Thoughts...they are so ????

Vaccinated!!!

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 09:59:56 GMT

Today brought on our last vaccinations before we go....fuck my arm hurts!!! LOL. I'm a bit of a sulk when it comes to needles that don't result in piercings; so I had to go first and follow the number 1 rule: don't look at the needle!!!

Now... no one is allowed to punch my arm...

Sushi baby...

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 11:14:28 GMT

I am currently pregnant with a salmon, shitake mushroom and avocado baby....yum. We just had a feast of homemade tom yum soup, sushi, sake and tofu. Such yummy food; found out that sake tastes like absolute shite though.

Had a pretty cruisy weekend which is good. Just went out to see Muph and Plutonic for free on Friday night; good to go see another live act again. The place was pretty packed and they brought a good vibe to the stage which was a awesome way to start the weekend. On Saturday it was my Mum's bday, so we went for a cruise along the Brisbane river on a cruise with an 'all you can eat' seafood lunch. The cruise is obviously for older people as we were probably the youngest people there by about 30 years; but it was nice and relaxing with good quality food. Mum really enjoyed herself and relaxed with a couple of drinks...so that's the main thing. I wouldn't mind going on the cruise again with a couple of mates and have a few drinkies along the way (always gotta have drinkies...LOL).

Last night we just went out for a couple of casual beers and on our walk home saw that there was no one at the ticket booths for the Ekka anymore...score!!! So we just strolled (ever so casually) into the Ekka and looked around everywhere. It was surprising that most things were still open and all of the rides were going in full force! Mel and I stumbled across a good band playing so we just bopped to that for awhile while Norton went home. Pretty cheering to just walk into the Ekka without paying whilst a bit tipsy and just checking it out...

Today was pretty busy with domestic shit; like making lunches for the week and also making the Japanese dinner for tonight for friends that came over. The exciting bit though was... *drumroll*...getting out all of our stuff that we are taking in our backpacks and organising what more things we need and what we have etc. So exciting!!! We only have 16 days to go until we leave and whilst we are pretty prepared; we do have to do quite a bit of 'last minute' shopping next .... (pause while I talked to Norton who is kind of stumbling around the kitchen looking confused...see too much sake will do that to you...LOL) weekend.

We have a friend who is currently in Cambodia and having a mad time...it is so awesome to hear about her adventures and know that we are going to be there in about a month's time (after we go to Nepal of course).

Phew...whilst I am getting excited now that the buildup to leaving has started again; it still doesn't feel real and I don't think it will until we are at the airport. Just feels like something that you say you are going to do but you don't think you'll ever get around to it (if that makes any sense). It's so awesome though; going on this fantastic trip with your best friend/partner....makes you get a warm feeling of contentment rolling over you...

Wisdom tooth...gone

Wed, 06 Aug 2008 21:20:56 GMT

There you have it...I no longer have one of my wisdom teeth. I went to the dentist yesterday because one of my wisdom teeth have been hurting me for awhile and I didn't want to be in any pain when we go overseas. I asked him if he could just putty it up or whatever; but he told me that there was no other way but to pull it out. So in go two needles (the second one almost made me throw up in his face) and he just rips it out...FUCK. But I am feeling better now after looking like (and feeling like) I had a stroke yesterday.

Were just in the wars at the moment; Norton just got over his flu when I contracted it (as you know)...then Norton puts it back out at work the other day and now I have to have a tooth ripped out. This is not a good sign for our holiday if we can't even be well/healthy in our own environment...LOL.

I stayed here at Mum and Dad's house last night cause I was feeling a little sulky and they took me out for a really nice dinner (go Asian food...). We had these oyster shooters which have a huge oyster (duh..) as well as tomato juice, tabasco sauce, vodka...and something else I think. They were pretty good but it was hard for me to open my mouth wide enough for this huge oyster to go in it.

But the end of the week is near and I have four days off...YEE FUCKING HA. I plan on getting a bit trashy (as I have like three friends bday's this weekend) and partying a little bit.

Do they ever stop???

Mon, 04 Aug 2008 09:27:26 GMT

I know all I do on here is whinge and worry; however I only restrict it to here (and a little in my personal life). With that disclaimer out of the way....

What is with the stupid prissy girls at work who just bitch, complain and take 'whatever is bothering them out on everyone else (especially me cause I don't jump on their bandwagon)'? I just sit quietly in my little corner and just ignore their shit; but its right in my ears and today I almost blew my stack and screamed, 'will you just shut your fucking mouth for one second?'. But I didn't...I breathed in; breathed out and kept focussing on that.

I admit that I do become frustrated at work; however I always attempt to voice my frustrations out loud rather than at people; BIG DIFFERENCE!!! Deep breath in....deep breath out...the final straw was last week when two of these (apparently) adult chicks start 'teasing me' about (they have no idea) being a dyke and 'kissing girls'. You know why they started that? Cause the previous day I happened to mention that I have good friends who are lesbians and I spent the weekend with them. Fuck ignorance and stupidity piss me off....and I work in a 'social work' field; fuck me....

Got it in the end...

Thu, 31 Jul 2008 21:42:33 GMT

I have been around very sick people for the past three weeks who have all had this awful cold; and I didn't get it. Now that they are all well again...guess who gets the cold two days ago? I can't believe it...I slept beside Norton every night for the whole three weeks that he was sick and dying; and I didn't get it. Oh this is crap. We were just waiting for Norton to get better before we went to have our vaccinations done (cause you can't get them when you are sick) but now that I'm sick; well we'll be cutting it pretty close before we goe to be sufficiently vaccinated.

Things have been immensely busy at work this week with just ridiculous amounts of work and complex cases coming in....but I'm still loving it. I got offered another stint filling in for another management team member whilst they are away for 6 weeks over the Christmas period so I'm so cheering. Obviously I didn't fuck things up too bad the first time; so that's good news.

Oh I'm so excited about going overseas...it is a month tomorrow that we leave. I just am a bit nervous though because this cold that I have has been 'hanging around' each person for about three weeks so I just really want to make sure that I am fighting fight before we go and not looking like death warmed up (and more to the point feeling that too).

I caught up with some old family friends last night for the first time in about seven years which was awesome. If I had brothers; it would be these three boys. Our families were friends from about the time that I was two and I spent about half my childhood with them and staying at their house. It was so weird for all of us to catch up with our respective parents last night as adults; time flies when you are having fun I suppose. But they have all done really well for themselves and most importantly have turned out to be loving, good people; which is awesome.

Tonight I'm headed off to see the new movie, Wanted, which looks pretty awesome. Other than that this weekend; I'm not going to do too much and try to get better...oh except for go for a couple of beers for Sean Baby's bday tomorrow...can't forget that.

Weddings and BBQ's

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 02:41:45 GMT

This weekend has been jam packed once again! Friday night we went to see the new Batman movie...it was quite good. I thought it was entertaining and I only felt the need once to look at my watch to see 'how much longer this has to go for'. We were pretty lucky that we went to a theatre that isn't very well known so we could sit anywhere that we wanted with about 30 other people in the cinema.

Saturday morning...just went to see a friend who has just had a baby. Man; it is really baby fever here at the moment! Everyone is either falling pregnant or just giving birth. I keep getting roped into conversations which start with talking about the person with the baby/foetus and then turn to me and go 'so when are you starting?' or 'its your turn next'. It makes me want to projectile vomit into their faces that's how many times I have heard it. Lucky for me, my family are not encouraging/pushing me to have a child which is awesome (unlike some of my friends who constantly get the 'where are my grandkids' spiel).

Yesterday arvo, we went to another thing that seems to be the 'rage' at 'this age'...getting married. We went to a school friend of mine's wedding in the afternoon until night. It was pretty nice as far as weddings go and I wore my customary dress, nice hair and make-up as well as heels (fuck I hate heels). We had a good group of people that we knew there so it was pretty good, particularly due to the 'open bar tab with top shelf spirits'. None of us got really drunk though (which was highly surprising) and just drank steadily, talking and dancing (as you do). I was reminded during the day, what how cultureless Anglo-Australians are. You see the couple that were getting married are from Greek and Maori culture respectively. The reception had a 'Maori welcome' which was really touching as well as the Greek tradition of pinning money to the bride during the bridal waltz. I have to say that when I was watching these traditions occur; I felt a bit of a loss due to how cultureless Australians are. What rituals do we really have that we hold dear to our hearts and mean so much to us? Drinking alcohol? Pfft...

The other thing that struck me whilst I was at this wedding was that I hate wedding reception music...fuck its bad. Late 80's, early 90's and things like the Time Warp? Then I got to thinking what would I (theoretically because I'm never getting married) choose to play at my wedding reception? And there is nothing really else to play because A) You have to choose something that people of all ages would/could dance to and B) Things that they probably all know. I would love to have psytrance playing at my wedding reception or some of my Dad's CD's but not everyone would like that and no one would dance.

So that leads me to today...wake up this morning at little hungover and tired. Just did the routine of cleaning the house to prepare for people coming over this afternoon for Sunday arvo beers and BBQ. And back to the start of another week....

Am I sick???

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 05:04:01 GMT

Eyes hurts...blowing my nose; think I'm getting the horrid flu/cold that has been going around. Norton has been at home for three days and some of my family and friends have it...so it was inevitable that I would get it.

Been a good weekend so far, went for a bushwalk yesterday up Mt Glorious and climbed down the waterfall and had cheese and crackers...beautiful. Came home and made up a large cheese platter and everyone (but me) had drinks with it. Then last night...had to go to a hen's night (that I was completely not interested in going to). Fortunately for me (but unfortunately for the bride to be)...the bride to be was really sick with the flu/cold that I was talking about earlier which means that we had a really quiet night and I was at home and in bed by 11pm.

Slept for about 13 hours and now I'm awake!

Been playing around on Facebook all day trying to figure out what the hell it is that everyone seems to like/love about it. Seems like an engine to collect extensive amounts of data about people and insecure people doing quizzes about how 'hot they are' or if they are a 'good kisser'. Seems a big poxy to me. I'm just keeping an account so I can put on a countdown until we leave for overseas.

Other than that...things are going really well at the moment and I am very chilled and relaxed within my life; which is awesome.

Hope I don't get sick...

Wed, 16 Jul 2008 21:07:31 GMT

Norton is currently in bed and looking probably the worst (sick wise anyway...) that I have ever seen him. I forced him to stay at home from work yesterday by threatening to steal his work shoes and take them to work with me. It seems that I don't have to use force today though as I have already told him that I called in sick for him for the rest of the week. Poor thing...

On the upside, because I have been acting in a higher position for the past two weeks...I got my pay yesterday which appears to be considerably higher than my regular wages which is awesome. It is a shame that Norton is sick though cause it will only just cover the days that he has had off now...but I don't mind.

Well time to jump off to work and get motivated...

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 10:29:39 GMT

Fuck I hate television....it just bores holes of stupidity into my brain...

Time is flying...

Mon, 14 Jul 2008 10:33:18 GMT

Back to the start of the working week again...god how the weekend flew by. I worked until 8pm on Friday night (wasn't impressed by this at all) and then just did the usual grocery shopping on Saturday. By Saturday afternoon I was really tired and so was Norton (but his was from a hangover from the previous night) and we decided to stay at home and watch DVD's and eat yum stuff. Well that was the plan anyway...

When we got home our roommate was heading out to the pub (as usual) and asked us to go. We declined but then she advised us that it was a friend's birthday so we just had to go for a few drinks. Well needless to say, those 'few drinks' turned into getting trashy and not getting home until about 3:30am (we got to the pub at 6pm). Our roommate vomitted over our balcony...(which was awesome cause I did that only a few weeks ago)...so I laughed at her for that for a bit. So yesterday was our 'lazy day' whilst we recovered from our self induced tiredness.

So this is the second week of acting as a manager (kind of) at work and whilst I am loving it; it will be good to just go back to looking after my own workload without having to supervise people. I don't know; I love this job that I am doing now but I suppose I just don't like to have to rely upon other people and make sure that they don't fuck up. I just don't trust people enough to do their jobs I don't think. It is a job that I would like to work towards though...it is enjoyable and I think that I would like it more and more as time went on.

Things are getting exciting (as I have said) about our upcoming trip away. It's starting to feel 'surreal' again; however I'm still keen as to go and just can't wait until we get there. Norton was saying this morning that he dreamt that I didn't go with him and that he was sad...poor thing.

Well otherwise things are truckin pretty well except I am finding it really difficult to balance my life at the moment to keep in contact with my friends. I have just been so consumed by work (especially over the last three weeks) and organising for our trip and our car getting anally raped; that I have been pretty ignorant of keeping in contact with people. But oh well...its all good...

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 20:45:27 GMT

Got up extra early this morning to walk with my friend to the city and then catch the train to work. Well she is sick at the moment she we've had to cancel and as a result I'm sitting here with my dressing gown on and a towel on my head.

Everyone is so sick up here lately!!! There's been this really nasty cold/flu that has made a number of people take 2 weeks off work...so far I haven't gotten it, so fingers crossed!!!

This week has been insanely hectic as I'm acting in the 'boss' role for two weeks. So this is the last day of week one and so far things have been really busy but manageable and fun. There has been one person who appears to be testing my patience and basically behaving in a difficult manner; I believe it is because that I was chosen for the job over that person. Seriously though, I completely don't get that...people acting bitchy/inappropriately because someone else was chosen for the job over you. There's always next time people...can't win them all! I just think its a little shallow and insecure.

Anyways!!! This weekend we are heading off to the soccer and have free corporate box tickets which is pretty exciting. I have never been to the corporate box before! Other than that we are just laying low this weekend and chillin out.

We should be getting our car back today (hopefully)...actually I wonder what time mechanic open? They should be open now if not at 7am. *scratches head*...I might be able to pick it up on the way to work!!! I'm going to try and call them now!!!

Stretch!!!!

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 01:34:01 GMT

Wakey wakey time!!!! Not long woke up and I feel like a truck has hit me and I feel pretty hungover. I wouldn't mind so much except I didn't drink last night because I was the 'sober driver'. I didn't get to bed until just after 5 this morning (have no idea how I stayed up that late).

So many things have been happening in my life over the past few weeks/months, its all going into a bit of a blur!!! First of all things are getting really exciting because it is now less than 2 months until we fly out for Nepal and Cambodia. So we are just doing all of the 'last minute' organisation things including getting vaccinated up the wazoo and buying all of those additional 'little things' that you usually don't think about.

Another thing is...we have decided to go to Malaysia next year for another holiday!!! I think I may be starting to get the 'travel bug' as I am keen as! I was talking to a person at work and discovered that Asia Airlines are always having specials and I can get flights for $300-$500 return; which is just so ridiculously cheap! So that is another thing on our agenda and we are trying to get 2 friends of ours to come too (another couple). I think they are really close to saying yes!

I have just gotten to the point right now that I am so bloody excited every day about going on our overseas trip. I'm online everyday just checking out all of the 'little tips' to make sure that we don't miss out on anything. This trip is already so much different than my last one because I have planned/researched the hell out of this trip whilst the last one I just kinda 'flew by the seat of my pants'. Both have their merits; but I'm glad that we have done it this way this time. Norton keeps freaking out about security (ie backpack security as well as his little 'handbag' security); whilst I definitely agree with him, he keeps talking as if ninja bandits are going to jump up and literally rip his bag from him. I'm trying to tell him to chill out; but that is proving to be difficult...LOL.

Oh so many things have happened since I last posted; I find that I have lost my ongoing willingness/thought to post on here due to the usual 'life constraints' including being too busy/distracted. We have a roommate now (due to increasing rent price) and I suppose I don't get on the computer that often anymore because I am usually talking to her or making dinner for all of us. She's started to call me the 'soup queen' because I make soup about a couple of times per week. God I love soup; it is just the best invention ever!!! I made this new one the other night, Broccoli and Brie soup. It was great! It is also good because I live with a vegetarian (my partner) and a person who doesn't like vegetables very much (you have to hide them in her food). I hid tofu in her soup the other night (blended up) and she didn't even notice...I so sneaky!!!

We don't have a car at the moment because it was involved in yet another accident...YAY!!! I just don't think that Norton is meant to drive...he was driving AGAIN and some chic ran into him AGAIN and it wasn't his fault AGAIN. It was touch and go there for a little while whether they were going to 'write it off' but luckily they are going to fix it for us. I know that the car will have decreased resale value due to 2 major accidents which were not our fault but I just love that car so I don't care. It is my first car ever and I have become very attached to the yellow ninja.

YAWN!!!! Man, I have had only 9 hours sleep all weekend and I have only had 2 alcoholic drinks all weekend. It actually felt really good not to be maggot this weekend because I have been going out quite a bit over the past month with some 'event' on every weekend including going to see John 00 Fleming do a psytrance gig. Fuck it was AWESOME!!! He just worked the crowd so well and my mate and I dance from the second we got there...and for another four and a half hours!!! In that time, we got off the dancefloor once to go to the bathroom. Haven't had such a long, awesome dance like that in bloody ages!!

We have so many things on the agenda between now and when we go away including 9 birthdays (mine included), 2 weddings, 1 hen's night (which I do not want to go to at all), visiting Norton's grandparents (7 hours drive away) and a bunch of other little things. That's so much to cram into 2 months!!! We just have so many birthdays in August...man Christmas must be just such a jolly time because heaps of people appear to get knocked up then and then you have August babies!!! So here's a tip for all of you people: WEAR A CONDOM AT CHRISTMAS TIME!!!

???

Fri, 02 May 2008 08:40:45 GMT

Wow...sitting here and staring blankly at the keyboard. Don't I feel flat today?

Have been really busy as usual with working and some playtime like camping etc. But not content at all though; I have recently realised. I don't even know what to write...except my heart feels heavy and weighing down the left side of my chest. *heavy sigh*

You know how you get to the point that nothing interests you? Yeah...that...

actually writing this depressing shit isn't interesting me either....

Ah....

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 09:11:21 GMT

Home now...you know the feeling after you have been gone for two days and in the same clothes? Yeah...that...just had a shower and feel so much better now. Just downed a miso soup and some toast and just chillin...god I'm getting old but diggin it.

Tonight I have just paid for our trip for overseas!!!! We did have to make a last minute change of plan due to the deep shit going on in Tibet and the fact that no foreigners are permitted to enter...well that kind of shut down our plans. Instead we are going to go to Cambodia and check out the city of temples which looks to be absolutely amazing.

Things have been changing heaps around here...for one, we have had a friend move in with us due to a hefty rise in our rent; so that has been quite good and we are still just going through the 'settling in' stage where everyone feels out how to live with one another. One thing is for sure...I'll have to watch that my new roommate doesn't turn me into an alco or a fat hefer (she loves to cook)!!! But so far things have been great and I don't see a reason that is going to change!

Things have (as always) been super stressful at work and I have seriously almost quit a couple of times. I'm about to change roles in my office next week and I have told mgmt that if this does not address my stupidly high stress levels...well then with great sadness; I'll have to find employment elsewhere. I love my job...I really do; but it is just killing me slowly at the moment.

I have just turned off all of the lights; put on some chilled psytrance and lit some incense. I can't remember the last time that I did that. It is so relaxing. I am really feeling the need to get out to another bush party; its been too long and I need to feel that relaxation and cleansing again. I always feel so revitalised after a party on a spiritual level.

Humans are so silly...constantly searching for something to make them feel...content. I think we keep screwing it up and making it too complicated; but I feel good now.

Byron Bay

Wed, 27 Feb 2008 21:39:22 GMT

I'm sunburnt!!! A group of about ten of us went down to Byron Bay for the weekend to celebrate three birthdays. It was an awesome weekend...with the blue water, alcohol, shops, relaxing etc...however it was so fucking hot that we all got really really burnt despite putting on sunscreen. Now I feel like an old woman with leathery skin...yuck!!!

We still had a really good weekend and got a bit drunk and then just lazed around for the rest of the weekend.

So it's been back to work for this week and Norton and I have finally booked our tickets to go to Nepal and Tibet!!! We leave on 2 September and return on 9 October!!! I can't wait and I am so excited with organising everything and making sure that I read the travel books so I don't miss out on something whilst I am there.

I got offered another position in my office the other day...temporarily. I don't really want to do it because I think I would get bored with the monotony of the job; however I think it would be good for my stress levels and also for my career. I said no though. Have you ever started a task and been working towards it and all you want to do is be a part of it when it is finished? Well the goal for our team is almost finished and I would really like to be there when it's finished...I would absolutely kick myself and feel like shit if I wasn't I think. Have I made the right decision I wonder? Especially when I find out that it is more pay? LOL

Bottle of wine...

Mon, 18 Feb 2008 09:02:18 GMT

Well the day is over and I have had enough...so straight to the bottle-o on the way home from work for me!!! Now I am sitting here...freshly showered and having a glass of wine...or four....yay.

Blah...

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 21:13:43 GMT

I feel like crap today...so emotionally void. Fuck...now I have to go to work and deal with other people's shit. I so hope everyone leaves me alone today.

So sick...no more drinks...

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 02:09:03 GMT

*head pounding...stomach very sickly* Oh...once again (as we all do) I am suffering for my craziness last night!!! I went to a mate's house at about 4pm yesterday and started having a few vodkas and catching up (cause I haven't seen her in about 3-4 weeks). Then we progressed to the Valley where we went to a couple of places and proceeded to get steadily more and more drunk. I finally got home and went to bed at 5am!!!

I feel like a truck has hit my torso (or that could be from sliding/falling down a couple of stairs that I was sitting on and I remember laughing so hard I fell of them...LOL). Today is going to be a hugely lazy day so I can regain my brain...

We are finalising dates for our Nepal and Tibet trip later in the year today...I'm so excited!!! The more I read about it; it just seems so awesome!! We are still going to the gym (which I keep screwing up this week by drinking...bloody friends and pubs eh?)...actually I just remembered I have a personal trainers appointment tomorrow morning at 6am. I hope I have recovered properly by then!!!

Haven't been here in awhile...

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 10:30:27 GMT

Wow...this feels strange. Actually posting in my live journal...it has been so long. Well where to start? So much has happened this year already and I constantly flux between highly stressed and strangely calm. I think burnout is coming sometimes.

Well onto happy stuff!!! Australia Day, we went to our usual awesome party at a family friend's house and got pissed, played table tennis and watched the tennis. Got a bit trashy and then just crashed out after about 9 hours of drinking. Next morning, we flew out to Melbourne to visit the lovely AMW and stay at her place for almost a week whilst we drank in Melbourne life and the Melbourne Big Day Out. It was good to chill out at the Big Day Out and spend time with my baby whilst screaming out the lyrics to Rage Against the Machine...awesome!!!

The rest of the time...well I got quite ill (and made AMW ill too...sorry babe!) with a cold and an ear infection. But powered on through shopping and sightseeing but unfortunately couldn't face the thought of getting drunk (because I already felt so shithouse)...so I lived through others. I did it by ordering AMW and my baby's cocktails/drinks all night and getting them absolutely fucked.

We spent a fortune shopping and checking out St Kilda and Fitzroy...but we didn't care. Baby got some new clothes and I picked up a Suicide Girls book from this awesome bookstore called Hares and Hyenas!!!

Just before I returned to Brisbane, I received news that my paternal grandfather had passed away. The cause of death is still sketchy and further testing is being done on his brain (despite us having the funeral last Friday). You see, he went missing out on his cattle station in the middle of nowhere and his body was found on the property about 42km from his house. They (the powers that be) know he didn't die from dehydration; so we are still searching for answers.

I went up north for the funeral and I have to say that it was absolute hell...as ontop of the current grim circumstances, I had to spend time with a relative that I absolutely detest. It is amazing how one person can project so much bitterness and hate and have such an astounding effect on people. I had words with this person whilst I was up there (I was very respectful and articulate) as I was no longer willing to watch other family members be treated as though they were some to spit on...on the ground. It makes my blood boil...that is something that I have to learn to let go of. I have had these feelings about this person for my entire life; so it will be rather hard to resolve I think...but I know for my own peace of mind I must and otherwise...that person will have won.

But now I am back at home and back into the swing of work. I have been visiting my parents very regularly and I am really worried about my Dad. He has sunk into depression and will not get off the couch and spends most of his time sleeping. I know this too shall pass...however I am concerned because he is not speaking to anyone or returning anyone's phone calls. I'm glad that my Dad has my Mum to take care of him and I try to do what I can to be there for him.

Other than that, things have been good with lots of beers at the pub with friends and just acting like fuckwits...happy fuckwits though... in general. Big Gay Day is coming up and I am so fucking excited!!!! This time I have taken two days off after it because I just get so trashed!!!

Well I better go...baby is telling me that the only show I like...House is about to come on...

PLUR

After Xmas...

Fri, 28 Dec 2007 00:23:30 GMT

Just like everyone else...Xmas has been really busy and jam-packed of shopping, family things, friends things and getting trashed somewhere in there too!!!

This Xmas, I told my parents that it is going to be a 'scoungy Xmas' due to Norton and I saving to go on a trip to Nepal and Tibet this year. They said, 'no worries' and said that they would not be getting us that much either. (For the record, we usually go all out and buy each other stuff into the hundred's of dollars). So I was happy with that...and that's the way it went on Xmas day. The last present my mother gave my father was an expensive one...a really nice camera and I was sitting there thinking, 'I'm so glad that he got the biggest and nicest present for a change' (because I am an only child I usually get that).

Well that didn't last long did it? My parents whipped out a 'combined present' for Norton and I. Don't get me wrong...I'm not whinging or being ungrateful for this present but I'm just overwhelmed because its just too much!!! And also I felt bad because I barely bought them anything this year!!!

Anyway, on with the story... so we open it and find some travel books for overseas (which was awesome)and my mother starts telling me to open the card...which had a cheque in there for $1500 to go towards our holiday!!! Well to say the least, our jaws just dropped to the floor and we didn't know what to say...

I am so excited about our trip and that money has helped so much but I still feel like I shouldn't accept it. It is just too much...but I know that they won't take it back and they would be really upset if I tried to give it back. So I know that we have to take it...but I feel that I just got them something piss poor and they give us this? You know the feeling right? Kinda like the feeling when someone went to all of this effort to buy you a present (unknown to you) and then you didn't buy them anything? Yeah...kinda like that...

On Xmas night, we still had our traditional gathering of friends at our place for lots of drinking and good cheer until the clubs opened at midnight!!! It was a different group that came this year but everyone got rather pissy and got on generally well. We didn't party for as long this year and stopped on Boxing day night which was a change from our usual 27 Dec finish. I was actually happy for it to end earlier this year because I was tired, didn't want to drink anymore and my house is nowhere near as trashed as it usually is...which is a bonus (but not that I really care if its in the name of good fun).

I did have to drop one of my friends off to work on Boxing Day afternoon though...and she was quite drunk and had to go and manage thirty staff!!! She did it though and pulled it off...I couldn't have done it!

Well I woke up to rain this morning and now I'm just going to flop around my house is my comfy dressing gown...

Confuzzled...

Thu, 06 Dec 2007 09:26:19 GMT

My head is hurting from yet another tension headache...everything has been going really well (on the surface) but shit is boiling up from within me again.

I went out for drinks with quite a few of my friends last night and the typical (for at the moment) conversation of lesbianism came up again (considering quite a few of my friends are gay). I found out that a few of my friends are at the exactly same place that I am; the questioning phase...

I spoke to some of my friends and they said a few opinions about me...that well...shocked me. Not that I was offended...because I wasn't...just more intrigued I suppose. There's a fine line between listening to someone else's view about you and gaining their perspective to ingrain into you own...whereas some people just take what that person said about them as gospel and because they are confused...just think 'well that must be it!' I am focussing really hard on just taking on their perspective and intergrating it into my own...which seems to work pretty easily for me.

I went to go to my session the other night...and I was a week early...I completely forgot which made me feel like a real dick. But that's okay...I can't wait till my next session though now...I have been saying for awhile that things are starting to 'speed up' in my sessions and I know the outcome/moment of truth is near.

Other than that...like is just going a million miles an hour (like always) and there is never enough time in the day...especially since I have recently begun catching up with some old friends of mine that I haven't seen in ages...now, I'm heading towards alcoholism with the amount of times that we are at the pub!!!

Don't do it!!!

Sat, 01 Dec 2007 23:15:38 GMT

Well it is 'early Sunday morn'...well actually not really. For once I actually slept until after 8am which is reallly good for me these days.

Oh...back to yesterday. We went to Lone Star for one of our friend's birthday dinners. Haven't been there since I was about fifteen...and I can definetely see why. I just don't like that place at all!!! They boot scoot in there...they dance and sing!!! On top of that...you pay fuckloads of money for some 'mashed potato' (which is really Deb) and a steak (which I could have cooked better at home). But being the nice people that we are...we went to take one for the team (ie our friend) but was so glad when we bailed early!!!

So we just came home last night with one of our friends...had a few bourbons and played some games. Didn't get drunk or anything but I'm definetely feeling a little seedy today...and I'm going to the pub at 5:30pm because one of my friends broke up with her girlfriend recently and she needs some support. Poor thing...

Well this house is a mess and I would love to clean it...but I think I'm just going to stare at it for awhile...

Another Saturday gone...

Sat, 01 Dec 2007 05:30:55 GMT

I feel so washed out!!! I am still sick after dying all week from that flu and it still won't go away!!!

Last night was good...had picnic dinner by candlelight in the loungeroom...until our friends came over and interrupted right in the middle of it!!! So much for romance people!!! LOL. Then our next door neighbours decided that they would drop in for a drink...so we just had a couple of drinks and talked absolute shit for a few hours and then toddled off to bed reasonably early for a weekend night.

This morning I got up at 6am and decided to hit the house and clean it!!! Went to a couple of house auctions with a friend to 'check out the situation' and reminded myself that no one in Brisbane will be ever able to afford a house at these rates.

Wanted to just chill out for the rest of the day...but we have a workfriend's birthday dinner to go to. I'm so not interested and up for that at this time...but as always...I'm nice and agreed to go...what a sucker!!!

Things are going pretty well in my life at the moment and I'm trying to get things organised (like always) make sure that I am comfortable and safe in my surroundings. My sessions are going rather well...even though I just seem to cry in every one of them right now...but progress is being made. I keep having this overwhelming feeling that I want to tell my mother (and most likely my dad) all of the things that have happened that have led me to my sessions...but I just can't bring myself to do it. What would be the point? They would just be devastated and upset...they couldn't do anything about it and it wouldn't achieve any purpose. I can't do that to them...it would kill them.

Well anyways...I'm off to get ready to pick Norton up from work and go to dinner...YAWN!!!

Yawn...

Wed, 28 Nov 2007 21:16:38 GMT

What a big week!!! First of all last weekend was an absolute corker!!! Went out hard on Friday night and danced so hard that I think I overheated myself a little bit!!! The music was a bit crap at the start of the night...but Scott Brown...once again...brought it and just sent the place wild!!! I noticed that the dancefloor was pretty quiet halfway through Scott Brown...I just don't think that many people could 'go the distance' dancing to him...and I don't blame them!!!

On Saturday, we went to vote and oh my god!!! It was the most painful experience ever!!! Don't get me wrong...I feel privileged that we are able to vote and it usually doesn't bother me...but fuck me. We were standing inside the polling booth with this 'official' who just literally had no fucking idea what he was doing and I had to keep correcting him!!! I was standing there thinking 'am I drunk or are you drunk too?'

Anyways, we went to the pub for about 7 hours on Saturday and proceeded to get rather trashy, messy, drunk with a few of us. Norton just walked around the Valley all day whilst I just downed beer after beer and got rather trashy.

Then we just came home and watched the election on TV (cause we were all feeling a little shit by then) and Labor won!!! Yee haa motherfucker!!! So happy about that!!!

Now for the downside...I got sick on Sunday...which has continued until today. I was in bed for three days and I want to rip my nose off!!! But I have finally dragged my arse back to work and it's business as usual. Well time to go to work so I better fly!!!

So excited!!!

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 09:12:14 GMT

Well the day has come that Critical Mass is here!!! I'm all decked out in my 'candies' and just getting ready to stomp hard baby!!!

I've had today off...so I bought some new shoes and made a shirt and now I'm styling it up and ready to go!!! I'm so nervous because I'm not the fittest girl in the world at the moment and here I am ready to dance it up hard? I might have a heart attack...LOL

My mate has a unit for her birthday and we are going there to party it up beforehand and give her her present and shit. Norton's got some new pants with some cool gnome patches sewn on them...he's stylin too!

Well its a big weekend before us...see if we can still last the distance!!!