parting is such sweet sorrow...

happy birthday siblings!!

2005-12-21T13:13:52Z

oh, fuck this. i had just typed a few paragraphs and i accidentally clicked something and it went to a different page so its all wiped out. so stuff writing it all out again.
wenyang had her bday party on sunday (she is turning 10 tomorrow, wooh double digits) and wenmin had her birthday sleepover yesterday (she is turning 13 on friday. wow she is going to be a teenager) sooo happy birthday to both of them. megan slept over last night cos i didnt want to be the only year 12 (oh my gosh im a year 12 now!!!) hanging out with a bunch of 13 and 14 year olds. lol. haha. it was pretty fun, megan and i went bike riding around keilor park to see all the christmas light displays, some of them are really beautiful and extravagant. it was a really hot night so it was good to ride around in the dark and stuff. good exercise too. though the bike i had was a bit small so now my arse really hurts.. great. it was actually quite funny cos when we got back all of the girls and us played tongues (card game which is spoons except u stick out ur tongue) and had cake and played sardines and stuff. ha, ha, yeah i am sooo mature. =] it cooled down after awhile so we were outside, megz and i went to bed like 3ish and the other girls ithink didnt sleep til about 5:30. today i didnt do anything at all, i picked wenyang up from school, played cards, watched tv, ate. thats about it.
change in my timetable for next year yet again, i am still doing 3 subjects at school, but instead of literature i will be doing studio arts at school instead. soo i have to do literature outside of school, the classes are on wednesday evenings which is kinda sucky. but still... at least i get to do it in a class. i am so glad- megan is staying at brunswick! and also we are both doing media at CAE yay =) so we will be in the same class. i cant believe the year is practically over. shit, year 12. how scary.
ohh- my greatest accomplishment to date- last week or something wenmin came home and she was like, ohh marian told me that you did the best in the class. and i was like, omg really?!?!? cos i just got over 40, and i really wasnt expecting to get the best results and stuff. wow. =)
hmm, well, it is past 12 so happy 10th birthday wenyang =) tomorrow (i mean today,) i have to go pay fees in the city, and probably get aorund to buying some xmas pressies for the family. tho i have no idea what to get. still havent gotten round to checking out the DFO at essendon airport yet- probably see the trading hours and go soemtime soon. friday maybe.
ohh my room is sooooo clean i have cleaned the whole thing. except for that one compartment in my closet but its all junk which i never use anyway so its all good!! ohh and i need to stick more stuff on my walls, im aiming to have every inch of my walls covered in posters or postcards etc, right now i think i have about a third of the room done. yay =]
anyway i am tired, having only gotten about 7 hours sleep compared to what i get now during the hols (like 10 hours!!) sooo gonna go to bed... merry christmas!!!!!

OMG!! treachery!!

2005-12-16T13:26:48Z

OMG i am going to KILL LUCY!!!!! oh my freaking god. ARGH! i cant believe she did that!! how dare she. okay, so i just found out that lucy made out with the hot mark guy from strathmore venturers. aaand shes still going out with ged. (tho she hasnt told him yet) oh my god i am soo cut/sad because i was like totally in love with him (mark i mean, despite meeting him on only several occasions.) argh! *cries* aah its not fair!! ohh my life is over. that is sooo unfair. says ainsley, 'i know, you shoulda given him those flowers when u had the chance at scouts...dammit' which is like sooo true (but long story) lol. sigh. things never work out the way you want them to.

soo, results are out.

2005-12-12T09:41:49Z

yup, got my vce scores today. even though i only had 2 year 12 subjects. and i must say i did pretty well... haha. i mean, i got over 40 for theatre and almost 40 for history (kinda) =D excellent...
so i assume that if i actually work really hard next year then i should do better and yeahhh but i am quite proud of myself. im proud of everyone else too cos they all did fantastical too from what ive heard, alot of over-40s. =) good for you. hope people havent been freaking out too much and all that. =)
i put up the christmas tree on saturday and decorated the house on sunday =)
also on sunday we went and watched wenmins first dancing concert at Kew high or whatever its called. it was very fun although we just had to miss half of it because as usual we were late D: because wenyang was at state finals for her little athletics at olympic park. gosh sometimes i hate that child she is good at everything.
ive been so bored lately ive taken to practicing the piano for hours almost every day. well tis good cos i can tell ive improved i guess. but anyway.. i need to go out more now. actually today i went with mum + the kids to watch ellie and bens performance at kinder. it was all very cute (and disorganised!) with all the kindy kids wearing funny costumes and all that. and i walked yang and lily home from school. bah this how exciting my life is =P
anyway... darn i was going to walk around the neighbourhood and look at the christmas displays that heaps of houses put up but nooo its too windy so im not going cos ppl wont put their decorations up in this weather. heh.
it gets dark at 9:00 that is sooo awesome!

im 16 and loving it

2005-12-09T13:17:27Z

was my birthday on tuesday =)
it was awesome, first megan and i saw the 4th harry potter movie, which rocked!!! even though they missed out on alot of stuff, and some of the characters were portrayed crappily, or so i thought. anyway then we met up with other ppl from school and we went out for dinner =) they even got me a cake with candles and sang happy birthday in front of the whole restaurant, awesomeness. then i slept over at megans which was funny. we might even do the pact again this year. though last year it sucked =P hmm then i havent done much since. wednesday i didnt go to piano lessons cos i was too tired and pretended to sleep for ages, haha. thursday did nothing as well (yes i certainly am making good use of my holidays) and today i went to thereses house. we ate canned spaghetti (yes how odd) and we watched aladdin!! but the dvd stopped working halfway through which SUCKED! =( so then therese taught me how to play backgammon or wahtever its called. i won one game (even though we only played two, haha)
tonight i had my last venturer meeting for the year which was hilarious. all the 17th essendon soucts were having their last night today at the hall too, so we hung out at the pizza place down the road and i ate lots of packets of sugar =) the pizza was sucha ripoff (though i didnt eat any) they made ppl pay $32 for two large pizzas, also cos we 'ate in the shop' and we 'used their plates'. thats soooo fucked up so we are never going there again. it was a nice night, not cold at all. then we ran around on the oval n stuff. it was funny cos i helped ains avoid tom all night cos he likes her (gah she was so silly on camp i must admit) and according to lucy he was gonna ask her out and we were all like pfft loser so yeah.. i do feel a tad sorry for him tho.
oh gosh! lucy is going out with ged. (who used to do scouts with us) wowww she is like the only one out of us venturer chicks with a boyf except katherine c. lucky ducky. haha venturers is such a laugh. steph and i decided we r going clubbing on the hols. yay =)
i have been sickish since i came back from camp last weekend. sucks. D:
wenmins dancing concert is on sunday i think. prolly will be fun to watch. i wanna go to the DFO sometime soon and buy stuff =)
darnit i was gonna say something else but i just suddenly forgot it. fuck i hate that.
ohh shit vce results on monday. farkk i am sooo scared!
anyway am gggoing, comment plz have a good wknd etc.

woohoo!! its my 16th tomorrow!!!

2005-12-05T13:23:47Z

yay =)
it is my birthday tomorrow, i turn 16 =D finally!! boy it feels sooo weird, i mean i am turning 16 tomorrow and im going to be in year 12 next year, actually i kinda am already yr 12 cos school is over.. and then compare me to everyone else who is like turning 18 in a few months. weird!! since im not gonna be home tomorrow dad bought me a cake and the whole family sang happy bday for me just before yay!
aaanyway therese took me out on thursday. it was still a suprise, and we got all dressed up nicely with dresses and she curled my hair, and guess where she took me, to the regent to see the lion king!!!!!!!! woww.... it was sooooooo awesome and i cant believe she spent that much money on me cos tickets were like $100 wow. anyway we were slightly overdressed and people kept looking at me like the paranoid person that i am, but yeah it was alright even though i could barely walk when we were going home cos my heels were hurting me. wow it was soo good everyone should go see it =)
friday i went to vic gathering which in all was quite fun though i must say not as good as i was expecting it to be. aanyway we met at the hall at like 4:30 damn early, and then yeah we got there at like 7:00 or something. the freaking boys stole the spot where lucy and i were gonna put our tent so we had to have anohter freaking spot where the ground was really hard and it took us like an hour to put our freaking hike tent up D: anyway at least we got them up before it got dark and started pouring down rain. the place was alrigth but then it started pissing down rain for the whole night which sucked. oh and lol i saw christo from school there it was soo weird, i was like wtf i didnt know u were a venturer n stuff. anyway i saw a few other people i knew.. uhummm... which in parts was quite funny/embarrassing. but yeh only lucy knows about that, anyway.. yeah... in the disco thingy i was wearing my ramones top and this guy dragged his friend over to me and was like wow u guys have almost the same top, and then they went away. anyway steph and i thought the guy wearing the ramones top was really hot... so yeh the whole weekend we were trying to talk to him but he wasnt ever alone and he was always with a whole group of scary looking people so we didnt wanna go up and be liek HI! and look like idiots or soemthing. lol.. *sigh* i didnt get any sleep the first night. then at 8:30 in the morning steph and i thought we should get a few hours sleep so we could stay up again the next night, so we got two huors of sleep, then joined the others in activites. yay i went on a camel ride =D plus other stuff. soooo glad it didnt rain the next night cos that wouldve sucked. soo annoying, cos on thursday it was freaken 34 degrees then it was freaking cold all weekend. lol lucy steph flick and i sand 'youre the one that i want' for karaoke, in front of heaps of people and it was funny cos we were shit. saturday night everyone wanted to go to bed even htough i didnt so yeah, didnt get to stay up that late, only til like 3:00, everyone wanted to sleep in the hall place, so we slept there, which was warm but really sucked cos there was about 50 people there for the whole time and it was noisy and the other people were soo irritating. i got like 3 hours of sleep there and some girl like fell onto my legs and almopst freaken squashed me, and in the morning there was some other chick trying to wake everyone who was sleeping up, and then these stupid bunch of guys who wanted to draw on peoples faces but turned out they were too pussy to go through with it so they just chucked stuff at us. grr. anyway in the morning lucy and i went on the 'confidence course' which was a crappy initiative course and we watched stuff and yeah then we went home. blah. heheh i was soooo tired i ate then i slept when i got home and i woke up at 9 cos wenyang kept poking me cos i was in her bed and for some reason i thought it was monday morning but then i had a shower and then went back to bed and woke up around 10 this morning yay =) stayed at home today cos i was tired as.
oh wow its 12:03am, i am now 16. shiiiiit. im like.. legal now. lol. megan and i are seeing the 4th harry potter movie tomrrow. yay i am so excited =) then we have to meet people at 5:30 at flinders for my bithrday dinner which is suposed to be formal but i dont want to wear formal clothes but if i dont everyone will be tearing at my throat lol. oh welli guess they organised it i guess im obliged to wear freakin formal and kill my feet wearing heels. ehh. some birthday aye =D but yeh atl east i get to see evryone yay who i haevnt seen for like 2 weeks. thats if anyoneactually goes. pfft formal, none of the guys will dress up and ill feel like a total prat walking around in a long dress but yeah hopefully the girls will be wearin formal stuff so i wont be by myself. woohoo!
anyway i had better go cos i need to be up at like 10 tomorow. the other day i was supposed to meet therese and i was 1 and a half hours late and she almost killed me. haha. anyway wish me a happy birthday =D

oh my 16th birthday is soon!

2005-11-30T12:51:04Z

yay! its my birthday next tuesday =) i will finally be 16!!! ohh i am going to be sooo old. =) weird really since im going to be in year 12 next year!
havent done much this week. FINALLy finished my assemblage for art on sunday and handed it in to school on monday (despite me having no more school) tuesday... didnt do anything, stayed home. today i went to the city with therese. unfortunately we were supposed to meet at 11... but i uhm, woke up at 11 =D sooo i got there at 12:30.. haha.. just a bit late aye. she was quite grumpy but yeah she got over it.
after tonight im not gonna see my siblings or dad til sunday evening. cos tomorrow therese is taking me out somewhere for my birthday suprise. awesomeness, i stil dunno where were going tho, but i haveta bring my bathers and a formal dress. how odd. anyway i am excited about it. noone has ever planned a suprise for me before =D then on friday we're going to vg.. which should be fun but i hope it doesnt rain cos i have these purdy new shorts i bought today which i wanna wear. rain isnt fun.. except when u dance in it =D
my birthday thing is on tuesday, which is my real birthday. linh is organising it bless her. she wants us to have dinner in the city and dress up all formal and stuff. so yeah thats what we're doing. of course i wouldnt have objected to a nice party but then noone would offer their house (i dun like my house for parties) yeahhh . linh has become a birthday nazi, and she even got angry at me cos i was like 'yeh i havent invited any of my other friends yet' and she was liek 'well can you tell me how many u think might go cos i need numbers so i can book the restaurant rarrr rarrr rarrr!!!!' haha. i can tell shes really frustrated about it. anyway i hope people show up, Not like my birthday last year where i invited people to see a movie and like 4 people showed up *feels unloved* haha! anyway i am a bit frustrated cos we r supposed to meet at 5:30 on tuesday (which i said isnt that rather early for dinner?!?!?!?1) which also means i wont see my family at all all day. boo. aaanyway i cant beluieve its actually the holidays, fuck, and i havent even gotten round looking for a job yet. sheesh such a slacker. oh coool i have a proper desk in my bedroom now =) but it also means i now have like 2 metres of walking space. my room is really messy, so i started redecorating my walls. i need more posters.
aaanyway gonna gooo now my dad is yelling at me soo will update later like in a few days =D

schools out for summer, schools out forever! well maybe not forever...

2005-11-24T13:48:51Z

fuck yes school is over for the year!
far out i am soo glad. even though i have to finish my art on the weekend and give it in to school on monday. lol.
exams = over =) art on monday was actually quite easy =) just basically what we went over last lesson. actually it was the year 2000 year 12 exam. geez ms sciacca is lazy. literature on monday actually turned out ok, i wrote about 7 pages. i think i wrote a great essay on sylvia plath but a shit one on tim winton =( oh well. maths methods on tuesday was... okay... i guess.. i dunno, i practically studied all the wrong stuff D: oh well. just glad its over. i think the seat that i sat in was jinxed, cos i sat in seat A5 for my chemistry exam which i stuffed up, and i sat in the same one for my methods and i didnt do too well too! wooo jinxed. or maybe its cos i was destined to fail those ones cos i didnt study. hrmm..
anyway i actually went to school today, we went to the city. i went to the top of the rialto which was very nice, awesome view. can u believe its like only the 2nd time ive been there, and the first being when i was like 5 years old. heh. anyway. i cant believe school is officially over, and i wont see any of my younger-yeared friends for like 2 months! well actually lol i will prolly see them on the weekend cos its the school fete thingymajig. but after that i wont see them for 2 months!! sigh!
had piano lessons tonight. they werent that bad consdiering i havent practiced for like 4 weeks... hmm.. cos of 'exams'... hahah. anyway i STILL cant bloody tell the difference between duple and triple time =( i just cant listen and get it =(
ohhh guess what, neraj asked linh out yesterday. gawks. so cute, even though she said she wanted to get to know him better before anything else. so they went on a date tonight. omg. sounds awesome aye, specially to me who has only ever gone on one date in my whole life. and it didnt really count since we were already going out.. lol.
mannn i feel so bad going out with linh and thuy cos theyre hot and im not. lol. on tuesday night a few of us went to melbourne central to watch a movie. shas, linh, thuy, david, haoming, aaron and ben saw Saw 2.. which i think they enjoyed. while eugene and i saw the corpse bride. lol im such a wimp.i thought euge was one of those 'omg saw 2!!!' guys but turns out hes not.. anyway i thoroughly enjoyed the movei and i hadnt even seen one at the cinemas since like literally term one! anyway. afterwards linh thuy and i hung out for awhile, we went to this cafe on swanston, and this whole bunch of guys sat opposite us, there was only 1 good looking one and thuy was the only one he looked at, bah! then afterwards at flinders the florist dude so obviously liked thuy even though she didnt really notice cos she was looking at her purse but she was all excited about it later. ohh the inadequacies of life.
which reminds me of those movies madaline nan and i made in year 9. they were all about different forms of inadequacies (for philosophy) and we all acted in them and they were hilarious!
there i go blathering on again as usual... woohooo holidays =) darnit random people keep calling me on my mobile but i have no idea who they r cos i keep missing them and i have no credit to call back. i havent had credit for like 2 months... and actually dad gave me money to buy credit but i spent it on new pants... heh, heh.. so i just have to go without it. i feel a bit bad cos people probably think i am ignoring them when i dont msg back, heh.
holidays. time to get a job, time to get organised, time to clean my room. time to party down. soo many things i wanna do these hols! and its also time to sleep =) its like almost 1 am in the morning!

art is fun!

2005-11-20T13:01:14Z

yay therese and i saw the british art from the 60s exhibiton today at the ngv international. it was fantabulous! awesome, i loved it. sigh... everyone shuold go see it. i love art. aaron sucks cos he doesnt like pop art. linh sucks cos she doesnt like pop art. (lol...)
i love watching those busker people at southbank who tie themselves up in bags and then escape. today there were also these guys who were rather odd, one was on a unicycle and the other was using a pogo stick.
yeah school tomorrow sucks, art exams and literature exam, yeah and i screwed up on my chemistry exam on friday but i am just glad thats over.
argh i should have studied more. i dont want to go to periods 1 and 2 tomorrow cos i have private study and i want to sleep in, on the other hand i havent studied much D:
gosh, only 3 more days of school left! (thursday not included.) thursday they give out awards for each subject, and i hope i'll get one for something but i really doubt it cos i am not outstanding at anything, except perhaps art.. oh wait no linh is better than me D: grr. goshdarnit. =D oh i cant wait til harry potter comes out!!!! jesus christ i am so excited! its gonna be awesome.
therese is taking me out for my birfday which is on the 6th dec! tho she is taking me somewhere on the 1st. in like 2 weeks i will be 16! oh i am going to be so old, strange really considering everyone will turn 18 in a few months.. eep, anyway i am excited and she wont tel me where we are going. oh yay!
oh and lol on friday we elected people for unit council at venturers. i am the treasurer wooohoooo cos im awesome. geez i hoep i wont actually have to do anything. dammit it means i have to go early at the start of every month! i like exclamation marks!!!!!
sheezers i cant wait for my birtdhay i cant wait til the holidays. i am going to party so hard, but not really since i say that every holiday and end up doing nothing!!!

oh wowsers, my life is over

2005-11-17T11:43:11Z

yeah. so like... my life is over. uhmm no not really i just wish this chemistry exam was over and done with.. i want to do well... but i know i just cant be bothered since im dropping it next year HOORAY! its the best part about it. yeh... soo i have 4 year 11 exams left. im not too worried about any of them.. even though i should be. argh chemistry is sooo damn hard!! i hate stoichiometry!! i hate acids and bases! i hate gases! i hate reduction and oxidation and corrosion! *sigh*, though i cant help thinking thar it mightve been easier if i had actually studied everything like i was supposed to, but yeah im just glad that after this damn exam i never have to touch another chemistry book again!!
ohh today in art i actually almost finished my assemblage! yes, the one ive been working on ALL semester. haha! i feel accomplished. it looks soo cool! but i have to finish another one by next week.. and i have to do it all at home cos i dont have any more art classes. hooray. D:
oh lol i just said the stupidest thing to coblin: 'oh baby i cant wait for exams to start!' when i really meant 'i cant wait for the HOLIDAYS to start.' lol... boyy i worry too much about exams.
ohh i have no friends! lol. well.. anyway noone is ever at school anymore, today at lunch i couldnt find anyone so i walked around with christo for the whole time, and he is in year 9. and then we ended up talking to sam and this other dude who are in year 8. great, huh? ohh my life is soo sad!! heehee
oooh yuesterday it was my parents 20th anniversary. they didnt do anything. so i baked two batches of cookies (but from those boxes)hehe. they are yummy.. mm chocolate!!!!
(whoa i keep saying 'oh') hmm in other news daniel broke his wrist playing basketball today. poor thing. lucky it was his left aye!! but then.. if it had been his right he prolly wouldnt have had to do his exams. lol. still, if he broke it at the end of lunch he could at least have told a teacher so he couldve gotten to the hospital sooner.
yes.. and something that shows the crap-crap-crappiness of brunswick secondary.. today at recess haoming sprained his ankle (also playing basketball i think?)and it was all swollen and stuff, but guess what, there was not one single ice-pack in the whole bloody school. lol!!! kinda funny really, but kinda not when you think about haoming, and he had an exam next as well. heh..
okily dokily uhmm yeh... i am procrastinating again.. haha. yeah, post a comment otherwise i'll think youre extremely rude.. =D

i finally painted my nails black.

2005-11-15T12:32:33Z

well.. linh did, on satruday when i did go over to her house. actually we went to highpoint first, incidentally we were both like an hour late, we were supposed to meet at 11... heh. anwyay umm yeah lol i got a bit lost cos i hadnt been there in ages and theres all new shops and stuff. but it was cool. i got ripped off at lunch i was soo annoyed, haha. anyway then afterwards we went back to her house (shit she does live like at least an hour away from everywhere) and we watched movies and then thuy came over at like... 8:30? even tho she was suppsoed to get tehre like 4.. haha. i wasnt gonna sleep over but then i couldnt be bothered going home so i stayed. we watched lots of movies.. we watched bloody mary which scared me majorly cos im a total wimp and i cant stand anything remotely scary.. then we got attacked by a spider so we didnt sit on the floor for ages. while we were watching big fish the power cut out and we had to go outside to fix it. thuy and i ganged up on linh and drew on her face with red lipstick but then linh rubbed it all on me so then my arms were all stained red. lol. anyway on sunday i meant to get home at like 2pm, but i ended up staying til past 6 when dad came and picked me up. hah... bit silly really cos all we did was watch more movies and i shouldve been doing homework. yup.. so thats the story of my life. yes.. i realised i am really paranoid!! and i frequently jump to conclusions and then freak myself out. long story.
aanyway. monday.. i only got to school period 4 cos i missed the bus.. (didnt have class 1+2) but it was just art so yeh.. i worked on my assemblage which i have been working on all semester and i still havent finished... and theres basically only 1 more week of school and i need to finish another one.. yeah im stuffed =D in literature i had to do my SAC on a reivew of the Sculptress inclass cos i was lazy and hadnt done it despite it being due a few weeks ago.
well well well there was no school today because of the teacher strikes protests about industrial relations etc. i shouldve gone out i wanted to see the protest but i couldnt be botehred. soo stayed home. boring. i kinda cleaned my room and freaked myself out cos i thought i lost my diary and then realied i just hadnt been looking in the most obvious places. geez.
i watched so much tv today. im turning into a couch potato. =(
for a minute before i was excited cos the strokes were coming to aus but then i realised it was just to sydney or soemthing =( rar!!
anwyay. hopefully im going to BDO next year.. havent got tickets.. wenj expects me to buy his cos he bought mine this year but i have no money =( ohh i cant wait to see franz ferdinand.. yay!

omg i am celebrating

2005-11-11T13:04:04Z

shiiit! history is OVER! helllll yes i am so damn excited. we had our exam today, 3:00-5:15pm which is such a shit time since i was freaking out all day but good since i got to study in the morning and stuff.
aanyway i studied soo much for it. well, in the apst few days anyway. like 5 hours on wednesday, 5 hours on thursday and 5 hours today. well i studied other times to but this was when i was studying for it in depth. and still.. i forgot dates n shit. ohh boy. well i am just glad its over, i was practically hyperventilating wheni got in ther. i seriously cant tell whether i did well or not! like,.. for the theatre exam i came out and i was like wow i did pretty well... but then i thought about the questions.. and how i could have answered them.. and theni realised i had left out alot of stuff. anyway.. history... i can never tell. i think i did alright.. which m,eans it probably didnt go that well. in any case i am glad i never have to touch another history book ever again!

this week was kinda shit. i mean, i was only planning on doing 4 subjects next year... and then i found out two of my subjects clashed, literature and studio art. and i wanna do both, and there are no other subjects i want to do at school cos school offers shit all subjects. soo whats gonna happen is im goign to do literature at school and im going to do studio arts at the CAE in the city. thingy. or soemthing like that anyway. hopefully it will be alright. ohh that means i am only going to do 3 subjects at school next year! wowsers. yeah... and i was thinking of doing another subject outside of school, probably media. brunswick sucks! we have practically noo subjects! yeah.. media sounds fun, if i do do another subject next year.. making it 5.. i'll have 7 subjects altogether. bit much maybe but i wanna do the best i possibly can. although having another subject might just make me stress out.
and im off rambling again. linh wants me to go to her house tomorrow. it was a shit day today, all rainy and horrible. well it was actually quite nice but i think most days are nice. i wanna go shopping tomorrow! i wanna go to highpoint and see all the pretty new shops. i actually have money, like $20. i need more clooothes!
venturers tonight was okay. we are electing new people for unit council. noone wants to be unit chairman lollll.
gosh. i cant believe school is over in two weeks, this year has gone so damn quickly.... really cant believe it!!!

yeah colourbars are so pretty, and im bored. comment on my last entry if ya want.

2005-11-08T12:18:14Z

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ohhh i cant wait for the 4th harry potter movie to come out! im so excited!!! yay!!!

!!!!!

2005-11-08T11:23:45Z

omg i cant wait til this damn history exam is over... its bloody killing me and eating away at my insides =(
eeeh.
stupid literature. i havent done that stupid assignment yet.
and another thing, for next year, literature and studio arts clashes. fuck this!! im sooo annoyed since i am probably doing only 4 subjects next year, which now means that i will probably only do 3 subjects at school next year, and im probably going to do studio arts at CAE next year. 'center for adult education'. gawks... my life is so over. =( =( =(
im Really freaked out...
and i dont want to have piano lessons tomorrow!
i want to go shoppingggg... and i also wish bloody year 11 exams were over and it was the hols already.
its about... 28?!?! days til my birthday!! ohh awesomeness.. im going to be... 16 =D yay! i feel like Such a child sometimes.. probably because i am one aye.
im actually going away somewhere these hols, have i mentioned that? im going to adelaide for like a week. oh joy.
anwyay..year 12 exams are almost over, i think everyone is really happy about this (well duh!) linh and i are trying to think of some ideas for our muck up day next year, since we dont really have one at school and the past year 12s havent done very much.
hmm... i should be doing my work sooooooo im off

DAMN YOU WINAMP!

2005-11-04T13:05:22Z

stupid winamp wont let me listen to music. i clicked on a song and then it started going through the whole playlist really quickly. stuff that. im angry now.
theatre went okay...i guess... well obv i coulda done better,... but its over now and i cant do anythign about it so yeah! im jsut sooo glad its over. though i am going to miss acting next year.
boo. noone is talking to me on msn!
linh wants me to go to the beach with her tomorrow. i dunno if i can be bothered.... D:
and i need to study for history which is next friday, oh my god scary.
on sunday i think therese and i are seeing this art exhibiton at the ngv, its 60s art from london. sounds cool... =D i am soo excited. although i still wonder whether going out this weekend is okay or not.. since i am going to stuff up my history, unless i study majorly hard. eek!
except i want to go shopping, really badly! argh. yes, even with my lack of money.
partay last friday was quite fun (did i mention that?)
the dandy warhols was excellent... soo fun =D and it was all free yay.
oh and i need a job. hurrah. dammit i wanna go shopping now.
maybe i'll watch a movie before i go to bed.. nah that prolly isnt a good idea cos i have to leave at 11 tomorrow. but i want to watch a movie!! argh!!

OH MY GOD!!!!

2005-11-01T10:50:41Z

jesus christ. i am SSOOOOOOO nervous!!! my theatre exam is tomorrow. like the real thing. gosh, i cant believe it, like everything ive done this year all comes down to this one exam i take. (well.. actually i think its just worth like 33% but still scary) argh!!!!!!! i am sooo slack ive hardly studied all weekend, and its like.. tomorrow. i still cant really believe it... but i am really nervous i feel like spewing. but not really... though i might tomorrow when i get to school. lucky it starts at 9:00 so i get it over and done with, i just hope im not late like i normally am.
the thing that sucks is that it finished at 10:45, so that means i'll have to go to literature. D: im debating whether i should or shouldnt stay for it, but i probably should because ive already missed like over 6 periods (and we have that stupid system where we can only miss 5) but on the other hand i havent done my assignment which we prolly havta hand in tomorrow. ah, well.
and then the good thing is that tomorrow afternoon therese and i are going to see the dandy warhols, yay! at the vic market 5-7pm. tis free so yayness.
anyway back to talking about theatre. i hope i do ok on it.. i should, seeing as i have like an A average in the SACs (whoo go me) and i did pretty well on the practice exams.. and ive actually studied (kinda) this time. i hope everyone else is ok and doesnt freak out and die during the theatre exam. we are allowed to draw pictures to illustrate our points! hooray.. though i do think marking you on how creative and imaginative you are is a bit silly.. but yeah.
i (well, my legs) stayed out in the sun today for too long, the couch was outside since dad was cleaning the carpet, so i was lying on the couch reading, and my legs were in the sun while the rest of me was in shade, and yeah after awhile it got too hot so i went inside and realised my legs were all red and splotchy and looked kinda diseased. lol. it was a bit gross.. actually very gross... but they look ok now and are kinda tanned now. heh.
ok back to business... im gonna go study for another 2 hours or so before i go to bed. wish me luck for tomorrow!!!!!

franz ferdinand rocks!!

2005-10-29T07:30:59Z

yeah. anyway.. uhmm the last time i wrote was... last wednesday. the compy's been broken and only just got back from being fixed yesterday. soo.. my past week has been alright. friday was of course muck up day, and brunswich being tight and all that the year 12s didnt really do anything. except with ellie and stuff 'kidnapping' mr mckinnon. lol. it was so funny though, she put an announcement over the pa system saying 'mr mckinnon has been kidnapped! we need your help in finding him! please bring him back, his family misses him' which was quite hilarious, with her sound effects of sirens and all that. im suprised the office people actually let her use it =P the assembly afterwards was quite sad, afterwards when i was saying goodbye to everyone they were all bawling and that made me wanna cry too. eeh.
i cant even remember what i did last weekend. oh yeah.. friday night was trivia night at rovers. which was pretty fun although my table sucked, but it was okay anyway. the questions were all hard. so liam jenna ainsley and i spent the whole time drawing on the table and making up stupid stories. heehee. on saturday linh called me and she was annoyed at me cos she wanted me to go out with her and thuy but i couldnt be bothered.
tuesday afternoon we had a practice exam for history. geez, i did really shit. which means i am sooo stuffed for the real thing, which is on november 11th. still.. i havent studied yet, so i figure if i actually study i might do okay =P on wednesday it was the annual school concert at the clocktower in moonee ponds. the whole day was devoted to going there an rehearsing, even though i was only doing backstage for rock eisteddfod. which was good cos i missed out on school =D the music was actually pretty good, i do love listening to the concert/stage bands and stuff. that night the performance went pretty well. i still find it funny that wenmin plays keybord in two bands- the percussion and pop band, and shes like the only girl with like 7 other guys. lol. not counting the girls that sing in the pop band tho. and im rambling. so yeah.
the rest of the week went alright. very boring. as usual. yesterday night jenna was getting her green cord, so i went to scouts for about an hour, and ains+ lucy+karen were there so it was pretty fun. also it was aubz 17th birthday yesterday, happy birthday aubrey. the guys organised an apartment in the city to have his party at, and i met megan after i went to scouts, and then we went there and rocked up about 9:30. we had trouble finding the freakin place, 51 little bourke, we were freaken wandering around for ages and noone would pick up their phone. when we finally got there everyone was already soo wasted. quite funny and wouldve been even more hilarious if i had been sober enough to have fun, stupidly as soon as i got there i skulled a few glasses of straight vodka which really wasnt the best thing so i spent the night stumbling around in a daze. great. uhmm it was quite funny though. lollll i beat james at arm wrestling cos i rock. thuy was sooo gone, like it was the first time shed ever been drunk, so she got really aggressive and then spent the whole night screaming and crying. eeh. megz nan liza and i caught a taxi home, i went to megans house, and i felt sooo sick. i feel sorry for poor megan as she had to look after me while i was trying not to spew. when we got up today we made chocolate chip cookies =D which was fun. im not sure what im doing for the rest of this long weekend, prolly nothin. except i think a few of us are planning to meet up so we can study for theatre. which is on wednesday. fuck. i havent touched my theatre stuff for like two weeks. =|
i feel sorry for year 12s!! just think about it, thats gonna be me in a yearrs time. its too scar5y to even think about. im havingn a nervous breakdown now and im only doing two year 12 subjects.
anyway. melb cup is on tuesday, have fun everyone and study for your exams!!!

why cant we just play the other game, why cant we just look the other way

2005-10-19T13:31:18Z

another week has passed, hurrah. only about...6? more weeks til school ends =D
friday was fun, movie night at venturers =D lol. i got less than half an hours sleep and then they made us leave at 7 freaken 30 in the morning!!! i almost died, but then i slept from 9:30-1:30 when i got home. lol, we watched 10 things i hate about you (omg heath ledger is soo gorgeous), team america (which REALLy isnt as funny as everyone thinks it is), brother bear (as cute as this movie is, why did we watch it?), predator (i didnt watch this cos it looked boring. and scary.), and then troy (which was actually alright.) we all wanted to watch the rocky horror picture show but booo the dvd didnt work =( and then i had to catch a bus home which sucked. i was about 3 metres away from the bus stop and a bus went past D:
lucys partay on saturday night was quite fun. it was at her friend amandas house cos it was a joint party. it was a 60s/70s/80s dress up and i went as.. a punk (what else?) lol. all her friends were liek, wow u look so different than what you looked like at the formal. (well duh!) amandas house was so damn beautiful! they played old music for the whole night so that was quite funny and we all kept singing along. they all decided to use her spa at like 11:30 so i didnt get to go cos i didnt bring my bathers and besides i was wearing my irritatingly clunky boots and ripped stockings so by the time i was able to get in it prolly wouldve been time to go anwyay. lol. geez i write about the stupidest things.
whew. on monday we had a sub for lit so megz and i pretended we were going to the library to study and then we went to her house and baked peanut butter cookies. lol. it was fun =D damn i feel like such a housewife. yesterday i went to sportsgirl with leeno and courdy and we tried on stuff, which was fun. theres this little green dress which i really want, i tried it on and its sooo cute, but its $150. today i met therese and we walked around moonee ponds, and then after school finished we were supposed to meet joshy boy, so we waklked to the junction to meet him and he didnt show, so i got a bit annoyed and told therese id kick him in the shins tomorrow, but then we went to hungry jacks and josh turned up after awhile so its very sad, i cant kick him in the shins anymore. but still im glad he showed otherwise i wouldve yelled at him tomorrow, even more so than i usually do. =D
whoo!! tomorrow--- last history class tomorrrow!!! and last theatre class tomorrow!!! its gonna be fun, ihope. well history of course sucks and will always suck, early start as usual =( you know what is soo unfair? even though its our last official history class tomorrow, ms bevan is MAKING us year 11s come to class during swotvac. shes like, 'youre not in year 12 so you dont know what the pressure is like and i know you wont study for your exam during the time you have off so you have to come to normal classes' grr! though it will probably be helpful, since i am sooo not ready for the revs exam. grr!! but this year its a new course thingy, so supposedly they cant mark us too harshly otherwise it'll make them look bad.. so yeh...
theatre tomorrow should be fun, all we are doing is photocopying all our old SACs so we cant study them, and then we arre having a party =) and watching videos of tv shows that have marian in them =D which will be funny. we've been bugging her to show us those videos all year so it'll be good. supposedly she was in blue heelers, having a baby or soemthing (lol) and she was in an old maggi noodle ad where she couldnt stop making out with someone or soemthing. lol.
the school concert is next week, unfortunately this year im not doing anything for it =( the only thing im doing is backstage for rocker. boring! its at the clocktower... next... wednesday i think. i wanna do something for it! was soo good, last year our theatre class got to emcee for it which rocked =D our script was soo awesome.. sigh brings back so many funny memories. like me limping onstage because i was on crutches... megan and ellies autumn leaf dance... linh totally burning her knee from sliding on stage... and of course who could forget ophelia's legacy-- 'IF YOU TOUCH THE CURTAINS, YOU WILL DIEEEE!!!!' (and she was being really serious and yelling at all these year 7s n stuff, lol) gosh she was such an awful lady..everyone hated her. heehee.
anyway its all good and well to reminisce, but exams are in liek... two weeks. scary shit. geez. i really gotta study.
one thing which ive found very weird... everyone has a job! or, is in the process of getting a job! i mean- even JOSH and EUGENE might possibly be accepted for a job! gawd! thats soo weird.. theyre like.. the only two guys who you could never picture getting a job. and the job is $15 and hour- how good is that?
fuck, i have to carry my huge art folio to school tomorrow. i hate that- its so heavy!

push it in, break it off..

2005-10-12T13:29:27Z

whee, only another.. two days til the weekend. hurrah. omg my life is soooo damn boring, whinge whinge whinge!!
what have i done this past week... well... on sunday it was my darling linhs 17th birthday, happy birthday to you! geez she is sooo old. anwyay a bunch of us went to brighton beach even though it was like 16 degrees and windy. still it was alright, i kinda swam and it really wasnt that cold.. after you got used to it and your body was all numb =) grr i cut my foot on some rocks in the water and it hurtssss =( anyway i didnt have money.. so i made linh a card, fuck it took me like 2 hours to make lol, and i made three bracelets for her, one of them had her name on it in beads and she lost it in like... the first half an hour of me giving it to her. nice work. i made for her my first friendship bracelet ever, cos before her i havent had any friends (lol..) and anyway it turned out rather ugly cos i had to use crappy blue wool.. but she seems to like it.
grr i still havent finished my annoying artwork of painting a landscape in a box cos damn ms sciacca keeps making me do theory instead of doing prac. god she is such a freaken psycho.
lol last week all the year 11s (and the rest of the school in different periods) had this period long lecture from mr sgroi about how we supposed to wear correct uniform.. and not have mp3 players and ipods n stuff, and god i dont even remember, but it was really funny, and he kept saying how if we didnt get our act together and behave properly there would be no school for our children to go to.. he said it like in every sentence.. 'and if you dont do this, the school will close and there will be no school for your children to go to!!' blah blah blah. also he kept saying how if we went to a bank the bank tellers and accountants wouldnt have earphones on, so we shouldnt wear them. also how we were supposed to take care of the new interactive whiteboards installed in some rooms cos only like 3 schools get to have interactive whiteboards... or soemthing.. anyway it was really funny and a complete waste of time, but lucky us we got to miss out on lit =D
stupid ms pearson, today in literature she spoke to leeno and me after class saying that i had to talk more in class and shit.. whatever.
fuck i hate my parents sometimes. jesus christ. sooo damn fucken frustrating. like we did our subject selections and i think im only doing 4 subjects next year- studio art, literature, english and methods. since i am finishing two subjects this year. anyway my stupid mother keeps fucking pestering me and telling me to do another subject (chemistry.) although im still not sure whether i want to do 5 subjects next year cos i hate chemistry. i 'should' do chemistry because then i'll fucking have more fucking choices in what courses i do in uni. grr!!! i mean, i dont even want to consider doing anything science or maths related. oh my god its killing me. the only thing my mum talks to me about is whether ive practiced piano yet, whether i have started my homework, what subjects i am doing next year and most recently what fucking course i want to study in uni and then yelling at me about everything. not that its suprising or anything. just the usual drivel of telling me how everyone is smarter than me and so forth. i really dont know what i want to do as a career, i really havent looked at anything other than soemthing like journalism. actually what id most like to do is become a fashion desginer but yes that industry is very difficult and i dont think you can go to uni for it. bah. and of course i cant tell my parents thats what i want to do, they just dont understand anything!! its so hard to explain. but they just see everything in such a biased, stereotypical view. ARGH! damn freaking expectations.
also which brings me to another point. my friends have absolutely no faith in me. its like they all think im completely stupid or something, they dont think i can do anything. i tell them what i want to achieve next year and they just laugh at me and tell me its impossible because i wont be able to do as well as other people, even if i work really hard. goddammit people make me SOOO angry. i feel so frustrated.
anyway that was a nice long rant...
and also, its lucys 16th birthday today. happy birthday lucy! her party is on saturday. which should be fun cos its a dress up =) 60s 70s and 80s themed. friday night for venturers we are having a movie night. lol.. sounds kinda lame but should be fun, i didnt go last week cos i was lazy.
hahaha today is a funny day. though i dont want to say anything without sounding like a total bitch. oh and it is andrew and caits 18 month today, wow! long time huh. megan was like, wow andrew.. thats like, two babies!! haha.
i went to megans house on monday after school. we were gonna study for our history SAC but we ended up baking a cake and taking photos of me with blood dripping from my mouth and washing the blood off my hands.. not real blood of course... =) the cake was yummy.
sorry this post was all over the place my mind is all jumbly at the moment.

hooray its over!

2005-10-05T10:43:28Z

YAY! OMG i am SOOOOO glad thats over and done with! whew.
okay so i was freaking out so much this morning... when i left the house at 7 i almost burst into tears.. dad dropped me off at megz house and megz mum drove us and linh there, we were the first people there. i was expecting other people from other schools to be there, but it turned out we were basically the only ones there, a bunch of people from other schools turned up just a little bit before we all had finished, but it wasnt as we had expected it to be, we expected about 50 other people walking around who were the same character as us, and then us feeling inadequate and dying. but it was alright! i spent ages writing my statement of intention when i shouldve been rehearsing.. but yeah everyone was getting ready.. and i was really nervous... and then suddenly it was my turn to perform! the most nerve wracking part wasnt the acting, it was just waiting outside the room for my turn. linh and zubeyda were on at the same time as me, but in different rooms, and i waited for sooo long, linh finished even before i had started. argh scary! anyway the assessors were quite nice... they helped me set up my chairs n stuff.. anyway. i think i did pretty well! but, i dont know if i did the best i have ever done, just because i have done it so many times they all seem kinda the same!! in any case im quite proud of myself... the only thing is that i think i went a bit fast, and i didnt pause long enough in my long dramatic pauses. i think everyone seemed pretty happy with their monologues. afterwards i was talking to this girl from another school on the toilets, and she was like 'oh are you doing flora? thats a pretty popular choice, about 5 people from my class are doing her!' and i felt really weird, like... because i was so used to it just being people from my theatre class doing all different things, it just made me realise there will be literally hundreds of people performing the same monologue as me! and they will probably perform it better and more originally!! ahh!! but... i feel so free and unrestrained now! its awesome =) whew i have blathered alot on that for awhile havent i... but then again it was my first VCE exam!! fuck im glad thats over.

its monologue time!

2005-10-04T12:36:18Z

oh my god my monologue exam is tomorrow. im freaking out!!!!!! today when i rehearsed in front of everyone, for some reason i was nervous my legs started shaking and i couldnt stop it!! strange cos i usually dont get all shaky when im in front of my theatre class. so how am i gonna be tomorrow!??!?!?1
but- in 12 hours it will all be over. well, less than 12 hours. mine is at 9:36am, but we have to be there at EIGHT so we can get ready and pysche ourselves up n stuff. god. i am so scared.
in any case im so not going back to school afterwards.
school started on monday, sux. i still need to write my statement of intention. i did my history SAC today, glad i got it over and done with.
*freaks out and hyperventilates* argh! okay okay i have to be positive.. so im going to do really well tomorrow =) so think of me at 9:36am tomorrrow and wish me luck!!

i wont go getting tired of you

2005-09-28T13:10:11Z

fuck im so glad the theatre practice exam is over. but i think i did pretty shittly. like.. i didnt have my books at home cos i left them at school cos i didnt go on the last day of school so i couldnt bring them home. wow that was a long sentence. anyway so cos i didnt study i didnt know what to write for the questions, so i just made up stuff =( darnit i hate those questions with the stimulus pictures... how stupid is it that they mark us on how creative we can be?? grr. anyway its just a practice exam, doesnt count for anything. heh.
oh my god everyone is against me.
or maybe im just being paranoid. again =)
and i have a fuckload of homework to do before school starts. so i have 4 days. fuck! haha. well im glad most of its pretty easy. like i have to do my art, which is making a weird model thingy inside a drawer. the idea i have for this one is getting lots of pictures of women from magazines annd sticking them all over the box. and then getting a barbie doll and glueing it at the bottom of the drawer, if that makes sense. well if you have any better ideas for me then tell me huh?
i hate my new piano teacher D: die die die. not that ive had a lesson yet, but i was supposed to on monday and i went with my sisters and they had a shot but i didnt cos it was too late by then, but anyway judging from what i saw i hated it and i hated being there D: but i bet my parents wont let me have a new one, they considered it but decided against it cos we're pov and cant afford a better one for me =( =( =(
stupid stupid stupid.
freaken hell!! stupid daniel he has some of my notes for history which i wanted to look at and study but i cant get them now cos hes going away tomorrrow grrarrrr!
one good thing was that it rained tonight. well thats an understatement, it freaken bucketed down!! soo feggin awesome =D i love storms, it was all rainy and there was heaps of lightning and thunder and everything =D and i wanted to see the lightning better so i went outside with wenmin and yangsy and wenmin and i jumped and ran around in the rain on the street while it was all lightningy =D it was sooo fun!! and i got wet =P but we had umbrellas, but i still got wet =D it was really fun but then mum got angry at us and said we had to go inside haha.

awww i want Lee supatubes sooo badly! cept theyre like $140 and i am sooo poor! note to self: get a job.
yesterday i had rehearsals with marian. omg the exam is like IN A WEEK!!!! OH MY FUCKING GAWD. like LESS than a week cos its next wednesday... boy am i freaking out. anyway we discussed mine and i realised mine is CRAP! i have to change so much of it before next week.. oh my god. oh my god. im not going to make it arghhh and then i'll never get into Top Acts and then i'll diieeeee dieeeeee diiiiieeeeee!!! (i love being overdramatic)
shit this week has gone super fast. cant believe we gotta go back to school next week.
still... its only another 8 weeks till year 11 is well and truly over... yay!
wow i feel tired. and lol i started another jigsaw puzzle the other day (call me sad huh?) it is of tulips. omg its so hard everythings either red or green lol. anyway. oh i read the da vinci code the other day! (have i mentioned this?) oooh it was so awesome you should all read it =)

my wonderful monologue!!

2005-09-24T06:44:52Z

so here we go, my monolouge for my exam... which... is on october 5!!!like... next week!! omg. *freaks out.*

Monologue spoken by Flora from A Slight Ache by Harold Pinter. (darn it i dunno how to do italics for the blocking)

I say, you are perspiring, aren't you? Shall I mop your brow? With my chiffon? Is it the heat? Or the closeness? Or confined space? Or ...? [She goes over to him.] Actually, the day is cooling. It'll soon be dusk. Perhaps it is dusk. May I? You don't mind?
[Pause. She mops his brow.]
Ah, there, that's better. And your cheeks. It is a woman's job, isn't it? And I'm the only woman on hand. There.
[Pause. She leans on the arm of chair.]
[Intimately.] Tell me, have you a woman? Do you like women? Do you ever ... Think about women?
[Pause.]
Have you ever ... Stopped a woman?
[Pause.]
I'm sure you must have been quite attractive once. [She sits.] Not any more, of course. You've got a vile smell. Vile. Quite repellent, in fact.
[Pause.]
Sex, I suppose, means nothing to you. Does it ever occur to you that sex is a very vital experience for other people? Really, I think you'd amuse me if you weren't so hideous. You're probably quite amusing in your own way. [Seductively.] Tell me all about love. Speak to me of love.
[Pause.]
God knows what you're saying at this very moment. It's quite disgusting. Do you know when I was a girl I loved... I loved... I simply adored... What have you got on for goodness sake? A jersey? It's clogged. Have you been rolling in mud? [Slight pause.] You haven't been rolling in mud have you? [She rises and goes over to him.] And what have you got under your jersey? Lets see. [Slight pause.] I'm not tickling you, am I? No. Good... Lord is this a vest? That's quite original. Quite original. [She sits on the arm of his chair.] Hmmnn, you're a solid old boy, I must say. Not at all like a jelly. All you need is a bath. A lovely lathery bath. And a good scrub. A lovely lathery scrub. [Pause.] Don't you? It will be a pleasure. [She throws her arms around him.] I'm going to keep you. I'm going to keep you, you dreadful chap, and call you Barnabus. Isn't it dark, Barnabus? Your eyes, your eyes, your great big eyes.

[Pause.]
My husband would never have guessed your name, never. [She kneels at his feet. Whispering.] Its me you were waiting for, wasn't it? You've been standing waiting for me. You've seen me in the woods, picking daisies, in my apron, my pretty daisy apron, and you came and stood, poor creature, at my gate, till death us do part. Poor Barnabus. I'm going to put you to bed. I'm going to put you to bed and watch over you. But first you must have a good whacking great bath. And I'll buy you pretty little things that will suit you. And little toys to play with. On your deathbed. Why shouldn't you die happy?
[A shout from the hall.]

awesome, aint it? such a strange play, it is absurdist!! so i gather youre like, 'omg shes going to perform THAT?' yes well it is rather embarrassing to do, but its fun =) i just hope i do well on it. i had to type it up so i can print it and then write down my blocking n stuff.. so it looks like ive done some sort of process in working out how to perform it. i shouldve done this when i STARTED working on it but as im lazy.. ive left it all to the last minute!

havent done anything else all week, not suprisingly. ive stayed at home most of the time.. catching up with homework n stuff D: and i still have sooo much to do! argh! and theatre is on monday tuesday and wednesday, bloody hell. i dont even knows going to be on the SAC!
also it turns out i cant go to the show, cos noone wants to go with me =( theyre all like, 'yeh im too poor!!' oh well... at least i didnt waste money by going there.... =|
tuesday was the last piano lesson i had with my old piano teacher, cos shes moving away. i am very sad about this, i dont wanna go to another darn piano teacher! sigh =( and it'll probably turn out to be some stuck up teacher who will expect me to practice like at least an hour every night and then look down their nose at me because im not some child piano playing genius unlike their 7 year old daughter or whatever. i really hope its not someone like that!
its spring already! the weather is actually quite nice nowadays. except today isnt such a nice day cos its all gray. grand final day today! i dont know who will win and im not really barracking for either team, wenj is watching it atm and he goes for west coast so he is very enthusiastically shouting n stuff. ha!
im a bit annoyed- around two weeks ago i cleaned up my room, and suddenly its all messy! i swear the room just makes itself messy. i cant keep it clean! actually its probably just all the clothes strewn across the room.. if i pick them up the room will be relatively clean.. but eh whaddya gonna do.
shas called before to see if i wanted to go to the state library with her tomorrow so we could study together for theatre. guess i probably will cos i need to study.. and if i stay home i'll get very distracted!
soo... one weeks gone already. only one more week til school starts again. its gone pretty quickly aye?
i think i only have about 8 more weeks of school anyway. and for the last 4 weeks or so i wont even be at school half the time cos my yr 12 subjects will be over! yay! but then again, that does mean exams... argh! soo stupid, i have to go to school for my year 11 subjects while yr 12s are on swot vac, even though im doing yr 12 stuff. soo stupid!

i am soooooo damn tired

2005-09-19T13:37:50Z

today was the first official day of the hols! i mean.. weekends dont really count cos theyre just weekends... heehee. anyway. today i went to the city with megz, actually i thought it was just gonna be us but shasta came along and when i got to flinders i saw thuy and i was like wow.. and she was meeting up with linh.. and wow.. such a coincidence. was good since i hadnt seen anyone since thursday. anyway of course i didnt buy anything cos im pov atm but megz bought some cute mary janes and a top from cotton on and one from myer. (i feel really poor now!) still, was fun even though my legs kept almost buckling over cos i think from that stupid hike!
well... uhm i will try to remember what had happened within the last week. on tuesday afternoon we had a dress rehearsal for out monologues night for theatre... wednesday was rock eisteddfod day! sooo fun, although i didnt really have anyone to hang around with since we all thought megan wasnt gonna go cos she was sick and throwing up. but she turned up for the performance that night anyway =) so yeah the day was pretty fun, lots of hot guys, (and YAY the hot stage manager guy we saw from last year was there again...sigh) though it was rather strange hanging around with people i dont normally hang around with.. and considering they were all younger than me. was extremely weird. anyway we did not get a placing (they give placings to the top 5 schools, there were 15 schools total) *sobs* even though i totally think we should have.. even though we have about half as many people as other schools... and i dont think the school that won deserved to win!! just cos their thing was all about the harmful effects of drugs and rock eisteddfod is all about 'no drugs' ha.
thursday was uneventful, except forrrr our monologues performances in the evening =) i had to go 2nd last which was a bit nerve wracking but i think i did pretty well, although there wasnt many people in the audience... like less than 30, haha noone loves us =P everyone did great i think. some people did forget a few of their lines but i dont think you could tell. i have heard everyone's monologues so many times i also almost know all of them off by heart as well!! i am a bit disappointed with the audience cos they hardly laughed through everyones performances though even though they were funny!! although mine isnt that funny.. its more strange than funny.. wouldve been more fun if everyone had laughed =D
so i didnt go to school on friday, i was sick. a bit annoying really, as i had to go to the grampians that night with venturer people. hurrah. D: well it took like 3 hours to drive there.. also we stopped in ararat (i think???!?!) to get mcdonalds and there were some hot guys there.. but obv we all looked like losers dressed in our crappy camping clothes. anyway when we set up our tents n stuff there were other people there who were already in their tents (it was only 9:30!!) and they kept yelling at us to shut up. next morning of course we were supposed to start hiking at 8:00 but luckily we got felicitys dad to drive us up to wonderland picnic ground instead of where we 'supposed' to start.. yay.. =) so that knocked off a few hours off our hike. still.... for the first half of saturday it was pissing down rain the whole time, and hiking in the rain ISNT fun, spesh when youve got like 15kg packs and you have to almost climb up the slopes (it should be called rock climbing Not hiking! argh!) anyway since we started a long way off where we were supposed to.. we got to the campground a few hours early and we could set up a fire n our tents n stuff. there were a bunch of uni students from ballarat uni there too. fires are fun- yay! although the smoke blowing in your eyes isnt fun. also i got so damn bored of celebrity heads i went to sleep at like 9. (gah.) in the morning we actually started hiking at 8:00.. gasp! it was over 10km the 2nd day... which is like nothing... but it was sooo hard, it was straight up and down most of the time. so it was extremely tiring. im so unfit. anwyay at the end we had to cross a feggin creek.. so my feet froze.. and now i am sooo tired, my legs hurt and my back hurts and my feet hurt (stupid shoes! just cos i have wide feet!!)
sigh. im glad its the holidays, but undoubtedbly they will go really really fast and i wont have gotten any work done =( which is quite horrible since i already have an overload of work! argh. im exhausted, i should probably sleep soon.
i wanna go to the show! therese and i have a tradition, i just hope shes home tomorrow so i can call her, even tho supposedly its shit this year. oh well. i love going on the rides.. and i love fairy floss =D
darnit darnit i really need money, just went shopping today and realised i do need new stuff for summer, (eg bathers!!!!) but i have no money to buy them with =( argh!
you know, im definetly going to have to do schoolwork these hols... damn.
well, happy hols everyone, make the most out of it =D

yay for a 4 day weekend.

2005-09-09T14:28:49Z

well its the end of another week again.
sooo glad we didnt have school yesterday or today! even though i did go to school today because i was working on my monologue and then i had rock eisteddfod can you believe it is on wednesday?!?!!? scary stuff. plus we also have rehearsals on sunday.. *sigh*
well i gotta say one thing, that wenmin is one messed up girl. although she is my sister i have to admit its the truth. boy oh boy she needs to get some counseling or soemthing. sooo darn irresponsible, like going to sleep over at someoens house and then not even telling my parents so they didnt know where she had gone and not even leaving any contact details?? bah. also shes always being such an freaken emo sulky child at rocker, like going and sitting down and crying by herself. geez. plus i try to be nice and talk to her but then she just runs away. her friends even said they dont bother going to comfort her anymore cos she does it so often. what an attention seeker. i wont go into details if you wanna know more ask me.. and be prepared to be shocked (haha.)
blah!
monologues.. FAR OUT we are having a parents/friends night on thursday so we can get some practice at having an audience for our exam... which is on october 5 OMGOMG. so you should come and watch... cos it'll be fantabulous.. and none of us are ready =D will post my monologue on here sometime so you can see just how weird it is!! flora is one pyscho lady.
goddamit i keep getting that irritating rob thomas song stuck in my head... the this is how a heart breaks one. gah!!! and i have no music at the moment. cos theres no music on the new computer.
court's party tomorrow. yay! but darnit i have sooo much homework and alot of SACs and work requirements to do this week.. oh why do teachers always bunch everything up into the last week? =(
i am so fkn annoyed i really dont wanna go on the hike next weekend now.. and ainsley dropped out so now its just me, lucy jenna and felicity. GAHHH!! though its too late for me to drop out now though. guess i'll just have to go on it and DIE! i am so bloody unfit and supposedly this one is harder than the one at wilsons prom, which means it will be horrible.. uphill all the way =( argh srupid ainsley!! i havent been on a camp with her for like.. a year, and because we were going to share a tent i now have to share with felicity who is ok but i dont think she particularly likes me very much! we hardly know each other. D: *criessss*
bloody hell. i hate it how people, mainly adults, talk to me as if im really stupid or incompetent or something. like at venturers all the adults think i am completely dumb, and they try and speak to me in small words and stuff. so fucking annoying, its like.. i Have been on hikes before, i THINK i know what im supposed to do. geez. i dunno. just because im kinda quiet, they just immediately think i am an idiot.
theres this bus that goes past essendon keilor at about 3:20ish, i was on that bus today. gawd, i now conclude that they are all freaken irritating. and immature, and loud, and.. argh! like i was sitting towards the back and there was this girl and this guy who were fighting over a seat and the girl kept screaming 'GET THE FUCK OFF THE SEAT' etc and obviously he wouldnt.. and she kept screaming... over and over.. D: and then some fucking idiot kept chucking bits of metcards around and they kept landing on me.. and then this guy at the back started playing bloody music on his phone, and then this other started clapping Really loudly to try and drown out the music.. and he didnt stop for like 5 minutes..i was thinking, 'way to bust my eardrums..' (seriously it was that loud!)grr. far out.. (god, i am so full of spite and irritation and anger tonight arent i?)
anwyay... its really late, way past 12. i always drag these entries out way too much!

we are the music makers, and we are the dreamers of the dreams

2005-09-04T14:07:28Z

went to lucys formal on friday night.. st columbas, so there was hundreds of people there and i only knew two (lucy and this other guy nick very vaguely.) anyway it was pretty good.. despite me looking slightly trashy compared to every one else- i was like, its not My formal,so i dont need to spend heaps of money/time on looking that great. haha! i borrowed one of shastas red dresses and of course i did my hair myself, which ended up looking really greasy cos i put too much hairspray in it. felt a bit strange wearing foundation n stuff but luckily my face didnt end up looking like i was wearing a thick foundation mask. ha! also felt really really pale cos everyone was wearing fake tan and then there was me looking like a ghost!!otherwise.. i looked fine. but weird compared to everyone else there. actually i thought all the girls would be going mega-formal with long dresses and stuff but alot of them turned out wearing these short party dresses and looking a bit like hoes. anyway it was a bit embarrrassing for me since i didnt know anyone and they were all in big groups so i couldnt go talk to just anyone like id normally do and such. there were a suprisingly large number of guys there, not just boyfriends of the girls. most of the guys looked like jerks but there were quite a few really hot ones... *sigh.* too bad i didnt talk to any of them ay!! still. pretty fun night. was really really incredibly different to our little brunswick formal last year!!
anyway the rest of my weekend was boring. rock eisteddfod finals are in 11 days! we had practice today despite it being fathers day, but it was only 2 hours from 10 til 12. what was the point of that? well i watched moulin rouge yesterday which was quite fun, other than that my weekend was uneventful. cant believe theres only 2 weeks of school left. scary stuff. OMG our monologue exams are in a MONTH!!! i am so scared about it. on thurs we had to perform them in class while marian video taped us. i dont have a costume yet. i think i did ok, everyone was like wow urs was so good but perhaps they were humouring me, also i cant get my upper class english accent right. help from anyone?
grrr i havent dont my literature homework plus i dont wanna go to art tomorrow.
willy wonka and the chocolate factory was on last night fuck thats such an awesome movie =D i wonder if the new one is as good, supposedly its quite different and they change large parts of the story. anyway better go to sleep...