| Sick as hell ='( |
[04 May 2005|06:31pm] |
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hey wussup sorry i havent updated in a while ive jus been pissed off so this will prolly b short
**Skool** is fucked up cause i got only like 3 good grades outta 8 classes i got like 5 F's i dont know how tha fuk that happened i went from havin good grades like A's and B's to F's and i was fuckin pissed off and then these two girls who supposed to b my "friends" talkin bout they dont do me cauuse i act diffrent when i go to skool...umm ok... tommrow im gonna have to tell them about theyselves cause shit is so fuckin bakwards cause i act the same at skool and at home so wtf they talkin bout and the real reason is cause i got a friend and they dont like her cause they act so fuckin phony they b talkin shit bout everyone but then wanna b all up in ya face smillin and then she b talkin bout how she dont do all thses people but the next week she so quick to b talkin bout hey why u aint talk to me or call me i b thinkin didnt u jus say u aint like her or him and then in tha mornin or durin class change she so quick to get loud and b like wussup my nigga to the other girl when the next 5 minutes she talkin bout her so i can fuckin care less if they like me or not cause they the most phony girls i kno so its w/e ot me
**Home** its been straight i guess u kno how it is usually dissagreements and shit but other than that everythings good
**ME** i aint been goin to anger management as much cause my mom had to b at work and i needed reccovery and plus i jus got sick like monday night when i woke up that tuesday i was like wtf my allergies is bad u kno how its right above ya eyebrow and all the way around under ya eye then i got a fever and i got a cold/flu but the fucked up thing about it is i cant get no rest casue i have to go to skool cause i cant miss no more days so i gotta come to skool sick and tired as hell and deal wit it for 7 hours then get ghhome and suppsed to go to that thing til 7:30 then come home and do all this work so everyday when i wake up at 5 to get ready 4 skool i dont get enough rest to make me feel bettah i got a fuckin headache right now too and it hurts so bad i bout to take a tylenol PM and then 1 tylenol 500 so i gotta do this homework b4 i get tired but after i take the medicine im takin a shower then doin my homeowrk thengoin to sleep or at least try by 9 so i can try and sleep this cold off by tommrow cause if i have to get in an argument tommrow and then prolly fight outta skool imma b mad tired and pissed off cause if thety get they ass beat i dont want to make them sick to cause thats alot to deal with =))) but o well if it happenes it happens i cant do shit about it but try and b nice about it...see i dont need anger management 0=) angel!!
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| Crying |
[21 Apr 2005|09:28pm] |
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Whats good everyone?!? sorry i aint updated in a minute but i thot today was a good time to get this shit offa my mind
**Skool** iight skool been iight ya kno borin as hell cause all this dayum review we do cause its tha EOC's and EOG's and shit so its alot cause last week was my first week bak so i was doin alot to catch up and in this one class i ahve this girl amanda is in she a fucken dum ass bitch cause one day she wanna play the white girl role and b liek black people is so racist and we make her be ahamed of the color she is and how we use our color to scare white people... let me tell u that her dad is like burnt cookie black and her mom is really light like she can pass for white but she still black and some puerto rican or mexican or somethin....but then the next day she actin black talkin to people like wussup my nigga and all this shit i cant fucken stand this bitch u jus dont kno she run around talkin shit when u step to her she run to the administrator like a lil bitch and deny every fucken thing and i hate that shit but i stepped to her like 2 or 3 times and she always wanna tell her brother or her mom and they call the pilice or some gay stuff its w/e tho cause that bitch got whats commin to her her people aint gon always b there cause that bitch do live in walkin distance *makes devious smile*
**Home** it might b funny at first but please dont laff it had me cryin for about and hour but when i was at my anger management thing my momwas on my computer and she seen all thse people uploadin my porn videos on bearshare and then when my dad came to pick me up he was like do u have access to the internet i was like yea y he was like we will wait til we get home but i was pissed off cause he brung it up jus to tell me that he will tell me lata but then they told me and for some reason i got so mad and stormed out the room amd as hell and started to cry in the bathroom then i came out i was silent cryin at the time and then took 2 hydrocodone pills 1 tylenol PM and 1 Tylenol extra strength so i would go to sleep and not have to worry bout nuthin then i started to cry and outta no where i was thinkin bout all this other sad shit that happened like me not havin no grandparents ne more the tony drama and the the david stuff and all this goin bak and fourth form place to place all week cause like mon-thurs i go to anger management from 4:30 to 7:30 and i get home at 3:10 so i really dont have no time to do nuthin once i get home and then on friday from 6-8 i got step and thats like right after skool to but i get a lil more time so i get to eat b4 i go and stuff then on saturday from 10-2 we have jazz choir and step again or jazz choir and a workshop(dicussions) and then sunday i practice drivin and i have to wake up at like 7 or 8 to do that and its hard for me cause then i gotta stay up late to do homework or copy someone elses its too much work for me ya kno i jus wanna scream cause i b trinna stay awake in class its just...Whoa! someone help me please im so stressed out so thats alot of drivin for my parents to do so i was feelin gulty but i have never cried like that before i couldnt breathe my heart started to hurt and i was havin chest pains it was jus slot i felt like i burst a blood cell i was cryin so hard it look like i was smokin an ounce of weed my eyes were so low and red and my parents was orried cause they thot i was cryin over that and everytime they broght it up i would jus cry more and more and it was hard for me to stop i jus....i jus got 2 much to do and i cant really handle it
**Relationship** Still single but i kinda liek it im free to chose who i wanna b wit witout havin to worrk about if imma hurt somone else but imma stay single for a while and c how that work
those pills are getn 2 me so im bout to go to sleep goodnight...rite now i hope i dont wake up but bye love u if i dont
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| I hada good day |
[17 Apr 2005|10:58am] |
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I been doin work all weekend it d0nt make no dayum since im mad tired tho and i STILL gottta read that dayum book its gonna take me all nite im bout to do that now but o boyyy yesturday was the best day of my life i went to davids and we jus chilled it was mad nice tho cause we didnt do shit but chill from like 8-12pm his mom had went out to the sports bar and his lil sis was there we was watchin scary movies and i layed on his chest while he was sittin up and he was playn with my hair and my face like jus touchin it and lookin at me i pretended i didnt see him but once when i looked up he jus kissed my forehead for no reason i screamed (inside) i was like wow and then i looked bak down and continued to chill it was coo jus bein wit him ya kno when i got bak i was jus cheesin but my parents couldnt see me cause it was dark as hell out then when i got home i went to bed at 1 then woke up at 7:43 to go drivin *smiles* i can drive good as hell i even went on the highway/freeway wuteva u call it but i was doin like 75 at first even tho i was only supposed to b doin 65 oops o well 0=) but thas it im low on words ill update when somethin good happen
and can someone get/make me a layout that can match my icon puhleasse <333 i would love you
Big Lip Bandit
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