dan_wallflower_'s Journal

10:35pm: I graduated today!!!!!!

I passed every single exam except for french I had 49 percent for that but with my monthly reports I passed anyways! and 3 People in my class passed math the rest failed and I'm one of those 3 !! *gasp*

So yeah oh and they gave us a red rose! I love red roses! and I now have two diploma's one for the exams and one for the fashion show.

OMFG Life can finnaly move onto to something new!!!

and a lot of teachers came to talk to me including wostyn! I love /adore/idolize that man! he thought I was gonna study languages but we both agreed on the fact that I don't need a course to teach me how to write.

I even had to give a small speech teeheee , and my mom started crying when I had to sign the diploma and the other parents started aplauding. So she finnaly found out I'm not a total screw up XD

Good times! good weeks! ... now I will have to pray for the admission exam , then again nothing can kill my good mood right now.

And I got myself a new IPOD a shuffle ! whoot! I treated myself to a prezzy XD

10:26am: Haha I survived my date .... but oh boy am I bad at first sentences. XD

He called me : I'm here
Me: yes I know ( I had seen him pass by me )
he : ... okay
me: yeah I saw you passing by and didn't stop you >_<
he: oh...

How awfull was that! ? XD But yeah strangely enough things went rather well. He's a nice guy and we didnt like rush anything so that's good I don't know if It's going to turn out to be something or not. He was rather sweet for one of those big muscly metal guys , he kept holding my hand and stroking my fingers XD I haven't had that feeling in a year now. But it was nice if it doesn't turn out to be anythign at least I'd have a good ego boost since he kept calling me handsome XD

Oh we went to the movies and I do say that the movie " the promise" is a very good movie!

So yeah lol all in all a good day since the fashion show went well!

Now I'm nervous for :

fashion show result
and the big dilema is he going to call or not XD

12:22pm: I have a date next thursday....I'm trying to figure out if it's a good or a bad thing , since I really don't know the guy all that well, and he's a metalhead.... *trauma's with metalheads* So yeah I can't like cancel it .... since I"m not that mean but I'm bloody nervous and paranoid about it. He's nice though well he seems nice anyways....

9:47am: List 10 of life's simple pleasures, and then tag 10 ... let's just tag those who might actually do this lolpeople on your friend's list to do the same.

1. colour (not because I hardly wear any colour that I don' tlove watching it XD)
2. cuddling
3. Vanilla scent
4. Spa reine water
5.the sun when it's actually shining here
6. books
7. movies
8. music
9. sex
10. pen and paper.

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6:56pm:

7:33pm: hndertwasser , model Fauve
This a skirt / out fit that was inspired by a painting by hundertwasser, it was a shcool assingment. 

1:58pm: american people !!

Okay last year someone got me addicten on kool aid in the summer ..; and now she disapeared and I ran out of kool aid and it's not for sale here. 

Kool aid  help

*pokes* american people , anyone willing to mail me some of those small bags *pouts* just no apple *icky* yeah I know it's not summer yet but I'm begging here ! XD

So yeah this will get crossposted.

9:29pm: alright so funiest thing I did this vacation was going to a seksshop with Selien XD my god those places are funny! and I bought a vibrator my first one lol! *feels proud*

but yeah ... mom found it ... afte rlookign through mly bag aparantly... she asked me why I needed one .... yeah lol I didn't answer XD

it's a fun thing though. ...not my mom but the actual vibro.

6:52pm: 100 days pictures !
Whoot they're finnaly up. 

8:57pm: I wanna know is there anyone on the floor who can suck me like a whore who can make me scream for more ....

Sorry had to do it , it's been stuck in my head all day long. So I'm back from the last 100 days. I'll post pictures tomorrow I thin I hardly took any though ^^;; but yeah nothing work taking I'll do a photoshoot later this week or something. 

So how did it go!!!! Everyone loved my punk fearie outfit thing I heard most " it's cool that you stayed yourself and didn't do the tinkerbell fearie thing " they loved the spider wings!!! except for Eva she was like " ew" 

The day started with a movie " jerry lee lewis biography" .. so put all last years ina  classroom and play the song " goodness gracious great balls of fire ! " so that was a lot of fun! 

Then I went to get wiskey cola cans and drank some during the lunchbreak and hang around with Fauve and Daphne. 

Then there was the show as always there where drags , beatboxing , teacher thingy.... it was fun ( pictures of that tomorrow and small movies)

Normally we would spray eachoither with whipped crream but at the last moment we didn't want to anymore , But when we got out of the main hall well when I got out two of my classmates where standing there with there cans and sprayed Whipped cream all ove rme of  course I took out mine and we ended up coered in that stuff. 

Then I met up with Gorik and Fauve and also saw Maarten and Nau and ... people ... I know the names but it doesn't matter. I did meet two very nice new people I hadn't met before Benjamin ( I think that's right) and Femke , So yeah YAY for meeting new people ! who are fun XD

I also had the hicups ... with normal people that's nothign with me it's weird and loud!! but it make speople laugh so yeah XD I will record it one day! 

And then I drank some more and then went home and now here I am. 

All in all it was a fund ay even if I did take a purple bath and smelled of smoke ... my mom : " Yuk you smell like a whole bar!"

There where a lot of gay talking today .. which is always fun! ALWAYS "look on the bright side of life " yeah i'm in an over excited mood . Specially since I met new people and danced to some cheesy songs earlier always makes someone happy. 

But yes more tomorrow including pictures !!!! Oh and Jordan you really did have to be there lol XD

8:48pm: Pictures of last years last hundred days!

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6:59pm: So tomorrow celebration of the last 100 days of school!

My class decided to go as fearies ....>_< last year it was whores now this.... well I found yet another way to be "in theme " but bt as girly girly like...

I'm going as the parody punk fearie.. well Whatever the name of a male fearie is these days XD

should be fun though.

12:52pm: Mail !
Jordan I got your letter and I will write back asap , it will probably go out on monday ^-^

On another note I have/had a great penpal... we have a lot in common and a lot that contradicted .. like in her last letter she sayd gay guys are discusting but she loves lesbians... I think I lost another penpal. Urgh. 

I defenitly need more penpals and maybe screen them a bit better XD

12:18pm:

First of all the new rich style of LJ is seriously fucked up...

But I have a new haircut , people seem to think it's too boyish .... XDor they say .. we'll get used to it . Lol yeah right just say you don't like it lol. 

I need to move or something the people in this country are starting to get on my nerves more and more. 

So this is the new hairstyle ....

5:14pm: stretcher!
I used to have a stretcher but I tried a plastic one once and my ear got infected...

So I am stretching again! I have to redo the whole thing. And I forgot how much it could sting and itch XD

But it's a good pain.. you know... not a bad one since it's so exciting once you give it a pull and it slides in ! and then you can start over again with a bigger stretcher!!

I love it !

http://unimaxsupply.com/jlry/1ear/se0521100.jpg -- these are the ones I use at the moment.

1:23pm: Homosexuality essay.

Every year we have to make a big essay about 40 pages through out the schoolyear. This is an assigment my .. insane .. religion teacher hands out. The essay is fun to do you can choose the theme yourself. Last year I had to do a person ( oscar wilde) and this year a theme so I chose Homosexuality.

Strangely enough I was the first to get an info package .. about 200 pages filled with info about gay lifestyle , rights , ... everything you can imagine. Normally you have to nag his head of and then he gives them to you at the end of the year when you have to turn in the essay.

But my teacher is  65 year old man... very religious and yet he gives me these pappers and I started reading them today and Half of the stuff he gave me is about gay fantasies and how they can be explained... basicly it's a psychology text about gay sex. It's pretty rad.

Wish me luck though 200 pages and I just started ... XD

and to show you I wasn't kidding about the teacher

 

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3:25pm: Haha the doc gave me some sirope to boost my imune system cause believe me at the moment it's at a low low point!

And the syrope taste of candy !! *whoot* it's also making me a bit light headed...

2:50pm: *glares* KEN
Okay so I went to see my ex last night *sigh* I shouldn't have done that , I really shouldn't have done that!!!

So yeah he walked in .. and I was like *wow* he's still the same Ken but even Taller and stronger looking , and he's so sweet , he wasn't planning on coming because he had to go somewhere else but because I was there he dropped by...

So yeah we talked a little and he still has the same voice and eyes as 3 years ago , I was in awe , because He was still the same guy I fell in love with 3 fucking years ago. So of course when he left I went into a tantrum and started crying.

I could cry een typinbg this .. I wish he was an asshole so I could Hate him .. but no I still love him... I really really do...

I can't get the images of him iut of my head .. Oh funny thing he used to be a redhead and now it's more of a chestnut colour.

God he's still so sweet .. I am never going to find a guy like hm again... never !... goddamnit I'm never going to find a guy again Period !!! god I feel weird ... lovesick... over my ex .. that I hadn't seen for so long I'm pathetic.

He's not even alternative anymore but he's KEN !!!


I also watched brokeback mountain with a friend and while I loved the movie , I liked the book better.

And she copied HP 4 for me and gave me the last book in dutch , oh and she felt sorry for me because she didn't want me to feel sad seeing him again she wante dme to be happy... but I knew I would be sad.

I hate love ...

4:07pm: OMG !!!!

So many things to tell where to start where to start...

Okay bad thing first:

My school has thieves!!! well we always had them but they normally switch every year and this year they're in my class. Stupud bitches have a key that fits in more then half of the lockers at our school. But our school is expensive!!! I mean we have to buy paint that in total costs about 200 euro's about 240 ? dollars. So they steal those things and I am pretty sure they have about stolen for 400 to 700 if not more euro's in school alone.

So we found out ... sigh ... and we'll probably go tell someone tomorrow , since they're stealing from friends of mine and I hate it!!!if I only would have known sooner!

Okay good news KEN !!!!!! well I don't think anyone here knows about Ken since he's a person of the past ... Ken was my first boyfriend. First kiss romantic bla bla bla ... and I haven't seen him in 3 and a half years and yesterday I started talking to him online and then a friend asked me to go out on friday and I told him since it's in the city I live in and soooooo

I'm going to see ( punk rock , skin head ) Ken !!! wich is so cool , though I'm not sure how I will react since I never got over him XD
So yeah really excited about seeing him again. And I'm having a sleepover , with one of the friends I hardly see since she graduated. But I'm; going to see her XD

 

( Ken, from a  scrapbook )

11:58am: Urgh I've been sick for two fucking weeks now , they think I might have mycoplasma again... it's the blood desease that gave me cfs.

But that's not the horrible thing , the horrible thing is missing the only one who keeps you from falling in a black hole.

Argh Fauve I will be at school tomorrow!!! And we will ask around everywhere to see if I can get a room somewhere in ghent next year.

Oh but the good news is I got mail today from kirsty and from Jordan *whoot* thanks again for the stuff man.

10:21pm: mastrubation
SeeI've been sick and being sick always makes me think about the weirdest things ...

Today it was the taboo of mastrubating when you're talking to girls... I mean guys can talk about wanking all they want but when you ask a girl she'll be shocked and say ' I don't do that '

It'sno problem to talk about sex , the lenght of guys cocks , orgasms .... you name it but when it comes to solo sex girls just go quiet and shocked ... it anoys me.

10:24am: The liver swelling is still there .. bummer... But it's not growing so for now they're going to leave it alone.

Which is good I do haveto get it checked every year or sooner if I should have problems.

But my stomach is looking good for once in 3 years *whoot* I love my Nexiam ( medication)

3:56pm: A piece of the inside of my mouth is suddenly missing!!!and it stings!!! urgh and I'm sick andI have to go get my liver checked again if they find swellings again I'm going to scream .. really scream!!!!

12:47pm: First 2006 update

Alright 2006 has arrived.I still the same really XD

But alright let's try and make it a good year...

Though I already have a few nasty things to look forward to.

• going to my father again this afternoon I hate it!!!!


• and having my liver checked for thosemysterious swellings again... I swear if they magicly returned I'm going to scream! those things costme my year!!!!


• GIP


• school in general I'm a bit sick of the corruptness of my school


• going to the dentist ... urgh

Okay happy things to look forward to this year

• Going back to school to see my friends


• Probably going to a small Jrock convention in Amsterdam


• Going to facts


• Going to the book convention


• Going to England , Crawley to visit princesslia84   ... well normally I am saving up for it so lol it better happen this year . XD


• Graduating !


• voting ( well it's the first time of course I'm excited lol)


• ....

well those are the things I know off I wonder if theyre all going to happen.

9:53pm: stolen from midnight_minx
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