[Over dOsed On emOtion]

disposableteen_ @ 2004-08-30T20:22:00

2004-08-30T19:23:17Z

new livejournal kids....

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add meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
x

we'll take the right steps to keep these pages clean

2004-08-18T19:03:55Z

my shiny new brighteyes album is beeeautiful....thankyou katie :)

am soo bored with everything again. wana go to london NOOOOOOOOOW.
reading is so close now. 3 days of sheer GAAness with rach :)
am happy me and rach are back and sorted now :) i missed you!!!

GONA SEE TILLY SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

get yo fat ass back here you pigfaced son of a bitch

2004-08-10T18:44:21Z

I'M HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMME.
man i missed all of you SO much its unbelievable

but california was fucking beautiful <3

katie where are you?!? IMISSYOU!

disposableteen_ @ 2004-07-22T18:34:00

2004-07-22T18:14:36Z

i'm.a.dick
:(

disposableteen_ @ 2004-07-19T18:09:00

2004-07-19T17:19:52Z

i'm hooooooooooooooooooommmme.
ahem.
menorca=the 2 most hilarious/lazy/drunken/pretty weeks off my life..<3
oh how i miss SON PARC...PERVY BINMEN...and rob...hehe.

the last few days have been all about...
finding the lake.vodka.daihatsu journeys.sitting in car parks till stupidly early hours.making up with speshal ppl<3.seeing my amazing neve lex kaela bexi katie and mash again <33.chain smoking crap rollies.climbing out bathroom windows.crazy driving.obsessive listening to saosin <3.

i miss rachel :(

run down the russians

2004-07-03T22:07:24Z

woo fresh back from london baby...i'll summarise the greatness in simple terms...

arose.craved nicotine.daihatsu.gazillions amounts of crisps and coke.motorway virginity.pretty music.cannabis lollies.annoying 'workers' in mcdonalds.losing the car.lumpyness.fun and games with door locks.MIIINE.russians.sketchy slow motion dancing.laughing till we cryed.crazy photos.AVVIT.beautiful people.getting lost.hyde park.phoning prostitutes and transexuals.soho.lack of money.back to mk..joy.walking round like hobos.

<3

It's hard to focus through all this doubt. I keep making "To Do" lists but nothing ever gets crossed

2004-06-22T17:03:45Z

+one more exam :D
+scary open day at stantonbury on thurs :(
+gona have a crazy picnic at the house of kaela <3 this wkend...ahh the crazy and usual random shinanigans gona take place me thinks :)
+goin to a pretty ball thingy on sat...:) gona have to abbandon my hobo style i'm so fond of :(
+starting up band with rach jeff and james....tis gona be propa bo...(SKA tissue...ahem :S)

<3 <3 <3 i'm obsessed with brighteyes

So when I'm lost in a crowd, I hope that you'll pick me out. Oh, how I long to be found. The grass grew high. I laid down. Now, wait for a hand to lift me up, help me stand. I have been laying so low don't want to lay here no more. I But if everything that happens is supposed to be and it is predetermined, you can't change your destiny. Then I guess I'll just keep moving and someday, maybe, I'll get to where I'm going.

chillis <3

2004-06-20T17:00:07Z

the only way i can sum up yesterday...

fucking.amazing.

despite being surrounded by the usual pervs and drunk football (avvit) people it was soo good...i phoned everyone in on my phone and hung up on them without realising :s meh..

met someone who resembles the coco pops monkey..so much..its uncanny...hehe
x

happy birthday kaela :)

2004-06-16T21:09:37Z

only two more exams mutha fukas!!

twas kaelas birthday today and a fine day that was...
hehe went to crazy restaurant and saw tyso randomly :S ate brownies and marshmellows...smoked and reminised on the good times...
played in the kiddies park and took crazy photos.laughed alot.climbed trees.had daihatsu conversations...
got bus back to mk...discussing trouts...rods and finger banging in the sickest ways possible...man our minds are so warped :S
saw pretty ppl :) for a stoopidly short period of time...had to go home :(

happy birthday kaela :):)

disposableteen_ @ 2004-06-15T18:48:00

2004-06-15T17:56:15Z

omg...i actually fell asleep in history exam...i'm starting to wish i cared more about castro and stalin and ahh fuckit.

french reading tomorrow an i'm like way to fucking tired to even think about it..and besides i lost every single one of my revision guides..sooo....

i had to poke my broter with a stick to wake him up today. that wasn't fun. :|

lex has actually freaked my mum out so bad...haha woo going in the daihatsu tomorrow

our crew so blatently rocks more than any other :)
seeing kaela tomorrow and i just made her prettiest present :)

crayons are fun. so is peanut butter and pink boxers :D
xx

maybe we can talk this over.

2004-06-14T19:55:55Z

today tilly came over for history revision.
instead we...
got scared and hid outside cus we thought someone was in my house.
went to chip shop place with no shoes on and in school uniform :|
got attacked by hayfever
ate wet chocolate :|
taught her new words and insults :S
did nothing to do with history

so yea...i'm screwed

disposableteen_ @ 2004-06-09T18:06:00

2004-06-09T17:31:45Z

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i'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions

2004-06-08T16:52:57Z

:( exams suck...

so did other stuff.. but i'm over that now :)

ahhh i miss the daihatsu :S

CHILLIS IN LIKE 2 WEEKS :D :D

gona be reunited with the josephene smith crew GAHH

me and bexi stalked a half naked african man the other day...hehehe
ahem.

really shud revise or sumthin...
hmm..
x

reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place

2004-06-02T19:43:22Z

today has been exceptionally pointless and unproductive.
i am in love with dashboard confessional.
i feel an unhealthy emotional attachment to finding nemo coming along..(don't.start.the.nemo.jokes :|)
the meaning of life is jesse lacey <3
i am totally unprepared for exams :(
i'm having one of those deep life conversations...which annoy me to the extreme.
i'm starting to have withdrawel symtoms from my lil akeley crew a.k.a rach jeff james matt andy cha nthat :'(

and with my last gasping breath i'd apologise for bleeding on your shirt...

2004-06-01T12:57:05Z

yesterday was so god damn surreal :S
the LITTLE bits i can actually remember include:
+drinking WAAAY to much way to quickly...and mumbling to everyone how much i loved them..
+skanking ma ass off with neve...we ruled the dancing scene..
+cruising round leighton in alexis car listening to tbs brandnew and the used full volume...and managing to piss off soo many people :)
+watching old men piss in the toilets :s and feeling rather disturbed afterwards :S
+coming back and seing loadsa helicoptors and police and not knowing wtf had happened
+trying to fit everone in the car and shouting at silly townies whilst being under a coat on kaelas lap...
+being pulled over by the police and having to split up..
+driving back to mk listening to moosik..going crazy...smoking and eating kfc till early hours :)
+coming back home to my surprised looking father who hadn't got a clue what was going on :S
+sleeping and waking up at random points in panic that i don't know my french verbs :|:| ahem...

erm so yea...that was that :S

is that what you call a getaway?

2004-05-30T11:18:56Z

didn't get tounge done.due to silly dentists :(
got belly done instead.looks purdy :)
went to the pitz AGAIN.
danced with rach and nina who make me :)
made awkward taxi conversation on way home.
laughed at rachs drunk brother...hehe
recieving lotsa katie love.cus..she knows wat i mean <3

hmm....shud i go get reeeelly drunk with pretty people tonight and wake up in a lego box again...:)

or just sit at home...:S

b a n z a i !

2004-05-28T23:20:15Z

man english literature SUCKED ASS....:'( i.hate.exams.
just frech back from japanese emo night...got some scary greasy guy kicked out for being all eww like :S ahem hehe silly paedophiles...

met some CRAZY japanese people and they signed our arms..which apparently meant suck ma dick :S dirty dirty japanese :S:S

so yea i sleepy.my feet hurt.i gona get my tounge pierced tomorrow and i'm scared. that is all.

x

disposableteen_ @ 2004-05-27T17:47:00

2004-05-27T17:04:53Z

how fucking random was yesterday?!
woo i'm 16!! ahem..
anywhos my birthday included:

+finishing akeley forever wooooo!!!!
+finding out the restaurant we were going to had suddenly 'closed down' so had to sort everything all out..
+james dressing up as a woman...and surprisingly looking good in it :|
+finding a pile of random snow and running around in it for ages :)
+running away from a man and a dog from the snow...
+arriving back at my house and watching random porn channels
+drinking random alcamahol i could find and feeling drunk waaaay to quickly..
+watching tilly and katie 'suck up' bacardi off the floor :S
+katie getting(almost) naked
+running round my garden on a broom stick...
+mounting rachel and tilly waaay to much
+running onto the green outside my house for like 2 seconds before deciding to come back...
+GOING TO TESCOS IN MY PYJAMAS AT 2.15 WITH KATIE....REALISING IT WAS SHUT..SO SAT IN THE PARK ON THE BABY SWINGS....hardcore missys...
+chain smoking menthol cigerettes ALL NIGHT :S
+waking up at sum stoopidly surreal early hour...realising i have to revise and that jeff and matt had to go to school :P hehe

ah i kinda scared...katies got photos :|

"i won't kiss you....but i'll have sex with you...nothing else"-haha man i love my friends soo much :)
x

disposableteen_ @ 2004-05-24T18:22:00

2004-05-24T17:23:08Z

a beaver.a naked boy with a skin disease.a power ranger.a turkish guy.random fairies.AND A WIG BOY!

and thats just how fucking cool we are.

disposableteen_ @ 2004-05-17T20:10:00

2004-05-17T19:13:17Z

i stole this from one of kaelas mates...I am THAT deperate not to revise :S

Firsts:
First best friend: some girl called lucy. She made me pretend to be cats.
First car: I’m still little
First real kiss: with a guy who I told ‘had to kiss in the bushes with me. Ah…kissing virginity..
First break-up: the same guy :S
First screen name: probably something adolescent and stoopid
First funeral: I wasn’t allowed to go.
First pets: jasmine the possessed rabbit
First piercing: my ears :)
First true love: kinda suked

lasts:
Last cigarette: was on Saturday
Last car ride: about 20mins ago
Last kiss: Friday <3
Last good cry: the other day
Last library book checked out: I don’t return library books :S
Last movie seen: bejesus I duno :S
Last item bought: erm….probably something pointless and I’ll never use again
Last website visited: faceparty..hardcore
Last word you said: ‘don’t touch me’
Last song you sang: The Streets - Fit But You Know it
What is in your cd player?: some mix wid loadsa pretty songs on <3
What color socks are you wearing?: I’m not.
What Color underwear are you wearing?: black.
What's under your bed?: your mum
What time did you wake up today?: sometime time that was stoopidly early

Currents:
Current mood: burnt.
Current music: the killers-mr Brightside <3
Current hair: mess.
Current desktop picture: travis barkers boootiful face…
Current color of toenails: pink
Current hate: exams

1. Black or white?: Black
2. Boxers or briefs: velcro ones (katie u know u love it ;) )
3. Coke or Pepsi?: coke
4. Salt or pepper?: Pepper
5. Sweet or sour?: Sweet
6. Vanilla or chocolate?: Vanilla
7. Short or long?: Long
8. Firm or soft? Depends wat we’re talking bout here…
10. Hot or cold?: hot..but winter smells nicer.

My favorite...
1. Color is: purple and ‘lello
2. Song is: either: tbs-cute without the e atm
3. Scent is: winter smell
4. Alcoholic beverage is: jack daniels and coke
5. Food is: peanut butter

+

-5 things you did so far today:
+Got up
+persuaded myself to revise
+didn’t revise
+felt guilty about lack of revision
+sat about filling in pointless things like this

-5 things you do when your bored:
+Listen to music
+write pointless stuff like this
+think…
+spend waay to much time on internet
+cross my eyes

-5 people that never fail to cheer you up:
+rach
+Kaela
+jeff
+katie
+pretty ppl <3

-5 things you can't live without
+Moosik
+my friends
+peanut butter
+finger puppets
+avvit…

i gave my eyes to stevie wonder

2004-05-13T18:21:07Z

i love how after three years of taking the piss to the extreme. They expect us to begin caring in one of the last lessons EVER.

hehe

my mum is convinced we have a family of albinos in the attic :S

....the last man standing...:)

2004-05-07T23:54:52Z

ended up at the pitz again. was cool night, met uncle brian and STEVE the bassist told me he loved me on stage <3 teehee
spent most the night with nash and the bands which was cool.

my prettful katie was there! and so was menthol fag smoker ahh...hehe

however certain people still remain to be as cock suckerish as usual....*cough cough* lee.... ahem...i gave him abuse for my rachel <3

newhos i'm smiling right now and people who know, know why :)
hehehe
now i'm back at kaelas and watching bizzare films and cartoons...:)
lalalalalala
and again..
:)

seven ways to scream your name

2004-05-03T09:28:00Z

well....last night...i...
...found my way to leighton buzzard with kaela, where some german lady on the train started talking to us...
....sat on a park bench longer than we should have rinking vodka and coke and discussing worldly matters...
...chased taxis and singing an array of songs on the side of the road...
...DID NOT start a fight with liam :)...
..ate all the randomn food in katies house...
...became too emotionally attached to the talking duck :(...
...had a deep conversation about life and asked meaningless questions with kaela and dan on the side of the road...
...fell asleep in katies little brothers bedroom with my foot in a lego box...
...woke up to some sorta sketchy kids program, everything kinda went surreal from there, and some how ended up back at my house with kaela :S...

the end.
:)

disposableteen_ @ 2004-04-25T12:33:00

2004-04-25T11:33:48Z

i never knew shouting out the window at little kids was so much fun :D
and how fucking great disney films are :)
and how funny it is crawling round rachels house GHETTO ARMY STYLE in the dark :D:D:D

i love the way me and rach manage to find the little things in life so hilariously funny :)

"avvvit"

i wish i could eat your cancer when you turn black

2004-04-10T19:06:04Z

friday night went to rachels and practised snooker and common british tourists sayings such as 'AVVIT' and 'VINDAALOO' for our holiday and other such shinanigans... was funny :)
stayed up late discussing embarrasing awkward moments which made us chuckle...

saturday went to wonderful world of aylesbury and saw gothika. Actually really scary but rly good...almost choked like so many times and me and rach managed to annoy everyone else in the cinema which also resulted in them all turning round to stare at us at the end :$

alyesbury holds some reeeaally pretty guys.....*thinks about them and drools for while*

me and jeff are off to discuss the usages of squared paper in scientist suits :D