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Mar. 10th, 2007 @ 11:11 pm
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thoe my life is filled with blessings, through the spirit of nature/sport, to take for granted... Jan. 16th, 2006 @ 03:28 am
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My mind is filled with a dozen mirrors and each of them display the day differently. I have been told that mirrors don't lie but I have never been told that their perceptions are unique and stubborn.
Tonight, after a bizarre test on the levels of my strangely placed loyalty, I still sit confused. Yes!!!! I did the right thing but it was much more boring than what my cave dwelling, boner driven - carnivore desires were trying to get me to manipulate in the moments confusion. When is the precise moment that desire puts the sleeper hold on loyalty in general (on your pseudo buddies or yourself)? If I could view it from the audience, how would I cheer? Anyhow, blue pain must = a true character to be praised only with the last resort. Forced self respect.

MOving on............... My father and I built a sturdy bridge today over the stale scented and angry water of our time unspent. For the first time since birth I have a real Dad. I don't mean some neighborly father figure that likes to rub on my mother when he wants some mac'n'cheese. I mean the actual sperm donor. The dude that set me free to hunt down an egg as opposed to leaving me in some bellybutton or allowing me and millions of my siblings to be cannibalized for his entertainment. A dad. My dad. He's very political and studies the JFK assassination. He is a good father to my younger brother and sister. He is a successful business owner. And he had joyfully wet eyes when we hugged (not for the last time but until the next time). Also, he was witty - intelligent - and funny even in his 5 years of 100% sobriety.
I am glad to say that the wounds have scarred over and I have been inspired by my real father.

Moving on... My new band has began to surface in map/plan/and thought. The excitement from this newly renewed new band is seeding from me picking each member to build it from the ground up. And I am as excited as a baboon sodomizing Madonna with a fiddle with these new creative ideas.

Here's to Karma!
And good karma to the 2 of you that actually read this.
Current Mood: amusedamused

Jan. 11th, 2006 @ 10:51 pm
Never forget the cruelty, greed and ignorance of man kind or you may become doomed to be a member of the human race.

oop Jan. 11th, 2006 @ 10:39 pm
life

Nov. 24th, 2005 @ 04:13 pm
The turkey holocaust.
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yes... i am caught in the rat race as-well
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yes... this is not what i too thought to be
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but .... I am not divine
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My creator is
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SORRY-----NO TRADE
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The fact that life interferes - aids to my procrastination of updates. I probably only have a couple of LJ friends left. Anyhow I think that it is time that I take on new n'less selfish dreams as my future includes more than me.
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This is a shitty day.
..............week!

I know that life has it's share of tolls and sacrifices, but @ this point I am confused.
I know that I am not happy - nore am I on the road to happiness........... YET I see that I must sacrifice my happiness and self worth for those that I adore/love/family.

At this weak point in life I want to erase selective memory (like the JIM CARRY movie). I wonder if I would regret it.... I guess I wouldn't know.

The old me must die along with every self directed dream and I must stand up as another cooperate bitch with sperm stained jaws to make some heartless # rich!

I am not happy with this but I am numbered... Like many of you.



Don't live to prove your oppressors wrong... U won't smile!
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