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Sunday, July 29th, 2007
10:21 am - !
Isn't it great when two friends find something beautiful together?
Tuesday, June 12th, 2007
8:34 pm - zoooooom
Finally, a reason to use this again. I have arrived in Germany in one horrifically sweaty piece, in the height of a pretty harsh summer. The German internet is made of broken and fail so I cannot speak on the IRC at all - however I can hit up the Skype and am just going to idle on there. Iffin' you want to speak with me, you know what to do.

(6 disgusting sobfests | cry on my shoulder)

Tuesday, September 12th, 2006
12:30 pm - Back in the Saddle (agaiiin)
Hey, finally got my internet up and running, and got moved back in. Going out tonight with a few friends to celebrate! Woot.

(2 disgusting sobfests | cry on my shoulder)

Thursday, July 27th, 2006
2:12 pm - Random Update
I happened to be surfing Livejournal today and I noticed my last entry was the rather morose funeral one. My life is currently the definition of summer doldrums, but I will embellish slightly to make everyone feel like I have something cool going on.

Currently I am:

1.) GMing a game of Exalted while the old GM takes a bit of a break. This is tough, but also really fun. So far we've had no fewer than two heads explode, a scary rhino-thing being built from corpses (by one of the players) and a horde of zombies storming out of a swamp and across a forgotten city. Fun stuff.

2.) Trying to finish up my contest fic for the All That Glitters competition. I'm not anticipating actually winning anything this year, but you never know. I just wish I'd had time to write all the ideas I wanted.

3.) Determinedly NOT thinking about graduate school at all. This fall is going to be painful, as I have to break ties and pull up stakes, but I'm hoping I'll have a nice job teaching lined up by spring. We shall see.


(cry on my shoulder)

Tuesday, July 4th, 2006
10:21 pm - What a 4th
I got to spend this 4th of July helping clean out a dead woman's house. In the interest of being open and free of drama, my paternal grandmother died extremely early this morning in the nursing home. I feel remarkably unbothered by it and don't require any comforting; she had suffered from Alzheimer's for several years, and had always said she'd rather be dead than in a home, so this is in every way a release and a blessing.

Still, there's plenty to do, as there always is. Funeral arrangements to make, family to see, etc. If I'm a bit scarce over the next week or so, you now know where I'll be.

(3 disgusting sobfests | cry on my shoulder)

Tuesday, June 13th, 2006
10:32 pm - *gasp, wheeze*
You know how it goes. An unbelievably long and agonizingly painful school year draws to a close, and I have just published and put forth all the material I need to graduate. While it technically doesn't kick in till August, no summer classes for me! I can honestly call myself an M.A. now.

Back home for the summer. I should probably get a job at some point. Might, might not. All I know is I'm not thinking about school for at least two or three weeks and it's going to be fabulous.

I'd love to spend some time this summer writing for enjoyment for a change, and I believe I've managed to talk certain interested parties around to a game of Exalted, so being the GM for the first time should be a real challenge and fun to boot. (Man, that sounds lame, but whatever).

Also, maybe I'll finally play KH2 and Suikoden V.

Anyway, packing things up so I'll be out of pocket for a few days, and when next I sign on I'll be sweating to death in AR.


(3 disgusting sobfests | cry on my shoulder)

Wednesday, May 24th, 2006
5:04 pm - PASSED
oh yeah

(5 disgusting sobfests | cry on my shoulder)

Saturday, May 20th, 2006
1:06 am - DONE!
With the thesis. Defend next Wednesday. Am obviously happy about this.

Other work to do, though. And other things making me feel bad, which I don't want to talk about.

"Oldboy" is a horrible movie.

I'm ready for summer.

(1 disgusting sobfest | cry on my shoulder)

Monday, May 8th, 2006
4:30 am - I'm pretty sure this is BS
I don't trust that wetawded wabbit:

And I'm not THAT smart.

In other news, still continuing the painful hell that is master's thesis work. On the bright side, after this week it should be about 90% done, for good or for ill. I'm feeling a bit better about pretty much everything in life, helped no small amount by the fact that I'm dating the most amazingest girl in the history of ever (fo realz, yo)

Definitely going to Germany this summer!

(4 disgusting sobfests | cry on my shoulder)

Thursday, April 27th, 2006
3:08 pm - THINK PINK
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Sinus infection + eye = this.

God this sucks.

Doctor says its probably viral and there's not a damn thing I can do about it. Nevertheless he has me using STEROID DROPS in my eye for the next week.

(4 disgusting sobfests | cry on my shoulder)

Friday, April 21st, 2006
4:20 pm - Life Quiz
This Is My Life, Rated
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

If only there was a STRESS LEVEL one, I'd be ruined.

(1 disgusting sobfest | cry on my shoulder)

Monday, April 17th, 2006
11:53 pm - STRESS
There comes a time in every man's life, I suspect, when the massive influx of stress produces a sense of horror so acute that it actually shuts the normal functioning of the body down. I suspect as well that I am there. Three weeks. Ten books to read. A hundred exams to grade. Fifty pages to rewrite. FIFTY. PAGES. TO. REWRITE. AGAIN, FROM THE BEGINNING.

My hands are numb, my pupils are dialated. I'm so lightheaded I feel like I'm about to faint at any second. My appetite is gone (oh what a horror), and every now and then I get this thing that is kind of a half-shiver, half full body muscle spasm.

I'm glad I'm not one of those people who decided to wait and then come back to school. If I was older, I'm pretty sure feeling like this for long enough would kill me. Now, I just half-assed wish it would, so I wouldn't have to deal with this any more.

(6 disgusting sobfests | cry on my shoulder)

Tuesday, March 28th, 2006
4:12 am - Honesty Meme

(cry on my shoulder)

Thursday, March 9th, 2006
2:16 pm
I have to say I cannot imagine how that could have gone worse.

current mood: crushed
Tuesday, March 7th, 2006
6:11 pm - Crossing the Rubicon
So, the Master's Thesis draft is finished and is being turned in tomorrow. I guess by Thursday we'll see whether I am mostly satisfied or a horrible, sobbing lump of manflesh.

I am honestly terrified as to the outcome, having worked on this thing for so long that I no longer have any sense of perspective on its worth or its quality. I highly doubt that it's brilliant. It could be good. It could be okay. It could be absolutely terrible. In any case, I doubt I will have much time to adjust for errors in the week before the final paper is due.

This has been the most nagging, persistant, and generally discomfiting academic project of my life. I see this shit in my sleep. I fear for the children. I hope what I did is good enough and fear it's not anywhere close. I am literally praying that everything turns out okay, and I don't know what I will begin to do if it is not.

On the one hand, I feel relieved. On the other, this is going to be an extraordinarily painful couple of days.

(But in other news, I'm still really happy =D)
Friday, March 3rd, 2006
12:13 pm - Dream a Dream of Madness
A fun little dream I had yesterday afternoon (worst time for sleep, kidz).

My dream-self happened to be sitting around when I suddenly, randomly remembered that I had just overlooked an important factor in my current relationship. Namely, I had forgotten to tell my girlfriend that I was already married. Mainly because I had FORGOTTEN MYSELF.

Apparently, while stricken with a wasting illness a few months before, I had been cared for and courted by a kindly if rather bland young woman who I had apparently, in some delirious disease-fugue, actually married. I think we had bought a house somewhere, but she apparently didn't mind that I was never home or didn't even seem to remember that she existed. This sudden epiphany thus came as a tremendous surprise to me and I found myself in a dream-esque version of a Three's Company episode. Dream-me had to somehow explain the matter to my girlfriend while figuring out how to break things off with kind but unremembered wife.

This was made even more nerve-wracking by the fact that my wife was a slavishly devoted if annoying creature, who practically worshipped the ground I walked on.

It was made even worse by the fact that when I went to talk to her, I realized I had forgotten her name. Desperately looking into her smiling face, I tried to recall a first name, a last name, anything. I was just about to start calling her Mrs. *my last name* when I had a BRAINSTORM.

"Hey, what's your middle name?"

"It's Renee!"

"Uh so say your full name for me it will be sexy."

(I WILL NEVER FORGET THIS NAME): "Fuchse Renee Marie."

"...that's cute. Fuchse, we gotta get a divorce."

Then I woke up.

(5 disgusting sobfests | cry on my shoulder)

Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
4:45 am - V-Day
Two roses? You people love me too much (SECRETLY).

Master's thesis sucks. Grading tests sucks. My world is pain and gay tears rolled together.

But I'm still really happy. :)

(2 disgusting sobfests | cry on my shoulder)

Friday, February 10th, 2006
4:44 am - :D

(6 disgusting sobfests | cry on my shoulder)

Sunday, February 5th, 2006
8:19 pm - wut

Get your own spectral analysis from Area 23®

(2 disgusting sobfests | cry on my shoulder)

Monday, January 30th, 2006
12:18 am - PUNCHIN' ANGRY
Well, I had a fic deleted from FF.net today for being "rated above the content warning."

I wish the report had at least said what about the story was supposedly so offensive that it rated higher than M, especially considering the explicit sex and other things I've seen in other stories. This one didn't even have any sex at all, and no real violence to speak of, at least not when you're talking about the kind of stuff I usually produce.

Anyway, needless to say I'm annoyed, but I guess you can't fight city hall. I'm not really going to change my behavior in any way, so I anticipate that all it'd take to get the rest yanked would be some other mouth-breather squealing to high heaven.

Just a heads-up for all those who have stories on there and might want to keep reviews or whatever. This has convinced me that the only thing between your story and deletion is the lack of some simp complaining about it.

(The story removed, by the way, was "Cold", which while a fundamentally nasty story, isn't really very graphic at all, so by those standards everything I have posted is removable. Oh well, that story was pretty melodramatic anyway, I suppose. I guess I'm just annoyed because I have no idea what I'd have to edit to make it acceptable.)

(6 disgusting sobfests | cry on my shoulder)

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