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[03 Sep 2008|09:58am] Sometimes I'll connect the dots and then everything resurfaces and starts over again. I feel like no matter what I'm always going to be competing against a ghost of the past for him. And it's almost like i dont even care anymore. Becasue I shouldn't have to fight. but when i realize something fits together and someone's lied about it i get pissed and want to confront. its a big fucking circle man. wanna dance?

[01 Sep 2008|01:32am] its odd how a fight can sometimes bring you closer together. like overcoming a hurdle and being proud of it. proud of a new beginning. another challenge. whatever wanna dance?

[27 Aug 2008|10:23am] School is lonely. My printer at home isn't useable with my new computor. I'm fucked because I dont understand how to use the ub ones.  wanna dance?

[26 Aug 2008|11:18pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | alive with the glory of love ] I  feel like i'd be very replaceable.  Most likely by a girl with similar features and a not as good sense of humor.  I'm a bad person. Who sets herself up for misery.  wanna dance?

happy birthday 19th amendment [26 Aug 2008|07:15pm] [ music | alive with the glory of love ] School is lonley. It is lonley and i continue to be chronically late. I'm learning to understand traffic patterns of my way there. I'm learning all about small talk. Women studies classes look to be awesome. I'm the youngest person in my english class. I had to take a test to make sure i was retarded enough to be in the retarded math class. What certainly got me in was the fact tat i forgot what the order of operations was. "PEMDAS you retard" my subconsciouos screamed at me throughout the test. But I didnt even notice and put down something compleatly different.  The only people i've recognized were Rob Parker, stupid fat slutty Alyssa Large who i ignored compleatly, okay i liked i did a double take and shot her dirty looks, and steve. Who i embraced and we sat down and talked about stuff awkwadly between our classes. And i lwet him call casey and get her confused.  Nothing made me happier than spending 500 dollars of my parents money on the best thing of all. BOOKS. My psoriissis is accumlating on my eardrums and i can't hear very well.  It's really nice not doing art. happy birthday 1 danced wanna dance?

[25 Aug 2008|08:15am]  My first class of collge WOULD be women's studies 101.  here we go.   2 danced wanna dance?

[20 Aug 2008|02:09pm] It's sad that it takes these things to make me happy but this is why im incredibly happy.  Im leaving Burger King for the Coffee Beanery I adore my car. I named her Hillary.  I start school monday, which means i will have full access to the UB gym.  It's like all the chnages i wanted to make in ym life are almost complete. or at least, accesible. So i can stop feeling super shitty about myself. I start at the beanery tomorrow. I can dirve there with hillary. yayayayayayayayayayaya. go me. wanna dance?

[19 Aug 2008|04:26pm]  I'm so sick of buisiness leading me in a circle. Im sick of people saying to me that their intrested and then taking me around in circles. Telling me to call back. Lying and telling me they will call me back. Telling me all of these things, never giving me a real answer. and then when I do get a real answer it is not the one ive wanted. banana republic, barnes and noble, borders, pier one, hot topic, american eagle,best buy, target, fye they've all lead me in circles like a dog chasing it's tail Ac moore and michaels dont hire seasonal until september. That's what they told me anyway. Im not sure if they realize that it's almost september.  i feel unwanted.  i dont really want to work at the coffee beanery. but right now. it seems like i have no ohter options. becasue if i stay at burger king any longer than neccessary im going to cut my fucking wrists and wring them out over all the whopper jrs. 1 danced wanna dance?

[17 Aug 2008|11:18pm]  I don't know why that when I'm already depressed and confused I torture myself by wanting to read those stupid old messages from her that have sat in my inbox for moths.  I don't let go. That's the problem. That I'm constantly paranoid that he wishes I was her. Like when we went camping. Or do anything remotly close to any activity they had already done. the entire time I was just bummed becasue i was afarid of that. I feel foolish sometimes when i'm scared doing mundane things. but I thoght going to the movies was a mundane thing, you know, everyone does it with a whole bunch of different people. i didn;t think it would make him wish i was her or anything. I geuss maybe I just feel like there was a lot more to those letters than I got from just one read. For instance, she seems to know a lot of his inner thoughts. Like "still mad that adrienne my own gf wouldnt go to the hospital to c my dad. but u did and it was shitty out and u let me drive and u have that trust in me that i love.". oddly specific and accurate.  I just feel so strange latley. for thr past few months.  Just odd. 3 danced wanna dance?

[17 Aug 2008|04:46am] Over the past year of having a boyfriend who has a car I have forgotten the joys of walking home in the moonlight. What precious downtime have i been giving up for so long? It was magical. I felt so alive wit the bright full moon shining on me tonight. I actually went for a bikeride after. It's true what they say, you don't ever forget how to ride a bike. But you do forget the feeling of the cold wind blowing your hair back. or how good it feels to lean into a turn. or how hard it was at first to ride with no hands.  I miss exercise. 2 danced wanna dance?

[14 Aug 2008|12:44pm] I should've went away for school. I shoulv've paid the 7or 6whateverthousandsof dollars to go away and start all over with a bunch of idiot teens. So i oculd finally be an idiot teen and get drunk and smoke crack. Okay, well maybe not smoke crack,  but you get the idea. Too bad I'm already an idiot teen for only applying to one away school that was just above my par. I don't even want to talk about it. Stony Brook was my dream school. I wonder what Purchase would like. Hillary Clinton lives around there. Maybe i could sit outside her house with binoculars of something between my women's study classes. Too bad I wasnt allowed to apply there because "danielle didn't like it and came home".  I live my life with doubt in my every step.  If i had more money id get an apartment. But that's how Andrea got poor. And Danielle got rich by living at home. Lessons leraned by a younger sibling. wanna dance?

Fuck diamonds, livejournal is a girl's best friend [13 Aug 2008|11:04pm] Computor: Hey adrienne, I've missed you where have you been baby Me: Oh hey you, yo9u know, just hanging out Computor: Oh, well I've been kind of lonley without you. I mean sure I look at a lot of porn my buddy the internet stashes from his mom, but really it just made the nights longer and lonlier without your beautiful face so close to mine. Your lips almost touching my soft, luminous glowing monitor.  Me: You don't mean it.... Adrienne coyly looks up Me:(looking hopeful) Do you? Computor brings up a romantic scene from a sandra bullock movie Me: OH computor I'm so glad to have you back Computor: Oh baby! They embrace The end.  OR IS IT? Part two: Adrienne gives birth to baby computors. they look like tiny laptops with legs 4 danced wanna dance?

[04 Aug 2008|12:33am] the Faints new album drops teusdayyyyyyy I love life. And synthesizers. i can;t wait. I can't wait. i can't wait. I'm always excited for band's new stuff. Because i really think most bands get better and more sophisticated with their music. I hate the people who defend themselves with "Oh well their old stuff was good". That only works for Green Day man. God Bless Saddle Creek Records wanna dance?

casey Datesey [01 Aug 2008|10:50pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | American boy ] Tonight me and casey basically went on a date. I picked her up in my car and we went to Shakespheare in the park. I made us a picnic of sandwhiches, pepsi and dried fruit and brought a pink blanket with hearts on it. it was pretty romantic.On the way walking to Delaware Park from the knox parking lot a car beeped the crap out their horen and pulled over and OMG IT WAS MY DEAR PIATZ who pulled over on some super busy road in Buffalo. we had a short conversation and she explained her abscence from my grad party and I accepted her apology with sincerity. I LOVE HER SO MUCH. Her and miss squires were on their way to mrs Mercer's restuaruant in Williamsville. They're so cute. Me and Casey were dissapointed in The Merry Wives of Windsor and left to go look at the art gallery. I got like a crazy hot flash there and we left and tried to be sophisticated and get coffee at Starbucks. I was too scared to get real coffee becasue im just warming up to it so i got a silly frappacino. Casey didnt know how to order and was like "UHHhhhh can i just have a regular coffee?? Do you guys sell that?"I luff her. We discussedlife and unhappiness and college and how enviroments determine how two similar people can grow to be compleatly different. And cars. And driving. I'm so excited for her to get her car. wanna dance?

[01 Aug 2008|03:54pm] [ mood | neurotic ] [ music | zachary ] Burger King offered me two promotions. And a 250 scholorship that will increase to 500 next semester. And they're just going to hand me a check and let me do whatever with it. But i hate it so much there. It makes me so miserable. they want to make me a "black shirt manager" and "breakfast coordinator".  I havn't even been there for a year. Perhaps i should just continue to look for another job. Becasue they would only be giving me a 35 cent raise  over the next year for my promotions and another ten cents for just staying. Thats not exactly a lot to stay miserable and have more responsibility in that shit hole. ARGHHHHH idk what to doo. wanna dance?

was it more than attraction and a physical lust [29 Jul 2008|09:54pm] [ mood | teethy ] [ music | her loins my imagination that first inconceivable touch-desperate guys-the faint ] I really really really want a new job. I'm hoping for either hot topic, borders or barnes and noble to come through for me by the end of summer. Great Scott, now that have a car i can't help but want to bust out of my smelly BK #519 with triumphant, angelic wings and fly over yonder to Niagara falls blvd. Oh joy! Oh Rapture! God help me! That's basically all I've been obsessed with. that and buying an ipod-able new stereo for my car. But since I don't have all the money now I'm buying it piece by piece. It's kind of silly, but I want to have a really nice car. I always thought it was stupid when said "I work all the time because I have all these things I want to do to my car and I need the money to do them". But now I totally understand how it is. I want tints, i want a sound system, i want new interioir, i need a paint touch up.I'm nuts. I even want hot black rims. One step at a time man. Mine and zach's anniversary is coming up. And I think I know what I am going to get him. i hope he likes it and i hope I can get off of work for the whole day. It's just realy nice to have stability. To have someone looking out for me, who cares for me and does all these sweet little tihngs and sweet big things to show how he feels. Sure, he may act like a big overprotective baby sometimes but honestly no one's perfect. but i bet if there was someone who was it would be him. me-yow. wanna dance?

[21 Jul 2008|12:07am] Graduation parties are a lucrative business. i should graduate more often.  car shopping double date with mom and bill and my zach. lolololz. can't wait. wanna dance?

[17 Jul 2008|11:19am] Why didn't anyone tell me it was an awful idea. Oh wait. Everyone said that. I am a girl with a penchant for not listening. wanna dance?

[16 Jul 2008|10:13pm] Yesterday i watched the canal fest parade with leah, caje, kellie, carmen, allie, and shawny t. I love parades! Especially ones with my firefighter boyfriend and rollerderby sister. We had flags, candy, liberty spikes fo sho, and watched dancing children. Me and Leah also had awesome ideas for floats. like a buger king float that throws whoppers and a planned parenthood that throws birth control packs and condoms. Parades are just so fun okay. After Zach finished with the parade he came and sat with us and watched the rest. I saw bryant CHOWNNN and Trudi too! They came over to the other side and visited us. i love Braynt. He should stop fucking up though. It makes me mad. Towards the end of the night i got inexplicably ill and started to get really woozy, hot and i thought it was becasue i was starving. But then i ate and it didnt get better, it got worse. Zach walked me back to his house and I almost threw up in front of mark trapps house. He took me home and brought me up to my room and did cute things like put a cold cloth on my forehead. I napped for like 45 minutes wopke up and felt brand new. I have no clue what happened. So we actually went dfown and got deep fried oreos and ate them at my house. I've never gotten sick like that.  Maybe it was becasue i messed with my birth control. idk. idc. im fine now. wanna dance?

Posted using TxtLJ [16 Jul 2008|01:24pm] I love you livejournal. and i love money. like vh1. but like every other person, i hate working. wanna dance?

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