drenched in vanilla twilight..

dakara_ @ 2012-05-01T14:08:00

2012-05-01T06:08:19Z

why am i so horridly useless when it comes to handling stress.

ok vanessa come on stop being a crybaby. the fuck is wrong with you damnit.

367: suck it up and take what comes.

2011-11-05T18:06:41Z

or hey, pointless update.

i don't know what i am going to do if i don't get the job i want? i say i'll quit but that's quite far from reality. suck it up and take what comes, i guess. ~~totally sounds totally wrong~~

also i got my infinite albums today, no sign of my sunggyu card anywhere but i have hojong. queen of the luckless. SOMEBODY GIVE ME THAT HAMSTAR CARD ;-;

oh, and i made fruit tarts (with a whole lot of custard) and panna cotta (KAHLUA MY LOVE) during some desserts class at work. surprisingly the kitchen is still standing, nothing burnt and everything turned out better tasting than expected. :3 prickme says so (hi friend this isn't an a/n but it's still a mention!) and she is a future baking queen so i am entitled to believe this truth. also, she gifted me with the sungjong card, that lucky woman.

birthday celebrations tomorrow - i'm getting too old for this crap. especially when it's not my birthday, tbh. time to suck it up!

dakara_ @ 2010-10-11T10:34:00

2010-10-11T02:34:19Z

Brother wakes up with one side of his hair flat and the other sticking up and out.

Brother: I just did a Key to my hair.

Oh how I love how much kpop has changed the boy. :D I can't even be angry at my insenstive and horrible groupmates.

word.

2010-07-20T19:40:55Z

just had to post because this sums up all I wanted to say about the Spain/Germany semis but couldn't find the words to because everyone was ~~a German fan~~just unhappy about the loss.

"It occurred to me during the Spain-Germany semifinal, amidst disappointment at Germany's timidity, that the style Spain plays almost forces that kind of low-scoring, slow-paced game. You can't ever get the ball off Spain. So what do you do? Play your midfield and attacking players further upfield? Of course not, then you'd open the space for Spain to score. So you try to catch them on the break – except, oh wait, they never surrender possession, and even in the 2/10000000 times they do, their defensive screens are too good. You're never going to score. So you stay stuck in your own half, defending your goal. Then they hardly score either. So at the end of the day it's 1-0 to Spain, and everyone is frustrated."

koped from conspiire. go read her latest post it's genius and talks about everything i feel but am too useless to put in words sometimes. actually the whole lj is genius.

..back to Lucifer. I can't avoid.

Me and the brother spent a while tweeting to each other (while we were TWO rooms apart) about me actually doing this to my hair. Then we concluded that every fangirl will look like that soon and there isn't really a point to it.

..At least my classmates might be happy to hear this since they don't approve of me changing the length of my hair.

I should sleep. And season needs to start. That is all.

DAODHAISHDOASIDHSAIDHSAD. (or, I need new lucifer!onew and lucifer!minho icons)

2010-07-20T19:07:25Z

Lucifer. SHINee. (Or as me and the brother put it, Mirotic-esque video with hints of Suju and Bonamana choreo)

WATCH.

Guyliner works 10x better on Onew than Key, the only part I like about Jjong is his back muscles, Minho's hair isn't as bad as I thought, and I would really love to get Taemin's hairstyle muchly, and KimKey I would look at you from the left and think "gorgeous" but from the right it's pretty much another story. BUT ONEW OHMY THAT MAN IS TOTALLY GORGEOUS and 2:38 just - it's the old dubu feel but just back in gorgeous form.

That said, I can't wait for their comeback performance. And I can't believe it took SHINee to make me post a post. 8D

Short update on life: Internship's over, camp prep and camp's in! And I just caught Inception and Joseph Gordon-Levitt is the bomb - especially if he's defying gravity and being a smartass and all sexy and shit.

God I need Lucifer icons.

AND MINHO GETS A LINE. LIKE A WHOLE fricken LINE. AND THE entire RAP. The sky is going to fall next. ♥

364: it's awfully quiet.

2010-06-22T08:38:03Z

Extremely tired of work, getting sick soon, I don't know if I'm actually hoping to get sick so that I'll get off work. Ha!

Much much much much things to update on, which I will when I get my pictures out of my phone. Like senior camp, polar bears (!), zoo trips and chasing korean boys younger than me. ♥

You still make me happy in little ways, and I think I'm beginning to let you go, but it doesn't mean I'm over it yet. At least I'm getting to a point where I don't miss you as much - so it's all good, yes.

Anyway the jongkey to my minho are leaving for Korea (lucky shits) - have a safe trip and buy much much much back for me. Not even getting a chance to see them off before they leave - damn you 2am flights.

Speaking of 2AM, they're coming! :D

363: 괜찮아 (i'm okay, just stop asking)

2010-06-11T08:55:55Z

May's been a month a rollercoaster shit emotions for me, and June hasn't started perfectly but ohwell time to just forget it, keep calm and carry on.

I love Kris Allen's new (is it even new, I'm totally clueless) song, "The Truth".

Trying to be perfect
Trying not to let you down
Honesty is honestly
The hardest thing for me right now
While the floors underneath our feet
Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling
I still stand here holding up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth

And it was so cute cause when the song played we were trying to guess and he said it was Snow Patrol and I'm like no it's more Fray or OneRepublic sounding and turns out it's Mr American Idol.

Praying my dad caved and got the WC package, I didn't really ask him so I'm praying now! Spanish boys! 8D

Weekend - SENIOR'S CAMP haha I hope no screwups and everything will be good! :)

ALL OVERSEAS PEOPLE WHO ARE COMING BACK SINGAPORE (or not, either way) I MISS YOU SO PEOPLE. ♥

dakara_ @ 2010-05-17T02:09:00

2010-05-16T18:08:57Z

JENNY says:
js and taec. it's hard.
vanxin: BONAMANA says:
taec is def the bottom.

We were really talking about ranking the 2PM boys but I realise how wrong it sounded.

361: tired.

2010-05-03T09:26:55Z

Two more papers but I really don't have the mood. And after today's consultation where my tutor practically and unsubtly told us what was going to come out I'm even lazier. Scared but lazy.

And my body clock has been tuned to sleeping at 4 and waking at 930 for breakfast (fail macbreakfast fail). By the time we eat it's around like. 11. Which means we skip lunch and go straight to dinner. My breakfast/lunch/dinner buddies are cool.

TIRED AND IT'S SO HOT EVERYDAY WHY IS IT SO HOT

Oh and I got a new phone nokia touchscreen and the screen is so nice and big and my wallpapers always look gorgeous. ♥♥

Going to nap now til dinner. Lorry ride to JP I love sitting at the back of the lorry haha. Every day every meal we get driven around by lorry. Huat.

OH AND I ACTUALLY WATCHED THE LIVERPOOL CHELSEA MATCH we were pretty awesome in the first half til the goal ruined everything. D8

360: life is hot

2010-04-22T16:30:26Z

I've forgotten how much I miss living in hall. I'm staying in hall 3 for a while and while it can't compare to my awesomepossum 16 it's been quite nice. My roomie's quite nice. The room's a bloody sauna though thank god for aircon.

ANYWAY FIRST PAPER TODAY it wasn't as bad as I expected and no one walking out of the exam hall seemed to be able to balance the bloody cash flow so who cares. 8D
Four more papers to go tired tired I'm mega tired now and I still have online lecture to do.

And I spent the whole day ytd watching Antique and reading the manga as well. I am a magnificent time waster. And can't wait for FMA 107. CANNOT WAIT.

Cramps are killing me ;_;

359: i am a mood-swingy whale

2010-02-18T21:17:46Z

Took this myself I am so proud HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA ♥
In place of a happy pill, I guess. Feeling horribly mood-swingy and fat, which is never a good combination. Watching Liverpool now though, I hope they win at least it would give me something happy to think about.

Don't know how I'm going to fall asleep cause even though my eyes are tired, my head and my heart are wide awake.

357: december was eventful

2010-01-09T03:26:29Z

I realised I've neglected my LJ for too long. But can't help it, I've been either sick or busy. But mostly sick.

Flu→Fever→Tonsil Infcetion→Cough→Food Poisoning D:
Which explains why I spent Thursday puking my guts out and dying. Saddest thing was that I was a facilitator at a Sec2 camp and I had to go home and I missed my kids! I was so looking forward to the last day. My class even had BigBang fans so cute ♥

But I got to spend muchmuchmuch time with my friends so I guess it was still good. Like the Key and Jonghyun to my Minhonew. (I was Minho, but I cemented my spot as Onew after I managed to throw my tray into the dustbin at Macs.) And I played mj for the first time ever! Oh and I learnt to recognise manymany korean bands. So I guess it wasn't a waste :D

I AM GOING TO REST NAO SO I CAN GO TO CANOE GATHERING LATER YAYZORS

tweets for my sweet.

2009-12-03T22:10:03Z

04:18 GIANT MOUNTAIN OF SUCK THE GD900 LG CRYSTAL ONLY AVAILABLE AT SINGTEL KILL ME NAO

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2009-12-02T22:10:04Z

14:22 studying for tourism paper not easy when there's like "KEY issues" and "KEY concerns". so i wrote "ONEW issues" next to my notes. phail.
14:22 my brain = mush.
14:26 sarang bling bling like LED. ♥♥
15:49 could never bring myself to watch strong baby. and now i know why. ITS SO SCARY CAUSE HE'S ONLY 19 DAMN. it's like, wrong.
03:29 i want ikea meatballs ):
03:54 Onew's tips for dating: If it gets awkward, say "LA!"
03:58 my toes are cold, my nose is running and my internet has the pace of a snail when it comes to youtube.
03:58 suck.

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2009-12-01T22:10:03Z

18:09 i saw seungri-guy today and i felt like lol-ing. but omg really look likeee.
20:57 so pissed now - i'm not your stupid slave that you make walk around. and you dare ask me if im angry.
02:17 thanks for the #red jacket again (:

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355: i'm so sorry but i love you.

2009-11-30T14:32:12Z

I miss you rubbing my toes to keep them warm for me. It was last year, on christmas when we came back and I went over to watch Music and Lyrics in your room. Said I was cold and you dumped your oversized (to me) jacket on my head and then rubbed my toes to make them warm again. Then I just sat quietly in front of your laptop watching the movie while you played mj in the background and then I got a text from you asking if I was feeling left out (and you were just sitting right behind me).

And now I've known you for a year and it still makes me happy to think of the day when I first spent a whole day's time with you.

Been totally off LJ for the longest time now, with exams all the time and spending excessive time on youtube and tumblr. Speaking of tumblr, mine is HERE. Random cute stuff, and a lot of BigBang. (What to do, I needed something to fangirl over and they popped up)

And now I go back to my tourism. KBYE.

~~..OMG THE ADS ARENT VERTICAL ANYMORE I CAN ACTUALLY SEE MY CHO HEADER LOVE ♥~~fuckit they still are there. OH AND LIVERPOOL WIN MORE LOVE. ♥♥♥

tweets for my sweet.

2009-11-20T22:10:03Z

01:27 213 gave me headache. bigbang cured it :D
01:28 now i'm happy! and i still don't understand my work.
01:28 i need to get a browser that keeps my tabs for this laptop. hah.
02:42 i shall work hard when i wake up and look forward to dinner, which i hope will be as routinely awesome.

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2009-11-10T22:10:02Z

14:44 very tempted to change my ringtone back to Burnin' Up by the Jonas Brothers. haha.
14:57 triviation.tumblr.com/ :D
21:32 www.kickette.com/files/2009/11/nov9villayourbeltisass.jpg can you say "almost the luckiest girl in the world"?

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354: beatles!

2009-11-10T07:28:37Z

Finally a long deserved day off from school. Should totally be studying but I woke up only two hours ago and haven't shook off the laziness. (Not that I ever can)

Another great reason to love The Beatles:

If I Fell
If I fell in love with you
could you promise to be true
And help me understand
'Cause I've been in love before
And I've found that love is more
That just holding hands

:D

tweets for my sweet.

2009-10-15T22:10:06Z

04:13 finally got "Broken" by Lifehouse, and "Flights of Fancy" by WGB. thanks papa (:
04:14 bit.ly/15Qi1 this looks cool - and it's called idou! how cute is that.
04:17 and keane's "bad dream" - interesting lyrics that i would debate if i had not BT201.

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2009-10-11T22:10:02Z

23:00 CHO IS LOOKING SO SO SO SO SO SO HOT IN THAT UNBUTTONED FBI JACKET AND OHSHIT IM DYING OF THE HOTNESS
23:02 and haha, demetri noh is such a sarcastic skeptic shit. but how can i not love him!
23:23 he can't die! NOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH |D
23:26 okay i can't spoil the show but NOHHHHHHHHHH this sucks.
00:48 i am more productive when my bg music is westlife. i swear. it's awesomely awesome. *awaits the new album*

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353: this is not a love story

2009-10-10T08:37:16Z

"Everyone has that heartbreak that shapes them in away that they could never go back to the innocence that they had before. It's beautiful and poignant and bittersweet to explore."

- Zooey Deschanel

I love this quote so much, partly because it's really true. I've learnt to live with it, but it's true that he's taught me alot and I'm really not the same person that I was before (in a good and bad ways). I know sometimes I always say that I wish I'd never met you and nothing ever happened, but the truth is that I'm really grateful for what we had.

Watching 500 Days of Summer later, superbly excited. So many movies I want to watch! Meatballs, Funny People.. But I've found a movie buddy so it's all good :D

dakara_ @ 2009-10-07T02:25:00

2009-10-06T18:27:03Z

Just pimping the new icon - I find it horribly adorable.

DAMN YOU FORENSIC SCIENCE I CAN'T WRAP MY HEAD AROUND TOXICOLOGY.

I just love this .gif so much - it ranks up there with the Barney-suicide .gifs.
"Cause we're fugitives, driving a yellow convertible with the top down, DRESSED LIKE ASSHOLES!"

352: you would not believe your eyes

2009-10-04T19:26:15Z

FLASHFORWARD EP 1 TODAY. I was a good good girl and didn't download and watched it on TV! It's not bad, so far. Looks interesting and it's a good show to watch with the brother, especially since he knows and understands my cho-love. :D
There's some points of time where Cho still channels the Harold vibe despite his srzbusiness FBI character, but it's why he's awesome hehe.

Then I watched Liverpool lose 0-2 to Chelsea. Chelsea was the better team, I guess, even if you judge by possession. We missed Xabi, a little. And he could've started Benayoun, as much as I love my RHM.

Here's hoping next week will be better. Anyway school starts again tomorrow, boo.

I watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly;
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

tweets for my sweet.

2009-10-03T22:10:02Z

18:33 owl city songs are nice! :D been listening to them for quite a bit even though i should be studying.
18:33 speaking of studying, i haven't accomplished much this recess week ):

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