Not really a writing sample, more of a letter Buffy writes to Angel before she goes to the big battle in The Gift.
There's really no easy way to say this...or well, write it. I suppose it would be easier. To say it, that is. At least in the sense of you actually understanding where I'm coming from. Words on a paper usually don't hold that much emotion. But, there's no time. No time to say anything I want to. No time to run to LA, forget all of this. No time to pretend. To pretend that I may not die. Actually, that part sounded stupid. If you're reading this, obviously, I'm dead.
I wouldn't have the strength to give it to you if I made it through. Hopefully, it's just crumbled up and in the bottom of a trash can somewhere in my house. But, back to the point. I've died before, right? I shouldn't be so scared. Sure, it wasn't fun, but it wasn't bad. Not that bad. But, then again I woke up after that. This time, I don't think I'll be waking up. So, I'm going to
tell write to you about what I need you to do for me. You're the only one I can trust enough to do this. Only you, Angel. So, I need you to do this, for me.
First, tell Xander that I love him. With all of my heart. He's always been there for me, and I'm so greatful. And, tell Willow that she's my best friend. I would give up anything for her. She gets me like no one else.
And, tell Giles that it's not his fault. I knew the price I might pay for this. But, I couldn't let Dawn die. Even though she's not technically my sister. She's...I don't know how to get this across, but, she's me. If you understand what I mean. But, make sure Gile's knows that he's the only reason why I made it this far. The only reason that I'm still breathing. He was the best watcher, and the best father, I could ever hope for.
Now to Dawn. Let her know that she's not the reason that I'm dead. Tell her that...she needs to go on living. That I need her to live for me. I may not be able to do something great with my life that everyone can know about, but I know she can. Let her know that I love her, with everything I have in me.
And, now you Angel. I don't think that you'll completely understand just how much I love you. You're everything to me. I haven't moved on. Riley...I never really loved Riley. But, I really didn't try to, I guess. I'm sorry. I know you probably don't want to hear about Riley. Or, read about Riley. But, Angel, the point is, everything I've done, everything that's happened to me, you've always been apart of it. I've always thought about you. I understand why you left me, and I don't agree. I still don't like it, but I understand. And, I didn't think I could, but I love you even more for it. Angel, I know you're heart is going to break when you find out, because I know that mine would if I found out that you died. But, I need you to stay strong. We've been through so much. Everything has tried to stop us, and we've kept going. Never stopped. That's why I need you to never stop. I may be dead, but you still need to live. Don't ever, ever give up fighting. Angel, you need to live, for me. Save the world for me. Please. I love you.