I went to seven-eleven with shash afew hours ago, the one at ss19, to buy cigarettes. And I had a 100RM note with me, cause ... I just didn't have change. So I gave the cashier the money and she was like "oh tak boleh kasi duit lebih besar ke" or something to that effect - Im not one to remember malay phrases. I just remember being totally insulted by it. I guess I forgot, in that moment, how mutherfucking rude malaysians are sometimes; or how they are ever really friendly. And fuck, she made it seem like I was the one in the wrong for buying something at a shop ... THAT SELLS THINGS.

I wanted to fucking punch that cunt in her face for being so rude - but then she had really bad teeth, and was working at seven eleven for heavens sake, so I guess shes got alot to be bitter about. She shouldn't wear her tudung though; it makes muslims look bad.

But isn't it true with all of us that we mask ourselves until the mask becomes the very thing that reveals us.

It is just plain weird that Najib has a twitter account, and an active one at that - more active than say, Ina or Metric anyway. Our prime minister should be too busy to even consider the idea of reminding himself to update his twitter. He should be too busy to even know what twitter is. Sometimes I wonder whether new media are setting us Malaysians free, or just giving certain politicians more portals to exercise their narcisism. New media have always been about self importance anyway, so I guess there is no place to complain, unless it's through new media...ahhh, unagi. 

I've only been back two days and I feel like Ive been back for a month. And it's only Sunday tomorrow; the days are passing alot slower than expected. This could be due to the fact that I don't have to look forward to leaving come February.

I want to register myself as a voter, but I'm afraid that such an action would be futile as I have no particular party in mind to vote for ... not that I have to worry about it right now, but I like the idea of having to commit to a specific party rhetoric.

ILOVEPOLITICS
I should really make a t-shirt with this plastered on it, with IT'SNOTONLYABOUTREADINGTHENEWSPAPER on the back - but I'll probably have to edit that down.

Maybe also one that says MARXWOULDBEASHAMED

or PLATOMAKESMYHEARTTURNINTOPLAYDOH

or ARISTOTLEPOLITICALTHROTTLE

or (!), with (?) on the back.

Wow, Im bored. 

Just arrived from New Zealand; may have quietly mourned  on the plane over the idea of me leaving it, but mostly I'm just dead tired from all the rushing around; I didn't have time to take a breather the whole time travelling back. I sat next to my mom on the plane, which was a trial in itself. She didn't respond to me when I needed her to, but she had no problem waking me up from my awkward slumber when she needed warm water, or change the channel. I figure thats why we have a cabin crew on board, but my mother prefers to incur her wrath on those who alread know what it looks like, so as to not invoke too much shock and anger. Im exaggerating; she wasn't that horrible, but daughters complain just as moms inevitably get disappointed. 

Im thinking of nasi ayam tomorrow, YUMMERS.

Kuanne cepat balik please thank you. 

I hate watching reality shows HAHAHA. No, I hate it when I become biased, and root for one specific person and they don't get to the finals or something. I feel like my judgements are dismissed or incorrect when the person is voted out - even though these shows are taped way ahead of time and they can't telepathically know that I want who and who to win ... but still.

I love how these shows tap the inner kid in me cause I wanted to be everything, and to a certain extent I still do. I wanted to be a fashion editor, and I wanted to be a chef, and I wanted to be an architect, and all that jazz. I never did want to be a singer though, so the novelty of watching American Idol was never really there.

I still love how I think I can bne all these things if I decide I really wanted it HAHAHAHA. It's all part of my idealism my mom thinks will make me a poor person in the future - you can't buy bread and rice with hope and wishful thinking.

My parents are flying down from Auckland as I type. Two weeks of my parents; I honestly don't know what to expect but it should be entertaining. A bunch of kids are running around campus with their regalias, which made me excited cause I thought I could grab mine too, but I can't just yet so I'm not excited anymore. Their satch is green in colour - lucky. Pink is so not my colour, so Im not looking forward to wearing such a heinous colour.

I hope the next time I update, I'll be back in Subang.

So I was just thinking how awkward it must be for reality tv show contestants who have lost to like face up to people after being on the show. And not like American Idol where the population votes (as Simon Cowell says, "thats democracy" - idiot), but when your talent is solely judged by a panel like Project Runway, or Top Chef.

When you lose, people meet you on the street and would probably say, "oh i wanted you to win", or "I was rooting for you" and then you'd no doubt feel like shit cause then you KNOW you lost cause you sucked; it's not like a popularity contest - there's no millions of plebeians saying you rule cause they think you're pretty or you're hot, and would most likely vote for you cause you're a Christian. THAT is why American Idol sucks, and reality shows like Top Chef don't; talent over popularity.

When you're talented, it's okay if you're gay or swear like a mutherfucker, cause in the end you're fucking good at what you do, and that is how everything should be judged upon. Fuck all pretty/rich/straight people who have gotten it easy - it just makes it harder for everyone else to be taken seriously.

I like over-analysing, makes me feel better about myself. TALENT! HAH.

meh.

It's probably ridiculously hypocritical for me to say but Lady Gaga is kinda hot; in a bondage-s&m kind of way. Her insistence on being fucked up crazy ass is really hot, only cause she's just so persistent about it. Not that I give her much credit for her music. I think the talent lies in the way she presents herself to the world - not her music cause it's shit.

OMG and is Britney fucking awesome in her new video or WHAT! fuck, awesome.

Sekian

People have stopped updating again. Sporadical updates don't count as so cause they are not intentional you guys suck.

No you don't. I miss you guys. I refilled the Zippo Ina gave me back when I turned 18 - that was 4 fucking years ago man. OMG. Smart move to engrave the date on it, cause it was only then I realised how long we have been friends. SWEEEEEEEEET AS. Constant reminder of how old we're all getting. 4 years ago; it does not feel like it has been 4 years since we left high school, 4 years since we played in a band together. It doesn't sound long, but it feels long. Long long time ago. LONGGGGGGGGGGGG.

I've been incoherent lately.

Lordy, Im slowly beginning to feel really bored with myself. My parents arrive next week Friday, so then I would at least have some distraction, but Ive got the weekend and afew more days of I don't know what.

I just got my results yesterday, and for the most part, I am satisfied. Im not one to over exert myself with grades, cause I honestly don't see the point. But then there are always times when you have to care what grades you have cause without them you can't go further in what you want to do; which was where I was at, but now that the anxiety is gone I am bored yet again. I shouldn't complain, but I think I prefer stress over boredom cause boredom has no purpose.

I look boredly at the board that reads "No Drinking" while I sip on my can of Coke.
BOOYAH

My literature lecturer from HELP has a fan page on facebook - not done by her of course; I think she might kill us all for even thinking it's appropriate have a page dedicated to her lovely self, let alone to be fans. But i was uber stoked when I saw it, and quickly became a fan - which subsequently led me to reminiscing, which then led me to feel kinda sad cause I can never relive that part of my life again; not that I want to, I was such a fucking screw up then.

Im not sure when asparagus season starts and ends but I just went to the super market last night, and the price of organic asparagus rose from 1.97 for a bunch of ten stalks to 4 dollars; luckily I bought some last week so I didn't have to pay almost three dollars more for them, but snap! talk about inflation. I'm trying to do this thing where I only eat organic veges and only those grown in NZ so then my carbon footprint is lesser; so far it's working cause it's narrowing down the selection of veges to only those I like and I really couldn't be bothered to think of how to cook those I don't normally stumble upon - like artichoke. Im gonna try to do the same in Msia, which will be great cause the local grown veges are so much more exciting then the ones here. NZ doesn't even grow long beans, meh.

Speaking of carbon footprints and beans (?), I want to have a graduation dinner with Ina and Kuanne! I'll pick a place, and it's going to be lavish and I won't drive cause Im going to drink myself silly. SO save your money, find a nice dress, and keep one of the weekends free! AND no dancing please - i wanna makan only and chill millsssss nyeheheheheheeh. IM SO DEMANDING I DONT CARE

iluvyoukaybai

Here's the thing about online auctions ... HERE'S the thing about ME online auctioning : I don't know how to.
I can buy really well, but I ain't gots the skills to sell it seems. Some guy will be able to buy my dustbuster for a dollar cause the auction is closing soon, and I find it damn unethical to open up a ghost account to increase the bid eventhough I feel like i should.
Im crossing fingers my dustbuster would at least bring in 5 dollars, the auction is still on after all.

I like to oogle over blonde girls; I think it all started with Emily Haines. And now it's Emily Haines and Ladyhawke. Also this chef called Jennifer on Top Chef, and Althea from Project Runway. This, of course, excludes Kristen Stewart who I think is just pretty, but unlike the other girls I just mentioned, she doesn't have talent...and nor is she blonde; though she did have blonde hair in Panic Room, but her roots were totally dark so I think she's a brunette.

This proves to me that blondes are not really that dumb; but then again this may be a bottle neck effect. Give me any guy with any type of coloured hair, I'll still look at him with skepticism, but a blonde girl - I'd give her the benefit of the doubt (like my precious Britney).

I might be going crazy - I haven't had a decent conversation with anyone since my friend Praveene left. All the talking I've done is with shop assistants and the ladies behind the counter of the post shop; sadddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.

But the weather is nice. ahaaaa!

Ina was JUST saying how you girls have not been updating and sure enough, more than one update from Lula and Kuanne. Cross-continental mind reading. I don't like the UK so malas wanna visit, nyehehe. You guys meet us in Thailand la.

Right now, I'm sort of a golden brown, red wine burnt colour cause the weather is just gorgeous. I don't put too much hope in the weather anymore, so when the sun looks like it's out, even though it is not, I just Thank God cause seriously ain't no ranting gonna make it any better.

Also I realise tv shows these days like to tap into our inner guilt - i was just thinking about how I wish I didn't have to pay for rent, and then I saw Oprah and some lady was like rejoicing cause she was getting sponsored 27 dollars a month in Congo. I dont' think I have any liberty to complain now - which is always a good thing, cause I always forget how privileged I am.

Just before going online, I was enjoying a cigarette by the river, next to the clock tower and OMG Otago university is awesome. What luck I will never get a chance to show it off to my friends, but it's ok - i am a product of its education and thats already something I can show.

Alot of my friends here get uber defensive over the education we get in NZ cause it's not the UK; like how people felt about Australia a decade ago. Apparently it's not up to standards; I don't know where their getting thier details from but meh, it's so easy to graduate with a good grade in the UK while the rest of us slave over a B, cause a B down here is 70 percent. Apparently thats high - i wouldn't know, I dont care much for grades; im more education for education sake, not education for future prosperity, which i guess is alot of people's intentions. And the british used to colonise us and now we're paying them to educate us? err ...

Whatever; Im pissed cause I can't find a decent link to watch an episode of Project Runway, and people have not posted up enough links for the latest episode of Top Chef.

Peope don't do music like the Jackson Five anymore ... they should.

Sekian