Mice -- To see mice in your dream, symbolizes domestic problems, business loss, deceit, and insincere friends. It represents minor problems in which you are spending too much time dwelling on.
To dream that you kill a mouse, indicates that you will overcome your rivals.
To dream that a mouse jumps on you or into your clothing, foretells of scandal in which you will largely figure in.
To dream that you or someone is eating mice, indicates that there is something that has been nagging your conscience and you need to get off your chest.
Rats -- To see rats in your dream, signifies feelings of doubts, guilt and/or envy. You are having unworthy thoughts that you are keeping to yourself but are eating you up inside. Alternatively, it denotes repulsion. The dream may also be a pun on someone who is a rat.
To see a black rat, represents deceit and covert activities.
To see a white rat in your dream, denotes that in your time of distress, you will receive assistance from an unexpected source.
To dream that a rat is biting your feet, symbolizes the rat race that you are experiencing in your waking life.
Vermin -- To see vermin crawling in your dream, signifies sickness and trouble. You may also be faced with many disappointments and obstacles.
i'm fucking crazy.
you know what to do.
i supposed i won't actually be happy until i move out of this house. yeah, i finished school, i have no pressing responsibilities, but everytime i come home, a feeling of oppressing dread washes over me. (ironically, this will be the same feeling i encounter constantly when i am living on my own and struggling to pay rent.) and i don't know what's getting to me more... being here, or knowing that right now i am unable to get myself out of here, due to age and lack of funds. i have thirty-three days to wait until my eighteenth birthday, and i have given up all volunteering plans i made for this summer because i just can't afford to not be making money.
in other news, since i don't really have a car anymore (thank goodness!), i've been living in silver spring via buses and trains as opposed to bowie like last summer. this is in addition to my permanent bed in hyattsville. i actually don't want to do anything except get the fuck out of this house; it's unhealthy.
yesterday i bought my first box of lychees for this year (and got rear-ended at whole foods. fuck silver spring, fuck driving in silver spring), and ate them at franklins with half the staff playing M*A*S*H* late, late into the night on the back of my photographs. it was fun. today i slept so much and have work in two hours. depressing day.
for the first time in months i am feeling some closure. perhaps the end of may signified reaching the farthest ends of some merciless vacuum, things are reconstructing beautifully - evening out, and in this time the soul has struggled and learned and breathed at all speeds, from whispers to rocket sounds.
i graduate high school in an hour and a half. it's about fucking time.
- Current Music:modest mouse
so i'm thinking,
should i redye my hair?
yes no yes no?
- Current Music:brazilian girls
currently reading: the time of indifference [moravia], brave new world [huxley] (for class).
recently completed: wuthuring heights [bronte] (for class), the importance of being earnest [wilde] (for class).