The Remember When Cafe, that's not too far from my first job, is hiring, but, being out of applications is asking for resumes or contact information.  So I'm tweaking the resume I posted on Yahoo HOTJobs (somehow the one I saved on my computer got deleted, oh well.  Copy and paste is our friend.  :P).  They're looking for year round full-time, so I'm kind of hoping I can still do work full time and go to school full time.  The money would be nice.
Going to see Harry Potter tomorrow with shadowsscout .  I'm looking forward to seeing Half Blood Prince .  I'm not sure if we're going to go to the 6:15 showing or the 7:15 showing, although we'd have to wait significantly less  for a 5 meet up with 6:15.  Some will depend on whether or not 6:15 is sold out or not, but if we could see the earlier showing, it'd be awesome.  The only down side is we'd have less time to do supper, unless we did supper at Arby's, like we did with Star Trek (and for the curious, I really liked it :D), but I will give Sarah the option before fussing over that sort of thing.

p.s. the guy in my mood looks really creepy for "bouncy".

Something really funny happened with LJ and I got this:

I can't tell if it's old Trek or new Trek just by looking at it.  A part of me is inclined to say new trek, but since I can't see any faces to really tell, I can't say for certain.

Tonight is Fydy again of course, and I'm looking forward to heading over to the Hyatt again after missing a week (thanks for holding down the fort iamradar !) and of course seeing how poor Brian is doing.

Saturday jaylake  is over at Borderlands and later Kage Baker is reading for SFinSF and , I'm thinking I might try to hit both events, why not-it's been too long since I did either. There are a bunch of other interesting events, as alwasy-but I doubt I'll be doing anything on Sunday except maybe cracking open my Supernatural season 1 set finally.

Dunno what ninjoo 's problem is.  The new location detector thingy managed to figure out that I am in Holland.  At least it's not as creepy specific as the LJ iPhone app.

The egg of the previous post. Per's first, and I hope, last.

Happy birthday, kajcarter !

http://www.orneryboy.com/index.php?comicID=364

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Sometimes I feel like I have these moments of clarity. Where everything makes sense, and nothing, all at the same time. Like I'm spinning out of control, but my self-reflection is crystal clear, and still, like a river that's just stopped all its current. and it's terrifying, terrifying to think that...maybe that's all there is to it. maybe there's nothing but where i am and who i am right this very minute. Maybe it's about being me and finding me and ...expressing me.

But i get so frustrated. Like smoking cigarettes and viewing hundreds of images on a glowing screen is suddenly going to make me fit in.

I feel like i was born in the wrong decade.

I wonder what it would be like to be glamorous, or even if my body and mind could handle it. all the skepticism of the media, and all the demands of society. would i just be another drug addict on the street or could i be that princess in a fifth avenue apartment?

right now i don't think i can be anything.

I want to be something. i want to be someone that people remember. that when i die they don't just say i was a crazy teenager, with severe undiagnosed psychoses. i want to be pretty. and i want to cut off all my hair. and wear too much eyeliner. and smoke too many cigarettes. and dance.

i want to dance. like i don't have a care in the world. like it's 5am on a street in new york and it doesn't matter who's watching because i just want to dance.

and i want to wear dresses, and drink, and go to parties, and clubs, and new gallery openings. I want to take a cab because i can afford to not take the subway. and be lavish and a socialite and know people.

and make people WANT to know me.
but no one wants to know me.

i'm scared. because i think i'm ugly.

and i'm scared. because what if no one ever really knows me? what if i just drift away as a misunderstood girl curled up in a blanket at 5am on a street corner? or when i die people wonder how much more there was to me?

i feel lonely on nights like this. when clarity comes and i don't want to look inside myself but i don't know where else to look.

because no one wants to be my voice on the other end of the telephone.

Early Edition at Yahoo.

I am definitely going to want this. *Drops not so subtle hints* For Christmas, would be nice.  Or my birthday.  *Drops not so subtle hints*  It sounds so amazing.  Each track holds a very distinctive mood that's meant for the different events and places in the movie. This movie is just going to be EPIC.  I also need to find out who the composer is, just out of curiosity, and I really want to fangirl how amazing this person is right now.  This composer just did such an amazing job.  ETA:  I'm glad to see Nicholas Hooper has come back.  I love what he did with Order of the Phoenix.  I hope he stays for Deathly Hallows.  I like him.  The only thing that could make this movie more awesome is if it makes me want to cry at the end.
Today has been fairly productive.  I'm busy moving all of my stuff from my dresser to what was Lisa's.  There's a bit more space in her dresser, and it's also forcing me to go through another purge.  I'm kind of surprised at how much I hold on to that I don't wear.

Context makes you want to headdesk.

Car is back.  It only ended costing $74 and some change, which is better than it could have been.  They fixed the tail pipe after they patched up the leak.  Craig thinks there are probably more leaks in the car, but that was the big one.
I will probably be reading Half Blood Prince before I go and see the movie again.  Just to refresh my mind on what happened in that book.  I'm kind of fuzzy on the details of Book six, other than Voldemort's backstory.

Went out and handed in an application to Eddie Bauer, and my car was grumbling at me.  I figured that I was already planning on taking my car into Craig's to see what was the matter, so I'd just do it after I dropped off my application, and that I'd maybe sweet talk my dad into letting me drive his car to bible study tonight, because whatever that grumbling sound was, it didn't sound good at all.  Now, I was fine when my problem was just a $40 tail pipe problem.  Then he noticed a big puddle of gas on the right hand side of my car.  Yeah.  I've been driving around with a gas leak.  Imagine how ~*thrilled*~ I was when I discovered that, oh, and I didn't have my cell on me so I had to ask for my dad's cell number because Steph, unsurprisingly, wasn't awake and answering the phone.
We're down to two cars now because Steph's car is undrivable right now.  Steph has been using my car to get to work.  Steph is not the least bit thrilled my car has a gas leak and is therefore undrivable.  You can imagine how fun things are around the house right now.
Sarah and I are going to see Half Blood Prince this weekend, hopefully.  The Star just released times, I don't know if they'll be the same on the weekend, but I'll be keeping a close eye on times so that we can go see the movie togeather on opening weekend.  I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HPB!  IT'S GOING TO BE SO EPIC!

So Kim's mom said she was going to cancel our internet subscription. Which means I might not have internet for awhile, if you don't hear from me.

Just a note.