Wants To Be A Millionare #
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