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ANIC

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 20:05:22 GMT

A Nation In Concert

An organization managed entirely by volunteers to raise money for all the differently abled people in Singapore.

Because of me having shortage of cash lately, i decided to contribute by helping out instead of buying the tickets.
I would say that i will never regret that decision of mine.
What touches my heart is that everyone is a volunteer and yet everyone puts in their best effort to make this concert works.

Working with everyone made me felt like i am part of a big family, somehow the image of those "clans" came to my mind.

Everyone put in their best effort to do their part well, come together to have meals and totally we put up a good show to earn a living. (but in this case, the money goes to charity)

Without myself knowing it, i began to develop a sense of belonging to ANIC.

I was helping out as a stage crew. Samuel was our unofficial stage crew head as he was the most committed and took initiative to draw the plan out for all the stage crew.

Then there is Mike, before i actually see him, i actually get a sms from him saying that one of the rehearsal was canceled. I was thinking, "Wow they actually made an effort to tell me, even without knowing who i am"

And last of all, a bubbly girl named "KC" (Not related to DC or AC the electric eels i think, even though she is in charge of the cable)

From complete strangers, we worked together as a team and became closer. All of us are so willing to help out again that we can't wait for the next ANIC.

Well photos will be up as soon as i receive them.
Last of all, here is a BIG THANK YOU to David and Jerry,
and of cause everyone else who had done their part for ANIC!

(Dunno why, i am feeling so happy inside that i think it will last me quite a while!)

Three cheers to ANIC

I appreciate all the comments.

Sun, 05 Oct 2008 00:58:55 GMT

You see...this place is an outlet of frustration for me..
I tend to let it go here, so that i do not need to do it in reality.

How many of you actually see me blow my top before???
By doing it here, i can feel less angry and do not need to resort to unnecessary violence (if i do look that violent to you)

For the first month, whenever Red pee or poo out of the newspaper (Anywhere, living room, wherever la) i would say a firm NO and carry her to the newspaper and change my TONE and "wee/poo here, Good Girl"
Every time after She wakes up from a nap or every morning, i would bring her to the newspaper and wait for her to pee/poo on the newspaper then i will praise her "Good Girl" and give her some treat.

End result? She will poo/pee on the newspaper if someone is around...then when there is no one around, she goes round pooing/peeing all over again.

So?

I AM VERY MEAN, i decided to restrict her area to the kitchen and fenced her. She had the whole kitchen to roam. I NEVER CHAINED HER UP THE WHOLE DAY.

Does it solve the problem? No. She tried ways and means to get pass the fence, in which she succeeded many times..And my Dad will praise "Wow so clever"!!

And of cause, She can get over but cannot get back, so there will be pee/poo everywhere.
That i understand, so she get scolded for not staying at her area but not peeing/pooing everywhere.

My sister wanted to chain her up at night so that she can't escape from her area...
But i found some way to secure the fence so that she won't be able to come over.
So she is still not chained.

When her behaviour got better, i again tried to let her roam around the whole house(Except bedroom, but i did let Dale into my room as he is more automatic) and when she made a mistake,
i would chain her up near the newspaper for 10 mins. READ 10 MINS.

Result? When i am at home for two days, she would pee/poo at the newspaper..
I was doing night shift last night, and i came home to a house full of pee/poo again.
WOW SO SURPRISING. What to do? Dogs have short term memory so i can't scold her now, but yet, they can remember who their owner is and the scent of every passerby. So i guess their short term memory only applies to them when they make mistakes? Weird hur?

I am so impatient, after almost 3 months of toilet training there was still no result. I shouldn't get angry and feel frustrated. Yeah, i don't understand dogs at all and should not have a dog... OH but wait, Red isn't my dog anyway, she is my sister's, then why am i doing so much for the dog? Do i care about her? NO OF CAUSE NOT.

Oh ya, then comes the comments on "Oh you never remove the scent of the pee/poo properly that's why Red is still not toilet trained." I had use dettol, i had use white vinegar, i had used those special pet's pee/poo odour remover. :) What else should i use?

Please feel free to comment, since i might really miss out a real important step in teaching a dog. Maybe i am really ill treating a puppy and should dote on her and let her be and only train her when she is fully grown :)

Angry

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 18:06:42 GMT

When i got home after tennis today

Red looked at me with that guilty look again..

I searched around for pee and poo, there was none, then i realised that my loaf of pandan bread is all over the floor, left with only two slices....

I was so angry that i started scolding her and wanted to beat her, but before i can beat her, she would whine and cry very loudly and pathetically that it seems like i am torturing her...

Very clever dog, too clever and not honest/obedient to my liking...

Oh and did i mentioned that her stomach is so bloated that so looks like a puffer fish!! ARGHZ

Emo

Tue, 23 Sep 2008 20:58:39 GMT

Watched Sky of Love the other night and weep like crazy...

watched Love of Siam last night and weep like crazy again....

I am surprised by the amount of tears i had shed during this two films.

Am i really happy with my current life and status or am i suppressing something that even i myself is not sure of? Which resulted in such an outlet to vent my feelings?

I asked myself the same question immediately after the two movies, without myself realizing it.

"Would i be able to find such pure innocent love again?"

Then i realized that both movie settings are about teenagers, when they are still in school.

Is it true that once we passed that age, we would not be able to find pure innocent love again?
Is it just sex that matters in the end after we grow up?

Red

Mon, 25 Aug 2008 13:36:30 GMT

Welcome the new member of my family~!

Isn't she adorable?
The reason she is called Red is because she was bleeding when she came over.
Her previous owner cut too much of her nails...

Anyway she is my sis's but Red seems to cling to me a lot..
and she seems to like to sleep on my lap..

Loves putting her head on my thigh..

And she just fell asleep like that while i am blogging...arghz, legs sour liao

Should i get Dale over as well?? :)

Yucks..

Sat, 23 Aug 2008 22:46:56 GMT

On my way home at 3am,

i saw an auntie carrying groceries
standing outside a CLOSED coffee shop
greedily emptying any drops of beer
in all the left over beer bottles!!

What if someone flick their cigarette ash into the bottles after they are done with it?
What if someone spits into it?

Well ok it's just damn dirty.

But that m..a..d women was just doing it! drinking from strangers' left over beer bottle,
right from the bottle..

Yucks..

Putting up a brave front?

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 12:47:52 GMT

Maybe instead of putting up a brave front, i should go overseas for a walk?

Happily alone in Taiwan!!

At ease alone in Thailand...

Sometimes i wonder how can i be so happy out there alone and be depressed when i have all my friends around me :)

What a joke

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 04:52:35 GMT

Well, today after work, i had to go to orchard to settle some deals.

When i was walking pass wisma, suddenly a girl stopped me...

Thinking that she is some promoter, i told her that i am in a rush..

She handed me a namecard, and said her company is looking for new faces...

"Oh those modeling scam??" i thought in my head...

Guess the easiest way to get rid of her is to pass her my number as requested...

i give her my number and hurried off...

while on my way to the destination, i was thinking,

"My hair is so messy"
"My attire was so sloppy"
"Why did she approach me of all people?"

Then i tried to imagine myself on a magazine page...

"I threw that magazine away in my mind, YES it's that horrible"

hahaha, well maybe they are looking for a "before" model for plastic surgery!! lol

Well, www.createtalents.com

i am laughing at what happened as i am typing this :)

well, at least i can tell pple i had been "talentspotted" before?

Cute!

Mon, 04 Aug 2008 17:35:17 GMT

Joseph in SOap is cute!!!!

Wonder if he is or not, even if he is, where on earth do i stand a chance? :P

:(

Mon, 28 Jul 2008 10:45:13 GMT

Why is the one i am interested in always not interested in me??

Busy

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 08:36:07 GMT

Busy with?

Sch, assignments, quitting, handing over, house chores, tennis...

So long never update LJ leh...

will update more when i am less tired...

and i really need to spend less money

Quitting!

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 20:56:39 GMT

Voice out to my Boss that i want to quit.
have to go through two more interviews before i can actually tender and decide on my ord date!

That's s.....a.....f....

Anyway. First job interview went bad....but he wanna hire me as a part timer instead...arghz...

No mood to study....Exam coming. New Module coming...

thinking of holding the module till i find a job so that i don't need to eat into my savings...

turning point in my life, a lot of decisions need to be made...
would all these be easier if i have someone by my side??

Nobody knows for sure....

Quitting

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 04:28:50 GMT

Have to quit before i find a job :(

cause no company is willing to wait for 3 months!

What if i can't find any job within this three months????

Career change?

Wed, 25 Jun 2008 16:40:08 GMT

Anyone has any job opening to intro?

First Date

Fri, 23 May 2008 04:32:28 GMT

After so long, i finally feel nervous about going out with someone again :)

Hope everything goes fine :)

Sleep

Tue, 20 May 2008 16:18:08 GMT

Worked on Vesak Day while everyone is out having fun.

Was compensated off on Tuesday...

woke up early today and started looking for people to go out with.

So tempted to go movie alone again, but yeah i resisted it.

All either working or studying or no reply at all...

so even if they compensate me on Tuesday also useless...everyone else is not free...

Slept the whole day away again.....

I realised i can not sleep for long hours...or just sleep for long hours....

Sat night was clubbing till morning, then went malaysia without any sleep.

Sun was in malaysia till night, then mahjung with poly friends till Mon morning.

How many hours of without sleep is that? i dunno...

Life is hard when....

Sun, 04 May 2008 14:49:33 GMT

You are feeling down, and you are so tired of smiling,

you look through your phone list on your mobile,

and all you can do is to lock yourself in your room,

blast the music,

and cry to yourself hoping that no one will hear it.

Tired

Sun, 04 May 2008 14:45:53 GMT

What's wrong with you?

There's nothing wrong with me.

I am acting this way cause i cherish you as a friend.

It's real bad when u feel unappreciated even by friends.

Ya maybe i am childish and girly to you by behaving this way.

Maybe i am taking it out on you.

Maybe i am in the wrong,

Maybe...maybe...

maybe i am just tired of everything.....

What are friends for??

Sun, 04 May 2008 09:20:57 GMT

Nothing!

Just totally leave me out.
I dun need to tag along like a dog.

It's frustrating when concerned shown AS A FRIEND is deemed as nothing.

Worried

Fri, 02 May 2008 18:53:00 GMT

Asked someone to sms me when he reached home but he did not sms till now....

I understand he wants to be alone.
I know he rather the concern came from another person.
First time hear him like that...
Sigh

Well...having lesson tomorrow...better sleep now...

Just hope that that someone is fine, and will be better tomorrow.

:|

Emo

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 18:06:30 GMT

Been feeling down quite recently...

Was it me breaking down on Sunday night after clubbing that made my body weaker?

And when i am down, it's always the same old question i would ask myself.

"If i die someday, would anyone actually shed his/her tears for me?"

Like to smile when i am feeling down, but some friends will scold me for smiling when i am sad.

why? smile is infectious, why cry when you can still force yourself to smile?

Stupid 24 hr clinic

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 17:55:38 GMT

Feeling real bad after reaching home from work at 0030hrs,

i decided to get my temperature checked.

"...37.7...i am going to the doctor" i told my sis..

After checking out the 24hr clinic in the west, i took a cab to the Shenton Family 24hr Clinic.

"Wow! 50 bucks? consultation so expensive ar!!

"you decide whether you want or not then call me"

I was like, wtf, this is the way you treat a patient?

After considering for 10 mins, i relented.

"Hmmm you got a Fever, 38.5"

"...."

"any other symptoms?"

"Diarrhea, headache since 2 days ago"

He went to the standard procedure then...

"Ok nothing serious"

"So what am i suffering from?"

"Something like food poisoning, viral infection"

WTF you dun even know the exact thing i am suffering from?

"ok you may go now"

"Are you gonna give me any mc?"

"i will give you one day mc"

"Huh only ONE day?!"

"If you are still unwell tomorrow, you can come again"

Frustated, "So i would need to pay the consultation fee again!?!"

"No"

I walked out of the room, feeling very giddy

can't believe i got only 1 day of mc for having a high fever plus diarrhea.

Stupid short ugly pimply doctor....not cute still so mean!!!

Sick still

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 18:17:43 GMT

this morning i dragged myself up.....

after ensuring that i am not running a high temperature,
i headed for work....

Ard evening time, the fever came back again, was it because the paracetamol's effect is running off?

anyway feeling very terrible now...cold and hungry yet can't eat...Diarrhea :(

am supposed to start work at 5pm tml...hope i can recover as there is very little manpower at the unit now :(

These are the times when i seriously wish i am not single

Sick

Mon, 21 Apr 2008 17:03:48 GMT

After two nights of clubbing...

I am sick, think must be the lack of sleep and dehydration caused by alcohol..

off to sleep nitez...

hope i will be fine when i wake up :(

Taiwan?

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 14:30:50 GMT

Been very busy lately.

Work work work and more work coming.
Might go into shift mode.
School starting soon.

Lot of changes in a short time.
Feel like flying again.
But why Taiwan again?

Things had changed too.
There no one there anymore.
Wu is not there waiting for me anymore.

Changes is something we have to deal with in life.
But my love life remains unchanged.

:)